dreams

are my emotions leaking out in my dreams? i keep having the most intensely emotional dreams. even when they don't have any specifically emotional events in them, the mood evoked by the scenery, a piece of music in them, things like that will make them hyperemotional. i wake up and i'm wanting to return because it feels like thats where i really belong, in those worlds where i can get everything to come out and it can be part of everything, the air, the scenery, the characters...all manifesting this intense emotion. i wake up and i miss the dreams, the dream-state. i want to go back, i want to escape the real world of blank, bare, objectivity and get back into the place where even if i'm really sad, at least i'm intensely feeling it, at least everything about where i am reflects that, is in accord with it. here i get up, and i feel these things that i dont understand, that are too complex. or i feel one emotion and i feel it against these blank walls, this silent machinery. it goes nowhere, it turns to dust. the cold objects just sit there. they don't care about what i feel. they just go on doing nothing. and i go on doing nothing. the feeling goes away as quickly as it came, with nothing to fuel it, or even just listen to it, hear it out. i am alone. the one piece that could give me peace is missing. there is no more harmony; no more resonance. in my dreams, i have the air, the atmosphere; the world in dreams. in my dreams, everything listens. everything knows and understands even if it's working against me. i don't mind. at least it listens. at least its there. and i just keep wanting to go back...