Andelila

Random

Assalamualaikum…

When there’s too much things happened, we’re really do not have time for ourselves.  Or we no longer know what we really want to do in the first place.  When we do have time for ourselves, suddenly we just remembered what we really want to do.  I feel like remembering the forgotten. 

The truth is I really, really need time for myself.  Just me.  I skip my supplement intake all the time.  I feel anxious all the time, worrying the one inside ‘are you doing fine there, love?’ .  Milk, thanks hubby as I was almost forgotten that I should drink milk now. I wonder, what’s inside my head now?  Things are just random inside there.

I thought I could control everything, or shall I rephrase everything is under my control but hell no!!!  May be I was greedy, I thought I could do everything.  Or may be I was just whining or complaining over things.  I don’t know!  I am only 15 weeks pregnant but my feet is swollen like I was about to give birth.  May be I am stressed.  No, I am stressed.