DhieMhie

19th month with you in advance (tomorrow)

We have so many struggles facing right now. A lot of times, I get mad at you for so many reasons. We had usual petty quarrels but led to sweetness after. Sometimes I couldn’t help it when I think of leaving you when I feel so tired understanding everything. But because I know to myself that I love you that much, in the end it’s still me and you.

Happy 19th month with you DHIE in advance. I love you so much.

What’s inside me…

These past few days, I’ve been through a lot. Mom and I had a big fight and that was regarding my relationship with Cholo. Since then, our families are not agreeing with our relationship. I don’t know the reason but I think it’s because Cholo is too young for me and his family doesn’t want me for him. Of course, my family doesn’t want me to get hurt but they are not aware that they are the ones who hurting me much. I know we are not perfect but all I want is their support. They don’t know how Cholo makes me glad. I don’t want to be alone or should I say I’m afraid to be alone. I just want someone who will be with me for the rest of my life. It’s easy for them to tell me to leave Cholo and find another man. It’s easy for them because they are not the ones who experienced everything I had. They have good families and me, I’m like what my mom is now – alone, because our husbands left us. I can understand mom but she couldn’t understand me. Of all people, she should be the one who should understand me well because we’re in the same situation now. I’m just hoping that they can accept everything. I love them but I love Cholo too. Everything will be ok soon. I know Cholo is not perfect, he’s young but really responsible enough. He’s like a father to Yushin that’s why I love him. Though he’s jobless for weeks now, he still finds ways to help me not only financially but in every aspect of my life. He was never jobless, it just happened that the problem of his eyes got worse that he needs to quit job. He has his new job already because he didn’t stop looking and I know everything will be ok. I always pray to God to give me the happiness I want. It’s not so soon but I’m sure it will be in time.