it happened.
and there were truths.
too high to grasp hold of.
but there above me
nonetheless.

it never happened.
and there were lies
many lies.
all entangled with the truth.

i broke from my shell to be with you.
only you.
because it's always only you
who i see
across the way
across the great divide
coming together
as i wake.

all this time
staring and getting lost
waiting but not waiting
soul inside self
self inside soul
a cocoon.

i saw my breath in front of me
i filled up on my breath
i held it.
it's all i had
all i knew
and it's lasted me this long.

i wonder how long it will last?


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this is how it's been
i break my silence
from time to time
eyes glowing
with recognition
i think i see the shape
the silhouette of my history
but i am inevitably wrong
the air is cold against my skin

if we are both here
we came from different lands
and maybe that's how it always is
maybe that's how it has to be.