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Been a while, huh? So I've decided I'll stay here in SC for as long as I can, because I don't believe anything can be permanent just by willing it to be so. It's beautiful.

Went from no car to one, no house to an apartment, and one dog to two.

I've worked 4 jobs at one time, and now work one (and a half). I take trips and attend seminars. I have joined clubs. I like it here.

I got myself diagnosed. I have medication. It's changing my life after all this time thinking I couldn't be changed.

I don't want to be looking at anything through rose colored glasses.

"By Month's End" kind of got pushed back a month.

I'm moving from Brownsville, Texas to Upstate South Carolina tomorrow in the A.M.

I haven't even packed.

It's hard to move when you know nothing, but I'ma do it by month's end.

Holy shit.

Model is the subject and I'm not going to be explaining the 'why' of it in this post. Mostly it's for self-reference since it's still fresh in my mind (happened some 4 minutes ago, no lie) and I already had this page open. (I was going to post something else to start off my journal-ing. Oh well.)

Continuous stimulation. I first felt the stim at level 7. Was most comfortable at level 8. I was uncomfortable at level 23. I still need to see where my limit is, though (just so 'everyone' knows) I always crank the collar up to max and blast myself like an idiot before I put any new thing on my dog. Through the computer app (that I still need to figure out) I set the limit to level 40. This is 40 out of a possible 100. I toggled boosts of 5 and need to figure out how to work the transmitter (remote) to make those ramps happen.

All testing happens on me first. I'm not a careless idiot who will make the dog the guinea pig.

So.

No animals were harmed in the making of this post. Unless humans count as animals, then-- it hasn't happened yet but, like I said-- I'm going to blast myself eventually. Sooner the better, because then I get less time to psych myself the fuck out. So that'll do it!