I Think I Know

I happened to read one random article entitled "The Tyranny of Choice" by Barry Schwartz a few days ago. He illustrates how choice overload can lead to uncertainty, anxiety, and perhaps depression. Having more choices are essentially good for those who know exactly what they want, and therefore, having more alternatives is indeed a bless. However, ones still have to spend a great deal amount of time balancing all the pluses and minuses before making their ultimate decision in order to make a good informed decision.

He further divided human's behavior into two different categories, the maximizer and the satisficer. The maximizers yearn for the best out of every decision they made while the satisficers aim for just "good enough", and once they have found what they were seeking for, they would stop looking. The maximizers, on the other hand, feel the need to spend longer time deciding, yet mostly ended up feeling unsatisfied of the decision they made. They have the higher tendency to regret what they chose, and always come up with the thought of "what if?"

We all have to make decisions at one point in life or another, ranging from trivial matters to a crucial life changing ones. We had to choose variety of items to purchase at the stores, be it foods, beverages, clothes, accessories, or perhaps a birthday gift for someone, you name it. We walk from aisle to aisle, stores to stores, and ended up getting something or nothing at all. There are just too many things for us to choose from which has somehow made shopping more difficult and more time consuming than it was before. In fact, choice overwhelming does not just arise at the mall, but almost in every aspect of our lives including future career, friendship, romance- something like which degree should I pursue, What types of friends do I wish to hang around with, who will become my Prince Charming, and would he be the one?

I guess I am a maximizer after all. I always aim for the best, and later feel disappointed when I cannot live up to my own expectation. Maybe i should come up with some sort of boundary like having my ultimate goal set, create a specific and acceptable requirement or standard, and stop looking back on bygones once it has past. I shouldn't be spending as much of my time getting frustrated at little things, not wasting 1 hours just to pick what clothes to wear to the party, 3 hours just to pick one small topic for Language Arts Oral Report, 5 hours or perhaps my whole day just to shop for clothes, and forever just to choose what topic I should write about for my History term paper.

I meant, I don't have all the time in the world to do all these, especially when it comes to something like shopping, clothing, and stuffs. Yes, I need to prioritize what is more important to my life, and what is less. I need to have the ability to distinguish what matters, and what don't. Eliminating unnecessary choices is indeed healthier for my personal well-being, and I should start it from now, and if any of you out there feel the same way I do, I hope you would join this mission together with me :)

P.S. Forgive me if I don't make sense to you as I actually have tons of homework awaiting me yet I am still blogging and goofing off.

P.S.S. Oh, and by the way, I think I know why Albert Einstein decided to wear the same clothes all over and over again lol... because he didn't want to waste his precious time just to choose what to wear everyday since this genius gifted man has more important tasks to do ^ ^ haha...

P.S.S.S Anyway, I've got some pictures to share. Hopefully, someone out there would like it as much as I do.

Taken on the way to NC. Not a graphic design or visual art or anything, it just somehow turned out the way it is. The nicest one I could afford to take out of around 30 snaps lol...

I wanted to see the leaves change its color, but I was too busy with school, and when I could make it, 75% of the tree were just branch :| Lucky enough, this tree still got some leaves :)

Spotted this house along the way

And so is this house

I'm on my way... I don't know what lay ahead down the path I'm taking, but I'll try to enjoy this journey...

Separation

Every second of everyday, I long to feel your warm embrace, hear your loving voice, and see your blissful comforting smile...

Leaving you was hard enough, but seeing your eyes welling up with tears on the day I saw you last broke my heart into pieces. I wish I could feel your pain, and take it all away...

Months that passed feel like years... and I wonder when I can see you again...

I miss you so much...

Where Dreams Come True...

I'm having a writing block after the 1-year-absence from blogging world. I don't even remember when I last visited my own blog.

Let me start with a few pictures of my recent activities to keep all my friends and readers updated of what I have been up to so far.

Well, I went to Walt Disney World in Orlando, FL, on Memorial Day Weekend. My 3 days spent in FL was too short. I couldn't make it to explore all the 4 parks of Disney World, so I have to go back later to visit Disney Studio and Epcot. I'm just hoping that next time I'm there, there wouldn't be 80-minute-wait just to have one ride anymore hmm....

Anyway, I spent my first day at Disney's Animal Kingdom until the park closed at 6 pm, and continued with Disney Magic Kingdom after dinner since this park is opened until 12 am midnight. :)

Finding Nemo show at Disney Animal Kingdom

Disney Magic Kingdom's castle with the firework. The view was spectacular :)

The castle in Pink :) Which one is nicer? The one in blue above or this one? What you think?

P.S. I'm surprised to come back seeing the flood of spam messages on my Chat Box. *confused face*

Love,
Barbie

I Know I Will

I miss all blogger friends, I miss blogging, I miss blogosphere, I miss everything I used to have and do... Fairytopia Kingdom, I will come back to you one day... I know I will...

One Truth You Never Know

Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if…

• I never meet you

If...

• I never know you

If...

• you never be here...
  

Perhaps my life would still be the same? Would your existence make a difference to my life? Would I still have what I have now? I ask myself a lot of questions just to get one answer, but it just never will show.

Maybe God makes me meet you for a reason; be it good or bad, I am glad to have known you, and I am grateful to have you in my life…

However, there are times when I “hate” you so much wishing that I’ve never known you at all. I remember you used to ask me why is that I despise you this much, but my response to your "why" question was "someday you'll know"..... you'll know that:

• I hate you because you are so important in my life…
• I hate you because you have a strong position in my heart…
• I hate you because you always pop up on my mind when I actually try not to think about you,
• I hate you because you have the magic to make me smile in joys or even to weep in pain…

Yes… I hate you for a lot of reasons… but perhaps you don’t know that at the same time I utter this harsh “I hate you” statement, my heart actually voices out the word “I love you” to you…

Gratitude...

I am grateful for a lot of things in my life. Although my family may not be the best family on this planet, but in my heart, they are "loving" and "caring" enough for me to make me feel like for who I am, as long as I exist, I will always be loved and cared for willingly and unconditionally... and for that, I am grateful...

I may not have a prince who is close to me now, but at the faraway La La Land's Kingdom, but I'm glad to know that, through good and bad times, through up and down moments, my prince will always stand by me, willing to listen to everything I need to say, comforting me, cheering me on, and always love me for who I am... and for that, I am grateful...

I may not have the most normal bunch of friends in the world. They are just downright juvenile, freaky, girly, dreamy, and sometimes, clumsy , but I am too, and I am happy to have everyone of them around filling my life with joys and excitements, and I am grateful to have called them "my friends"

I may not belong to the most privileged elitists category who are able to get everything they ‘want’, but I don't bother to care anyhow for I already have all the things I “need” just to live this "modest" life with those whom I love and love me the same way I do... and these should be more than enough for me.

All in all, for everything that I have, though life may seems a little too harsh at times, but I consider myself as a happy princess with a happy life... and yes, for all these, I am truly... grateful...

What If...

Life is so funny… Sometimes I just want to laugh as much as I want to cry. Sometimes, I told myself that I have actually taken enough out of life, so even if I died today, I don’t think I would have any regrets... Some of you would utter, perhaps in the weeks, months, or years to come, I would like to be a good ‘wife’ a good ‘mother’, or probably a good ‘ grandma’ … Well, It’s hard to even imagine how a selfish girl like me can be a ‘good’ wife, a ‘good’ mother, or worse yet, a ‘good’ grandmother. Hmm… I don’t think I am good enough to proudly embrace these titles…

In my life, I've always wanted to leave this world with the smile on my face, you know. At least, before I turned invisible, I would like to spend the last day that I have on this planet with my prince Charming gazing at the twinkling stars together, and bid this world goodbye with my head resting on his shoulder and my lifeless body in his embrace…

Anyway, silly as I may sound, I guess I can only come up with such non-sense thoughts when the heartbreaking incident hasn’t actually surfaced. I don’t think I am ‘that’ brave to die ‘young’, and I don’t think I am ‘that’ strong to leave my loved ones, my beloved family, my great friends, and my dear prince behind... I can’t afford to even imagine what it would be like when I suddenly disappeared from this planet... because there are so many things I wish to do, but remain undone, and I would never have the chance to do so, if I really had to depart. Boy, I am still 'young'! Well, I still 'feel' young hehe... [I still watch Barbie movie series :P] Who wouldn't fear of death? the suicide terrorists? hmm..., but I am not them, I am just me, an ordinary girl who is living her life the way she thinks she should.

So, all I want for now is just to continue living my modest life to its fullest and do things that are worth doing while I can. I was born into this planet, and I believe I am meant to be 'here'. If I wasn't, I would have gone to heaven since the time I was in the car accident 3 years back then. In fact, I am not as fearless as I just uttered. I was terrified to the max thinking that I was going to die lol...

I'm glad i am still breathing... I'm grateful that I still have the chance to inhale oxygen like everybody else, and to make it short, I am glad that I am still alive...