I’m really scared cause I think my English is getting rustier by day. And I hate it. I like to have my business in a professional way as possible. I want to have both, the ability to communicate well in my mother tongue, and in English. It’s who I am. I dun think I’m prepared to just chuck away the entire sweat and blood I’ve sacrificied in getting scrolls ( two of them inshaa Allah).But at the end of they day, it is not in my hands. I can only pray to Allah, reach out to Him,ask Him to lead me to the right path. For whichever road that Allah has and will place me, will be the best for me. Allah is The Best of all planners.
Worldy status.
I just want to be modest. I don’t want to have too many wealth..too high of status. Trying to keep up with all of that, you will lose something even more valuable. Your happiness. Your family.
Letting go again.
No matter how hard we try, no matter how much we love…letting god might be the best option. It may be for a moment, it may be forever. Only Allah knows what is inside our hearts. Only Allah knows why those things that we could never imagined to happen, happened. All we need to do is live this temporary life as usual, pray hard for strength and guidance, and put our trust solely in HIM. We can never know what will happen, but we must have faith that only the best is destined for us. What’s best for a person might be worst for the other. We might not get what we want, but Allah will give us what we need, when the time is right. So no matter how your heart is crushed, your mind is cramped, take a deep breath and thank Allah for you are still able to repent to HIM.
I m letting you go..thanks for the memories that we shared.
The Doormat
When you are just an option. When you are just another plain girl whose feelings can be pushed aside for the sake of others. When you always, always tell them “It’s okay, I’m alright” when you literally have tears glistening in your eyes. Sometimes it’s not because you are weak that you do all that. Sometimes it’s not because you are stupid that you opted to endure the pain. Most of the time it’s because you care. All of the time it’s because you love. Your love is bigger than theirs, and that enable you to sacrifice your happiness for the sake of theirs. Cause deep down inside you had a hope. You had a little wishful thought inside your mind. That maybe someday everything will turn out alright. That maybe someday you can finally see the light. Not everybody has the will to fight. Not everybody has the urge to be bold and give all their might. Cause there are times when you just feel drained. There are times when you just want it to end. But everyone should get back up. Brush of the dust from your knees and start to shoot. You will never know which shot will be your last. You want yout last shot to be perfect. In front of God Almighty, for it will determine whether you are in the best team or not. The best team who will get in the best place of all..Jannah.
And that’s an advice from a mere doormat.
Refresh
Hey people..
First, ALHAMDULILLAH syukur sebab I’ve managed to get the scholarship. So InsyaAllah in Sept I’ll be pursuing my Master’s Degree 🙂
Second, I am now close to 5 months relationship…with whom? biarlah rahsia..hehe..Hopefully everything goes well for us Amin:)
Third, currently I am busy preparing and settling the things I need to do before flying into the sky..ecewah..owh and busy ganti puasa…HAHAHAHA!
K, bye
Mother’s & Teachers Day
Hi all,
I hope it’s not too late for me to wish HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY to all mothers out there (12 MAY 2013)..and HAPPY TEACHERS DAY (16 MAY 2013-TODAY!! )to all the teachers in the world, not to forget my very own teachers right from pre-school, primary, secondary up to tertiary level..
and both wishes are especially for my very own mummy darling, who is not only a mother, but also a teacher that has and still is teaching me to be who I am today..the one who has always been there for me..my backbone, my supporter..Despite your nags and my tantrums, your orders and me disobeying, your comments and my sulks..I LOVE YOU always, and forever..May ALLAH bless you!! ♥♥♥
After a LONG, LONG while…
Salam,
Heh, Hiya peeps! It’s been a really, really long time aite? hahaha…Told ya I am a lazy person. Duh, Last time I blogged was like what, 2010? Wow it took me a whole 3 and a 1/2 years to post my next blog. At this rate by the time I will write another post we’d all be 3 years older…LOL!!! Sorry y’all, but hey, it my defends it’s not like I was getting a whole bunch of readers yearning for my posts, right? ;p (DUH, of course la because my blog was private..adoiyai!)
Anyways, fast forward to the events that have happened for the past 3 years..I graduated, YEAY Alhamdulillah:) I lazed about at home for 6 months after getting back to Malaysia…went for a training program for 4 months..and applied for postgrad, commencing this September…hurm, not much has happened eyh? hahaha…
Currently I am at home, menjadi suri rumah..ecewah..sementara menunggu result scholarship keluar. So all, please pray hard for me yeah…
Till next post..which hopefully not gonna be in the next 3 years..hihi..
X.O.X.O
Keep on Trying…
Salam w.b.t,
Hello my newest blog! It’s good to see you again, nice and free of those filthy spam messages. Ha..Ha..
Hurm, here’s a little bit info on my current update. I am currently in the States, in one of the university somewhere in the Midwest. Aaah, no need for you to know every bits of details ok. ;p Well, you might wonder why I am still here at this time of the year. I mean, it’s summer bebeh, you are suppose to fo and have fun3! Hurmph, I wish~! I am stuck here, at the university(not technically, I only go to the university twice a day for these two months), because I am taking summer classes. Hah, what a responsible, hardworking and smart girl, you might think of me. Ahem, that’s actually TRUE:P Part of it lah..Okay2, only 50% true..HAHA! The other 50% of the reason I’m forcing myself to take all these courses(only two je, tp susa maa) is because I want to balance, or in other words shift some of the workload for Fall and Spring semester so that I can cope with the courses during those semesters, especially since the courses that I’ll be(InsyaAllah) taking in Fall/Spring will be my core subjects..Eiik!(-_-!!)
Hurm, this summer, I’m taking two classes, as mentioned earlier. The classes are organic chemistry 2, which I have dropped during spring and would not want to take ever if I could. And the other is Management, which I consider as accounting, because it has a lot of debitting and creditting accounts blablabla..I LOVE IT!
Hurm, today I’m actually a little bit upset, because I have received my result for my second midterm of organic. I did, not too bad, but it wasn’t that good either. It was only average. I was upset not because I was overconfident or anything, but it was because I feel like I did better this time. I feel like I’ve studied really hard. Well, harder than when I took the first exam, which I flunk, naturally. Since I did poorly on my first exam (quite below average), I was determined to do better in this second exam. So I started to study early, like a week early, and did lots of exercises. I told my mom it was like I was studying for SPM all over again. But I wasn’t complaining, I was enjoying it.Which was why I had a good feeling while I was taking the test. Yes, I did mixed up the reactions( who wouldn’t if you have like 12 reactions to memorize?), but I still feel that somehow I could do it. And I secretly hoped that my marks would be a little bit higher than what I get.
Hurm, it was a bit of a disappointment, when I looked at the scores. But, I was grateful that I manage to get around the average, though. I was surprised that the average is somewhat lower than I’d expected since the class is basically filled with braniacs (not mentioning me, but if u say so..;p). So this must means that the exam was harder than we thought.However, I’m still a bit worried of my current situation in this class, am I doing okay or not? I told my mom and friends that I think I probably have no chemistry with chemistry. What a joke, since I am taking Chemical engineering as my major, so technically I will be stuck with tons of chemistry courses rite?XD Don’t ask me why I chose to be a ChemE because I myself is still searching for the answer.
Haih, well, life must go on I guess. I want to thank Allah the Almighty for giving me the best score for me. I believe there are reasons, good reasons behind all that has happened. Perhaps if I were to be awarded with remarkable scores this time, I would become too lazy to study for my next test? Perhaps there are things that I did wrong, that I have to change or make it right before HE says I deserve a higher score? Who knows? Only HE knows, for Allah is the one who decides. All I know is I mustn’t give up, I must keep on trying, and trying. I must continue to pray to HIM, and keep on believing that the time will come when HE will give me what I wanted, because Allah will not give the things that we want most if the time is not right, or if it will harm us in any way. So keep have faith in Allah and everything is going to be alright.:)
A.W.A.K.E.N 
