| Circle and Squares and Diamonds |
[Feb. 22nd, 2017|03:15 am]
Galactic Shawn
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The insomnia is back, I think too much. My brain is more active at night when I'm tired. My mind goes into an endless labyrinth of theories and arguments. My bedroom ceiling is boring to look at. I need to stop studying so much. The more I learn the more I think. Drinking doesn't slow it down. I need to sleep. One more page, one more page. I think I'll put a puzzle together. I'm up, music's playing but not helping. I'm having another mid-lifer. Yeah that's got to be it. No matter how many times it happens my mind ends up back in the same place. I'm glad tomorrow is my Friday. Weekend time means clean, study, read time. I'll be asleep soon, just one more page. Time goes by too fast. Yep its a mid-lifer. Remember when people believed in God? I'm losing my mind and it always ends up back in the same place. I could be in bed right now, wrapped up snug in my theories. I like this song but hate the band. I'm deleting this playlist. I use to take pride in being who I am. Between insomnia and an active brain there's a strange feeling of peace. Goddamn those eyes though. One more year, I mean it this time. Full circle. The puzzle is missing pieces. My dreams are going to be so abstract tonight. I think my place is haunted. Man was I something back in the day. I could swear my kitchen was smaller. My kitchen is boring to look at. I need to stop drinking so much. I'm losing my mind again. It always ends up back in the same place. Its always the same girl. |
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| Winner Of The Worst Week Ever! |
[Jan. 27th, 2017|02:53 am]
Galactic Shawn
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| | Love Is The Answer - England Dan Seals, John Ford Coley | ] |
Soooo I got a heart condition. You know those indicators telling you "Go see a doctor dummy"? Well I'm pretty much in the red on this one. Do I care? Well yeah I do care but at the same time my whole attitude on situation has become blase. All the shock and terror of death pretty much left after I was out of high school. I kind of wish I wasn't so upbeat about it though.
Here's a funny story, Monday I forgot to click my dashboard lights off in my car causing my battery to die over night and having to make me walk back and forth to work. That night I had one of those moments where I thought I should drive myself to the hospital "Oh yeah your battery is dead silly", I went to bed and woke up the next day so thats a win for me.
Next night I went to the store only to find my card declined. What The Fun? I called up my bank only to find they stopped my card and sent me a new one because someone stole my card info and began making purchases. I made a claim and dont have to pay for the purchases so another win for me even though it's very annoying because I dont have my new card yet. I'm pretty sure when things go back to normal I'll see a doctor.
It's late now so I'm going to go lay in bed, watch Youtube on my phone and then close my eyes. When I wake up tomorrow, thats a win for me. |
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| Not a Bad Week |
[Mar. 29th, 2016|01:25 am]
Galactic Shawn
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| | "Waiting Room" by Fugazi | ] |
Two conventions in two states in one week? Can it be done? YOU'RE GODDAMN RIGHT IT CAN BE DONE! Here are the highlights of both:
Celebrity petting zoo
I also call this "dead mans aisle" because every former celebrity selling their autograph looks like the sad killer whale in "Blackfish". Case in point, I happen to stand right next to Jason Mewes (Jay from Jay and Silent Bob) in line at Starbucks at the con. I asked him how he was liking the con and he said "I really hate it bro." Hahaha awesome! Straight from the guy who had the line: "Man, what the fuck are you waiting for? She went for the set up. Reach in your pants and pull your cock out, bitch! Girls like that kinda shit." Theres your Shakespeare.
Cosplay Galore!
And the costume contest winner for best female costume goes to Ramsey's girlfriend for Lady Sif! She won $100. There was like 30 contestants. Yay! I also learned I'm uncomfortable talking to female cosplayers wearing next to nothing. The fault is my own anxiety as a former Christian and not female at all. I met a nice lady and I STRAINED to keep eye contact with her in fear of her thinking I'm a weird perv. See previous quote from Jason Mewes. She was pretty chill might have been flattered by wondering eyes but I wanted to run back to my room and hide in the bathtub because I'm a nerd.
Adventures in Drinking
Drinking is not actually fun except this one weekend a year with my friends. I really hate to think my friends are enablers but maybe I really am funnier when I drink. Some places get spotty but I think I have a celebrity girlfriend now (she had one line in the Batman v Superman movie) and I won some random contest at a panel I don't remember except that everyone was laughing at me. Later that night at one point I think I was trying to trick my friends into following Jesus but they weren't having it.
I hate having wait a whole year to see my friends again but it's always worth it. Thinking about the old days when I had more friends depresses me at times but I'll try to hold on to the ones I got now. Great weekend just sad it's over. |
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| I Hope Everyone Enjoyed the Show |
[Jul. 20th, 2015|08:21 pm]
Galactic Shawn
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But it's time for me to take a bow and say goodnight. |
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| OMG Finally! |
[Jun. 8th, 2015|02:33 pm]
Galactic Shawn
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It took me a whole two days, TWO DAYS, having a song in my head that I didn't know any lyrics to nor did I know the title. I remember hearing the song a long long time ago, possibly well over a decade, it's an epic rare if it's ever played on the radio. Anyways, the melody haunted me for last few days, I went to sleep with it in my head, woke up with it in my head, worked all day with it in my head. I scoured the internet and Spotify for hours trying to see if I can get any hits. The word "Love" is the only thing I knew from the song. I swear to God up and down the church aisles that it sounded like a Smokey Robinson song but I also thought maybe a woman sang the song. I was right on both accounts because BAM, I found the song. This may not be a big deal by any normal person but it's a huge deal to me. I'm proud of my song finding skills.
I must be pretty obsessed with music because I feel like I just found money in the street. War is over, bring the troops home, unicorns dance in green medows, I can sleep easy because I found my lullaby. |
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| Back from Cali |
[May. 15th, 2015|02:02 pm]
Galactic Shawn
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What a trip. Got to hang with friends and family. I forgot how much I missed trees and the beach. Visited my home town of Sunnyvale and there was just too much nostalgia overload starting with my old neighborhood growing up to my elementary school, Jr. high and of course high school and on to all the parks I use to cause trouble in. |
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| I'm Updating! |
[Apr. 22nd, 2015|04:23 pm]
Galactic Shawn
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| | "Oh Come On" by The Julie Ruin | ] |
And I'm not going to delete this entry like I did the last four. To bad I have nothing interesting to say except I'll be back in California in two weeks for friends, family, trees and possibly the beach. Vegas lacks anything scenic except Red Rock and maybe the lake. Theres a lot of wind storms here lately and considering I work outside it kind of sucks but I like my job so good with the bad I suppose.
I wish I could make all my updates exciting, edge of your seat, nail biters but sadly I have become boring in my old age. I hate to say that even my sharp wit has dulled to a butter knifes edge. I'm also displeased at the thought that this could be what being mature feels like. I don't drink, I don't go to parties anymore, I see my friends maybe once a week and I'm not even married or have children, I have lost my interest for serious relationships. As I type this at 4am in the morning I'm realizing that I might be having the opposite of a midlife crisis. Fuck is that dangerouse? Can I die from being boring? What should I do?
Think..think..think..think..Got it!
Tomorrows To Do List:
1) Test drive Ferrari
2) Extreme rock climbing
3) Meet three women half my age
4) Smoke a pack of condoms (Tee-hee get it?)
5) Extreme sushi eating
6) Fist fight a shark
7) Buy leather pants
8) Drink one gallon of Absinthe
9) Get married AND divorced in one day
10) Extreme napping |
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| aaaaand.. I'm 40 |
[Jan. 28th, 2015|03:53 am]
Galactic Shawn
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To be honest I thought I would be dead at this point. Hmmm |
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| I know, finally right? |
[Jan. 20th, 2014|02:36 am]
Galactic Shawn
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| | In the Year 2525 | ] |
Shoulda, coulda, woulda, here’s the long awaited update. I live in Las Vegas (again) and it is still a dirty town but I love it. Why would I do this, just up and go away abandoning a good paying job, my many friends, the beach, trees, my lovers, good weather and of course my family? Well... because I can. I am not married and I have no children. It’s a lonely mans freedom.
On the up, I have new friends, new job, new lovers and of course, my own place with NO ROOMATES! That pretty much means I can stay up late, play my guitar loud and eat fig newtons in bed and no one can say squat. I love the hot weather too, its mid winter here and its almost 70 degrees outside with no humidity.
My job, way better than my last job, less head aches but doing security for a casino means dealing with way more crazy people. The good news is that if they step to me this time I’m well within my rights to put the boots to them De Niro style unfortunately there’s a statistically higher chance I’ll get stabbed or shot but hey, even bee keepers get stung on occasion.
Updates ya later folks. |
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| My nemesis we meet again |
[Mar. 2nd, 2013|08:57 pm]
Galactic Shawn
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| |  tired | ] |
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| | Bright Lights | ] |
Oh Saturday night you son of a bitch! You know I have to wake up in a few hours for work yet you torment me every Saturday by keeping me up. It’s like a party I want to leave but can’t because the person that drove me here is out on the balcony making small talk with a girl he just met but she’s very sweet and being kind to him but even though she is obviously not interested in him and wants to be talking to someone else. Of course now he’s bumming a cig off her. He doesn’t even smoke! What a douchebag. Let me go home!
Anyways, thank the heavens my BFF is here to help me sleep. That friend is Scotch. I nick named it “Doctor Yum-Yummers” or “Mr. Bye-Bye Blues” and only the doc knows that after one dose (or two) of that golden smoky peaty flavor, dreamland is not far off.
By the way, if all the shit I’m writing sounds like ramble-bramble, it’s probably because it is! Lets see you write something coherent while being a half buzzed-insomniac-goblin! So... as I sit here in the dark with a tall glass of the doctor listening to Bright Lights by Gary Clark Jr, I’m full of nothing but envy for all of you out there not having to get up in a few short hours for work.
God bless |
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