
The lights and sounds of the city threaten to overwhelm her. The air lacks the fresh scents of Zola's dimension, where strong scents usually meant danger. The concrete is hard and even beneath her bare feet.
She doesn't know how she got here. She vaguely remembers climbing the steps of the old subway station, but she doesn't remember how she got to them. It was as if her mind couldn't process her surroundings or actions until she started seeing familiar things again. She'd last been here with Steve on a SHIELD mission.
Steve.
She stood at the top of the stairs, trying to remember. Steve was important. So was SHIELD. She hadn't forgotten, it was just that over time, they hadn't seemed real anymore. But they were real. She'd lived here, once, thinking that it was the only life she'd ever have. She'd been stupid in her youth. So unbelievably stupid.
Brooklyn. She'd lived in Brooklyn, with Steve. He'd had a place made of brick, with a holographic wall... And SHIELD had been- There was an HQ in New York. She could go and report in.
She turns and walks toward Brooklyn. She eyes the people around her warily the entire time, wondering if they'll try to kill her. Were they more like the Phrox, or were they mutates? She walks for miles, expecting attack with each step, but it never comes. She walks all the way to the brick building that overlooks the Brooklyn Bridge, and then she stops.
Now what? How long has it been since she was last here? So many years for her that she'd lost count, but for him... She wasn't the person he knew anymore. She was someone he might not want anything to do with. After all, he'd never come to save her. She'd hoped, in those first decades, that he might. He never gave up. It had been one of the things she'd liked most about him. But he'd given up on her.
And why shouldn't he? She'd caught her reflection on the way here. She couldn't remember anymore what she used to look like, but she knows she doesn't look like other people here. Her clothes had been stitched together and patched so many times they might not qualify as clothes anymore. Small blades are tucked at various points, most of them handmade. Her hair had grown out since her last hair cut, hanging all the way to her waist, and she'd collected it in a sloppy braid that was too frizzy and dirty to be called fashionable.
Not to mention everything she'd done since left alone in that place... No. He wouldn't want anything to do with her now.
And yet she can't make herself leave. She can't even take her eyes off the building. She'd felt safe there once, she remembers that. But she can't remember what that safety felt like. She'd felt at home there. She can only dimly remember that feeling, but that iota of memory is enough to keep her there as she tries to piece more together. Not even the lights or the constant sound of traffic and life can make her look away, though she often tenses and reaches for a weapon, only for her hand to go slack again.