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I really want to donate money to Palestinian families to make their way safely out of Gaza, get medical treatment and the like.

I would love to write you fic or record podfic for donations.

If you're interested let's talk details in DMs or here.

Thank you!!

Surely someone out there wants to donate to the Black Lives Matter movement in exchange for a story from me? SPN, Good Omens maybe, She-Ra ,My little Pony, Marvel movies or comics?
Where should I be posting this?
Also, hi
it's hard for me to be here rn , so not planning on updating - not rn

I got a TA job! It is very tiny, at lease pay-wise (I get just over $1 per 4 tests graded, loll), but it might help get more work/into a better PHD program. Also - it is good to get to maybe give a lesson or three, to have students , and to get to implement some knowledge.... The person I'm planned to TA for seems kind and friendly, and like a feminist, I'm hopeful about that . In my area (geography and study), it is literally almost impossible to get jobs like this, so it meant beating a whole lot of people to it, so that's kinda flattering.

I haven't updated - I finally, finally, turned in my thesis!!!!!
And I'm fairly pleased with it.
And it seems like the person I was hoping would be an examiner is going to be that - no one said anything, it's something I'll find out only after it's graded, but I am hopeful this does go my way .


Lastly, my SummerGen story! And also an MP3 of it someone made <3
It's about the things Sam went through after season 7 - Dean was stone number 1
- https://archiveofourown.org/works/16276535

It keeps surprising me when monsters tell hunters 'I've done nothing wrong', like, they truly seem to have hope this would help. That they have the knowledge to guess what hunter would find moral - or that their morality would mesh with the hunters'.... "I never killed humans so you shouldn't kill me" wouldn't fly with a lot of hunters. It often surprises me when monsters are naive enough, hopeful enough, idk, green enough to think to say it, to think hunters would stop for something like that..... I don't think a lot of people being assaulted or hurt would think to say that, for example to soldiers .

A person from my past PMed me to explain something they did, long ago.

We'd been pretty good friends for some time, then one day totally out of the blue, for me, they broke off our friendship. It was just days after they'd (also out of the blue) told me they loved me, how meaningful our friendship was - then that. And not only this, they then asked me to fight for our friendship, and that they wanted that. When I asked questions, they didn't really reply. I was so worried for them. They wanted to spend time together, so I tried to do that, to just be with them and live with them not talking. That type of thing might be trauma .... Other times I tried to ask questions - and overall I just got hostility - till I ended up saying - give me some hint of what's going on, some sign, and got nothing, so - I'd had enough and stopped trying.

So now, not long ago they wrote me. That they were sorry. Explained there was some issue with their GF, but beyond that - they'd lied to get some stuff from me, relationship-wise. Wrote they'd lied to themselves and me for a long while when we were friends. That they had trouble acknowledging that and handling it, so then instead they took it out on me. That it truly had nothing to do with me, and that I was so baffled as a result of them lying, that it wasn't something possible to understand .


I'm not sure what to make of it, but I am glad to finally know what (probably) happened, to get some closure instead of keep wondering, I needed that still. I am glad they acknowledged that they did was cruel, some validation.... Maybe now when I see their name on FB - it seems like it would not feel bitter or sad, but more. Closed.


They asked for permission to sometimes 'like' my posts, and I agreed to maybe try it.... What does one say to a request like that ....

ETA: this is not the person from a few months ago .

You guys, I just got my spn_summergen and you should read it !
It's this early season horror MoW story, and it's just so Kripke, the original parts are just bang on.

https://spn-summergen.livejournal.com/304927.html?view=6450975#t6450975

The person that makes Steven Universe is non-binary!
And she says Pearl, Garnet and Amathyst are also!!!!!

I am sharing my bed. With. Fire. Ants.

I both love and hate that there are already season 14 spoilers. I guess I love it the same way I love high heels and penises - kinda glad they exist, keep them away from me.