eating = bad & decisions
Apparently my body just rejects food now.
I haven't had a full meal or anything close to it since Tuesday. Just had no appetite at all, not sure why either. But today I tried to force myself to eat some pizza at work, it stayed down for about 30 minutes before it came back up. I guess I'll try a liquid diet or something... at least I'll lose some weight.
anyway, I find myself in a conundrum, Right now at work it's getting pretty bad, several people are talking of quitting. Managers and higher ups are pressuring pple to do a LOT more than what we're getting paid for. And morale is pretty much nil. Plus when school starts back up, they apparently won't adjust my schedule around it anymore. They actually told one of the people "leave school, or lose full time". Only reason I'm full time is for the benefits.
So what I'm considering is going back to where I worked before I got pulled into the retail hell. Bax global, I have several friends that still work there, and I'm sure I can move up quick there (move up = certified = "easier job"). I sat down, weighed the numbers and if I worked 40 hours in 2 weeks at bax, and 64 hours (my avg hours per paycheck) I'd make about 40-70 less gross.
Bax has benefits included, they cover it, where as I pay 59$ for full insurance at office max (which is included in the amount stated above). Another nice thing is, that it's a work out, it's third shift which gives me the entire day to do whatever, plus also completely opens up the day for school when it starts. It also give tuition reimbursement which is always nice.
So, do I go to a more physically demanding job, that pays more hourly, but less hours and make a little less overall? Or tough it out at officemax and look for a more "professional" 9-5 type job?
Other decisions are a little different though and more tricky, I've made a lot of mistakes, a lot that I regret, and I don't want to do the same on these next ones. I hate this shit.
I haven't had a full meal or anything close to it since Tuesday. Just had no appetite at all, not sure why either. But today I tried to force myself to eat some pizza at work, it stayed down for about 30 minutes before it came back up. I guess I'll try a liquid diet or something... at least I'll lose some weight.
anyway, I find myself in a conundrum, Right now at work it's getting pretty bad, several people are talking of quitting. Managers and higher ups are pressuring pple to do a LOT more than what we're getting paid for. And morale is pretty much nil. Plus when school starts back up, they apparently won't adjust my schedule around it anymore. They actually told one of the people "leave school, or lose full time". Only reason I'm full time is for the benefits.
So what I'm considering is going back to where I worked before I got pulled into the retail hell. Bax global, I have several friends that still work there, and I'm sure I can move up quick there (move up = certified = "easier job"). I sat down, weighed the numbers and if I worked 40 hours in 2 weeks at bax, and 64 hours (my avg hours per paycheck) I'd make about 40-70 less gross.
Bax has benefits included, they cover it, where as I pay 59$ for full insurance at office max (which is included in the amount stated above). Another nice thing is, that it's a work out, it's third shift which gives me the entire day to do whatever, plus also completely opens up the day for school when it starts. It also give tuition reimbursement which is always nice.
So, do I go to a more physically demanding job, that pays more hourly, but less hours and make a little less overall? Or tough it out at officemax and look for a more "professional" 9-5 type job?
Other decisions are a little different though and more tricky, I've made a lot of mistakes, a lot that I regret, and I don't want to do the same on these next ones. I hate this shit.
