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( Permissions Form )

[Separately private to Ben & Chromie]

I quit.

[This just for Ben:] If you're still pushed for staff, I'll work out a few days' notice.

[Private to Anya]

I…might have told you a bit of a fib when I said I didn't have a computer.

[Filtered to Megamind and Edward]

I won't deny that this was an interesting experiment, to say the very least, but...I think it's clear that I'm a third wheel.

And not in the sense that I have anything to offer by way of additional structural security.

( Open Spam )

[Private to Chromie]

I need to take a few days off work so I can take care of some friends.

...and I know this wouldn't be the first time. I'm sorry about that.

[Private to Nathan]

So...I know we didn't really get a chance to talk. [Beyond things like 'please move while Creed is immobile' and 'are you seriously not aware that you're bleeding'.]

How are you doing?

( Spam for Megamind )

( Spam for Megamind and Edward Nygma )

[Private to Erik; voice]

Erik, I know...

[There’s a pause. She sounds a bit quiet, a bit lost, but not unemotional. On the contrary, it’s more like there’s too much going on and she’s struggling to keep a lid on it all.]

I know you didn’t do what you did for me.

[You did it for yourself. So you didn’t have to have a little girl's trauma on your conscience.

Though something still lingers. There's no reason not to walk. I - I'd like to see you do it.

He didn't have to say that to her younger self, knowing the older was the one it'd resonate with.]

But -- I want to thank you anyway.

[Private to 'Garrett Hobbs'; text]

You took advantage of me.

[She can't even tell if she's angry.]

[Private to Megamind]

Hello. It's Toshiko.

Um.

Can I ask you a question, please?

[OOC: Taking place some time after this meeting with Erik, which itself takes place on Sunday.]

[Library & Kitchen Filters]

I've been unpaired from Jesse. I still plan on keeping both my jobs. If that's alright.

[Even though she kind of hates both of them, it's marginally better than having nothing to do all day.]

[Private to Megamind]

...I can help. With the project you were talking about.

( Open Spam - Deck )

( Spam for Edward Nygma - immediately after the breach ends )

[Public - Voice - Shortly after this thread]

[Tosh is not having a brilliant post-breach hangover. She sounds like she's either just finished crying or is trying very hard not to start.]

Megamind's dead. It - it looks like he was strangled, he has…he has claw marks, on his neck. There's - it smells like seawater, around where he was left and leading away.

I'm taking him to the Infirmary.

[She doesn't add 'can somebody please deal with the fact that there's possibly a new Inmate wandering around murdering people', firstly because she hopes it'll be taken as read and secondly because she doesn't think she can say it without losing it. The feed cuts off.]

( Spam for Megamind )

[Filtered from Inmates and Wardens]

[...so, the Fourth Walling crowd can see this, but nobody else.]

Personal identifier: 0072256013.

[She pauses. It's really just wishful thinking to imagine anyone else learnt their own ID code, never mind anyone else's.]

Toshiko Sato.

Seeking contact with Torchwood 3, circa 2008.

[Private to Jesse]

I'm awake.

[Library filter & Gaheris]

I've been in a coma since the…tenth, I think. I'll be back at work today.

[Private to Derek]

I was in a coma. It's - just something that happens on the Barge, sometimes. Are you alright?

[Open Spam - Level 8, evening]

[Toshiko left the Infirmary pretty much the second her legs could support her weight, without waiting to report to a member of staff or get checked over (though Merlin noticed her going anyway and just made a note of it without passing comment). She knows she's fine; Derek's gift brought with it a new awareness of her own body and if she was there for any reason other than a Barge coma she's confident she'd know about it.

There's paint spatter in the hallways. She's not incurious about it but she doesn't really want to stick her head over the parapet and ask what happened - and a few minutes with her communicator answers the question anyway.

There's also paint on her door. Not deliberate, as far as she can tell, just glancing blows. Still, she finds a container in her room and fills it with hot water and lathered hand soap, and the evening finds her kneeling at the half-open door, working off the paint with a wet cloth.]

[Warden Filter; text]

Jesse's fallen into a coma.

We're both in his cabin. Level 7, room 6.

I'll stay with him until someone brings a stretcher from the Infirmary.

[Private to Derek; voice]

[This comes a bit later.]

Hi.

Ah -

I've been thinking. About - what we talked about.

( Private to Lua & Erik )

( Open Spam - Libary )

( Open spam - Zero )

[Posted about two hours after Megamind's post.]

[Seconds before transmission, almost everything is reset. The lost areas and items reappear, the above-decks areas are restored in their entirety, and the 'space' and sunlight around the ship come back. Zero is returned to normal and anyone teleported down there is automatically released. Anyone who has had their powers or weapons temporarily removed will get them back. Auto-demoted Wardens regain their previous status and everything associated with it.

The loose panels are still around. For some reason, it's raining lightly on deck. A few random bits of furniture in the common rooms have changed colour.

The voice of the 'Admiral' comes from Toshiko's network signature, quiet and tired.]

I don't stand by everything I said, but I don't hold myself above any of it. Anyone who wants to call me a hypocrite, a coward, a sadist, a weakling…

[The feed shifts. Tosh's voice. Hi, Barge.]

I know. I just - I know.

I need…time. To end this without doing any more damage. Tomorrow I'm going to come out. I'm not - I'm not going to fight. I'm not going to defend myself in any way.

[There is a background interjection from Megamind: But I will!

Tosh is quiet for a moment, probably pulling a face at him.]

...Whatever's decided, I'll....go along with it.

( A few private messages: Bruce Banner, Erik, Kay )

[Private to Erik]

I've been in a coma for about four days.

I…I'm aware it could have been much longer, given how long it's been since we last talked.

I hope you're alright.

[The sentiment of someone who doesn't necessarily expect a response.]

[Open Spam]

[The walk from the door of her cabin to the door of the engine room is very short, but lately she's started to feel terribly agoraphobic on the walk between those rooms, as if the world might suddenly open up completely and leave her stranded in a huge, inescapable void.

If that's unpleasant then the walk up to the library is a nightmare, but her insomnia isn't going away and God knows she needs something to fill the hours. Still, she walks the programming and linguistics sections in a bit of a daze, eyeing the shelves and reading spines without taking much in.]

( Private to Megamind )

[Private to Duo]

Would it be possible for you to supervise Megamind's work in the engine room?

It's important that he be able to continue, but for personal reasons I'm no longer an appropriate supervisor for him.

[Posted about six hours after the Admiral's announcement:]

I will not be available for the duration of the flood.

Apologies for any inconvenience caused.

[Yep that's it.]

[Private to Erik]

I've been given a map of London - some landmarks I don't recognise, so I expect it's a dissimilar world or after my time or both.

[A beat.] You should go. Ports in December are usually fairly benign. I'll be giving this one a miss, I think.

[So....even better, right? She assumes you're going with Charles if you're going at all. Which is just as well because she's not giving you her credit card, you'll probably ruin it the second you try to use your powers.]

[Private to Rhade]

I need to do some more testing but I'd say the lock'll be ready to install in a day or so. I'm going to stay on board to finish it off.

[Private to Megamind]

Are you going out? I don't think there's ever been a bad port in December, so…and London's wonderful, anyway. I lived there for about ten years.

...stay out of the southeast in general, though, there's nothing to see and you're likely to get mugged.

[Approximately present-dated, i.e. Thursday evening.]

[Warden Filter]

I know the aftermath of this port is going to be subject to a lot of 'who did what'. To avoid speculation regarding this one matter, I will report that I drugged and killed my Inmate Erik Lensherr on Tuesday evening while under the influence of the environment. My state of mind was altered significantly; I can't rationalise my behaviour after the fact.

[Bullshit you can't, Tosh.]

He and I will discuss what happens next.

[Private to Erik]

Apologising wouldn't even cover it. I can't account for what I did.

If you believe it's the best course of action then I will request reassignment immediately.

[Private to Megamind]

Are you alright?

~~Please~~

There's a new filter on the communicators. 'Special Access'. Does anyone know what purpose it's meant to serve? [Because she's not adding anyone to it until she can benefit from someone else's experimentation,]

[Private to Gaheris and Wanda]

I don't know that anyone else is going to say this, so - belatedly, I can't thank you enough for your help and for taking the risks involved. We wouldn't have made it out safely without you.

[Private to Duo]

Thank you for your help.

If you're planning to ask the Admiral for a key to the engine room then I'd be fine with sharing my schematics and working out a shift pattern. [And due to her unhealthy territoriality of the engine room she can't really bring herself to sound any more amenable than that.]

[Private to Megamind]

[Switching onto voice for this one. She sounds warm but tired ,and her voice is a little thick, which is only to be expected when she's been sleeping on and off for almost twenty hours.]

I feel like I could stand to be in bed for another day or so.

How...how are you?

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