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Tuesday, July 9th, 2002
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3:38 pm - Abroad
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And I got another random reply to my journal, I really am quite curious as to who you people are. But since you apparently are reading my journal, let me share with you what has been going on in my life lately.
But first a disclaimer - spanish keyboards are all backwards, and this one has dodgy keys to boot. So expect typos.
So as the disclaimer might have given away, I´m off in Spain right now. It´s actually a crazy fucking adventure I´m on, I came over here with 3 of my friends and right now we´re enrolled at a gypsy Flamenco school up in Granada. It´s a trip, Granada is absolutely amazing, we´re staying in the old gypsy and moorish neighborhoods, in houses built 400 or more years ago. It´s gorgeous too, I´m absolutely floored.
The school (where I´ñm currently writing this diary entry) is about half a mile away from our house, right at the foot of the caves (half the gypsies live in caves over here on this hill, I´m not fucking kidding, it´s crazy), with the most beautiful view of the city and the Alhambra. If you´ve never heard of the Alhambra, look it up in google or something, so that way I can smile with glee at your jealous envy. Heh. I´m studying flamenco guitar, and it´s a super intense class. But it´s pretty sweet, already after only one day we´ve picked up so much. All in spanish, so I´ve been having one hell of a time, but I´m picking up the language fairly quickly. They also teach Baile here, or the dance form of flamenco, so basically in between guitar sessions I get to watch the gorgeous dancers. And speaking of gorgeous, wow, Spaniards are beautiful. Most beautiful people I´ve ever seen. It´s unfair, seriously, I say fuck the states I want to move over here to find my bride. It´s absolutely absurd how beautiful the women are.
So far we´ve had a number of crazy adventures already, even though we´ve only been here since saturday. But adventures are bound to happen when no one goes the bed. It´s ridiculous, there are more people on the streets at 2 am on sunday night here than would be on the streets at 11pm on a friday. I have never seen such action, but I love it. It vibes so much more with me, I feel like this is how we were meant to live, and the rest of the world got screwed up somewhere along the way. It´s a slower pace of life, people are more laid back, no one really knows when a store will be open (from when we feel like opening till when we feel like closing), oh yeah, and lets not forget the siesta. Every day from 2 till 4 or 5 the entire city shuts down, and everyone goes home for a nap. I love this.
But I´m off now to go get a few beers and practice for a while, we have class in an hour and a half so I should work on my drills. I´ll be back on August 16th, but who knows for how long, I´m trying to find an apartment here to move back here in a while. But I´ll update this journal more later on.
Hasta Luego
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| Thursday, June 20th, 2002
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12:04 am - This is strange
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Apparently people are finding my journal which I haven't updated in probably a year. Maybe I should update it. Let me know who you all are. :)
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| Monday, October 1st, 2001
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3:19 pm - Ok
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So now I'm leaving at 7:50, flying to SF, and from SF to Chicago.
Layovers suck, but I'm still excited. I'll be there till wednesday.
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1:32 pm - whoa
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Chris just came by my cube, interesting news. One of our customers is still having issues, so tonight at 11 Chris and I are flying out to Chicago. I've never been to Chicago...
Exciting! :)
We're there for probably 3 days, so I should have some time to check out the city and goof around. I wonder what the night life is like out there. Ohhh.. I hope we get a nice hotel too.
I've been doing alot of traveling lately too, not necessarily far, but I just havent been home. Friday obviously was Eugene. Last night then I stayed out at Sidney's, that was fun, we watched Happy Gilmore. That movie is so god damned funny.
Alright I gotta run, I need to take care of stuff and get ready for flying out tonight
current mood:  excited
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| Sunday, September 30th, 2001
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11:20 pm
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Heh, so I just called Sidney cause she was bored, and somehow now I'm driving out to Pacific for the night to spend the night with her. We're gonna watch movies. :) I've got work tomorow, but my work is right in between her school and my house (pacific is in forrest grove, 40 minutes away, I work in hillsboro, 20 minutes away). So in the morning I'll just go to work from her dorm.
This will be fun, I havent seen her since last weekend. I love our little slumber parties. :D
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3:25 pm
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I'm so damned lazy.. its 3:30 and I just showered (I've been up since 11). What have I been doing? Playing FF8 all day. And it's fucking beautiful outside. I need to get out. Looks like a good day for a bike ride.
I should eat first, I havent done that yet today.
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3:35 am
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Off to bed. It's early for a saturday. Josh and Erica were cracking me up tonight. Goodnight -
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| Saturday, September 29th, 2001
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6:47 pm - FF8
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I haven't played FF8 in forever. I need to get the cd's back from Grant. He's down in school, but he left the cd's at his parents house. I think I'm headin up there to get them.
I wonder what the agenda for tonight will be. A couple of seniors have called me already wondering if I'm having people over, maybe I'll do that if I can get them to bring some cute girls. I want to get ahold of Lorin and Chase too, see what those cats are up to. Whatever happens, either I want it to involve girls and potential for Ian getting laid, or FF8. If it's just guys partying, then fuckit, I'll play videogames.
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5:36 pm - at least the hangover is gone now...
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Last night was pretty fun down at Greg, Luke, and Casey's pad. Nice apartment, pretty big. The party wasnt as poppin as I'd hoped it would be, just abouut 12 of us chillin (ok so it was pretty dead). And it was really more like 11 because one of the girls passed out at around midnight. Then she puked all over the carpet, that was fun cleaning it (and her) up. I was pretty faded though, I was just chillin having fun.
Last night before I went down to Eugene I talked to Sidney for a while. She was worried when I told her all about the latest update in the Krissie situation, she is afraid that I'll get hurt. It means alot to me how much Sid looks out for me. She made some good points too, basically we agreed that I need to get laid. Because she thinks Krissie isnt likely to happen and that I'll get hurt, and I think that she's probably right (as much as I don't want to admit it). So the solution is to get Ian laid, try and get my mind off Krissie.
The only problem with that theory is that, while getting laid will temporarily take my mind off Krissie, what I really need is a steady girlfriend. That's a large part of why I like Krissie so much, is that she's the girlfriend type. And if I get laid and get my mind off her, then I'll just be right back where I was 4 months ago, still wanting a relationship.
Better than getting my heart broken I suppose.
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| Friday, September 28th, 2001
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6:29 pm - party harty
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2:50 pm - Guess who just called
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Krissie just called... it was really good to talk to her finally. We talked for about half an hour, about what all has been going on with Jake, her life, my life, and random things like sports. It was great, we talked like we used to talk, just kind of having fun. I'm now assured that she's fine, she was her usual chipper self.
The whole Jake situation is odd, basically she's living with him in the apartment again. She's paid her rent, her name is on the lease, and so she's not going to just give it up. Jake got the couch, since it's her bed. They're not fighting anymore, they get along fine, but there's no relationship at all. Jake says he is still in love with her, but he refuses to say he loves her. She said she's going to just wait it out, and see what happens. She's kind of trying to bring the relationship back, not putting too much effort into it, but it seemed like an "if it happens it happens" deal.
We talked about us too, and unfortunately for me we arent going to hang out for a while. Because she is trying to somewhat mend things with Jake, if she were to come down here it would screw things up. Basically she still has feelings for me, and we would get on each other, and that would ruin anything potential with Jake. Of course thats what I want, heh, cause I want her to be with me, but I told her that I figured that was the choice she would make, and that I wouldnt want to put her in another bad position.
The good side is the feeling I got that, if things didnt work out with Jake, a relationship between myself and her is not that far flung. I don't really feel bad either, in most other situations I would feel like "well shit I dont want to be put on the back burner" and forget about the girl, but I have to remember that she has 3 years vested in Jake. No matter how badly I want her to be mine, I understand that you dont just throw 3 years away like that.
Unfortunately our conversation had to be cut short by the fact that my cell phone batteries are about to die. And I am waiting for an important call from Luke telling me how to get down to their apartment.
Back to work
current mood: cheerful/thoughtful
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12:51 pm
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I went out to my car to go to lunch, and I realized I had left my cell phone in there this morning. I had one missed call, so I checked my voicemail. It was Krissie, finally calling, she said she was doing fine. Much better. She said she had kind of flipped out, was pretty upset for the last couple of days, but she's doing much better now. I guess her and Jake have been talking, but she didnt elaborate on what that meant. She said she didnt really know what it meant. Then she apologized for the email I got the other day, the short one which only said "I'm fine", and said she would call back.
I'm relieved to hear she's doing better. I just really want to talk to her.
Oh yeah, and safeway had a sale on Budget Gourmet, heh, 5 dinners for 5 dollars. I got loaded up on swedish meatballs, I'm going to eat three of them for lunch right now.
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11:42 am
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So yesterday after work I had my first day of class at PCC. I was surprised, I guess I've always kind of written of community college as being the jobber college, for the high school dropouts (because the only people I knew at CC were dropouts). An arrogant attitude, because PCC was actually pretty cool. Cool people, lots of others like myself who were just working and trying to pick up some credits. It was more like high school than college though, but I liked that. Smaller class sizes, more personable professors, very different from what PSU was.
Anyways, so I'm taking poly sci 201 there, and the first day of class was pretty cool. This kind of cute girls sat next to me, and we got along pretty well, talked a bunch. After class I was walking her to her car, and it turned out we had met before. She used to work at the DEQ near my parents house, and I remember I would flirt with her whenever I would go. So I got her number, and we might kick it next week. I would hang out with her this weekend, but I'll be down in Eugene.
Speaking of which.. I'm excited as hell for tonight. Greg, Luke, and Casey are throwing a party at their apartment, kind of a housewarming party. Omari and me are going down, and I think Sidney, Kara, and Nikki might drive behind us. And since Greg is organizing the party of course there are going to be lots of cute girls. ;)
I've been thinking, and I've decided that if the opportunity presents itself I'll try and hook up with a cute girl down there. Basically I've realized that Krissie isnt going to happen for a while, maybe 2 months or so (if it ever even does), and I can't sit here for 2 months helplessly in love with this girl. I need to get my mind off her, not completely, but I need to not like her as much as I do right now. Because right now I think about her constantly, and since I cant be with her it just sucks (to put it lightly). So maybe if I get laid tonight that will help take my mind off Krissie, at least until she could do a relationship with me.
Getting back to last night though, after class Lorin and Adam came over, and we smoked 2 huge bowls. I don't smoke that often, so I was stoned as a motherfucker last night. We ended up watching Akira; god that movie is so raw. Lorin was cracking me up too, he kept saying the wierdest shit whenever Tetsuo would devastate people. I ended up falling asleep around 1, I was so tired after the movie. I normally don't get that tired after weed, but last night it just knocked me out coming down.
Ok, back to work time. Actually its almost lunch break time. Shyeah, burritos sound really good right now.
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| Thursday, September 27th, 2001
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4:01 pm
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so I bid farewell.
no more good times or bad times, no more heaven no more hell.
now brace yourself for impact it's a half hour to twelve
complete in total darkness empty space is where you're left to dwell.
and all you had to do was live today for your tomorrow
but now it's over and you're drowning deep inside your sorrow
you could've led but instead you confirmed and chose to follow
so once again I bid farewell
there's only seconds left you'd like to second guess
but through your foolish ways you've literally beckoned death
so just don't say you gave it all if you ain't gave it all /
just fade it in the hazy purple twilight /
no more time I tried to warn you all it's now approaching midnight
-Gift of Gab, Midnight in a Perfect World
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2:18 pm
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An absolutely excellent song.. The Crow by DJ Food. It's really really good.
God I'm bored at work.
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1:39 pm - Oh yeah
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Heh, this is kind of funny, I forgot to mention it earlier. Last night I got a call from Heidi.. first let me explain this girl. She's this chickenhead who I slept with a couple times a while ago. I'm by no means sexist, and by my other posts I'm pretty sure it's obvious that I completely respect (and love) women. But this girl is an idiot. A complete idiot, a stereotypical chickenhead. Basically it was my birthday, I was drunk as hell, and she somehow got me in a bedroom. Then a few weeks later we slept together again, and I really only did it that time out of boredom (this makes me sound like a terrible person). But anyways, so after the second time she tells me that she's been engaged for a while to some dude down in Santa Clara. Took me by surprised obviously. I point you to the fact that she started the sex both times.
So last night I got a call from her, and it turns out the engagement's off. She slept with another guy as well, and I guess her fiancee found out about it. But the kicker? She's engaged to this other guy now, the one her (first) fiancee found out about.
And what did she call about last night? To see if I wanted to "get together and fool around". Sigh. I need to keep away from girls like that. Unfortunately I'm too much of a nice guy to just tell her to go away. So instead I just try and avoid her phonecalls. Which never really works, because as soon as she calls from a friends house I end up answering it (last night she called from work).
Once again, this leads back to Krissie, because this is why I need a girlfriend. To keep myself away from these chickenheads like Heidi who will do nothing but cause me trouble.
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1:22 pm - Lunch
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Just got back from lunch. I swear if Sunrise Bagels had a frequent diner card I would have a month's worth of free food by now. Since we moved out to this office I've gone there probably 2-3 times a week. It's good though, great sandwiches, great soup.
Today has been fun. Big teleconference meeting this morning with the UK guys (like every thursday). I stole a real nice phone headset from Chris's old cube for the meeting today, but I couldnt get the damned thing working. Then it's been musical chairs with our build server, I've been moving that all around the rack's in the back room. Every time I find a new place to put it, someone comes in and complains that "they had that slot". It's only temporary though, the server is getting moved to the UK next week.
I still dont know what to do about the whole Krissie situation. I really am confused right now. Basically all I want is to be with her, but I know for a long time that wont be possible. I was talking to Grant about this last night, and I realized that if the relationship had slowly died out (as it had been for the last 6 months) then it would be much easier for me, because it would have been a more or less mutual dissolution. But the way that it ended, with him finding out, the huge fight, and her getting kicked out... thats going to have the exact opposite effect, and most likely make her long for him and for the relationship because she was so brutally kicked out of it. Proof in this is how hurt she is by the breakup.
So if it had just dissolved, maybe after a few weeks I could have started a relationship with her. But now I really have no clue how long it would take her to get over Jake. But I have a bad feeling it could be a long time. The last time I dated a girl in a situation like this, well actually it was different but similar in that she was devastated when they broke up, but this girl still wasnt over her old boyfriend after 6 months. Which ended up being why we broke up, because she was eternally comparing me to her old boyfriend, and I could never match up. Ayyy.. situations involving girls are invariably difficult.
If I ever meet the dude who invented girls I think I'm going to kick him
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1:11 am
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Finally got an email from Krissie tonight. Not much, just an "I'm fine". So I know she hasnt done anything. But thats all the email was, the "I'm fine", so it's pretty obvious that she isnt. But I'm still relieved.
Kicked it with Darnell and Ruebel again. Damn.. Darnell's party is going to be ridiculous. 200 people on the guest list. He rented out the entire top floor of the doubletree hotel. 4 strippers. Free alcohol.
I'm fucking pumped.
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| Wednesday, September 26th, 2001
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8:18 pm
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The Z-trip remix of Tom Sawyer is one of the illest remixes I've ever heard. Great song to begin with too. Another great song is Teardrop, with Massive Attack and Portishead.
However, somehow Motley Crue has made its way into my mp3 playlist. I think this was Casey's doing.
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4:36 pm - growth spurt
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I have been so damned hungry the last couple days.. I just ate a 1/3 pound cheeseburger 4 hours ago for lunch, and already I feel like I've fasted the whole day. Maybe I'll finally put on some weight finally, weighing 155 and being 6'1 sucks. Too damned skinny.
I think I'm going to find a second lunch.
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