it's here. are you here with it? it's your choice. the time passes slowly or quickly, it's up to you. i love it. i want to squeeze it with a smile from ear to ear. but it's there and i'm here. because i choose it to be that way. because i am no better than the others. but after this, if it happens, if tomorow comes, after this, i promise to myself i will do it. i will do what i want. my eyes are bright, my eyes are shining. they are big and sparkling. i love you and i can cry. i don't know what will really happen, but i'm happy. even if it's not exactly the way i would have it, i am happy. i want to help, always. but let me keep my distance. it may be wrong in some senses, but it's the way i would like it to be. i can be anywhere. i can blow with the wind. i do make decisions and i am strong, but strength lies in the ability to change at a moment's notice. and i love change. i love freedom. so i may blow with the wind. i may be light as a leaf, or i may plant my feet firmly in the ground for a time (it won't be long). the important thing is i can do either. i'm not restricted from one or the other. it's silly, things are silly. i want to give you all my love, but i want to keep my distance. i'm afraid of you sometimes. i'm afraid you'll want more than i can give. i'm afraid you'll want to take advantage of my willingness to love. it wouldn't hurt me, but it might make me hurt you, and that would hurt me. so i have to be careful always. its tricky, always trying to do the right thing. not the Right thing. but the best thing for each particular circumstance. error brings wisdom though. where oh where would i be without error lovely error? i can only guess. i don't know where i'm going, or where i want to go either, but it will come, time will pass, things will happen and we shall see. that's how it works after all. life doesn't wait for your affirmation. it's up to you to cultivate a yes-saying to everything. that's the best you can do, and it is no less than unspeakably wonderful. this is it. live. love. be.
