Have to admit that I do feel quite guilty for practically abandoning this blog. Looking back at the last post – it’s 3.5 years ago, during covid. And that’s quite some time ago. There was the intention of writing something but it didn’t materialise. As with the same intentions before that.

As with most people, I too had moved to Facebook (especially). But there is also some feeling of guilt; like a “Kacang lupa kulit” (The groundnut forgetting its shell – doesn’t quite translate well, but it does have the essence)… that I have left behind and forgotten the blog that helped to bring about great changes in my life… of some degree of self-centredness whereby, after my own life has gotten on very well since, I no longer care about others; of people who are facing similar situations as I once had. As with their families and loved ones, who simply don’t know what to do.

Have to say here that it’s my wife who is persuading me to reactivate this blog. Actually it’s she who has been doing more in trying to help others. Particularly through her occasional Live posts at TikTok under this profile of Bilut Valley Beekeeper. This (Stingless Bees or Kelulut) is just one of her interests and activities though. But TikTok has indeed become her main online platform. It had started with one of her business acquaintances asking for advice on how to handle the addiction problems of a loved one. And then more people opened up after knowing that she had known, and then dared to marry a recovering addict (me). Out of guilt, I feel that I should do more. Including in re-activating this long-dormant blog.

I don’t know how many still go to blogs to try find guidance and answers but that should be secondary and shouldn’t be my concern. If people come across this blog and find the posts useful, then great. If they don’t, that’s okay too. On my part, at least I’m trying to do something by sharing my experiences and perspectives, and not just be an unconcerned spectator to the tragedies and heartaches centring on addiction. Because recovery is also an ongoing process for people like me, and there are also so many others – addicts and their innocent loved ones – who don’t know what to do. Maybe re-activating this blog, among other things, might be of some help to others(?) We’ll see…