time truly waits for no man.

it’s February of two-oh-sixteen already *gasp!

HAPPY 2016!

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DSLR was such a craze back then. Everyone was bringing one with them, hanging them on their necks. 

Heck, I even bought my DSLR with my first ever bonus. Back in 2008. 

My DSLR still works but dated. A Nikon D60. I usually used it with the 35mm fixed zoom lens. I really love that lens. Especially the bokeh it produces. 

But with the advent of compact system camera, I’ve not taken out my DSLR for the longest time. 

I bought my second camera in Abu Dhabi. I was split between owning the mirrorless camera or the high end point-and-shoot. 

The budget decided it for me. Got myself an X10 Fujifilm. It’s a hit-and-miss most of the time since it’s the first gen but I’m not aiming to be a pro anyway. Plus, it was more of a hobby than anything else. 
Now, I mostly rely on my iPhone since it’s the quickest camera i have on me most of the time.

The other day I stumbled upon the wife of a famous wedding photographer who used to work for the company i hired as our photographer. Although due to my minuscule budget, I could only hire their juniors. 

I kind of starstruck 😅 hahahaha. 

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Totally a random post this one. 

it feels like the longest week. i woke up today,  with aching all over my body.

Penang seems too long ago when it was actually 2 weekends ago.

started with Amani suddenly vomited at my grandma’s place on Saturday night. we initially thought she choked on her food because she was eating laksa noodles. she developed a fever soon after.

thankfully my cousin brought along a PCM syrup so we administered the PCM straight away. the fever broke and she was as active as she always has been.

that night, she vomited her milk all over our bed. and her fever reaching 38deg at one point 😳 naturally, she was cranky and crying and uncomfortable. she didn’t want her milk but gorged on orange juice for some reasons. whatever calmed her down and let her sleep, eh.

her fever spiked up again a couple of hours later. PCM didn’t break it so had to use the suppositories. thankfully, the meds worked. both DH and i didn’t sleep longer than 2 hours that weekend.

she was happy when she’s not feverish. that morning, she started having diarrhoea. i’m just happy that it wasn’t dengue, or any other viral or bacterials diseases out there. food poisoning is less scary, yes? at least we know what’s the problem, no?

but the diarrhoea continued until Monday.

DH took a day off as my superior told me the big boss wanna see the draft board paper at the end of Monday. Which i hadn’t started and a paper i had never written before, ever.

Monday was such a blur because i only slept for a few hours the night before. Amani pooped multiple times that night. i was already so tired when Monday came.

and trying to get the board paper prepared the way the big boss wanted it. God knows the many revisions my superior and i had to make. it was also the first time i had stayed back way past 630 PM.

this week i found out lights out at 630. A/C off at 6. and my big boss stayed back way past 730. every. single. day. if that’s what it takes to be a GM, i hope it’s worth it for him.

i reached home at 830 PM almost everyday. i saw my kids for only 2 hours before we went to bed. i didn’t cook, i didn’t looked after them nor my husband. there was one night where i couldn’t even remember what i did because i fell asleep in the living room and woke up on Sarah’s bed, with her sleeping next to me.

it was such a blur i forgot if i actually got her to bed with me that night. that was how tired i was.

it continued on every single day until Friday night. when every other department was given the permission to activate virtual office starting at 1230 yesterday because of POTUS, our department, the whole lot of us, stayed.

we were all grumpy and whining and complaining. naturally. i was in such a sour mood. i was exhausted and snappy after the zillionth revision i had to make.

and i woke up today feeling like i completed a marathon yesterday. not that i ever run a marathon before.

to think again, it started when Mom had to undergo a dnc for post-menopause bleeding 2 wednesday ago. i was worried sick.

thankfully, i’m on my period this whole week so i didn’t have to worry about my praying times. i think 2 days in a row, i worked from 9 AM until 730 PM non-stop. i even continued for a couple of hours more at home one night, once Amani had went to sleep.

and i just wish the closest human being to me would understand. i’m not sure if he is, or is it only my own imagination. i don’t want to ask because i’d explode if i did. to discuss about it will hurt me because for me, he needs to understand as i understand his works sometimes needed him to be away from us, for days or weeks at a time.

sigh.