I love Cooper's room I think it really suits his personality.

It's such a big boy room for my almost 4 year old!

Hayden and Cooper's rooms are done! Well for now, since one of them will be sharing a room in the next few months!
I almost completely changed Hayden's room from what is was like in Cedar City, I just love it.

I loved the name letters I did for her before but I saw these and just fell in love, I just had to change it

She loves her little clouds, they spin around and around

And the ever adorable Hayden scrunching her cute little nose!

 

It was so sweet to be able to remember our sweet Bailey this weekend. I attended my first "SHARE" walk 5 years just 6 weeks after Bailey died. It was such a sweet opportunity to meet other mothers who had been through such similar experiances as I had just gone through.

I had not gone again until this year, and I'm so grateful that I did, it was so wonderful to go and feel the spirits of so many sweet little ones who had to leave this earth too soon.

 

My sweet sister came to support us!

 

We let Bailey's balloon fly up to heaven

this was not even all the balloons that were sent to heaven it was amazing how many sweet little ones were remembered.

One of my sweet friends from my ward had her fifth child 6 months ago, unfortunately her little Tesslee had to go to heaven.  We served in the primary together before I moved, but Bailey never came up in our casual conversations, so she didn't know about her until after she lost her little girl and found a picture on my facebook page of our family at Bailey's grave. So when I moved back into the ward she was able to tell me what happened. When you lose a baby you just never think it could happen to anyone else, I prayed it wouldn't. I'm so sorry that she, and so many others, have to go through this tragedy that our family has also suffered. I have grown to know the blessings that come from such great trials and tragedies, and  I know that the Lord gives us trials tha we don't understand, but we don't always need to know why to be able to find peace in our journey so we can begin to move forward,  and I have faith that one day she will feel the sweet relief of peace in her heart also. I have been so humbled to be able to talk with her, and remember those feelings I once had, I truely have a testimony of the atonement and the power which is had to make us whole again.I'm so happy that we have chosen the remember Bailey in the way that we have, to talk about her and love her openly, I know that this was the right path for our family to take, and I only hope that through our decision that we can help another grieving family, even if only in a small way. 

I still cry every time I think of my sweet baby girl, I love talking about her to anyone who wants to listen, I think of her when I feel the warm sun on my face, sending me angel kisses.

We were able to celebrate Hayden's Birthday on Sunday, and had lots of family come to celebrate with us!

We did a dinner pasta bar with different pastas a red and white sauce and toppings like meatballs, sauted mushrooms, carmelized onions, sundried tomatoes, steamed broccoli and zuccini. It was really yummy!

I made her cake, it's the first cake I've ever made that has looked as good as it tasted!

Squish!

All the kids got to help her unwrap her present, they all thought that was pretty fun.

We were so happy to have Craig's sister Lynne and her family and my sister Lindsey and her husband there along with my sister and parents and brothers who are so conveniently close we are able to see them as often as we want! Hayden had a great Birthday celebration!

Happy Birthday to my tiny baby girl! One year has gone so quickly, it has been so much fun seeing my sweet little one grow into a little girl.

It's amazing that she went from a tiny 7 pound 1 ounce newborn to a still very tiny 15 pound 3 ounce one year old in what seems like the blink of an eye.

 

Hayden LOVES to eat(even with no teeth!), she loves to walk accross furniture, scream happily, and not so happily. She  has a special scream/coo she greets Craig with when he gets home every day, she is totally a daddy's girl! She loves to give big wet kisses and snuggles. She gets a huge smile on her face when Cooper carries her around. She started taking a bottle for the first time in her life 2 weeks ago and LOVES it so much, it's too adorable. She can give knuckles, wave hello and bye bye, point, and clap. Hayden is such a sweet funny baby, we just love her so much and are grateful for her every day!

 

So I thought I would share a little insight I recieved recently. I have really struggled with Hayden, she was REALLY fussy for a long time. We could not figure out how to help her, she cried for what seemed like all day and night for like 6 months straight. She was just not a happy baby.
So I would get so frustrated because I felt so helpless, I had no idea how to help her, and then it was a vicious cycle because then I would feel so guilty for getting so frustrated with such a helpless little baby. I tried changing my diet(since I was nursing), I tried cutting things from her diet when shes started eating solids, I tried feeing her more, I tried changing her sleep schedule, going for more walks, singing to her, reading to her, I felt like I tried everything to try and get her to be happy. Nothing worked.
Over the last 3 months I have really prayed that I would know how to really help her, because I knew this wasn't how she was suppesed to be all the time. She has such a sweet little spirit I knew she was really a happy baby I just needed to know how to help her. So one day when she was crying I felt prompted to say in a sugary sweet voice "oh my Heavens!" . This is not something I say like ever. But when I said it I smile, then shestopped crying and smiled too. It was like magic, my mood changed, I wasn't frustrated that she was crying anymore, I wanted to help her and love her. My view of her changed, she wasn't just a crying baby anymore, she was my precious little girl and she needed me to help her, and needed me to be happy. Don't get me wrong, I already loved her and I didn't get frustrated ALL the time, but I would get really overwhelmed every single day, and I didn't like feeling that way .
When she cried I used to think, ok just be quiet now, you're fine stop crying, or why are you acting like this? I know it sounds terrible, and I hate that I thought those things toward her, but when MY attitude changed, my energy towards her changed, and in turn she has changed too, she is happy. My whole family has said "she's like a differen't baby" the last several times they have seen her, and it's true she really is.
So now when she gets fussy I look and her and say to myself I love her, then I say "oh my Heavens" to her and smile because it always sounds funny to me, and then I help her happily.
I know that my Heavenly Father inspired me to do this, it's something that seems so simple, but I know that when we are willing to ask for help, and then really listen for the answer it will come in a way that is special to each of us. I'm so grateful for personal revelation, and a sweet happy baby!

Happy Birthday to you Happy Birthday to you Happy Birthday dear Craig!
We have the most wonderful daddy and husband a family could ever ask for! He turned 31 although he claims he's only 24, I think he'd really rather be 31 than 24 again though.

Craig loves. . . BYU football, sports in general, playing with his little ones, and hanging out with his family.

We are so lucky to have a hard working daddy who loves us!