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Summer Fade

 Summer is drawing to an end. We have traveled to AZ and UT. Played far too many video games and watched entirely too much TV. Workbooks were provided by myself with incentive to anyone who finished would get a large prize...no takers. No mom school this year...that may be a thing of the past with all these kids growing up.  John announced his retirement for next year and we are on the hunt for a place to finally settle into for next year. Nearer to family sounds great. New England has a lot to offer too. Our money will stretch a lot farther in a LCOL area like Iowa or Ohio. We do love being near the ocean or water and did love Alaska. This is going to be harder than I thought. The kids are going back to school and, since we live in SoCal now, we will continue to experience summer. I'm still not sure what MissFab is doing this year. Star started her Sophomore year of high school and she is nearly a week in. She has changed her schedule and is already ready to be done with scho...
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Spent

 I have been super tired lately. Maybe it is getting older. Maybe I have sleep apnea. Maybe I don't allow myself to rest enough. Any way I look at it, it isn't getting better and I just have to fight the sleep. I have a ton to do. School work occupies a large chunk of my time, but I still have a house to keep clean, kids to run places, menus to plan and shop for, church calling, and finding time to work out or just think separately from the other chaos. It is all just too much. I feel like I'm missing out on so much LIFE!  I feel like I need a job and contribute to our financial future. I have been taking long enough. I registered our youngest for preschool yesterday. It won't start until the fall, but he needs something. He's an awesome kid and we have adventures together, but he needs other kids. He's growing into a teenager at almost 4 because that is all he has around. So. much. attitude. I love that kid though. I spent last Friday wandering around Disneylan...
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Advanced Maternal Age

 I'm getting older. I always thought I would welcome age and in some ways I still do. I'm actually somewhat excited when I spot a "sparkly" hair on my head. My face and hands are aging visibly. I said farewell to my thoughts of ever being my version of beautiful. I'm ok. I consider myself comfortable. Like, I have a face that people are comfortable with but not one that anyone would ever look at and think, "She's really beautiful." You know? And I'm seriously ok with that. I don't need to stand out. I just want to wear cute things that fit me. I want to be able to find just normal things that fit me and don't look terrible.  In August 2020, I fell and hurt my knee. I thought I had broken my kneecap. I didn't. I just bruised it...like they see in ACL tears. It took about a year to heal. I had had our little guy in April 2020, in my 40s. I was trying to exercise to, at minimum, maintain the weight that I was, but with the hopes of losin...
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Professional

 I'm avoiding my schoolwork. No, I'm not really. I want to work on it and do a great job on it, but the kids are home now and there's at least one sound system jamming out and one argument brewing at all times. I can't concentrate here. I've forgotten everything I wanted to write in my essay, so I guess I'll wait until 9 p.m. and write it while I fight sleep. A better solution hasn't presented itself and I have deadlines looming. I did get through one chapter and a clear(ish) plan of attack on my weekly assignment. I also made a healthy breakfast and lunch, cleaned up the mess from the indoor rainstorm, taped off a door jamb for painting, and started putting up wallpaper. I had a much bigger list, but I seriously doubt I'll get to half of it. So, we bought this house last year (a terrible time to buy) and it was/has been a fixer upper. We gutted the kitchen, completely refloored the entire house, new paint everywhere, 3 bathrooms refinished, popcorn ceil...
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Starting Anew

 Pretend I never had a blog before. Pretend I'm just starting out with every intention of writing consistently as an outlet an a place to just speak my mind, come what may. That's what it feels like. It feels like I'm just starting.  It took me a while to figure out how to get back into blogger (now owned by Google?). I had to do a few tests to decide which email I had used to create it and then I was in the wrong browser. Then two step verification and I'm in!  I read a few of my old posts. It made me miss writing. I have been missing it. For a while now. I'm in school again. Finishing up a Bachelor's. I wish I could write what I want for my classes. They don't want that. They only want what they want to hear, not my thoughts or perceptions. I've tried and been reprimanded. I thought this was college, but no. It's fine. I'll write here, where next to no one will read it and I can rant and express myself and have bad grammar and punctuation all I...
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Your Mom Goes to College

  I've been wondering lately why I keep this blog.  I've decided its because I like the option.  So it stays and I post every 6 months or so and we have this strange relationship of me talking to myself, basically, because I'm pretty sure no one reads it.  Okay.   I started back to college in January.  I made the decision and then jumped through hoops to get everything in order to begin.  I didn't think it would be as difficult as it was, but I guess it could have been worse.  I started with Math 98, Business Law, and Microeconomics.  I dropped Math 98 (which I was taking as a refresher...not needed) by the end of the first week because I was already 2 weeks ahead of everyone and it seemed like a waste of time and money.  I added Zumba and Hard Core to bump me up to 12 credits.  Business Law was not terribly hard and I enjoyed the class.  I got a 3.9 in it, so not bad.  Microeconomics demanded the majority of my time, pat...
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Reverting Back

In 2006, we moved to Hawaii.  I started this blog that year.  I blogged as an outlet and a way to keep in touch with my family across an ocean.  It was far simpler than sending out individual or group emails loaded with as many pictures as emails would allow back then.  I might even still have copies of those emails, tucked away in some folder somewhere.  Blogging became a way for me to make friends, or feel like I had made friends.  I followed other blogs and, occasionally commented...but I’d say odd things.  Not on purpose. The comments make perfect sense to me, because they are coming out of my head and there is a thought pattern or connection.  People that know me would be able to make the connection.  Other bloggers...other people, they don’t know me.  They didn’t know me.  I was just the weirdo making odd comments on a random post.  I lived for comments on mine.  Usually it was my mom, she never missed a post and oft...
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