Many people hold themselves back because of fear.And no matter how many times an opportunity knocks on their door,They turn around and walk away, tail between their legs.This has taught me that fear is my greatest enemy.Being always the excuse for slacking...Always the cause of blame and low self esteem...Why does it affect people so much?? Recently I watched Green Lantern with a good friend!!It was an inspiring movie!!I learned that WILL can overcome FEAR.Thinking about it, its true!!Fear paralyzes a person from embracing his true potential!!No matter how talented the person may be, In the presence of fear, they perform less well.Whereas WILL...Its such an amazing word!!Will speaks hope!! Speaks belief!!Will speaks from the heart...The inner desire and passion that drives people to achieve what they set themselves out to do!!And WILL is what I have now.I have set out on my journey...Taken my first step...Breathing in all that will and suppressing all the fear.I have begun striving towards my mission!!I am most determined to succeed!!!! Let time reveal my results!!Because nothing can stop me from reaching my dreams!!The world better watch out!!Because this tiny soul here is about to make a mark.May God be with me every step of the way!!Never allowing me to fall into temptation!! Be brave Shann!! All will prevail!! ^,^W!!*~}i{~*
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zinrue
Hello summer!! :D Once again, everyone is leaving for their own paths until semester commences in the fall. : ) Fortunately enough, despite the horrible late nights swallowing notes and eating up journals, i am proud to say that i have survived that ordeal once again, and can fully unleash all reserved ecstasy and love for dear summer!! : ] Summer although hot and promising, inevitably brings along with it intensity of separation and anti-socialism. Intrepid of all the idle time that might go to waste but still always elated for the freedom and lazing around that is permissible. XDEven more so, those times of hardship has made me realised how blessed i am to have had a wonderful friend by my side, accompanying me throughout nearly all the time. For all the things you have done, i dedicate this post to you. You know who YOU are. ^_^For every time i nearly died of boredom, thank you for providing me with movies/series galore!! For being the most carefree, trouble-less presence which constantly reminded me to see things more simply. : ]For helping me cook and clean, although mostly for fear i might burn the house down, but still willingly lending me a hand or two when i needed it most. :PFor being so "paternal" to my precious Potato who constantly gifted you with red scratches and tantrums in which you returned with more snacks and more pampering!! x3For being the eyes at night for this day bat who could barely drive in the dark with severe astigmatism vision!! I am glad to have such an efficient Ah-Mat who is always so willing to take the wheel when i am either lazy or blind. X]For all the things i never ask you to do like wiping my car or fetching a plaster for me when i self mutilated my own finger, being my careless blur self!! @,@ For constantly nagging and jabbering in my ear to resume self control when playing tetris battle!! Reminding me to stay focus on whats important such as preparations for exams. I swear, if it wasn't for the fact that you were there with me camping out in the library/tcr till late, i wouldn't have been able to survive the nearing end of the study weeks commencing the start of exams!! >,< For all of the above and MORE, from the wee bottom of my pumping heart,
THANK YOU for EVERYTHING. :'')
With you accompanying me, i did not feel abandoned or lonely...Nor did i have to hide any true part of me in which you accepted with much tolerance and sometimes teasing!! Blehh!! :P You've been one of my most truest and honest friends who is kind, patient and funny!! X)I am truly sorry if i had been too overwhelming or domineering at times. I constantly remind myself to lower my temper and embrace composure but if it did not work and i still hurt you, my deepest apologies. I never meant for any of that to happen. : \*Faster accept my apology!!* :PYou're off to a big adventure!! After countless steamboat together, i hope you'll savour every moment you have in U.S!! Make the best of every experience but remember to take care and watch for safety!! If results come out and is favourable, we might not see each other for a year. This makes me sad but i believe as long as we keep in touch, our bonds are tied. And you, my BEST guy friend and myself, WE will live through the long distance!! : ) So THANK YOU for making my life a richer one!! Thank you for always reminding me to be true to myself!! I will surely miss you tonnes!! :''[ Take good care and have an amazing summer!! ^_^
Bestest.*~}i{~*
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zinrue
It fears, and fears especially because of fear itself...Constantly anxious, constantly uncertain...Security, insecurity, insecure in the most,What remains are questions, doubts and sometimes blaming too. But why not faith, faith, and faith also??What about believing? What about hope??Because love, Love and LOVE alone,Can overpower all weakness, angst,Overthrow, defeats all shame.Leaving only whats important, whats true,That trust will reward, trust that leaves no mystery... 
My new guardian angel?? : )*~}i{~*
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zinrue
Fate is an unusual thing. Its destiny that people meet each other and become friends.Its a miracle that friends develop into important individuals to one another,And eventually, with a little magic, two people become lovers. : ) Ahh... The beauty of two fates intertwined. ^_^Its been exactly a year... Alot has happened in between...And as i think back on this time, especially now that i have recovered,That there are many things i feel truly proud and grateful of. : ] Although our paths have become divided, And due to awkwardness and complication, we cannot go back to being normal friends,I am proud to say that, I have found back
My happy self!! :3I am happy that i can think back about us and feel no more pain...I am happy that i can listen to the songs you sang to me before and not feel sad...I am happy that i can look at our past and smile and remember only the joy...I am happy that once upon a time, you showed me that i was capable of being loved,No matter how complicated or stubborn i was... :PI am happy that for once, i was able to feel and share lovewith someone who loved me back...These are the things i feel very proud to have and own. : )Looking back, i do feel so very touched for the care you've shown me...I remember clearly first time somebody ever cleaned my fork and spoon before starting a meal...I remember it was the first time somebody taught me how to eat two of my favourite food TOGETHER (although it was a weird combo, but it tasted DOPE!! :D)...I remember the first time somebody ever held my hand, and i was excited about the adventure that was about to happen next, eventhough it was only a stroll in the shopping mall... XDI remember the first time somebody ever piggied-back me for such a long distance, that i felt embarrassed and regretted i had such a heavy dinner before... :SI remember the first time somebody ever sang to me, and sang only for me...Ahhhh.... All these were wonderful memories that i would keep forever in my treasure chest... ^_^I just wanted to thank God for blessing me...For teaching me to love which brought me so much joy...For letting me feel special and cared about during that time...I am eternally grateful... : ]Without this, i would not be as strong and mindful as i am now...I hope that next year this time, I would not consciously remember this date anymore...Yet, become more appreciative of whoever and whatever that is in my life...Always treasuring each moment as it passes, Not taking for granted it will always be there...And always remembering all the good that others have done for me. ^_^Amen. 
*~}i{~*
P/s : Coincidental enough, Supermoon occured today since 18 years!! Coincidental enough, today is a Saturday again!! Oh well. : )
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zinrue
Every time i hear that song, i think of you.I could keep replaying it over and over again,eventhough i can't quite understand the lyrics. :SIn a fraction of a minute,Memories of the time we had spent together would flash before my eyes.Although it was just for a short while before you graduated,But still, that period meant a lot to me, and i miss it sooo. :'')How out of everyone,
Only you saw me for Me...How you never judged me for my wrong but instead,Shared with me your own experience
which lead me to consider another's perspective.How you could make a dull, tired, long day
A short, eventful and meaningful one!! :DI still haven't met anybody who could do this as natural as you...You made everyone around you feel good about themselves...That is something i really have and is still learning to do... ^_^I guess you could be considered as a rare type of person...Constantly sunny and full of pleasant surprises...It makes me smile even now just thinking about all the silly things we've done together...It was the first time somebody came between odds,And let me feel safe and warm...Even after so many years, i still remember that day clearly... : )How i wished i could have told you before...Thanked you for all the times i desperately needed a friend, Needed comfort and patient advice...I guess it'll always be too late for that...But i do believe you'll always be in my heart,Forever respected, forever admired...Forever my Biggie then.
*~}i{~*
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zinrue
