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Hi! Jill, she/her. Welcome to my journal.
It's pretty open, and there are a lot of things I just... post about. Some of it home, some of it fandom, some of it books or other things. It's pretty random. A lot of it is writing - the process, the challenges, and things like that.
There may also be some entries about some of my other interests going forward. Travel and preparing for a long road trip.
Transformative works Policy.
Please ask about remixing/transforming any of my works. The answer is mostly likely going to be yes, and I'd like to see/hear/read the finished product (in as much as I can, in the case of translations). Asking in the comments or in a dm is fine. Please link back to the original when your work is posted.
Friending Policy.
As a general rule, I don't add people who add me if I don't know them. Please ask, or engage through my entries. Either way is fine. I'm pretty open about saying yes. I do prefer to know when someone adds me, where they came from and why they are.
I do have some filters, because sometimes I flail about things I don't think everyone wants to read about (for example, Kpop). That might be the only filter I have actually used in the past, and I'm not sure I'll even keep it. I haven't decided yet.
Fanfiction
If you're looking for my fics, you can find them on my Master Fic List. It's up to date and I'll keep it that way as much as possible. It's also where you'll find my list of fandoms.
Please enjoy your stay!
12 Week Year WAM Week 05
Jan. 26th, 2026 10:36 pmWeekly Score: 67.8 (40/59)
(I'm improving! wahoo!)
Goal 1: Increase my spirituality. 72% (18/25)
Review: Getting better at this. I figure I'll be writing a lot this week, as I have a lot to process. I'm not sure how it's all going to work, but I'll do my best.
Goal 2: Fit better in my clothes / feel better in my body. 58% (15/26)
Review: I'm still working on this, but I have plans, and I think those will work out. I'm having the worst time with actually drinking, which I shouldn't because my skin is practically flaking off, it's so dry (cold!). Stretching is harder than I expected, but still going to happen.
Goal 3: Whittle down my to-do list. 88% (7/8)
Review: This is the only one I didn't improve on, and I'll work to fix that, too. For the most part, though, I'm pretty happy with what I did.
Intentions for the future: G1: I'm going to focus on actually getting my journal written in. Things are going, and I need to process them. If I can make myself write about them. G2: I'm still working on recording everything - that's where a lot of the problem is - and on walking. I'm going to miss a couple of days because of appointments in the morning. And I have some extra stretches for my elbow, and I'm excited to try them out.
(I'm improving! wahoo!)
Goal 1: Increase my spirituality. 72% (18/25)
Review: Getting better at this. I figure I'll be writing a lot this week, as I have a lot to process. I'm not sure how it's all going to work, but I'll do my best.
Goal 2: Fit better in my clothes / feel better in my body. 58% (15/26)
Review: I'm still working on this, but I have plans, and I think those will work out. I'm having the worst time with actually drinking, which I shouldn't because my skin is practically flaking off, it's so dry (cold!). Stretching is harder than I expected, but still going to happen.
Goal 3: Whittle down my to-do list. 88% (7/8)
Review: This is the only one I didn't improve on, and I'll work to fix that, too. For the most part, though, I'm pretty happy with what I did.
Intentions for the future: G1: I'm going to focus on actually getting my journal written in. Things are going, and I need to process them. If I can make myself write about them. G2: I'm still working on recording everything - that's where a lot of the problem is - and on walking. I'm going to miss a couple of days because of appointments in the morning. And I have some extra stretches for my elbow, and I'm excited to try them out.
12 Week Year WAM Week 04
Jan. 20th, 2026 03:07 pmWeekly Score: 59% (12/25)
Goal 1 Increase my spirituality. 48% (12/25)
Review: I'm having a hard time because I can either do my scriptures, or do my exercises. I haven't been able to figure out how to fix that.
Goal 2 Fit better in my clothes / feel better in my body. 57% (16/28)
Review: Still working on this, and I keep hoping it will get better. I did set my fitness goal, and I managed to do my stretching. The rest of it... I'm not doing so well. I want to do better. I get started well, and then it dies out.
Goal 3 Whittle down my to-do list. 100% (8/8)
Review: I managed to get all of those things done. Who knows how.
Intentions for the future: G1 - I'm going to figure out the way to do both scripture study and exercise. G2 - I'm going to do a better job at this, like seriously, much better. G3 - I'm going to work on getting some of the things I have on my online shopping list. I have a few things I want to get.
Goal 1 Increase my spirituality. 48% (12/25)
Review: I'm having a hard time because I can either do my scriptures, or do my exercises. I haven't been able to figure out how to fix that.
Goal 2 Fit better in my clothes / feel better in my body. 57% (16/28)
Review: Still working on this, and I keep hoping it will get better. I did set my fitness goal, and I managed to do my stretching. The rest of it... I'm not doing so well. I want to do better. I get started well, and then it dies out.
Goal 3 Whittle down my to-do list. 100% (8/8)
Review: I managed to get all of those things done. Who knows how.
Intentions for the future: G1 - I'm going to figure out the way to do both scripture study and exercise. G2 - I'm going to do a better job at this, like seriously, much better. G3 - I'm going to work on getting some of the things I have on my online shopping list. I have a few things I want to get.
1. I have done well with my children. That means, I listen when they have something to talk to me about, no matter how "trivial." Because when it's something important, they know I will listen. I've had the honor of finding out things they want me to know that they don't feel safe telling their father. I am very pleased about that.
2. I'm so much better about not getting down on myself when I mess up, or like, don't do what I wanted to. I used to get really nasty to myself, and it still happens, but I'm so much better about it. I'm actually really pleased about the progress I've done there, too.
3. I'm actively trying to improve myself. It's not going fast, but then, that's not a big deal. It's going (hopefully) consistently. I'm working on it. And things are different. I'm different. I like it.
2. I'm so much better about not getting down on myself when I mess up, or like, don't do what I wanted to. I used to get really nasty to myself, and it still happens, but I'm so much better about it. I'm actually really pleased about the progress I've done there, too.
3. I'm actively trying to improve myself. It's not going fast, but then, that's not a big deal. It's going (hopefully) consistently. I'm working on it. And things are different. I'm different. I like it.
Fannish50 #50: Zolar - Move it
Jan. 16th, 2026 10:48 amZolar is a 12 member Thai group under Muzik Move and Search Entertainment, formed through the reality show Star Search Idol. They debuted in 2023. However, this song.... We probably found it through one of those "you like Kpop but have you tried Tpop" Tik Toks. I'll admit, the hip thing is mesmerizing. As is Fogus (who would fit right in with XLov, honestly). Vic could embarrass their sister by dancing to this song - and did, regularly.
Snowflake Challenge #6: Top ten list!
Jan. 15th, 2026 11:08 amOooh. This looks like fun.
So I have a couple I want to do: first, my top ten most listened to songs (since I changed iTunes; so within the last 10 years or so).
1. Oh My! by Monsta X (Totally my daughter E's fault)
2. Reborn by Ghost9 (Also her fault)
3. Bonamana (Super Junior) and Lucifer (SHINee) mashup, found here. From 15 years ago, and still awesome. My oldest believes the two songs are better together, and misses the other one when we hear only one of them.
4. Deja Vu by Ateez. One of my very favorites by them.
5. Bomb Bomp by K.A.R.D. Excellent song!
6. Say My Name by ANS. I was so sad when these ladies disbanded. The song is just a lot of fun.
7. Control by Ghost9. All because of the base line. Totally stolen from Der Erlkönig by Schubert. And a FUN video.
8. Sorry for My English by IN2IT (now Skye). Another of E's favorites.
9. Strawberry Cake by Xdinary Heroes. My bias in cotton candy hair? Yes please. And it's just a good, fun song.
10. Dumb Litty by K.A.R.D. I'm surprised this is after Bomb Bomb. Of the two, I like this one better.
( A second list )
So I have a couple I want to do: first, my top ten most listened to songs (since I changed iTunes; so within the last 10 years or so).
1. Oh My! by Monsta X (Totally my daughter E's fault)
2. Reborn by Ghost9 (Also her fault)
3. Bonamana (Super Junior) and Lucifer (SHINee) mashup, found here. From 15 years ago, and still awesome. My oldest believes the two songs are better together, and misses the other one when we hear only one of them.
4. Deja Vu by Ateez. One of my very favorites by them.
5. Bomb Bomp by K.A.R.D. Excellent song!
6. Say My Name by ANS. I was so sad when these ladies disbanded. The song is just a lot of fun.
7. Control by Ghost9. All because of the base line. Totally stolen from Der Erlkönig by Schubert. And a FUN video.
8. Sorry for My English by IN2IT (now Skye). Another of E's favorites.
9. Strawberry Cake by Xdinary Heroes. My bias in cotton candy hair? Yes please. And it's just a good, fun song.
10. Dumb Litty by K.A.R.D. I'm surprised this is after Bomb Bomb. Of the two, I like this one better.
( A second list )
Fannish50 #49: Yena - Smiley (Ft. Bibi)
Jan. 15th, 2026 11:07 amYena is a soloist and a former member of IZ*One. This song, even the short part of it we saw, reminded Vic and I of Engine Sentai Go-Onger, the original of Power Rangers RPM. The Yellow ranger would always say "Smilu Smilu!" and this song embodies that expression.
Dear fandom:
I have been with you for most of my life. I didn't know what it was called for the first ten years or so, because I didn't realize other people felt like I did.
Our relationship started when I was young, when I found something I wanted to be a part of (a music group - band - in specific). Something that let me explore and find my own way around.
I don't think I realized how much I needed the people in fandom until I found people I actually meshed with. It started, a little, on [fanfic.net](http://fanfic.net/). And then, somehow, I found [TheForce.net](http://theforce.net/), right as I started my Star Wars trilogy. The people there were so... so wonderful and so welcoming! And then Livejournal, where I found a HUGE community of people I could share my love of writing and fandom and (mostly) K-pop with. It was sad when it went down, and apparently it's even worse now.
Still, I have found a couple of lovely communities on Dreamwidth, and that's been good.
As someone mentioned, too: fandom is all about the people, and I've made some good friends along the way. People I don't regret spending time with, and people I miss sometimes because we grew apart. The best parts about the fandom are the people. My life is much richer with people who share my loves with me.
I have been with you for most of my life. I didn't know what it was called for the first ten years or so, because I didn't realize other people felt like I did.
Our relationship started when I was young, when I found something I wanted to be a part of (a music group - band - in specific). Something that let me explore and find my own way around.
I don't think I realized how much I needed the people in fandom until I found people I actually meshed with. It started, a little, on [fanfic.net](http://fanfic.net/). And then, somehow, I found [TheForce.net](http://theforce.net/), right as I started my Star Wars trilogy. The people there were so... so wonderful and so welcoming! And then Livejournal, where I found a HUGE community of people I could share my love of writing and fandom and (mostly) K-pop with. It was sad when it went down, and apparently it's even worse now.
Still, I have found a couple of lovely communities on Dreamwidth, and that's been good.
As someone mentioned, too: fandom is all about the people, and I've made some good friends along the way. People I don't regret spending time with, and people I miss sometimes because we grew apart. The best parts about the fandom are the people. My life is much richer with people who share my loves with me.
Jinyoung was a member of D1CE (who sadly disbanded), and has had a lot of experience in the industry, including going on Mixnine (he placed first), Show Me the Money 8, and Produce 101 Season 2. The song Happy Birthday is fun, raucous, and the chorus caught our attention. Vic added to their playlist immediately.
12 Week Year WAM Week 03
Jan. 13th, 2026 02:10 pmSo I'm behind: I was ill for the first three weeks of this current 12 Week Year, so there are no other reports.
Weekly Score: 60% (24/40)
Goal 1: Increase my spirituality. 63% (10/16)
Review: This went not well at all. Between still recovering from the illness and traveling for the weekend (and all the prep that goes into that), I let a lot slide.
Goal 2: Fit better in my clothes / feel better in my body. 41% (7/17)
Review: Totally failed on this one, too. Writing down everything is harder than I thought, but I'm still working on it. I'll keep working on it.
Goal 3: Whittle down my to-do list. 100% (7/7)
Review: I managed to get this all done, which was a surprise. I ended up doing my Weekly Review on Thursday, since we left on Friday, and chose the next thing to work on. I hope to finish those all this week, too.
Intentions for the future: G1 - I have been studying Atomic Habits, and I have a lot of good ideas on that to get these habits going. G2 - Same as above. I still don't know how to make it work, but I'll keep working on it. G3 - I'll just keep plugging along, work on the area of focus I decided on, and do as much outside of that as I can get done.
Weekly Score: 60% (24/40)
Goal 1: Increase my spirituality. 63% (10/16)
Review: This went not well at all. Between still recovering from the illness and traveling for the weekend (and all the prep that goes into that), I let a lot slide.
Goal 2: Fit better in my clothes / feel better in my body. 41% (7/17)
Review: Totally failed on this one, too. Writing down everything is harder than I thought, but I'm still working on it. I'll keep working on it.
Goal 3: Whittle down my to-do list. 100% (7/7)
Review: I managed to get this all done, which was a surprise. I ended up doing my Weekly Review on Thursday, since we left on Friday, and chose the next thing to work on. I hope to finish those all this week, too.
Intentions for the future: G1 - I have been studying Atomic Habits, and I have a lot of good ideas on that to get these habits going. G2 - Same as above. I still don't know how to make it work, but I'll keep working on it. G3 - I'll just keep plugging along, work on the area of focus I decided on, and do as much outside of that as I can get done.
Fannish50 #47: Wendy - Wish You Hell
Jan. 13th, 2026 02:08 pmI'm a huge fan of Red Velvet, but not so much that I know the women or can pick out which is which. I don't remember where we saw this one, but it went down on the list of things that we wanted to find again, as we only heard a small part of the chorus. It did not disappoint.
As a side note, I have a friend with a horrible ex-husband, and I played this for her. She doesn't care for my K-pop, but she loved this. I found her singing it a couple of times. Also, Vic and I were singing it on the way out of a store, and some lady told us she liked the song. It's just... perfect.
As a side note, I have a friend with a horrible ex-husband, and I played this for her. She doesn't care for my K-pop, but she loved this. I found her singing it a couple of times. Also, Vic and I were singing it on the way out of a store, and some lady told us she liked the song. It's just... perfect.
Fannish50 #46: WEi - Bye Bye Bye
Jan. 12th, 2026 09:24 amI'm pretty sure Vic just shoved this one at me. Twice. At least. WEi debuted in 2020 - poor kids - from OUI Entertainment, as six. I'm the first to admit that when I hear Bye Bye Bye I think of 'N Sync. I do like this one, though. It's fun and happy.
Snowflake Challenge #2: Pets
Jan. 12th, 2026 09:20 amI have had a variety of pets in my life, some on purpose, some by sheer accident. I love them, I enjoy their company. I'm not very good as an owner, but I hope to be better next time.
One of my favorite pets I've ever created was a companion for my MFC, Maggie. The cat - who's name I forgot - has accompanied her through all of the stuff I've put her through. Maggie does have an actual book (hopefully), but has been, so far: a trainee at SM entertainment (published), a correspondent for End of Times (unpublished), and Adam Park's girlfriend (he's a Power Ranger). Funnily enough, Maggie was originally written to tromp through fandoms, and then she got her own story... and now she's back. lol.
The cat, though. Her name was originally Tabitha, and she was a werecat that could change into any feline form. She changed, however, to be only a cat, but she could be in any feline form still, and her name changed to Ginger. She didn't actually show up in the books until the second book, and when I wrote that - it was while Nanowrimo was still valid and going - I would get to the end of my day and go "I forgot the cat again!"
She's the only pet I've used. Maggie rides the same horse through book one, but the horse isn't hers and isn't a pet.
One of my favorite pets I've ever created was a companion for my MFC, Maggie. The cat - who's name I forgot - has accompanied her through all of the stuff I've put her through. Maggie does have an actual book (hopefully), but has been, so far: a trainee at SM entertainment (published), a correspondent for End of Times (unpublished), and Adam Park's girlfriend (he's a Power Ranger). Funnily enough, Maggie was originally written to tromp through fandoms, and then she got her own story... and now she's back. lol.
The cat, though. Her name was originally Tabitha, and she was a werecat that could change into any feline form. She changed, however, to be only a cat, but she could be in any feline form still, and her name changed to Ginger. She didn't actually show up in the books until the second book, and when I wrote that - it was while Nanowrimo was still valid and going - I would get to the end of my day and go "I forgot the cat again!"
She's the only pet I've used. Maggie rides the same horse through book one, but the horse isn't hers and isn't a pet.
Fannish50 #45: WayV - Phantom
Jan. 8th, 2026 08:09 pmWayV are a part of NCT, and sing mostly in Mandarin. This might be where the disconnect comes with Ten, because he's part of this group. I don't actually remember what brought us to this one. It might have been a Halloween themed compilation, because this definitely has that vibe. I really like this song, and most of the others I've heard I like too.
Snowflake challenge #1
Jan. 8th, 2026 11:40 amFrom the ![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png)
snowflake_challenge Community.
Hi. I'm Jill, she/her pronouns. I'm a mother of three grown children (the youngest is in his freshman year of college), one enby, on female, one male. I've been married for 23 years. We're still getting used to being empty nesters, and it's only been like five months. It feels so WEIRD.
I decided to do the Snowflake challenge this year because I miss actually writing. I haven't done much, I feel like; I started tracking days I wrote instead of words I wrote because it felt more doable. I miss writing, and I don't know why it's not going. Still, anything that will get me typing and thinking about what I want to write will help! Challenges have been a huge boost to me in the past, so I hope this one opens some doors I haven't tried yet.
snowflake_challenge Community.Hi. I'm Jill, she/her pronouns. I'm a mother of three grown children (the youngest is in his freshman year of college), one enby, on female, one male. I've been married for 23 years. We're still getting used to being empty nesters, and it's only been like five months. It feels so WEIRD.
I decided to do the Snowflake challenge this year because I miss actually writing. I haven't done much, I feel like; I started tracking days I wrote instead of words I wrote because it felt more doable. I miss writing, and I don't know why it's not going. Still, anything that will get me typing and thinking about what I want to write will help! Challenges have been a huge boost to me in the past, so I hope this one opens some doors I haven't tried yet.
Fannish50 #44: TWS - Plot Twist, Ohmymy:7s
Jan. 8th, 2026 11:33 amTWS debuted at the beginning of 2024, from Pledis under Hybe - so the same company as Seventeen - with six members. TWS Means 24/7 with us but is pronounced "To us." Their debut song, Plot Twist, reminded me a lot of Boyfriend's Boyfriend, happy and upbeat, and cute. The boys are cute, young, and have great smiles.
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Fannish50 #43: TVXQ - Rebel, Down
Jan. 6th, 2026 09:14 pmI've been a fan of TVXQ for years. They're who got me into k-pop, honestly. I first heard Rising Sun, although I found them around the time of Purple Line. I miss them as five. I did try to listen to their first album as a duo, and I wasn't that impressed, possibly because they still tried to get the sound of five.
( My first kpop group )
( My first kpop group )
So, I have 8 entries left of my fannish50 from 2025. Sadly, the last couple of weeks, I got plagued, as my son says. For those who know, I can easily sing anything from Felx of Stray Kids, or Masami of All(h)ours (Check out Wao Wao if you're curious).
it's all very frustrating, as I'm just not up for anything right now, not even this. Which is why it's all very... everywhere.
Anyway, that's my note for the first day of the year. It's not a fun way to start the year, but then, I guess it can only get better from here?
it's all very frustrating, as I'm just not up for anything right now, not even this. Which is why it's all very... everywhere.
Anyway, that's my note for the first day of the year. It's not a fun way to start the year, but then, I guess it can only get better from here?
Fannish50 #42: Treasure - Bona Bona, Move
Dec. 30th, 2025 10:26 amSpeaking of Treasure. Treasure debuted in 2020 with Boy, also a good song, with ten. Two members left in 2022. Not all the time, but often the leader has the most ridiculous hair (Check out King Kong - he's the one in the neon green). Bona Bona turned into one of my favorites.
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Fannish50 #41: TNX - Move
Dec. 30th, 2025 10:23 amTNX debuted in 2022 with six, under P Nation, originally called The New Six. One left in 2024. The song remains sort of connected in my mind with T5's Move - only through the name. I can't remember where we heard this one first.
