One Big Step.

Many people hold themselves back because of fear.
And no matter how many times an opportunity knocks on their door,
They turn around and walk away, tail between their legs.

This has taught me that fear is my greatest enemy.
Being always the excuse for slacking...
Always the cause of blame and low self esteem...
Why does it affect people so much??

Recently I watched Green Lantern with a good friend!!
It was an inspiring movie!!
I learned that WILL can overcome FEAR.
Thinking about it, its true!!
Fear paralyzes a person from embracing his true potential!!
No matter how talented the person may be,
In the presence of fear, they perform less well.

Whereas WILL...
Its such an amazing word!!
Will speaks hope!! Speaks belief!!
Will speaks from the heart...
The inner desire and passion that drives people
to achieve what they set themselves out to do!!
And WILL is what I have now.

I have set out on my journey...
Taken my first step...
Breathing in all that will and suppressing all the fear.
I have begun striving towards my mission!!
I am most determined to succeed!!!!

Let time reveal my results!!
Because nothing can stop me from reaching my dreams!!
The world better watch out!!
Because this tiny soul here is about to make a mark.

May God be with me every step of the way!!
Never allowing me to fall into temptation!!
Be brave Shann!!
All will prevail!! ^,^W!!

*~}i{~*

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Tuesday, July 12, 2011 at 10:33 AM , 0 Comments Image

Grateful. : )

Hello summer!! :D

Once again, everyone is leaving for their own paths until semester commences in the fall. : )
Fortunately enough, despite the horrible late nights swallowing notes and eating up journals, i am proud to say that i have survived that ordeal once again, and can fully unleash all reserved ecstasy and love for dear summer!! : ] Summer although hot and promising, inevitably brings along with it intensity of separation and anti-socialism. Intrepid of all the idle time that might go to waste but still always elated for the freedom and lazing around that is permissible. XD

Even more so, those times of hardship has made me realised how blessed i am to have had a wonderful friend by my side, accompanying me throughout nearly all the time. For all the things you have done, i dedicate this post to you. You know who YOU are. ^_^

For every time i nearly died of boredom, thank you for providing me with movies/series galore!!
For being the most carefree, trouble-less presence which constantly reminded me to see things more simply. : ]
For helping me cook and clean, although mostly for fear i might burn the house down, but still willingly lending me a hand or two when i needed it most. :P
For being so "paternal" to my precious Potato who constantly gifted you with red scratches and tantrums in which you returned with more snacks and more pampering!! x3
For being the eyes at night for this day bat who could barely drive in the dark with severe astigmatism vision!! I am glad to have such an efficient Ah-Mat who is always so willing to take the wheel when i am either lazy or blind. X]
For all the things i never ask you to do like wiping my car or fetching a plaster for me when i self mutilated my own finger, being my careless blur self!! @,@
For constantly nagging and jabbering in my ear to resume self control when playing tetris battle!! Reminding me to stay focus on whats important such as preparations for exams. I swear, if it wasn't for the fact that you were there with me camping out in the library/tcr till late, i wouldn't have been able to survive the nearing end of the study weeks commencing the start of exams!! >,<

For all of the above and MORE, from the wee bottom of my pumping heart,
THANK YOU for EVERYTHING. :'')

With you accompanying me, i did not feel abandoned or lonely...
Nor did i have to hide any true part of me in which you accepted with much tolerance and sometimes teasing!! Blehh!! :P
You've been one of my most truest and honest friends who is kind, patient and funny!! X)
I am truly sorry if i had been too overwhelming or domineering at times. I constantly remind myself to lower my temper and embrace composure but if it did not work and i still hurt you, my deepest apologies. I never meant for any of that to happen. : \

*Faster accept my apology!!* :P

You're off to a big adventure!! After countless steamboat together, i hope you'll savour every moment you have in U.S!! Make the best of every experience but remember to take care and watch for safety!! If results come out and is favourable, we might not see each other for a year. This makes me sad but i believe as long as we keep in touch, our bonds are tied. And you, my BEST guy friend and myself, WE will live through the long distance!! : )

So THANK YOU for making my life a richer one!! Thank you for always reminding me to be true to myself!! I will surely miss you tonnes!! :''[ Take good care and have an amazing summer!! ^_^


ImageBestest.

*~}i{~*

Posted by zinrue

Friday, June 3, 2011 at 1:24 PM , 0 Comments Image

What speaks the heart? : )

It fears, and fears especially because of fear itself...
Constantly anxious, constantly uncertain...

Security, insecurity, insecure in the most,
What remains are questions, doubts and sometimes blaming too.

But why not faith, faith, and faith also??
What about believing? What about hope??

Because love, Love and LOVE alone,
Can overpower all weakness, angst,
Overthrow, defeats all shame.
Leaving only whats important, whats true,
That trust will reward, trust that leaves no mystery...


ImageMy new guardian angel?? : )

*~}i{~*

Posted by zinrue

Friday, April 15, 2011 at 7:22 AM , 0 Comments Image

첫사랑이죠

Fate is an unusual thing.
Its destiny that people meet each other and become friends.
Its a miracle that friends develop into important individuals to one another,
And eventually, with a little magic, two people become lovers. : )
Ahh... The beauty of two fates intertwined. ^_^

Its been exactly a year...
Alot has happened in between...
And as i think back on this time,
especially now that i have recovered,
That there are many things i feel truly proud and grateful of. : ]

Although our paths have become divided,
And due to awkwardness and complication,
we cannot go back to being normal friends,
I am proud to say that, I have found back
My happy self!! :3

I am happy that i can think back about us and feel no more pain...
I am happy that i can listen to the songs you sang to me before and not feel sad...
I am happy that i can look at our past and smile and remember only the joy...
I am happy that once upon a time, you showed me that i was capable of being loved,
No matter how complicated or stubborn i was... :P
I am happy that for once, i was able to feel and share love
with someone who loved me back...
These are the things i feel very proud to have and own. : )

Looking back, i do feel so very touched for the care you've shown me...
I remember clearly first time somebody ever cleaned my fork and spoon before starting a meal...
I remember it was the first time somebody taught me how to eat two of my favourite food TOGETHER (although it was a weird combo, but it tasted DOPE!! :D)...
I remember the first time somebody ever held my hand, and i was excited about the adventure that was about to happen next, eventhough it was only a stroll in the shopping mall... XD
I remember the first time somebody ever piggied-back me for such a long distance, that i felt embarrassed and regretted i had such a heavy dinner before... :S
I remember the first time somebody ever sang to me, and sang only for me...
Ahhhh.... All these were wonderful memories that i would keep forever in my treasure chest... ^_^

I just wanted to thank God for blessing me...
For teaching me to love which brought me so much joy...
For letting me feel special and cared about during that time...
I am eternally grateful... : ]

Without this, i would not be as strong and mindful as i am now...
I hope that next year this time,
I would not consciously remember this date anymore...
Yet, become more appreciative of whoever and whatever that is in my life...
Always treasuring each moment as it passes,
Not taking for granted it will always be there...
And always remembering all the good that others have done for me. ^_^
Amen.

Image*~}i{~*

P/s : Coincidental enough, Supermoon occured today since 18 years!! Coincidental enough, today is a Saturday again!! Oh well. : )

Posted by zinrue

Saturday, March 19, 2011 at 8:45 AM , 1 Comment Image

My Inspiration

Every time i hear that song, i think of you.
I could keep replaying it over and over again,
eventhough i can't quite understand the lyrics. :S

In a fraction of a minute,
Memories of the time we had spent together would flash before my eyes.
Although it was just for a short while before you graduated,
But still, that period meant a lot to me, and i miss it sooo. :'')

How out of everyone,
Only you saw me for Me...
How you never judged me for my wrong but instead,
Shared with me your own experience
which lead me to consider another's perspective.
How you could make a dull, tired, long day
A short, eventful and meaningful one!! :D
I still haven't met anybody who could do this as natural as you...
You made everyone around you feel good about themselves...
That is something i really have and is still learning to do... ^_^

I guess you could be considered as a rare type of person...
Constantly sunny and full of pleasant surprises...
It makes me smile even now just thinking about
all the silly things we've done together...
It was the first time somebody came between odds,
And let me feel safe and warm...
Even after so many years, i still remember that day clearly... : )

How i wished i could have told you before...
Thanked you for all the times i desperately needed a friend,
Needed comfort and patient advice...
I guess it'll always be too late for that...
But i do believe you'll always be in my heart,
Forever respected, forever admired...
Forever my Biggie then.

Image
*~}i{~*

Posted by zinrue

Friday, March 11, 2011 at 6:43 AM , 1 Comment Image

Everything in SUGAR!! ;D

Semester 2 has just begun, and i must say,
BOY!! Has it been a massive start or what?! :D

You awesomes are to thank for!!
Always rocking!! Constantly spontaneous!! And plentiful in MADNESS!! X)
Just my type of frappuccino!! : 9 [ I dread coffee #,# ]

In this short 2 weeks +, ALOT has happened!!
Many of which would probably be frowned upon, or envied about. X]
Nonetheless, ngiek ngiek ngiek!!
I would like to call this period, The Nut Season. >x)

BEHOLD~~~

Nutcase #1 : Starbucks, Genting
ImageAfter having dinner at KL,
2 hours later, BOOM!!
Starbucks Genting. X)

ImageNormal shot. 0: )

ImageMental shot!!! >x)

ImageCoincidentally, it was Prayer of the Sky Kingdom night.
We were privileged to witness and be deafened by
a more than 10minute long red-fire-cracker spectacle.
Tonnes were crowded on the street, including BoBo. X)

Nutcase #2 : Melaka Day Trip
ImageIt was all about food Food FOOD!! : 9
Melaka's RENOWN Chicken Rice Ball!! :D

ImageMelaka's popular CENDOL!! @,@
Many flavours of which DURIAN was the bomb!! :P"""

ImageWe flew to Mahkota Parade for some chill time
and a movie after some shopping on Jonker street!! : )

As you can see, we had a good time making fun of people in the arcade too!! XD
We watched Shaolin after this!! Surprisingly touching story-line!!
The monks were plain CUTE!! Lols!! ;D

ImageSatay Celok for dinner!! *slurrpss*
Lok lok style!! But only in peanut curry sauce!! ^_^

But before that...
The queue was soooo long at Satay Capitol that,
We couldn't help but keep entertained.

ImageThis was what happened next. #,# LMAO!!
We're just chunnted this way!! ; ]

Nutcase #3 : Kuantan Excursion

We went directly to Kuantan that night after Melaka!! :O
An amazing weekend was awaiting us!!
And who best to show us around but the locals?? X)

ImageThis was one of the highlights of the trip!! : ]
It is called the Rainbow Waterfall site at Sungai Lembing. ^_^

It was an hours long bumpy four-wheel drive ride followed by a
40minutes hike up the rocky, slopy, slippery mountains before we reached. X)

ImageThis was silly us trying to master one of their local tricks!! XD
Easily, locals there balance the sharpest point of the smaller rock
on another rock. The smaller rock is so balanced upright without any support.

In the end, we all did not succeed. X)
Intelligence did not get the best of us.
We found a way to cheat. @,@
Simple physics got us choosing large surface areas as base.
Oh well. X]

ImageIt was a challenging hike up and all i had were a pair of crocs to get me there. :S
Thank lord we made it there in one peace and
enjoyed the whole morning in the loving cradle of mother nature. :3
*Notice the beautiful rainbow behind us?? :D*

ImageJust your very typical city girl,
i have not been in such a carwash before. :S

In Kuantan, it is so blardy cheap that i swear,
I wish i could just pay RM4 for the wash then spend
1.5 hours scrubbing my baby with a toothbrush!! >,<*
It was not long before we headed back for KL after this. : )

In summary, Kuantan is a friendly quaint place!! :D
Where samans could be paid of at RM20 (NEVER IN KL!! XP),
Doctors were unusually chatty with patients (not to mention KEPOH XD),
Beaches were flawlessly breathtaking and the air salty with character
(unlike KL air which is fully carbon-monoxided :S),
And car washes at prices worth dying for!!!!! #,#

So special thanks to Sammie babeh and Bobo for being the two most impressive tourguides throughout our stay!! ^_^ You both showed a city girl how to love Kuantan and to me, that is a freaking BIG achievement!!! *SALUTE* THANKS AGAIN!!! exoh-exoh.

Nutcase #4 : Valley Valentine's Lunch

After class, i randomly (as usual) recruited a huge bunch
of Biznerdz to Vday Lunch!! :D
Oll zee way tvu ampang for zis amayzeen Thai lunch!! *,*

ImageThis roast mutton dish is heaven in ever bite!! *droools*

ImageMy FAAAVOURITE Thai dessert!! :D
Red jelly water chestnut is LURVE!! ^_^

ImageJust some of us purdy ladies!! ; )
The one hour plus long journey was surely worth it!!
Being surrounded by all my loving friends, it surely was a meaningful Valentines!! : ]

The next few days, a few of us woke up at 6.30am
and went all the way to Puchong just for Dimsum!! XD

Call us crazy!! But we're just awesomely mental this way and i lurve it!! ^_^
More adventures to come!! More hearts to collect!! : )

Exoh.

*~}i{~*

Posted by zinrue

Friday, February 18, 2011 at 7:24 AM , 0 Comments Image

失落。

之前发生过这么多这么多，
我只能感谢你有过在我身边。
我们的友情有怎么复杂都好，
起码我当时能确认它是诚恳的。

你觉得你被利用？
怎么我却感到被取代？

每一次约你都被拒绝。。。
一次后，还好。
第二次后，勉强还能接受。
但过了第三次，我就得放弃了，对不对？
对，我了解人有时候需要自己的空间，
可是，读书都好，也是需要吃饭，对不对？？
我也在苦读，也在烦恼。

是有人和我说过，
做错每样事情最好不错多过三次。。。
因为过了三次后，那种失望是。。。

伤感是。。。
看到你能和其他人分享你的时间。
看到你能和其她人一起读书，讨论问题。。。
妒忌也好，小气也好，
这都是因为在我心里中，你对我重要才会发现出这种感觉。

你觉得被人遗忘，
我觉得被人忽略。
不是你静悄悄的离去，没人发现。
而是你选择不联络，
你选择要被动。
我却已经没力气去推了。。。
我累了。。。
请原谅我这个。。。
但我了解友情像爱情一样，
双方都必要付出， 不是只是一方在在乎，挣扎。

我不希望在你眼中你只看到这么薄的一幕。
我对你的友情，从来没有过利用和企图。
我只希望我们这次疏远后的空间，
不会又是一场误会， 一场本来是缘分赠送给我们的礼物，
而不明不睦的被奢侈掉。

不想。

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Posted by zinrue

Tuesday, January 25, 2011 at 6:04 AM , 2 Comments Image

A River Flows in Me - Bonjour 2011!! ;D

Life has been wonderful recently!! So many doors have opened to me since i closed the last one. : )
Everything has become less repetitive, less routinized.
I love that my friends are absolutely spontaneous!!
I am being reminded again and again how much i love them!!
You know who you hawt chunks are!! ; ]

What a wonderful way of starting a new year, no??
Although exams are around the corner, and i have big things to achieve this year,
But someone told me before that as long as i don't lose sight of myself,
Everything will continue to flow, if not in the direction i want it to,
Just like a river, it never stops flowing, and i never stop swimming. ^_^

Exciting!! What do i have before me now??
Arrrhhhh!! I can't begin to tell you how totally ecstatic i am of my new love!! :D
And meeting up with some of my past, i realize i actually did miss them!! :O
Never nevertheless, may everything take its natural course to glory. ; ]

Let all the good times be stagnant in memory lane and be remembered holistically within my heart, forever and always.

2011, BRING IT!! ^,^W

ImageI love you are just words.
You know you mean more. ^_^

*~}i{~*

Posted by zinrue

Friday, January 7, 2011 at 6:12 AM , 2 Comments Image

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