Journal created:
on 8 July 2004 (#3738690)
Updated:
on 16 March 2006
Name:
darkstal
Location:
Rio Rancho, New Mexico, United States
Website:
My little piece of this world is rather unique. What you see before you is merely a collection of footprints left behind by Darkstal's wake. Footprints left behind during his journey through this world, a quest for finding one's own porpose in such a large world...
If you wish to stay and follow these footprints you will find that Darkstal is not necessarily a body of one mind. Rather, Darkstal is a body in which many voices, many mindsets, and many souls have taken part... helping this soul-less body find his own amongst the chaos.
For many years, Darkstal has traversed this barren landscape before him in the search for self porpose, a search to fill the emptiness that he felt within him. Without the soul that he had lost as a child, desecrated by fear and hatered... Darkstal has yerned endlessly for a porpose. The reason in which he was brought into this world, the reason he has beared so much pain and suffering. The reason why he had to fight death and the darkness around each and every turn that he made... a fighter for life and love.
One day, Darkstal found before him a goddess, an angelic presence that seemingly brought light into his world of darkness and sorrow. She had taken him with open arms, taking him under her wings. Yet as Darkstal soon learned... he was betrayed once again in a time of dire need. His world falling apart, this angelic love that was once his reason for living...
Soon became the reason for his pain, his bleeding.
He had given her his devotion, his love, and what little part of his soul that for so long had cherished for himself...
What little part of himself that he felt he could muster together. In return, even the one he loved desecrated his spirit once again...
Shattering his heart, and spirit, once again.
Now amongst the continuing chaos you will find Darkstal in the journey to find the rest of the pieces to his heart, his propose, and a place of solitude. He is lost once again in confusion, taking whatever spirit wishes to take part in this unique experience. Each experience in return they give a piece of advice as to were to look next. Always being as selfless as he can be, Darkstal search for yet another love, another reason for living, the object of his obsession and the reason why he has fought so desperately to protect... to protect his self-worth.
So the journey continues... the journey to find love, reason, and solitude.
With no one to stop you...
Will you follow?
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