by the way

the entry i just wrote was straight out of a personal journal and something i just scribbled out really quickly about 1/2 an hour ago. i was not writing it as anything, for anything or anyone, and had no intention of showing it to anyone. so it's not shiny and clean for that reason. it is not any "thing." i'm not even sure why i'm posting it. maybe because i'm trying to fuse the public and the private? ha (private joke [become public]. relevant to the that entry!) i'm too good at keeping secrets. the reason is because i don't see them as secrets. but other people do.