Dear Family and Dearest Friends,
This week has been absolutely incredible. Wow!!! Six weeks ago I thought of the vision I wanted for this area. We had or were dropping most of our investigators--what an annoying thing to do.... and we spent so much of our time finding. PS!!!!!!! You know how I told you that we have to contact 140 people in a week and that it's like climbing Mt. Everest....well GUESS WHAT!!! Miracles never cease when there is faith-last week we contacted 140 PEOPLE!!!!!! Wahooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My companion is hilarious-she said, "Seriously Sista Eldredge, don't you think we've talked to every person in Mt. Barker??" Our area has only about 10,000 people in it. It was hilarious. We saw like a million miracles. We tracted last Monday and found a really great family, taught them the next day and now they're new investigators. We met people from the US, which is an immediate connection and then they invited us back!
I was asked to speak in our ward about what I've learned on a mission; did I already tell you that?? Well, it went off marvelously! I spoke about faith, prayer and the Book of Mormon.
I had the most AMAZING experience while I was cleaning the car last P-day. Okay, so this is personal, but many of you know how much I've struggled on my mission. It is definitely, hands down, the hardest experience I have ever had in my short 21 years of mortality. As a result, I have struggled to say, "Wow, I love my mission!" I always feel envious of missionaries who can say that. But in the last six weeks, with much prayer, I have had a change of heart and can say now, "Ï love my mission!!" As I was vacuuming our car, the Spirit told me, so clearly above the hum of the vacuum, "Sister Eldredge, it doesn't matter when you change, it just matters that you change." I nearly burst into tears. How true is that? I reflected back on the last 18 months and thought of the sleepless nights, the tear-stained pillows, the urgent cries for help and the struggle of loving something that I was 'supposed' to just love; as I did so, I realized the reality of the Atonement and the absolute mercy of the Saviour and of my Heavenly Father. He listened to me and was patient with me and then was merciful to change my heart and soften it to help me see that this has been the best 18 months for my life.
I know the same is true for all of us. Do you know that if you're struggling with a personal weakness, forgiveness, charity, understanding, love; whatever it may be, we only need pray and ask for a change of heart and the Lord will grant us that desire? A change of heart is the whole point of the Book of Mormon, it is the thesis, it is the plot line, it is the entire book. Our natural man is the enemy to God, it is our hardness that distances us away from an all-loving Creator. For me, I knew that, I understood it, but maybe I was trying to make a point. It was pride that got in the way. I don't know if Uncle Mike reads these emails, much less if he remembers a conversation we had a few months before my mission.
We stood at the door frame and he said two things, "Allyse, when you give your talk (my farewell talk) just talk to them like you would if you were one-on-one." Okay, great, I thought, that's good advice, then he said, almost as I was leaving, "Ï can't wait to see how you will change when you get back in 18 months." When he said that my brain said, "What? I don't need to change. I'm already good. I know what I want, and I already have a strong testimony. I don't need anything else. I'll just give the people what I have." We all know the hymn, "Pride ruled my will...." That described me in the moment. Little did I know how little I did know.
Well, Uncle Mike, I want you to know, as well as everyone else, that I have changed. In many ways I feel like a completely different person than I was 18 months ago. I am nowhere near perfect like I seemed to think I was last year. I understand a little bit more about my weaknesses and imperfections. I understand a little bit more about my relationship with the Saviour, and I understand just a little bit more about the Atonement.
Our roles throughout our life change. My roles look like this:
Full-Time Missionary
Released
Full-Time Daughter and Sister
Full-Time Employee
Full-Time Student
Full-Time Wife
Full-TIme Mother
Full-TIme Eternal Companion
But though each stage in life gives me and us a different role, one role always, always stays the same: We are Children of God. I am a daughter of God. I know more of my identity because I have had the greatest privilege ever of wearing my name, Sister Eldredge, by His name, Jesus Christ. I wear this badge with joy, honor, and gratitude. I have come to learn, dear family, the importance of sacrifice, the joy of the gospel, how to have charity, how to live a consecrated live, and how to keep covenants. I know that we aren't perfect. We live in a fallen world without perfection, but perfection, completeness, is something we will attain when the full grace of the Atonement is given to us, after the Resurrection. So my point: Change. We must change to be like our Heavenly Father. Change is the only way this is possible. And some changes are "easy" like the decision to go on a mission, but some change is hard, like giving up our natural man to attain a new man in Christ.
I testify that such a change is worth it. Is it hard? Yes. Does it require massive sacrifice? Yes. Sometimes we must be humble enough to ask Heavenly Father to change us, to change our hearts.
P.S. Just another tid-bit: service is essential for Salvation.
The End:)
I love you all! and......I WILL SEE YOU SOON!!!!!
Love always,
Sister Eldredge
The happiest Missionary.