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introduction

so juice dm-ed me asking how i embedded google slides and pdfs and whatnot in previous posts. actually i only embedded google slides and google docs back then but with 2 more years of cs degree under my belt i guess i am now able to hack pdf embeds too. yay! but dreamwidth is weird about embeds so here is me trying to bridge the gap between dreamwidth's one-paragraph outdated explanation and the actual functionality within dreamwidth's supported html.

the basics
if there is a way to acquire embed code through the site which hosts the media (usually found within 'share' or 'publish' options), copy this embed code. in your dreamwidth post editor (the html tab specifically), click the 'embed media' button. paste the embed code and select 'insert.' if this does not work, try the following:

<site-embed>
    <embed src="[your link*]" width="[width of embed**]" height="[height of embed**]">
    </embed>
</site-embed>

* there is more than one link that can be placed here. i recommend you try the links available to you in the following order, until one works: a) the embed link*** (the link to the media within the embed code), b) the share link (if there is such a thing on the host site), c) the normal link (straight from your browser).

** the width and height of the embed can be delineated in pixels (recommended: width="960" height="569") or in percentage (such as: width="100%" height="100%"). there are other variables we can specify within the embed tag, as well as some variables specific to certain sites/links, which we will get into in things dreamwidth won't tell u about embeds.

*** some easy browser link >> embed link conversions for your convenience ([id] will be a string of characters unique to that piece of media):
                                       
host sitebrowser linkembed link
pdf (google drive)https://drive.google.com/file/d/[id]/viewhttps://drive.google.com/file/d/[id]/preview
youtubehttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=[id]https://www.youtube.com/embed?v=[id]
spotify (track) https://open.spotify.com/track/[id] https://open.spotify.com/embed/track/[id]
spotify (playlist) https://open.spotify.com/playlist/[id] https://open.spotify.com/embed/playlist/[id]

note: occasionally, none of these embed options will work, and this would likely be an issue with the host site's policies, which i have yet to work around. unfortunately, ao3 is one of those host sites.

things dreamwidth won't tell u about embeds
so basically all dreamwidth gives us in terms of embed info is this set of instructions (currently slightly incorrect and nonfunctioning half the time) and this list of sites whitelisted for embedding (which does not encompass all sites that work, only the officially approved). first of all NOBODY CAN EVEN FIND THIS INFORMATION ON THE DREAMWIDTH SITE LMFAO. if these links were accessible and discoverable then juice wouldn't have needed to ask me anything because google slides actually does work with those instructions (if u ignore the part that's wrong). like technically u can find these links but it is NOT as easy as it should be. other info pages about dreamwidth's supported HTML are linked on the same page where you would write and edit an entry, but not this -- seems like an easy fix to me.

but whatever. there are variations to the basics code that i want to capture in detail here. we'll do this by going through some examples:

pdfs

embed code inserted using the 'Embed Media' button does not work for pdfs (and you would only have embed code if your pdf is uploaded to google drive). below is an example of embedding pdf files that have been uploaded to google drive:

<site-embed>
    <embed src="https://drive.google.com/file/d/14JtcfqRp41S-xgBX4naLgqq6r_gGDcVd/preview" type="application/pdf" width="100%" height="100%">
    </embed>
</site-embed>

there are some things to note here. firstly, the link used here is the link from the embed code, not the link straight from the browser (in this case the only difference between the two is the browser link ends with "view" instead of "preview"). secondly, here we see the introduction of the type attribute. the type attribute can be used to define the media type of the content in your link. i played around with it, and you don't really need it; it seems like the embed tag does some heavy lifting and can generally determine what you're giving it and figure itself out. that said, i've only tried a few filetypes. apparently there are so goddamn many media types so if you're having trouble getting an embed to work for a very specific media type, maybe try specifying using the 'Name' and 'Template' columns from that link ('Name' being the file type and the corresponding 'Template' being what to enter for the type attribute if embedding that file type).

we can also embed pdf files that have been publicly uploaded to other host sites online! here's an example:

<site-embed>
    <embed src="https://egrcc.github.io/docs/math/all-of-statistics.pdf" type="application/pdf" width="100%" height="100%">
    </embed>
</site-embed>

notably, the pdf features available online (such as the sidebar) are also available in the embedded form of this pdf.

important note on pdfs: gdrive pdf embeds are not viewable on mobile. however, pdf embeds of pdfs that have been published to the internet (such as the statistics one above) are able to be viewed on mobile.

google slides

let's look at how a presentation would be embedded into dreamwidth:

<site-embed>
    <iframe src="https://docs.google.com/presentation/d/e/2PACX-1vQ2iIKxuw0SzeIQYqgLRUXm6ddIZ6BfLWgxOsXRARHzWsRYAJA8Sw2uIm1k_Ms7BXC5intgWthvEDrr/embed?start=false&loop=false" frameborder="0" width="960" height="569" allowfullscreen="true" mozallowfullscreen="true" webkitallowfullscreen="true">
    </iframe>
</site-embed>

so firstly i want to point out the end of the src link. the part where it says "embed?start=false&loop=false." the variable start is a toggle for autoplaying the slides. with start set to false, autoplay is off. the variable loop is a toggle for cycling through the slides again once the last slide is reached. with loop set to false, this looping is turned off. let's briefly look at a version where start and loop are toggled on:

<site-embed>
    <iframe src="https://docs.google.com/presentation/d/e/2PACX-1vQ2iIKxuw0SzeIQYqgLRUXm6ddIZ6BfLWgxOsXRARHzWsRYAJA8Sw2uIm1k_Ms7BXC5intgWthvEDrr/embed?start=true&loop=true&delayms=3000" frameborder="0" width="960" height="569" allowfullscreen="true" mozallowfullscreen="true" webkitallowfullscreen="true">
    </iframe>
</site-embed>

now we can see a new variable involved called delayms. this variable specifies how long each slide is shown for during autoplay, in milliseconds. right now it is set to 3000ms, which is 3 seconds. i played around with these three variables (start, loop, and delayms), and notably:

- if start is false, loop is effectively false regardless of the stated value in the link (and of course delayms is not used since autoplay is off).

- delayms can be omitted; if start is true but delayms is omitted, a default delayms of 3000 (3 seconds) is used

now we can discuss the attributes within iframe:

the attribute frameborder specifies whether to display a border around the embed -- as is common practice in CS, 1 is true and 0 is false, so in this case the current value of "0" will ensure there is no border around the embed.

the attributes width and height can be specified in pixels ("100" or "100px") or by percentage ("100%"). in this case, width and height have been set to 960 pixels and 569 pixels, respectively.

the attributes allowfullscreen, mozallowfullscreen, and webkitallowfullscreen are clearly related. allowfullscreen pretty much says what it does -- it allows the viewer to open the embed in a fullscreen view. mozallowfullscreen refers to mozilla firefox, and is specific to that browser. similarly, webkitallowfullscreen refers to webkit, which is another web browser engine which is primarily used by apple products. since web browsers operate and display websites in different ways, these options would allow specific format choices in different browsers. additionally, considering google is not specified the way mozilla and webkit are, it seems that the format choices decided in the allowfullscreen attribute would apply to google-based web browser engines.

that's all for now! :)

bonus
in case u were wondering how i wrote this post/how u can write ur own post about html....

to display raw html code in while in dreamwidth html format:

- replace any instances of "&" with: &amp; - replace any instances of "<" with: &lt; - replace any instances of ">" with: &gt; to display any instances of: &amp; &lt; or &gt; surround it with <xmp></xmp> (using this creates its own line so formatting will get weird; nevertheless it works)
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so i've been reading a lot of perfume stuff lately and it's really interesting to me that even as someone says (and presumably believes) perfumes aren't gendered, they still will say 'masculine' or 'feminine' when describing a scent. why? i thought about it for a bit and i think it's cos it's a shortcut. not everybody knows what birchwood smells like but everyone has some idea in their mind of what a 'masculine' scent is. same as when calling something a 'grandma' perfume. and actually i think it's a terribly faulty shortcut, because it relies so heavily on connotation and personal experience/memory. for example, my dad usually smells like his proraso lozione dopobarba in rinfrescante (menthol & eucalyptus). if a person was talking about the scent of birchwood, and to them they define that as 'masculine,' so instead of describing the scent as birchwood they say 'masculine'....but my scent memory of 'masculine' is menthol & eucalyptus....then it's a bad description, right? so it's a heavily cultural andor lived-experience shortcut, and probably one that will have less and less meaning as people move away from gendered products (maybe i'm being idealistic about this but i do believe that's happening albeit slowly)....anyway yes just some thoughts i'm sure someone's thought of this before and been more eloquent about it but yar
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twitter spaces | #127zensVSdreamzens | 210518
[notes: things said in the space are in quotes; my own words are outside the quotes. timestamps are in EST.]
[transcript start.]
[2:43 PM] "i promise u kpop is not deep enough"
[2:43 PM] "sorry about the baby in the back"
[2:43 PM] jaSDFJLKASDKLSD
[2:43 PM] THERE IS A BABY CRYING IN THE BACK
[2:44 PM] "you may have a fandom u dont like and still like the band like people dont like army but they still like bts....i DONT LIKE DREAMZENS and that's okay"
[2:44 PM] "kpop" "girl that's all i had to say"
[2:45 PM] "there is no setting mark up mark is everything he NEEDS"
[2:46 PM] "his checks are fine trust me mark is fine"
[2:46 PM] "when i shove my fist so far up your ass"
[2:47 PM] "especially yuTAH and TAEYOUHNG" (there is so much mispronunciation)
[2:48 PM] "and yall goin to hell for it too" "i feel like dreamzens disrespect the HELL out of mark especially those ot6 ones?"
[2:48 PM] "i didn't know dreamzens liked mark or haechan" "no dreamzens DONT like haechan" "what????"
[2:49 PM] "i don't know why u gotta do mark like that"
[2:49 PM] "the group is basically nothing without him. like it's trash"
[2:51 PM] "people mad at us for mentioning wayv" "oh of course. that was my bad........that was my bad. i'll stop bringin them up"
[2:52 PM] "someone said -- kick back -- uh sorry" "no talkin about wayv"
[3:00 PM] "i don't think that 127 gets ENOUGH promotion like obviously but in retrospect they definitely get more than dream does"
[3:01 PM] "im not saying that 127 are completely prioritized because they're not but it's--they're definitely more than dream"
[3:05 PM] "nobody's talking about izone!" "then don't speak on them!"
[3:05 PM] "i don't care but yall brought up izone and bts don't bring them up" "no YOU brought up bts" "i didn't bring them up yall was talkin about them" "what we SAID was we don't want no little sevens in here" "you said if u got that little 7 in your dn...."
[3:06 PM] "nobody bein weird YALL bein weird"
[3:06 PM] "one of yall mic on radiation" sjdfklsdfksd
[3:08 PM] "who paved the way they all debuted the SAME year, except wayv--shit"
[3:09 PM] "who said 127 paved the way" "i remember it was one of yall 127zens"
[3:09 PM] "but dream is not promoted in america so"
[3:09 PM] "i'm a haechan solo stan....and....okay"
[3:09 PM] "somebody mic on radiation but," HLWERAJIWERE why is this phrasing taking me out
[3:14 PM] "yeah....jenozens used to HATE mark...." "when mark left jeno was the leader...." "i didn't know that" "i think most of yall on the mic should be embarrassed of yall selves....because yall sayin shit that make no sense"
[3:14 PM] "i think mark needs to be removed from dream asap" "WHAT" [INTENSE UPROAR]
[3:15 PM] "forreal one of yall mics sound like it's in a microwave" "and it's cookin chicken, so...."
[3:15 PM] "haechan is the backbone of dream. HAECHAN IS THE BACKBONE OF DREAM. you givin WAY TOO MUCH CREDIT to mark"
[3:15 PM] "mark be doin the bare minimum!"
[3:17 PM] "do you think nomin can rap better than mark" "no"
[3:17 PM] "okay one of my moots wanna get on the mic too" "nononono" "you about to get OFF the mic" "her name is punanicore" "puNANI?"
[3:19 PM] "you all talkin about mark doing the bare minimum" "yeah that was disrespectful" "i think if you all talk about mark then you should all talk about haechan" "you can't set haechan up either you can't set him or mark up!" "haechan and mark are the backbone of nct" "you heard his [haechan's] voice?!" "he [mark] was not there [in dream] the whole time im just sayin....he was not there the whole time"
[3:20 PM] "people talkin about how yall pronouncing haechan wrong" jaSDFJLKASDFKLSD
[3:24 PM] "we shouldn't discredit jeno....because he did what he had to do with what he had" "jeno just idolizes mark because he--" "idolizes?" "i would idolize mark too, shit!" "he respects mark so much. so of course he's going to call him whe--" "can we--can we please stop talking about mark like don't speak on him"
[3:25 PM] "i just want all of the dream members like nct dream like we shouldn't discredit jeno like all he had done" "haechan and mark are definitely like the most important members but you guys can't discredit 6dream for reload or boom" "if we wanna talk about--[cut out]"
[3:25 PM] "on what you all was sayin before bc -- their next comeback was always gonna get a million sales bc how do u get 600k on a mini, like let's not discredit dream" "and everyone's been waiting for this comeback for like FIVE YEARS," "it's insane that they had to wait five years for a full album"
[3:25 PM] "there's also a lot of new fans now" "i honestly think 127's comeback is gonna be big and it's not because 127 is better -- i don't believe 127 is better, but there are so many new fans that--" "it's RESONANCE impact as well" "yeah resonance it--like it boosted them, like wayv got more fans dream got more fans 127 got more fans--"
[3:25 PM] "leave taeil alone, taeil's got time, baekyun's 30 and he just got to the military" "baekhyun's THIRTY?" "i thought that man was 27"
[3:26 PM] "jeno compared to the other members in [nct] u members and [nct] 127 members only jeno was standing out so much liek in popularity but for 127 members they were--like they were more standing out liek for example renjun and chenle weren't getting like anything standing out like--" "maybe they just weren't standing out"
[3:27 PM] "i feel like jaemin and jeno do a lot" "especially jaemin" "jaemin blows up every day on twitter for bein fine like what" [silence, muffled laughter]
[3:27 PM] "nct as a whole got more attention from resonance -- like every unit got attention from that"
[3:27 PM] "okay, okay!"
[3:28 PM] "so many members didn't get anything from [nct] 2020" "does that MATTAH? like does that MATTUH?"
[3:28 PM] im trying to get all the slang and accents n little nuances in so u can like. FEEL the way this sounds ajsldkfjsakldjf;alsdf bc istg everyone sounds so different it's wild
[3:29 PM] "they weh doin SAMTHING in thear"
[3:29 PM] like afjlskejf;rweirewj
[3:29 PM] i cannot even tell what half these accents are
[3:29 PM] but they are there
[3:29 PM] "why can't ppl be excited for 127 comeback right now, like--"
[3:30 PM] "dreamzens dont even want us to be like 'omg 127 comeback when?' like i SAW a dreamzen get mad about that like we can't even want a 127 comeback"
[3:30 PM] "i will do what i want on my OWN FUCKEN TIME"
[3:30 PM] "i can want my 127 comeback!"
[3:30 PM] "it's gonnuh becohm a prohblehm"
[3:30 PM] ajfkwe;rioawu[rei;thth;iweothewj
[3:31 PM] "a DREAMZEN brought up NEOZONE and got RATIOED, and i brought up neozone--" [everyone interrupted them]
[3:32 PM] "i'm not saying that they can't wohnt a comeback but wot im sayin is that im -- from what i saw ohn mah timeline, like it's sparking arguments"
[3:33 PM] "nobody said u CANT like JUST MINIMIZE THE ARGUMENTS like--yknow like, just give it like 2 days or so, like not 3 minutes--" "WAIT A MINUTE. WAIT A MINUTE" "im gonna talk about what i wanna talk about what im gonna talk about"
[3:35 PM] "i mostly see 127zens and no one on my timeline was tolkin about hot souce until i saw a weishennie and they were like 'im a weishennie but dream are bigguh than 127' and then i saw a dreamzen tolkin about how neozone only got [100?]k sales--"
[3:36 PM] "if ur not seeing stuff--it's good that ur not seeing bad stuff, but there's still bad stuff out there"
[3:36 PM] "we just need 200k albums sold....in the next 5 months"
[3:37 PM] "i think wayv's comeback, they sold a bunch of albums bcos of the restock -- like every unit, they just jumped up"
[3:38 PM] "it is not a competition it is a relay. nct 2020 did what it was supposed to do, it brought interest from the unit stans -- it did what it was supposed to do. it's a relay and they are going to hand that baton off whenever 127 comes back and 127 is gonna beat all these records and then they're gonna hand it back and they are gonna do this all again this is not a competition this is all a team and go ahead and celebrate the units but don't do it by saying 'oh we beat yall bcos we're better than yall' bcos yall r gonna get ur ass handed to u when the next unit beats urs"
[3:38 PM] [long silence] "right...."
[3:39 PM] "i just wanna say goodbye and yeah....honestly im not a 127zen or dreamzen so i dont rly care but please don't fight too much i don't care stan haechan he's the backbone of nct together with multiple members so yeah" "okay well, byebye!"
[3:40 PM] "i hate dreamzens....sorry, i hate yall"
[3:41 PM] "i just wanted to talk about that one dreamzen about how 127zens all got on spaces when hot sauce dropped....127 is in the drawer right now, like taeyong did a vlive for the first time in a while, i hosted a space and there wasn't a single mention of bashing dreamzens we were just like we were missing 127,"
[3:45 PM] "there is a lot of negativity coming from dreamzens and it's like so annoying like -- i hate a lot of dreamzens but i love the units, like you can hate 127zens, i don't give a fuck! but why do you have to hate on the units? if they knew what u were sayin about them they would spit on you"
[3:45 PM] "i was really happy about the dream comeback, and people were ruining it for me"
[3:46 PM] "every time i see a treat from a dreamzen it's shading a 127 and stuff and so right now we're excited for the 127 comeback and then we want WAYV to also do good, every time a comeback happens i get excited for it. right now it's been almost a YEAR since 127 comeback and we don't want them to flop, we want them to do better than the last comeback we suck at everything we suck at voting we suck at all of that so that's that" HELP MEEEE THIS ONE WENT SO MANY PLACES
[3:47 PM] "i don't understand why u see a 127zens bein happy and u see it as a threat like"
[3:48 PM] "i even said it on the thing, we're just here to have fun, it's a safe space. so just like chill, everyone like their favorite unit, everyone likes a different type of ice cream. so just calm down, stop bein edgy, it's not cute"
[3:48 PM] [dead silence]
[3:48 PM] "okay well....anyone else?"
[3:48 PM] "too many dreamzens wanna be on the mic"
[3:48 PM] "armys in a wig in here so"
[3:50 PM] "let's not try to revise history, and act like neozone wasn't anything less than"
[3:51 PM] "i'm not saying dreamzens are innocent bc they start stuff but 127zens also drag dreamzens unnecessarily"
[3:51 PM] "i said that it seemed like what you were SAYING, was PURELY blaming it on dream"
[3:52 PM] "i have a lot of people blocked bc theres a lot of like shitty ppl and OBVIOUSLY there's gonna be people doing it from both sides and the people that are doing it the most right now are dreamzens" "NOBODY WAS DISCREDITING 127" "you guys are so childish right now i don't understand why you guys are comparing units right now"
[3:52 PM] "all i want is for people to stop discrediting dream."
[3:53 PM] "i said every unit is AMAZING and people need to stop--" "it felt like you were saying like most of this was dreamzens attacking people" "and that's your opinion" "yeah and that's what i said" "okay" "....................what the fuck" [silence, someone plays cricket noises]
[3:53 PM] "they all paved their own way what's the fucking problem"
[3:54 PM] "in the end they're still nct theyre promoted under the same brand everything they achieve will be under the same brand it's FINE"
[3:54 PM] "idk why they have to make such a big argument about it but honestly it's the STANS doing something wrong, it's like all the units--all of them are just hanging out"
[3:55 PM] "i have a genuine question--to 127zens--what do you mean they haven't had a comeback like what about loveholic--" "that was a japanese comeback--" "can i finish? can i finish?" "finish!" "that's still a comeback, it's still a--" "it wasn't promoted enough"
[3:56 PM] "loveholic did great" "yeah, yeah it did amazing" :skull: why we assuring ourselves
[3:57 PM] "especially since they couldn't go to japan, so last time they went to japan they had content it was like -- right now they just did comeback stuff and -- they did really well, but it wasn't a korean comeback and korean comebacks just get more money more promotions"
[3:58 PM] "it's a huge celebrations for dreamzens for -- well nct dream selling their first full album and they're -- 1 million seller -- but there's really no point in comparing units and their achievements like i understand that nct dream debuted for a very long time and never had a full album but it's like but -- how do i say this -- it's not like, there's really not point for comparing them --" "if you're MAD at nct dream not getting an album that's not 127's fault, that's SM's"
[3:59 PM] "i know it's been a hard year, with the pandemic and everything, but people need to like, chill. like they're taking away the joy of the comeback, it makes 127zens not want to support dream....if you keep acting like this, you're gonna hurt them, like we're doing it for them"
[4:00 PM] "i just wanna say please respect yuta,"
[4:01 PM] "stream taeil, str--yknow what i know nobody gonna listen to this" "stream hot sauce" "uhhhh" "well...." "stream whatever you want to stream and screw the rest" "oh and twice comeback soon" "how do i leave" [someone plays clapping noises]
[4:10 PM] "if it's about to end can i say something" "okay" "i think you were saying about haechan and mark and stuff like, i haven't seen, since i've been a fan since 2015 and i know what went down here and i haven't seen more the vision in the fandom since like, since mark left like i feel like that made a lot of people....by themselves and like you guys didn't see a lot of ot5 but it was there and it was really bad to see. like especially against haechan and ppl were like 'oh i didn't see it' but it was there"
[4:11 PM] these people be making 0 sense istg
[4:11 PM] "also can i say something in the end, i feel like someone was disrespecting taeil. i just want to say this right now, you are all going to turn 26, you are all going to get older he is just young at heart and he is a cutie his age is not the problem he should be noticed through his projects you should not be focusing on his projects" "who even said he looks like thirty like cmon" "he's not even 30 just like leave him alone" "why did we bring up enlistment anyways?" "yea what was the point of that?"
[4:12 PM] "what's even the point of this space honestly, like people only sound dumb like, what's the point" "they're talking nonsense"
[4:12 PM] "also whoever said mark can't hold a rap i'm SALTY like--" "who said that?" "zeya or whoever like -- whoever said that, i will not hear trash about mark lee"
[4:13 PM] "whoever said the only person that was highlighted was jaemin or whatever, don't ever act like faded in my last song and from home weren't everyone favorite tracks, yall doin a little too much sayin only jaemin got attention. everyone in dream got attention from nct 2020, everyone got attention that was the point."
[4:13 PM] "it's literally just their [dream's] moment but i find it like when people say oh so and so -- like that was the point of nct 2020 and it did that it was like double million sellers, like how can you ignore that SO many fans came in from that and we cannot ignore that" "wait whose mic is that" [weird ass crunching noises and chip bag sounds] "oh shit!" "....okay"
[4:13 PM] "....can i speak" "okay" "as a markzen i wanna--i have something to say, why do dreamzens throw mark under the bus when 127zens seem to drag dream. like. yall should claim him, or something." "i've seen this so many um what was it called? like so many dreamzen tweets discrediting 127 and like--mark and haechan are there so are you discrediting them?"
[4:14 PM] "i meant that jaemin ALWAYS deserves the attention he gets but faded in my last, they didn't even promote faded in my last so how can other members get recognition from the song" "it's still one of the most popular songs in resonance" "but they didn't even promote it and jaemin's fancam got so many views" "like make a wish was like the most popular" "make a wish was--overhyped, for me, it wasn't even that good" "i agree"
[4:15 PM] [it's trending apparently oh my fucking god] "everyone say your last little words" "everyone sounded so dumb" "i just wanted to say--" [host ended the space aSDJFKLASDFSDKL]
[transcript end.]
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dream dynams primer i presented to my irls around christmas as part of our series of special topic ppts. slightly modified for public consumption.

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wrote & submitted this in april last year for class like 8 days before my first dw entry lol? i think i was initially embarrassed to share this but scholarships are scholarships right....skimming over it now i think i gave sm too much credit for gg subversion (WAY too much considering our lovely recently-debuted incelbait gregorian-chant-interlaced superg hit track) when it was probably a purely-business play at carving a distinct niche in the gg scene but whatever luvies this is for u! *misses the hoop*
(mobile users, try this)

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if i make this unreadable no one can read it

it all started when the quarantine fucked me up and i started therapy again and finally got adhd meds (my meds have worn off right now as u can probably tell). i felt like a different person as i said many times at that time. this was in the midst of starting to make twitter friends and ummmm how do i say apparently its true once ur medicated ur not as chronically online but. because i was making friends on twt and i also literally couldn't see my irls like at all (we videocalled every friday but) that kinda IS the social grounds in the quarantine isn't it. anyway point being i became very productive around this time and wrote a lot of dreamwidth posts. like i have a feeling it was march or april that i started medicating and lo and behold look who started posting on dw in april? who wrote three fics the first being completed in april? there u go. and i know 3 is like, idk grass to most writers (wtf is this metaphor) but ummmm im me and that means i cant do shit so this is an accomplishment. this also trails back into 2020 but when i made my first close friend on twt (leaf) and we began talking more i developed a confidence i hadn't had my entire life and so i'm really grateful to have firstly, leaf in my life, and secondly that it led to such good things for my personal self esteem (which can still dip very easily let me be clear, but there's a baseline confidence that was smashed to bits in high school that i regained or actually developed even stronger than before). there were times i felt guilty even making friends on twitter like i was spreading myself too thin and then not being a good enough friend to any one person but i don't think anyone here would complain about that other than my random long bouts of absenteeism from dms (i'm sorry about that i really am i get overwhelmed easily). idk i just make problems for myself by thinking what if everyone thought this. like for example very often i go "what if ripley hates me" and i cant even answer that, so u can say my self esteem isn't exactly stable. and to be honest i be therapizing everyone else in dms but i also need therapizing lol. (do therapists get therapy? i wonder how it feels knowing exactly what ur therapist is thinking and doing though like i feel like i'd go insane instead of gaining anything from the experience) i feel bad for making my gf hear all my bullshit negative thoughts all the time like id be so fed up with myself (i am fed up with myself) to hear all that. oh speaking of that's riiiight this is a year in review. so summer months very productive fandomwise counting down the days til i could leave my home (and the insanities it brought out in me) and live in the apartment. did prk fixed my eyesights was kinda blind for a bit (but now i have 20/20 vision in my right eye and 20/15 vision in my left eye and it's almost 20/15 + 20/10 actually with 20/10 being the best eyesight u can have? holy shit and it's still healing until february so it's possible it could get that good. i see specks of dust no one else can these days it's kinda crazy). uni began and i was lucky to have a very easy semester all things considered meanwhile all my aptmates were like dying every night so it gave me time to worry about them (which is great because i was like REALLY worried about them and im glad i could help in literally any way) and also go on a trip to philly and get drunk and confess to my crush of 5 billion years. just kidding but 6 and a half years out of [redacted] is essentially equivalent. anyway we're dating now and apparently she also liked me back then too so wtf were we doing. that's right we were trying not to die of stress back then. makes sense :") my unexplored traumas. or explored and yet still not explored enough.

i passed my classes and cried a lot over classes also even though i said it was a relatively easy semester remember how i also said i create problems for myself? i really did. girl i hate myself sometimes. everything is like existential and a crisis with me. all my strengths turn into weaknesses etc etc nobody show this to potential employers pls and thank u

i thought this would be way more upbeat than it actually is hdfksngkdgfds but anyway spent a lot of good times with gf however haven't seen her in 3 weeks almost 4 and maybe it's pitiful to be seriously torn apart over this but apparently we both have been so. well her sister was exposed to covids so she can't even come to my bday party tmrw so fml of course im a little torn up about that. and she couldn't see me on my bday because i needed to get tested for covids at that time. :((((

i really want to do what flo did and name people and say things but i'm really worried i'm going to forget to list someone and then i feel ashamed that i might forget someone like i swear it doesn't mean anything i'm just incredibly scatterbrained. so actually if u would like me to say something u can leave a comment and i'll say something and u can even tell me the scope of what u want to hear (cute and nice or analytical or critical or whatever it is) (okay critical may have very little so maybe don't ask me for that but i can do analytical) (u can ask me to mbti type u also esp if i said i would earlier this year dw i did think about it and probably have an answer)

if i do a review of like what i wish i could have improved or done better on this post would never end so i'll just do a list of things i want to do? that may never end also. i'll try to keep it short for this post's sake.

future plans:

- huoguo networking au with moch

- OMG. #najaembday dw commentary as well

- research + read + apply art techniques

- learn how to use the palette knives mich (irl) got me on the gouache she also got me (just kidding i know i will just fuck around and find out but i hope i at least do the fucking around part and don't forget about them)

- maybe compile the things i learn from various sources so as to refer to it when im stuck or disseminate that knowledge to peers (may or may not be the members of the art club i am now co-running)

- research storytelling structure (esp 3-act structure)

- start learning chinese again

- write more dw posts and care less about what other people think of how theyre formatted or written or what they'll assume about me based on it? because i think that's holding me back. and to kick that off i'm writing this post like this

- learn how to make clothes and actually make some

- learn how to design clothes also

- finish embroidering for gf's bday gift (in case she sees this somehow im not specifying any further than that)

- maybe do some planks/crunches/pushups to better define my abs (lol)

- write fics and try not to get caught up on how stupid it reads before it's even done

- write dvd commentaries for fics!!

- type up those quotes i saved from deep wizardry for a dw post and actually post them

- read neuromancer (the way i be begging myself to read one [1] book)

- make more informational ppts on niche things

- review/edit/post the dreamies ppt

- read the things i promised to read and comment on things i promised to comment on

- reply to comments on various platforms

- spend as much time with gf before is too late and our life situations force us to see eo less :"(

- pick one: law or business

- NOT get covids

omfg this list is too long i will stop it here. as u can see i have things i want to do vs things i actually accomplish per year (maybe 2 things i'm not even confident about that). i feel like someone with basic organization and productivity levels could do most of this why cant iiii. well i always try to do 3000 things at once at varying levels of success so maybe the meds will help me actually do some of it like it did for me this past year. thank u modern medicine. would i be here today without you. highly unlikely. if u got this far u have my blessings on any one desire of ur heart u choose to apply it to. <3

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the how-to-not-get-canceled guide is like:

- use terminology only you & a select few people understand

- write tweets in such a way that they are unreadable. this does not mean use big words bc that is actually cause for more cancellation. the structure has to be indecipherable

- liberally cens*r and nickname

- use ciphers/code for ur worst tweets

- use other languages when u know u r at risk of cancellation

- use photos/screenshot of message to convey intent w/o searchability

- put the cancellable parts behind a barrier (clicking a link etc)

#lovememe

Nov. 29th, 2021 05:36 am
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holiday love meme 2021
my thread here
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complete!

FIRST TIME WATCHING


squid game

2 episodes so far but i've rewatched these two episodes so many times to catch all my irls up to speed....maybe we will finally get into episode 3 one day. i don't really have any commentary at this stage of watching because nothing remarkable has really happened and nothing was particularly horribly done either.


leverage reboot eps 9 n 10

watching w a friend who enjoyed the original. this is nothing like that, according to her. the dialogue is straight horrendous. but super hilarious absolutely not in the way they wanted. BAFFLING choices in like everything including cinnamon tography camera angles timing pacing story idk literally everything you name it. lines that rule in the worst way:

  • "i'm going to the helicopter. you're going back to the library"
  • "whoa! a gun?"
  • "i feel like i've waited too long." "....like an old man in a library"
  • *background music that sounds like an extended frog's croak*
  • *halfhearted pencil roll under a table*
  • "dammit doris, the bees are sleeping"
  • "zazi, go and get our perspectives from the car too" *zazi walks away like a gta stripper imitating an anime girl*
  • "can i get some help here-- i-- can i get a little help here"
  • "eliot, grab me a chalupa. the one that i like"
  • "do you wanna see: 40 million dollars?"
  • "5 million dollars to launch your bee cream"
  • "and for a premium, we will ship you LIVE BEES"
  • "namaste, chad." "namaste, bebe"
  • "bronwyn, you're lying. because it's what you do"

this is actually quality entertainment perfect for watching while doing homework 100% recommend. (ep 10 was much better than ep 9 also, i found it much more genuinely enjoyable in narrative.)


keeping up w the kardashians s12e12

  • "i just got bit and now i have zikia or whatever the fuck it's called"
  • "i love everything about cuba. i love that there's history, and culture,"
  • "it made my butt liberated!"
  • *serious conversation about relationship troubles* "could you pass the olives, kim?"
  • "but now i understand. this is the way you talk to children"
  • "and he's like, 'i just have thoughts now, at night'"
  • "serragated." "segregated." "not segregated. serragated....serrated?"

in concludes i greatly enjoyed having this playing in the bg as i worked on a coding proj. 100 quality garbage white noise

search party ep1

ok i see the potential for char dev. but do i have the strength to sit through it when we have to wait for literally every main char to learn n grow and not be assholes. that is the question

dancing with the stars eps1-4

i LOVE that the judges give real dance critique i am actually OBSESSED but ofc i am because i grew up on sytycd. speaking off i need to make a post on the most memorable perfs from my sytycd childhood because i still haven't forgotten some of them

the voice ep1

the game i play w this show is can i guess which judge the contestant will choose with the little knowledge we're given. and every time i underestimate the contestant's understanding of which judge is actually best for them and assume they'll pick their fav singer over The Best Judge For Their Style And Technique. every contestant has chosen very wisely thus far and it's very great to see that these singers have the technical or stylistic knowledge to distinguish between judges in the way that best fits them....sidenote kelly clarkson and blake shelton seem to seriously hate each other it's krilling me like yeah go get his ass kelly....blake is truly annoying


REWATCHES


jennifer's body

THIS MOVIE IS WAY HORNIER THAN I REMEMBER. when jennifer shoves needy against the wall and is like "are you scared?" oh my god. i had a moment seriously

sex ed s1

rewatching so soon after having wached it for the first time....still good. makes me even sadder that s3 was like 70% garbage

handmaiden (2016)

the first time i watched this with 3 friends none of us had any idea what was coming (no pun intended). the second time i watched this was with moch and we were both on the same wavelength already and it didn't matter. the third time, aka this time, i watched it with like 5 other people who hadn't seen it before thinking that we would be able to sit through this because we're the ripe age of [redacted] and can handle this maturely. but actually. ACTUALLY. i think i was less phased THE FIRST TIME i watched this because suddenly every scene was TOTALLY MORTIFYING because i have a girlfriend at the present and she was also in the room and i was trying very hard not to look at her or the screen or at anyone else lest they read my mind and realize that everything happening on screen was either something we had done or were going to do. and also being like oh my god we weren't ready for this. were we ever going to be. i'm like if moch and i watched this together in person would it be as weird as it was with them. aka am i contributing to the lack of maturity. and i don't really know the answer to that

soul eater eps1-6

girl what's with the fanservice in the intro eps. like eps1-3 are soooo annoying w it and then it very nearly disappears as the series goes along? way to mislead like the fuck....so embarrassing to be like "oh i loved this show" and make my friends sit through all that....DAMN

teen titans s3e3 & s2e6

banger show just replayed a couple of my fave #robstar eps in the company of friends yes i do enjoy the occasional het ship (including soul/maka from soul eater) and this pair is soooo cute and sweet and poifect

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random question that probably doesnt have a direct answer but what are some instances that makes the km community believe they live together (km) also im km truther just fairly new here HEJDJDJDBD
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i am guy who needs a definite answer all the time so much and seeks it out constantly and so....having conducted so many deepdives on this exact topic....here is my summary of evidences:

> SUBTLE THINGS:

b) jimin specifically said he does not cook. and in that one thing where they were writing the profile for another member of the group, jin was writing for jimin right. and he had to write what each member was to jimin. and for jungkook, jin wrote "jungkook is my chef"

c) jimin brought up that jungkook's morning alarm is an autotuned baby's cry

d) jimin also described how jungkook snores, in detail

e) and that one time they had that question that was like "what do u like to do in the morning" and jimin was like "i like to see jungkook's face"

f) i don't know this myself because i don't rly watch current bangtan content but i hear they're "filming content in the dorm now" aka the dorm exists as a concept and not as an actual living space (i don't know if they're still filming 'dorm content' anymore but at one point they were)

i think you might've gathered from even just this much that a) the members do not live together anymore, and b) jikook seem to be living together. there is a lot more evidence but these are the most directly correlated to them living together. they keep referring to things that u could only know if u lived with someone or saw them around nighttime. and it seems like they were/are the only two that live together, because none of the other members have volunteered information at this level of intimacy about literally any of the other members, much less abt jm or jk.

i really wonder if its like a think they agreed with bighit to pretend abt or if its contractual....like did bighit say u better pretend ur a boyband to the extent we want or were they like fine we will pretend for a few more years. i have no answers for this i just think about it a lot

> APARTMENTS:

bts have bought like apartments in really expensive places like trimage, hannam hill, etc. it was hobi first in 2016, then the others followed over the years. jungkook was notably second: in 2016, he bought an apartment in trimage, which i heard was for his parents. then in 2018, he bought another apartment at trimage, presumably for himself. NOTABLY, jimin had not bought an apartment up until this point, but by 2019 every other member had.

~according to my sources~, jungkook then sold his trimage apartment in july 2020 (sale registered october 2020). and in december 2020, he bought a house in itaewon. combining a couple sources, though, it seems that this house was being rented out to "the representation of an international holding" from 2019 and will be rented out to them until september 2021. so he is not living there, and he sold his trimage apartment. furthermore, to register the itaewon house he bought, jungkook listed a nine one hannam address, and he also used that nine one hannam address to vote that year. and EVEN FURTHERMORE, in august when jungkook had already sold trimage and had not even purchased the itaewon house yet, he had someone come into his apartment twice to install a soundproof booth (and gave him an autograph for his sister). so we have to wonder....is his studio at nine one hannam? at a place he didn't even purchase? (note: jimin has still not bought a place of his own.)

in may 2021, namjoon officially became the owner of an apartment at nine one hannam, and one day after that jimin also became an owner of his own apartment at nine one hannam. (namjoon's was more expensive, because it has a terrace.) there was that one repairman that saw jimin at nine one hannam, but apparently he was told there were 3 members living in nine one hannam.

if we look at this apartment history, we can see that the times that jungkook and jimin owned and lived in their own purchased apartments have not coincided even once. furthermore, we can be fairly confident that jimin and namjoon are in nine one hannam, and most likely the third member at nine one hannam is jungkook. jungkook could either be staying at an apartment of his own there and simply not purchased it under his own name (which i believe he was doing in 2020 when he no longer owned trimage and was renting out his itaewon house), or -- and i find this is more likely to be true in 2021, considering all the other factors listed above in SUBTLE THINGS -- he is living with jimin at nine one hannam.

i would even go a step further and say that perhaps jimin bought the apartment jungkook was staying in, and that both of them are now living in that apartment with the soundproof booth jungkook got installed in 2020. because when i think of that -- it solves all the remaining questions. like why is jungkook staying at nine one hannam and getting a soundproof booth installed there instead of his itaewon house? and why would jungkook get a soundproof booth installed in an apartment he hasn't already bought and isn't buying? both questions are resolved if we consider the possibility that jimin bought that apartment under his name, and they're both living there together.

i hope this is helpful nonnie >_< i tried to be comprehensive since u r new!! but i think most ppl don't even know this stuff even if they are km truther so i may have went overboard haha

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today's tour guide is huang renjun. you don't really know anything about him. he has a tin of colored pencils for some reason and you asked why and he said someone gave it to him and you asked who and he said "no one important" in the way that someone would say it if it was in fact someone very important. you figured it was none of your business though

really old roundup that at this point i don't even recall what i wanted to elaborate on because in my head this is rly the extent of the thoughts so ummmm okay surprise drop!!

itzy

mafia in the morning

  • lydian // indian influence
    • tritone
  • nursery rhyme // childish mystery tune
  • the church/orchestral-like bridge? then mixed with the sighing harmonies and lydian tritone?

sorry not sorry

  • chromaticism bridge (and mandolin-esque sounds?)
  • phrygian 3rd chorus(?)

kidding me

  • chromaticism drop?

wild wild west

  • chromaticism in chorus?

shoot!

  • autotune?
  • latin influence?
  • claimed to be plagiarized

tennis (0:0)

  • [edit: i did not write anything here]

nct dream

hot sauce

  • cultural influences (african/sound/beat, latin/sample/sound/visually, indian/bollywood/visually)

dive into you

  • chromaticism throughout, interesting bass note

diggity

  • chromaticism? interesting chorus note choices(?)

p1harmony scared

aespa next level

bts butter

it ended here but i definitely listened to more music than just this and i have spotify playlists for each month so i guess i can figure smth out with those sometime

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today's tour guide, jeno lee from whore repairs: yoit!

first listen music theory takes from a playlist my sister made and played for me whilst i could not see. the playlist was basically a bunch of songs she's been asking me to listen to for ages:

and then i scribbled in a journal as each song played:

gimme gimme - nct 127

  • prechor melody grabs from the motif/hook of instrumental
  • major in 2nd and 3rd chorus?!

oops! - loona

  • modal intro....?
    • augmented chord @ intro? (1-4-6?)
  • rap rhythm syncopated....?
  • moombahton postchorus?
  • final postchor final descending notes in instrumental diff

hide & seek - loona

  • odd rhythm from start
  • chromaticism @ end of verse 1
  • house-esque verses
  • major prechor?
  • is chorus major or minor?
  • rhythm/beat change
  • piano major!!!! bridge
  • more chromaticism @ end of bridge
  • lil chromaticism tidbits

red sun - dreamcatcher

  • arabian nights vibes
  • shoot! by itzy vibes but also everglow vibes + itzy mafia/lullaby vibes

surf - itzy

  • disco vibes + funk vibes (uptown funk bass)
  • weird chord in prechor
  • 2nd prechor - funk-esque guitar

you're in love, right - izone

  • gamery sounds - brooke would like
  • weird chord in prechor?
  • odd rhythm that kinda devolves into almost eurobeat(?) in chorus
  • bridge = prechor but has extra beat before moving to chor

body rhythm - shinee

  • side to side vibes - reggaeton
  • classic trap beat prechor
  • SIDE TO SIDE CHOR FOR REEAL
    • sparse snap beat revs into reggaeton
    • 3rd chor drops to reggaeton immediately + similar adlibs
      • kinda similar ending

scandal - twice

  • house/disco vibes
    • future nostalgia vibes (retro)
  • VERY FUNK INSPIRED
    • piano + funk-esque guitar + retro disco feel....

mise-en-scene - izone

  • BASSSSS
  • house i think w/ EDM(?) [edit: ik house is a type of edm so i guess i just don't know what other type of edm i was hearing here]
  • nice chord in chorus
  • RLY GOOD INSTRUMENTAL PRODUCTION

action figure - wayv

  • trap/latin influence????/musical-esque
  • TEN!!!! 2nd prechor
  • long + fascinating bridge....
  • blues-y chords @ end ? (ti-do) [edit: i didn't use a separate bulletpoint for "(ti-do)" but that's not a blues chord progression hallmark. i know i heard ti-do in the song but may not be related to the blues-y chords]

bump bump - woodz

  • 2000s (alt?) rock
    • all time low vibes (hello brooklyn?)
    • a. lavigne here's to never growing up + what the hell
    • nickelback how you remind me [edit: ironically chad kroeger worked on the avril lavigne album that had here's to never growing up on it]
  • key change @ last chor
  • chor rly familiar driving me NUTS

ding ding dong - loona

  • intro chords so weird?
  • the last part of prechor weird???? key? mode? (not as strong 2nd prechor)
  • funky bass [incomprehensible scribbling i'm so sorry this is the best i could discern: "jackonf 123"] bass only esque

gxxd boy - everglow

  • RIPLEY WOULD LIKE
  • CHROMATICISM
  • P1HARMONY-ESQUE
  • familiar prechor chord prog
  • THE WHISTLE IS IN CHERRY - ITZY [edit: whistle sample]
  • KESHA - DIE YOUNG BASS CHORD PROG.

fantasia - monsta x

  • moombahton(?)
  • lil mosquito laser sound in chor

flash - x1

  • MASAYUME CHASING-ESQUE INTRO
    • rly familiar intro
      • american song?
        • APPLAUSE - LADY GAGA (PIANO + SYNTH)
  • HOUSE W/ FUNK-ESQUE VIBES
  • EDM POSTCHOR [edit: again some edm type i didn't know how to name but just not house usually when i say this i mean whatever bts dna has going on in its chorus]
    • familiar....mosquito sound
  • running running run-running running --> SUPER FAMILIAR

boyness - produce x 101

  • inch resting intro pianoesque chords....almost blues ?
  • red velvet automatic underbeat in verse(?)
  • HOUSE CHORUS
  • outro chords inch resting

come back - nct 127

  • britney spears vibes in initial verse instrumental
  • house
  • HAECHAN!!!!
  • piano bridge babeyyy
  • in 2nd bridge!! hiphop rap trap?
  • very end - britney spears-esque

open to discussion questions suggestions corrections etc etc i just might need to listen to the song again because i only heard each of these in their entirety one (1) time

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the tour guide on shift today, part-time camp counselor mark lee from ncity, canada: okay glasses on everyone....*looks around* wow, we kinda-- we kinda look FLY haha

this is like 90% joke but also there are people in every category whomst i have disliked for falling under that category (among other things usually) so it's not like totally untrue. i judge people on a case by case basis though so falling into any of these categories doesn't necessarily mean anything....these are just things that may indicate deeper differences between us ykyk and if it does then that may be the real problem....on the surface this means nothing it's the potential implications etc etc

a) people who dislike bts jimin

okay actually more specifically people who dislike him for the wrong reasons. if ur going to dislike him do it right. i can name a few good objective reasons off the top of my head and i'm basically a jimin akgae so i'm sure u can too

b) liking hendery andor yuta

i don't think i have to explain myself like. unforgivable acts indisputably racist and misogynistic behaviors respectively

c) being a kuanggong

no bc u can like xiaojun in a fucked up kind of way but if u ACTUALLY like him like in the STAN way....the xiaojun defenders n shooterz way....if u wouldve defended him in february over the misogyny allegations....hell even in october over the staff allegations....there are irreconcilable differences between us

d) thinking johnny is attractive

he looks like the onceler. are you into tumblr sexymen. we are not the same

e) u refuse to tag the (potentially triggering, morally questionable) things that are clearly in ur fic

u are either rageprufrock aka the most pretentious fic author of all time or u are [redacted] and refuse to acknowledge something that is plainly in ur fic and i sincerely question ur irl morals. it's actually not about the tags because actually i think it's okay to tag or not tag it's ur fic but i just question u as a person it just makes me incredibly wary and often demonstrates a disregard for others andor placing u/ur fic/ur intent above all else. like u can have the stuff in the fic but tags are there for a reason u are not spoiling ur "art" okay i promise

f) clapped ao3 usernames

this is literally so petty i just get wary when ur username is capitalized and got numbers and all that idk it depends though Rose_gold715 is a god for example whereas virtual1979 is satan's grandchild

i can't think of anymore i actually can't even hate people properly for these things my problem is forgiving red flags too much in reality....but i am trying to free myself of feeling like things have to be complete or coherent so i will just post this now. then of course i will probably come up with more immediately after i post this and then of course my views continue to not reflect my views meaning none of this means anything. claps halfheartedly

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for anon <3

ahhhhh !! thank you so much, i appreciate how much effort you out into this 🤯and yeah i was scouring the internet and no one else seemed to think jimin was a type 3 i was shocked so im happy to see you agree. i also thought jk was a type 3 but after thinking about it he doesn't really display the 'negative' sides of a type 3. if you don't mind id love to hear your explanations :)))
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this very much hinges on the proposed mbti types of each bangtan member from this site: https://kpopmbti.tumblr.com/post/122978561666/rap-monster-istp-i-just-want-to-say-that-im


NAMJOON: 4w5, "the bohemian"

type 4:

(a very very unusual istp. i believe his istp nature is at odds with his 4w5 intellectual intentions, and this is where his seeming contradictions and internal dichotomies arise.)

https://kpopmbti.tumblr.com/post/122978561666/rap-monster-istp-i-just-want-to-say-that-im

“Okay so I had the most trouble when typing Rap Monster because he is just so unlike the traditional descriptions of his type; or maybe I was just over analyzing everything he was saying.”

(i had debated between 5w4 and 4w5 but i think the differences between namjoon and yoongi emphasize the difference between namjoon's "bohemian" nature and yoongi's "iconoclast" nature. they go about things in similar ways and have complimentary ideas but in the end their personal outlooks are different. yoongi is also much more of a thinker type than namjoon is, in the sense that yoongi prefers and values that logic and practicality whereas namjoon is fully capable of being logical and practical but chooses to focus on the philosophical and artistic side of life.)

wing 5:

https://kpopmbti.tumblr.com/post/122978561666/rap-monster-istp-i-just-want-to-say-that-im

“Then it was just a matter of debating between ISTP and INTP. His thoughts are very deep and theoretical which is a typical INTP trait BUT he has no Ne.”

https://thoughtcatalog.com/heidi-priebe/2016/01/mbti-and-the-enneagram-2/3/

“The Type 5 ISTP may find themselves particularly reliant on their introverted thinking and introverted intuition functions, and may find extroverted sensing to be somewhat of a blind spot, as they rarely feel comfortable acting until they have thoroughly scrutinized a given circumstance. This type of ISTP is most likely to be mistaken as an INTP by others, as they may be less quick to act upon their impulses than other Se-driven types.”

https://www.enneagraminstitute.com/type-4

“Enneagram Four with a Three-Wing: "The Aristocrat"”

vs.

“Enneagram Four with a Five-Wing: "The Bohemian"”

(i believe “the bohemian” suits namjoon’s general approach to life very very well.)


SEOKJIN: 9w8, "the referee"

(extremely difficult to type -- which makes type nine all the more fitting.)

type 9:

https://www.enneagraminstitute.com/type-9

“Basic Desire: To have inner stability "peace of mind"”

“We have sometimes called the Nine *the crown of the Enneagram* because it is at the top of the symbol and because it seems to include the whole of it. Nines can have the strength of Eights, the sense of fun and adventure of Sevens, the dutifulness of Sixes, the intellectualism of Fives, the creativity of Fours, the attractiveness of Threes, the generosity of Twos, and the idealism of Ones. However, what they generally do not have is a sense of really inhabiting themselves—a strong sense of their own identity.”

“Ironically, therefore, the only type the Nine is not like is the Nine itself. Being a separate self, an individual who must assert herself against others, is terrifying to Nines. They would rather melt into someone else or quietly follow their idyllic daydreams.”

wing 8:

https://www.enneagraminstitute.com/type-8

“Basic Fear: Of being harmed or controlled by others

Basic Desire: To protect themselves (to be in control of their own life and destiny)”

“Eights are the true “rugged individualists” of the Enneagram. More than any other type, they stand alone. They want to be independent, and resist being indebted to anyone. They often refuse to “give in” to social convention, and they can defy fear, shame, and concern about the consequences of their actions. Although they are usually aware of what people think of them, they do not let the opinions of others sway them.”


YOONGI: 5w4, "the iconoclast"

type 5:

https://thoughtcatalog.com/heidi-priebe/2016/01/mbti-and-the-enneagram-2/6/

“These INTJs are, almost without exception, avid independent researchers. They take everything they read or hear about with a grain of salt – distrusting everything right down to the physical world that surrounds them until they have independently assessed it from every possible angle.”

“At their core, this type believes that their self-worth is dependent upon their competence and capability. They are constantly moving away from feelings of helplessness and incompetence, and toward feelings of understanding and capability.”

wing 4:

https://www.enneagraminstitute.com/type-5

“Enneagram Five with a Four-Wing: "The Iconoclast"

vs.

“Enneagram Five with a Six-Wing: "The Problem Solver"”

(“the iconoclast” suits yoongi so well. like. itz him.)


HOSEOK: 2w3, "the host/hostess"

type 2:

https://thoughtcatalog.com/heidi-priebe/2016/01/mbti-and-the-enneagram-2/15/

“Type 2 ENFJs are highly outgoing, sociable and friendly in nature. They tend to be active members of their community and are often heavily involved with charity work or helping professions. Being intuitive-auxiliary types, the ENFJ will aim to provide assistance to those around them not just in a practical sense but on a deep emotional level.”

https://thoughtcatalog.com/heidi-priebe/2016/01/mbti-and-the-enneagram-2/15/

“At their core, the type 2 ENFJ believes that they are worthy only insofar as they are helpful to others. They are constantly moving away from feelings of uselessness and towards feelings of love, validation and acceptance. They are most similar in nature to their sensing cousin-type, the ESFJ.”

wing 3:

https://www.enneagraminstitute.com/type-2

“Enneagram Two with a One-Wing: "Servant"”

vs.

“Enneagram Two with a Three-Wing: "The Host/Hostess"”

(this one is also a no-brainer. he’s soooo “the host/hostess” is there even a question about this.)


JIMIN: 3w2, "the charmer"

(unique case: type 3 is rarer to find in esfps, but i think jimin demonstrates type 3 traits as core to his personality more so than he does type 2.)

type 3:

https://www.enneagraminstitute.com/type-3

“Threes are self-assured, attractive, and charming. Ambitious, competent, and energetic, they can also be status-conscious and highly driven for advancement. They are diplomatic and poised, but can also be overly concerned with their image and what others think of them. They typically have problems with workaholism and competitiveness. *At their Best*: self-accepting, authentic, everything they seem to be—role models who inspire others.”

“Key Motivations: Want to be affirmed, to distinguish themselves from others, to have attention, to be admired, and to impress others.”

wing 2:

https://thoughtcatalog.com/heidi-priebe/2016/01/mbti-and-the-enneagram-2/13/

“Type 2 ESFPs are extremely warm and welcoming – wanting to make others feel comfortable and supported at all costs. Though they are energetic in nature, they are incredibly patient when it comes to supporting the people they love, and make for great listeners and practical problem-solvers. These types will go well out of their way to help the people they love, whether that means offering them practical assistance, taking them out to get their mind off things, or having a long, encouraging conversation about how the other person is feeling. Type 2 ESFPs are often highly in touch with their introverted feeling and are very insightful about the desires, fears and motivations of others.”

“They are constantly moving away from feelings of insignificance and towards feelings of love and appreciation. They are most like their extroverted-feeling dominant friends, ESFJs.”

https://kpopmbti.tumblr.com/post/122978561666/rap-monster-istp-i-just-want-to-say-that-im

“Jimin was one of the easiest for me to type. I did think he had Fe for a while because he is just so thoughtful and the members described him as being the one who listens to all their problems the best which didn’t really strike me as an ESFP trait (no offense to all the ESFPs out there).”

https://www.enneagraminstitute.com/type-3

“Enneagram Three with a Two-Wing: "The Charmer"”

vs.

“Enneagram Three with a Four-Wing: "The Professional"”

(both of these suit him but i was confident he had type 2 to some degree, much more than he has 4, i think. i could technically see both because he does have a very strong sense of individuality and artistic identity etc etc as a type 4 would have….but “the charmer” was just too perfect haha)


TAEHYUNG: 7w8, "the realist"

type 7:

https://thoughtcatalog.com/heidi-priebe/2016/01/mbti-and-the-enneagram-2/9/

“Type 7 ENTPs tend to be energetic, explorative and wildly imaginative – placing a heavy emphasis on their extroverted intuition and preferring the pursuit of new ideas to their corresponding follow-through. This type of ENTP is likely to jump from experience to experience throughout the course of their lives – harnessing their natural entrepreneurial skills to cultivate unique opportunities for themselves that deviate from the societal norm. They are highly independent and dislike being constrained, but they have less of a desire to control the world around them than their type 8 counterparts. Rather, they enjoy manipulating their environments for fun, and as a means of avoiding stagnancy.”

“At their core, type 7 ENTPs are driven by the fear of becoming trapped, stuck or stagnant in their lives. They are constantly moving away from deprivation and toward variety and abundance. These ENTPs are most similar to their sensory-oriented cousin, the ESTP.”

https://kpopmbti.tumblr.com/post/122978561666/rap-monster-istp-i-just-want-to-say-that-im

“Suga once said that “he’s immature and isn’t able to become serious. It seems like he doesn’t care what others think,” and this really made me think of Ti. Since Fe is a tertiary function in ENTPs, and because he’s so young, it can be hard to adjust to other people’s feelings. But he find it super easy to make friends with people (especially with his father Daehyun), and often mentions how he has a lot of friends because he isn’t picky or judgmental and people are drawn to hat about him (a typical ENTP trait). He has this extra childishness that comes with being young and that’s why his Ti isn’t that prominent unless you really devour everything he says like I did.”

wing 8:

https://kpopmbti.tumblr.com/post/122978561666/rap-monster-istp-i-just-want-to-say-that-im

something taehyung said himself: “"I have a motto that came from my father: “What is that that’s so important.” It has a lot of meaning. I have moments where I’m tired, annoyed, and don’t want to do things. But whenever I think of these words, those things become nothing. If you endure through it, good things will come your way. My father ingrained this into my head so whenever I’m at hardship, I think of these words so I hope we never forget this.””

https://www.enneagraminstitute.com/type-8

“Thayer is a stockbroker who has worked intensively on understanding her type Eight personality. She recounts a childhood incident in which she could clearly see the development of this pattern.

“Much of my tenacity and toughness comes from my Dad. He always told me not to ‘let anybody push you around.’ It was not okay to cry. I learned to master my weaker side early on. At the tender age of eight, a huge horse ran away with me. When an adult caught the horse, I resolutely dismounted without a tear. I could tell my father was proud.””

https://enneagrampaths.com/2020/07/17/enneagram-types-7w6-vs-7w8/

“They can seem less friendly than the 7w6, but only because they care less about what others think and refuse to be put into boxes. This natural ability to be themselves then extends to others, creating space for healthy individuality and uniqueness.”


JUNGKOOK: 6w7, "the buddy"

type 6:

https://thoughtcatalog.com/heidi-priebe/2016/01/mbti-and-the-enneagram-2/10/

“Type 6 ISFJs are highly security-oriented. Their core fear is that they are unable to provide for themselves and so they are incredibly loyal and diligent to people around them – believing that having strong social support will bring them security.”

“Type 6 ISFJs place a strong trust in societal institutions and organizations – which is exaggerated by their dominant introverted sensing function. They are likely to seek out jobs, affiliations and group memberships that are long lasting and mutually reciprocal. They are incredibly loyal to the institutions they involve themselves in, deriving a sense of security from the consistency of their involvement. Type 6 ISFJs are constantly moving away from feelings of inadequacy and toward feelings of support and guidance. They most closely resemble their ISTJ cousins, in that they are diligent, hardworking and loyal as a rule.”

https://kpopmbti.tumblr.com/post/122978561666/rap-monster-istp-i-just-want-to-say-that-im

“He’s described as being kind, innocent, and bad at expressing his feelings. He’s also super bad at refusing requests. I definitely think that he has Fe rather than Te but it’s harder to notice because of how withdrawn he is. Hes always said how uncomfortable he is speaking in front of people and in interviews so that is definitely an indicator that his Fe isn’t as developed as it should be because he is so closed off. But his manners are still first class like how he he’s aware of social norms.”

“The actions he takes reflect what he’s done in the past depending on what has and hasn’t worked for him. For example when he’s reading he thinks “If I read, then I’ll become better at speaking then I am now, right?” He often mentions how he’s changed compared to his trainee days. The words he lives by are that passion is imperative in order to grow and that passion is fueled by accumulated experiences.”

wing 7:

(i believe that jungkook's wing 7 is quite strong and this is what makes him such an unusually impulsive, active, and playful isfj.)

https://www.enneagraminstitute.com/type-6

“Enneagram Six with a Five-Wing: "The Defender"”

vs.

“Enneagram Six with a Seven-Wing: "The Buddy"”

(both roles could suit him but i think we can all agree that he is very much not a thinker type 5. lol)

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i remember i took some quiz abt which nct dream member i'm closest in personality with and i got jeno (i'm intp) so i think that's why i was wondering! i would like to know the explanations for both jeno and jisung
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JENO ISTP (TI SE NI FE)

my initial jeno istp thoughts (from like 2020):

"Okay introverted clearly....He seems like an Se user -- athleticism often falls here (not always, but a Lot). Could he be a Ti-dom? (He does like cats...LOL.) That would make him ISTP. See, if he was an Fi-dom that would say ISFP -- but he doesn't seem particularly driven by values. We could put Se lower, but that pulls up Ni -- I can't recall Jeno being so linearly future-oriented, so I think it can't be his dominant trait; it has to be lower."

"I think Jeno is definitely Se-Ni, in some way. He said he likes making things and collected plastic models (Se)....In regards to food, Jeno continually refers back to his childhood experiences influencing his views of his favorite and least favorite foods, but these backward references are generally factual [(Se as opposed to Si)]."

on istpisms:

"istps being the head empty thinkers

only thinking when required

jeno's brain 90% of the time: must touch. must put my face near

jeno the other 10% of the time when he has to take an exam or win a game: galaxybrain.jpg"

on se-isms:

"to me observing people dynamix/vibes/etc is an fe trait! for example, under the assumption jeno is an se-user, he doesn't have nearly as strong an EQ as haechan -- that adaptability to ppl and dynamics in that way is very fe to me. i see se as dealing more with the external physical environment, whereas fe deals with that interpersonal emotional environment, still an external awareness but a focus on a different aspect of it. this is where i see the difference: cafe 7dream, we saw jeno working the machines, making drinks, and that's physical environment. in contrast, haechan was at the front interacting with customers -- making his job interpersonal rather than physical. there were times he did some physical portions like cake-making, etc. but he gravitated to the interpersonal over physical, and jeno did vice versa."

on ti-isms:

"high se-users tend not to be as oriented toward that persuasive-speech/smooth-talking stuff; they're much more about the physicality of the moment. i think [haech] and jeno are similar in that when faced with a challenge or competition, they analyze their situation and decide what angle they're going to take when implementing the task -- to me that points to them both having ti. for an se-user, they're more often going to simply jump into the task and figure it out as they go, but i see that haechan (and jen [sometimes -- he still has se]) usually think before they do something."

JISUNG INTP (TI NE SI FE)

i thought he was infp (fi ne si te) all this while but i guess the one thing that does confirm is that i'm fairly confident he has ne-aux and tert-si. this can be seen in the jensung contrast: jeno is a guy of few words -- his top two functions are about internal thinking and perceiving physical surroundings -- whereas jisung has ne in his top two, which is the brainstorming function. thoughts in his head 24/7 and never shuts up about them according to jeno (who apparently likes that about him).

so the debate is between fi-te and ti-fe. i think i was thrown off by his dancing ability -- which isn't something very commonly associated with intps -- and also his heavily emotional side, which i read as infp. but i forgot to account for jisung is ~dpressed~ and ~also probably has anxiety~ and literally any mentow hewth issues drag u over to infpisms unforch. so i tried to focus beyond those surface-level traits. and i see that he is fascinated by gadgets and devices and how things work and knowledge and the world and shit. that's so intp. specifically ti. the exploration of knowledge for knowledge's sake. mental camp just SCREAMED jisung intp to me. "you are being a follower but u can also be a leader" YEAH. intps tend not to put themselves in a leader position unless it's necessary but they have ti. the strategy function. they can fucken do that shit if they wanted. also that number game, he had his game face on, he had a plan....how very ti of you pwark jwisong. and in 7llin fuckin around w the karaoke machine....his stupid gum container that he bought cos it had a unique mechanism in how it opened/provided a piece of gum....like okay rube goldberg. u can tell he's super in-his-own-head because he did not consider the consequences of that gum container mechanism in that literally any force applied to the bottom would eject a piece of gum....plus we were told that he walks around in circles muttering to himself like an insane person which he claims was him imagining scenarios and responding to them (that would be the ne). also never forget the time he stared at the bark of a tree like a fucken npc....amen.

he is for sure inxp in my mind and i'm willing to bet it is in fact intp rather than infp!! esp comparing to renjun who is very nearly a classic infp; they're similar but there are some subtle differences which set them apart, and i think it might be enough to give them different mbti types. so for now....in my mind....jisung intp.

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i dont see jk coming between jimin and tae at all. jk and jimin were always close, back in the day so were tae and jk. i just think now taehyung outgrew them both. he is a lot more mature than both of them, his friends are all older and he seems to really want to be taken as seriously and maturely as possible.
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it is true that jm and jk were always close, and tae and jk were close at one point too. i remember that a lot of the bangtan members used to call tae "immature" in yearly profiles (back in his 4d days), and in recent years they began to say he has matured. uh, i hate to bring this up bc it feels intrusive but it's true i think that losing his grandmother in late 2016 changed smth about him. he became very serious from that moment on; something about him sobered up, in a sense. then his close friend passed away in late 2017. and even though i don't think him and jonghyun were close friends, that passing impacted all of kpop and i'm sure it affected him too. his grandfather passed mid-2018 as well. it's possible that this created a disconnect between him and the rest of maknaeline, because even though everyone experienced the effects of jonghyun's passing, no one in bts has experienced as much loss as taehyung. he lost someone close to him every year from 2016 to 2018.

like u r saying, jungkook said in soop that tae becoming reserved made it hard for them to connect the way they used to, because they were playful back then. but notably taehyung says none of those things. he only says that they were "partners in crime" back then, but he doesn't mention a disconnect in personality the way jungkook does. (i just rewatched it: https://youtu.be/Bsyg2puVOGw) we can see that jimin and taehyung actually seem much more amiable and playful, at the beginning of this clip. we also know that taekook is the pair that had become significantly distanced, and vmin were not distanced to that extent. it's only jungkook and taehyung that have this particular type of tension. then -- icb i didn't notice or didn't see this before -- taehyung openly admits that he feels like he isn't loved, that he goes on weverse to feel like he is receiving love, and at night in bed that feeling evaporates....and not being able to see the love from fans with his own eyes has exacerbated that. he literally tells us this.

this is a bit subjective, but the way he says "we were partners in crime" suggests to me that he missed it. it's a source of nostalgia for him. the way he says that, i don't think he thinks he's too mature for them. it's not that jimin and jungkook haven't matured too. i think he wants to be close with them. but his life experiences took a trajectory that changed the way he is drastically, and while he may have wanted to remain close with jimin and jungkook, jungkook found it difficult to connect with this new kimtae -- and while jimin wanted to hang out with taehyung as usual and doesn't seem to feel a disconnect w kimtae's changed personality, jungkook began to dominate his time. and kimtae, who was losing loved ones one by one, and was now losing his connections with his closest links in bangtan -- no wonder he felt like he wasn't loved, ykwim? his life turned upside-down. he got closer to his actor friends, because what else was he supposed to do? jm and jk were (are) closer than ever, and more often than not it was (and still is) just the two of them. he reached out to people (his actor friends) who would reciprocate his affection, make him feel less alone. (T_T i know most people don't want to believe bangtan have insecurities like the rest of us but they are human too....)

but ofc distancing from a difficult connection and choosing to strengthen other ones doesn't magically heal existing rifts. the clip didn't show it, and unfortunately i forgot who initiated the soop convo in the first place, but lovely leaf reminded me that kimtae got jimin to help him have that serious talk with jungkook, which means kimtae did in fact want to fix things. he didn't think he was too mature for them; he wanted to be close again. and he finally took the initiative in soop.

and then we can see the results of how trying to heal those rifts has made him happier in butter era. butter era vlives....the smile on his face....it was like his younger self. it was like he felt loved again. i think if we look closely, we can find quite a few idols going thru dpression eras and coming out of them like they were reborn, like they're reinvigorated, like they are their old selves again. it's a noticeable pattern, imo (see, for example, najaem and lele). and kimtae's arc fits right into it.

so overall/tldr; i don't think kimtae felt too mature for jm and jk necessarily, because he eventually took initiative in soop to have a serious talk with jungkook and reconnect. he himself catalyzed the mending of their relationship.

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what are your thoughts on stanning "problematic" idols? you don't have to answer right away btw! i'm just very curious about what you think because your answers are always so well thought out
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nonnie, this is something i think about a lot. i discussed it just a month ago with an irl, even (some excerpts from that below). i separated this post into sections just because there are....so many thoughts and topics here haha. i apologize in advance if it's disorganized or hard to read.

firstly, i have some principles of my own that try to use to guide my perception of it? here they are:

GUIDING PRINCIPLES

PRINCIPLE 1: that this activity does not hurt any other person.

as an isolated act or concept, stanning a problematic idol doesn't do harm to people around you.

PRINCIPLE 2: that this activity does not help the wrong people. (which would, in theory, indirectly harm other people and violate principle 1.)

in the context of stanning being listening to the music, watching the content, buying merch perhaps....these are indeed ways to put money in the pockets of the problematic idol in question. there are ways to minimize this, though, by not intentionally buying merch etc etc and reducing the amount of money that goes to the idol.

PRINCIPLE 3: that one is not encouraging others to engage in an activity that violates principles 1 and/or 2.

stanning a problematic idol by yourself would be very different from promoting and encouraging others to also stan that problematic idol.

VERDICT FORMED BY GUIDING PRINCIPLES

abiding by these three principles, i would say that yes, it's okay to stan a problematic idol. morally i'd question buying merch and albums and such while knowing the idol in question is problematic, but just keeping to oneself and stanning for your own personal interests, without involving monetary exchanges, is okay to me. by stanning a problematic idol by yourself, avoiding putting money in that idol's pocket, and not promoting that person/group to other people as "good," you'd be containing the impact of it. i think it's a complicated topic, as is most everything, but if stanning some particular problematic idol improves your mood or makes you feel good, and you're aware they are problematic and conscious of that when you make decisions related to that idol, that in my mind is okay.

QUALIFICATIONS AND CAVEATS

PROBLEMATIC FICTIONAL MEDIA VS. PROBLEMATIC REAL PEOPLE MEDIA:

it's hard to say it's like consuming "problematic" media, because that is fictional, whereas these are real people, but i think we shouldn't try to make ourselves miserable by playing mental acrobatics around it in our own heads when that doesn't actually impact anything. i think it matters what you keep in your head and what you externalize. and if you stan a problematic idol, then i'd suggest keeping it in your mind, keeping it internal, and preventing that from externalizing.

KEEPING DISTANCE AND PERSPECTIVE:

i wouldn't try to convince myself or other people that the problematic idol in question can be or is "good." it's better that we acknowledge it, and make it clear from the beginning to anyone wondering about that idol, that we do understand they have done bad things. a quick example of this is irene's scandal. there were a number of people to jump in a blindly defend her the moment the scandal broke out, and then there were people like me who were disappointed, who witnessed the apology statements and the way irene was treated (especially in comparison to male idols), and decided whether to accept the statements from that distance. (in my [reveluv] case, i still have a hard time equating irene to how i used to perceive her, but i think she was indeed treated particularly harshly because she is a woman and so by the second apology i decided to accept and let it go. i think what she did was wrong of course, but i believe in people growing and changing and to me the second apology -- you may not consider it this way, but i've never seen another idol put out a second apology before -- was a sign of sincerity and regret.)

i'm a very forgiving person in general, i believe in growth/change/second chances, and i do believe that sometimes we have to determine if we believe a scandal or not -- NOT to trivialize scandals, but to view them with both conscience AND reason. for example, i believe seungri's scandal and i believe irene's scandal because there is sufficient evidence for both, but i do not believe aespa's scandals because they are largely unfounded (excluding karina's texts -- that i believe). and then beyond all that, there's the question of how comfortable we feel stanning or continuing to stan an idol that has done this questionable deed, what our limits are based on what deed it is, a lot of things that are different at an individual level.

it's like the question of whether to engage in harry potter fandom or not, knowing j.k. rowling is problematic (the more i use this word the more trivial and meaningless it feels -- rowling feels much worse than "problematic" to me, what with the sort of influence she has). i know the fandom is still alive, and i know that a lot of people within it are very conscious of engaging in hp fandom in a way that does not give rowling a single cent of their money. and i know people who have stopped thinking about harry potter entirely -- me included!! but if i wanted to stay in harry potter fandom, if i was still attached in that way, i would let myself so long as my money does not reach the hands of j.k. rowling. and that's sort of a case-by-case decision to make.

i think this is the difference between a fan who might blindly defend an idol the moment a bad deed is unveiled vs a fan who is more hesitant, who waits for an apology statement and decides whether or not to accept it: distance and perspective. so long as we maintain that ourselves, i think we can make reasonable and conscientious decisions.

USING PARASOCIALISMS TO ONE'S ADVANTAGE:

an irl of mine (one of the smartest people i know and someone i really respect a lot) said to me exactly one month ago:

"I don't know how I feel about ppl getting so much criticism for stuff they did in middle school

"Tons of stuff i did and said in middle and high school were really not ok

"So as long as people have apologized to those who feel hurt, it doesn't bother me so much

"I think I'm a lot diff from most fans though like I'm someone who never wants to see an idol in real life

"So scandals, unless they are really bad, don't really bother me"

i....honestly think this is the way to go!! my irl brought up a great point: that we literally do not know them and they are, for all intents and purposes, entertainment for us. if you view them as media and not as Real People, if you consume their content as media intended for our entertainment (like you might a tv show or movie) and don't engage with the media as if these people have lives beyond what they portray to us....then as long as we are conscious and aware of our own actions regarding this decision, i think it's entirely based on individual prerogative whether to stan a problematic idol or not. (small caveat: even though you might pay for a tv show or movie, in the case of real people i would consider that viewing them as purely entertainment might exclude the monetary exchange part for reasons stated in principle 2 and throughout this 'qualifications and caveats' section -- for the purposes of likening it to consuming problematic things in fiction, we are reducing real-world impact.)

i hope this is helpful nonnie!! i'm flattered that you think my answers are well thought out <3 and i think it's sweet that you said i don't have to answer right away T_T i hope i managed to do this in a respectful manner, since it's such a sensitive/difficult topic? i understand the severity of idol scandals can vary and so this may not always apply to every situation, and i'm not sure i can account for every scandal with one system or perspective, but i hope this is useful from a general standpoint. thank you for asking such a thought-provoking question!! i do think this needs to be discussed more often so i'm glad you asked <3

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do you have any favorite or underrated km moments?
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a list i owed dazzie for a loooong time....sorry daz....counting down from 10 to 1:

10. mma 2018

nothing can beat the experience of scrolling thru the pics of that day during genetics class truly nothing my heart was about to beat out of my fucking chest

9. jk only ever giving presents to jm and the members calling him out for it || any moment demonstrating jk's treatment of jimin vs jk's treatment of the other members

this was one of the early indicators of ~jk special treatment of jm~ that i think people only really began to pick up later. it cracks me up that jk could not defend himself, like this man really just went and did it no thoughts head empty other than his MASSIVE burgeoning crush on jimin compelling him to buy a bday gift despite never having done that before for any member of the group, EVER. consistently since then he's very clearly treated jimin differently from the rest of bangtan. it's almost like how haechan treated renj like the girl on the team when they played foot volleyball in 7llin -- jimin's not really a renjun, but there's a softness to how jungkook treats him compared to the others. it's just so CRYSTAL CLEAR to me in those moments, that's why i love witnessing them.

8. namseok talking about jk being a homebody and how jm likes bringing jk places to show him things

close observer perspective of kookmin's relationship. kookmin themselves tell us they're similar and "click," but namseok give us another dimension to their rs.

7. "shameless?" japanese interview in 2018

i can't explain it but the look on jungkook's face as he said, "he takes care of me well," was the most innuendo-filled look he's ever given. this was also a massively revolutionary moment in kookmin canon within the context of that year, like arguably the turning point in that they began acting shamelessly obvious about their relationship. and as we know, mma 2018 happened later that year.

6. (jm picking their matching pinky moles for jk's bday as per that year's birthday bangtan festivities/activities && jk choosing ALL OF JM as his favorite body part on jm's bday) || (jm's tokyo vlog && jk's gcf tokyo) ==> (jm's "US" vs jk's "HIM")

whoever it was that said jm makes it about "US" and jk makes it about "HIM" was so correct. every damn time.

5. "jungkook is my happy virus/pill" (ft. jin saying as much to jm) and "jimin is my catalyst/stimulant"

directly informing us what they mean to each other, what they find most meaningful about each other in relation to them....

4. gcf saipan

i'm in love with how it demonstrates jungkook's love for jimin in his beautiful ethereal moments AND his silly stupid moments. he loves all of it. in every moment, jimin still shines for him.

3. "i am similar to him" "we click" (https://twitter.com/MyraKM9597/status/1146101935315062784?s=20) (https://twitter.com/gcfKM57/status/1059818819793965057?s=20) (https://twitter.com/lovemazejikook/status/1321065395726381057?s=21)

this is literally them directly telling us why they think their relationship works. the core, the ~essence~ of kookmin.

2. km trying to carry each other during a lull in the practice room (https://twitter.com/Peaches_BTS/status/1293819688384729088?s=20) (https://twitter.com/Peaches_BTS/status/1307176622433345537?s=20)

this is my pick-me-up when i'm sad. wholesome affection....just pure love....being silly just for the sake of it, tiny details of overwhelming affection for one another, a joke just for themselves amidst everyone in the practice room....

1. sys tour when jk started crying and jm comforted him, held his face in the sweetest, most intimate manner.... (https://twitter.com/lizettem1325/status/1206826813797761025?s=19) (https://twitter.com/TATA11503/status/1275756890765447169?s=19) (https://twitter.com/JIKOOKDAILY/status/1189179066290593792)

indescribable, the emotion this clip evokes in me. love is real i think TT__TT

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for anon <3

are there any km moments that you feel like are blow out of proportion by km truthers, versus are there any moments that you feel like are underrated ?
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thenk u so much to juice and moch for contributing n brainstorming with me beyond my initial ideas, i wanted to make sure i didn't miss anything obvious or significant hehe....this is a jumocha effort!! we actually came up with a lot of ideas for underrated, not all of them quite at the same level of underrated, so i tried to narrow those down a bit :) though if someone wants the full underrated km moments list for some reason, please feel free to ask!

km moments that are blown out of proportion:

- 당신 (dangshin). long explanations aside, i don't think kookmin are stupid enough to use that word multiple times on camera if it meant something.

- 애기야 가자 (let's go, baby). this is a famous drama quote and bts LOVE quoting dramas, it always irked me seeing people make a big deal out of it

- soop mosquito net. they were just playing around, nothing that crazy....juice says, "like why are we focusing on that. they cuddled in bed the next morning" and honestly so true can we talk about that instead

- tape (https://twitter.com/gcfkm57/status/1217736453288972290?s=21). they are just talking here loll???? like it's cute i guess but juice says it was apparently HUGE and people kept tweeting about it (and she even provided examples) and like. why? we don't need these crumbs kookmin nation, we don't

km moments that are currently underrated:

- sys tour when jk started crying and jm comforted him, held his face in the sweetest, most intimate manner....god. even my non-km oomfs recognized that as meaningful....(https://twitter.com/lizettem1325/status/1206826813797761025?s=19) (https://twitter.com/TATA11503/status/1275756890765447169?s=19)

- jm petting jk hair in the bbmas episode, in that van bunkbed, saying "sleep well, jeon jungkook-ssi~" (https://twitter.com/jksrapgod/status/1241950912014401536?s=20) (timestamped from the original video: https://youtu.be/FBLx-6l24-Q?t=612)

- gcf saipan!! ik everyone loves gcf tokyo but i feel like gcf saipan is arguably MORE explicit about how jk feels re: jimi and his rs with him? the lyrics + cuts to jimin are. so so obvious.

- gcf osaka: did people notice that there's a shot of jmjk's shoes, walking together, /without/ tae? i've always felt like that was significant somehow; it's one of the first things i noticed immediately when i first watched it

- i think most people know about osaka vlive and the vlive that followed that one, but do people ever talk about how sketchy the tokyo live from the same year (2016) was? because there was a LOT happening here too (https://www.vlive.tv/video/12380/BTS-Live-in-Tokyo)

- jk choosing ALL OF JM as his favorite body part on jm's bday, as per that year's birthday bangtan festivities/activities

- jk only ever giving presents to jm and the members calling him out for it

- 2015 backhug, which used to be big but i think in the wake of new content has become underrated (https://twitter.com/kmducevideo/status/1319991297826930689?s=20)

- jm and jk knowing everything abt each others' home lives down to sleeping habits, snoring habits, facial expression when sleeping, alarm sounds, showering time, and underwear (https://twitter.com/jikookarchive/status/1317729022403440640?s=19) (https://twitter.com/jikookarchive/status/1317701244517937153?s=20)

- jungkook proudly stating he ate a bit of jimin's ramyeon that day as his tmi during a solo vlive in quarantine

- 3 PILLOWS AND 1 PILLOW (iykyk)

- namseok talking about jk being a homebody and how jm likes bringing jk places to show him things

- "i am similar to him" "we click" (https://twitter.com/MyraKM9597/status/1146101935315062784?s=20) (https://twitter.com/gcfKM57/status/1059818819793965057?s=20) (https://twitter.com/lovemazejikook/status/1321065395726381057?s=21)

thank u for this lovely question nonnie!! i was so happy seeing this in my inbox and SO excited to finally get to this question and answer it <3

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i definitely see that taegi are closer but they seemed to actively disliked each other back in the day and i don’t see them as being close at all now just have a better understanding of each other and are good co workers. if they weren’t in a group together i don’t see them ever being friends.

i’m ambivalent about taekook because what you say is true but they have also had moments that show they do care about each other and like each other at least vs taegi. taekook i can see as casual not super close but still friends but taegi are straight up coworkers who have learned to be appreciative of each other. i think jungkook in general is just a more playful person now. that’s why he’s also super close to jin now. just with jimin there doesn’t seem to be much of an age barrier as jin obviously who’s 5 years older than him. taehyung is much more calm and chill which is why i think he and namjoon have gotten closer though i argue they were always close. i can see taehyung viewing jungkook as immature from a friendship pov just compared to the people he chooses to hang out with.

but now i wonder do you think vmin friendship is kinda fake? they’ve been showcasing their friendship like jikook but in a straight up friends only way with the song literally friends, talking about how they are soulmates all the time, highlighting their friendship constantly. but this adds to a feeling i’ve been having lately like it’s kind of bullshit or at least exaggerated and fanservice because they know the vmin friendship sells and is the main pure friendship bts ship. i find them really corny. there’s no need to force them to act like besties if they aren’t close anymore. sometimes i think taehyung is as distant to jimin as he is to jungkook, from around 2016. he seems really close to his non bts friends than either of them and i wish they didn’t sell this facade. there are other closer friendships in the group. like how sope obviously aren’t as close anymore, yoongi is closest to jin by miles, so sope is not as highlighted at all anymore and that seems more authentic.

that’s what i really like about dream. their fanservice is really obvious that it’s fanservice and a joke. they’re very open and natural with who are closest but overall have a strong group dynamic. they all have their favorite or closest members but as a core of 7 they all seem to genuinely care and like each other. even the ones who are more distant, when it’s them one on one they have great chemistry and don’t feel awkward at all.

i do think they’ve all grown to appreciate and even love each other and work amazingly as a team but bts comes off a bit fake in comparison but dream have also known each other since they were 12 and 14 and have been together through their entire adolescence which is when you just form really intense attachments to people. even if they’re not your bestie, the bonds you make at that age can be super intense

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i can't say i know taegi super well at all, but as far as what you're saying this all sounds true!! i think a lot of idol groups have that situation, where there are some really good relationships and then there are some where it's like, if we weren't in a group together we would never interact (for example nahyuck ajsdlkfjsd)

i think taekook vs taegi is sort of where the age hierarchy dynamics come in, but also that taekook's personalities were more compatible in the past than taegi's ever was....but in the present where taekook's personalities are /drastically/ different to about the same level of taegi's, them seeming closer than taegi seems to be partially that shared past compatibility combined with age hierarchy automatically placing them closer to each other. i think that jungkook and jin aren't actually THAT close, like they are playful but i don't get the impression that they talk seriously about things, if that makes sense. whereas i think jin helped jimin a lot in the past and was a source of comfort for him, and though they may not be like that now they still have that past of relying on each other. i haven't seen much of taejoon lately so i can't say i know what trajectory they're taking right now....and yeah i think taehyung's new outlook on life is very aligned or compatible with personalities that....are not present in bangtan sdkjfsdsld except for maybe jimin. scream u saying tae thinks jk is immature....i mean maybe!! i recall that time jk was very rude to him in that one vlive....that was very uh. immature of jk imo. and im sure the rest of bangtan thought so too bc like....the mood got real awkward after....so i can see that!!

uh, i don't think vmin is fake!! but in a sense that a) yes i do think they've gotten distant, but b) i do not think they like each other less, just that circumstances (namely jk coming between them) have distanced them in this way. i think tae rly means what he says. i don't think he'd work on entire songs about jimin if he didn't actually care about him that way. he even wanted to sing that christmas song with jimin and was stopped by bighit....(and FUCK bighit) sigh. anyway. so i don't think it's a facade but they also are probably reluctant to reveal that they aren't as close as they used to be -- but i think they still love each other very much. bts is very free in this respect, that they don't really have to push fanservice anymore!! they're rich as shit now, they don't gotta do that, whatever they do will sell. the only time i've seen them do fanservice in recent years is taekook for their japanese fanbase (or so it was speculated by km oomfs so take that with a grain of salt i guess). so i don't think there is any real need for vmin to be pushed -- the bangtan-are-besties agenda works well enough and survives in the eyes of the fandom even when bangtan themselves are distancing, so really hybe/bangtan don't have to do anything at all....the fandom will do it for them.

SCREAM are you armyzen too....what a surprise reading ur dreamies paragraphs. this is true!! they're very transparent, very professional, and fairly comfortable excepting a couple dynamics. i want to note that they're still young, though! if u look at bangtan at that age, they were also all fairly close to each other. we really don't know what's going to happen with dreamies as they age, especially bc we can see their dynamics actively shifting ALREADY right now. certain dynamics are already getting distant and strained. it is true that they are gen z and bangtan are millenials, and i think that's where dreamies take enjoyment out of engaging in fanservice and making it a joke amongst themselves (i'm aware that sm also trains them to not show if they hate it, but we've seen them engage in it when they don't even need to so they really seem to have owned it and made it their own), whereas bangtan clearly hated doing fanservice and didn't hide that. i've kinda noticed that with 4th gen? they embrace fanservice/skinship/being close much more, and it might just be their natural inclination or that they're not as bothered by it, or that mindsets have changed over time, i dunno, lots of factors that i haven't fully rotated in my head....

you're right that they met at a younger age than bangtan did, i really agree with that!! if u grow up with each other at that age, you kinda get through ur worst eras together, and coming out of that u have this bond that is difficult to shake. i think bangtan were brought together by other reasons (small company, broke, already aware they were in the lineup, living together predebut), but what you're saying about that adolescent/middle school age being intensely formative is extremelyyyy true i think u made a fantastic point there. all in all though. i do think there are still some distinctions in age/gen that should be made between dreamies and bangtan before any comparisons are made. i kinda want to explore this further now!! hahahaha....thank u for these really good thoughts nonnie <3