ok ive been working on an icon community for a while and i guess ive finally finished setting it up and i have icons made that i can put up.

its called fuckmother and it belongs to me and Kirsten. if you guys want to susbcribe to it thatd be pre cool???? its where all of my shitty icons are going to go... so yeah......

uh idk what else to say.

im still in this weird state of euphoria. ive never felt this way before. at least, not in such a long time. its so strange and surreal to me.

basically i went to the Evening with Marvel Comics at the Alamo Drafthouse today but uh. before that there was an autograph session at 8th Dimension Comics with Chris Yost and Ryan Stegman. Yost... is amazing. hes on everything. Stegman most notably drew the recent She-Hulks series!!!

anyways i drew Yost a picture and showed it to him when i got there and i just. lmfao i was so embarrassing but he loved it!!! picture under the cut

( he sings )

the squiggly up at the top is his signature. he signed it and sent a picture of it to Craig Kyle who adored it... i was just so flattered omg

but anyways after everything there was another autograph session and Mariah and i went up there to get her autographs and i ended up asking Yost how to get into the business. and we just chatted it up for like twenty minutes just talking; it was absolutely amazing. he was telling me that the way to get into comics now is to get into contact with the people there through Twitter... which means im getting one. and getting to know the talent scout and that a lot of artists are discovered through the Internet now and you just need to get yourself out there. that im young and i have a chance to just get discovered and i just need to work at it and i know this sounds like the usual stuff comic people tell you, but i paraphrase badly and it was really inspiring.

and over and over he kept saying that i have talent. and Stegman agreed and it just. blew my mind. i was just this obnoxious, embarrassing piece of shit but it was one of the most wonderful moments of my life -- just getting to talk to them. (and getting Stegman to draw a picture of Shulkie that i need to find now.)

i still dont know what i want to do. they kept asking me what i wanted to do as a career, what my major was. and all i could think was "i want to work in comics." ever since i was a kid and like. i feel really inspired. i know i get into these moods but like. i really want to do this. drawing comics makes me so happy.

( i mean i know i get feelins and shit over it but in the end. im so happy about comics.)

but... idk. i want this to be a moment of understanding. like... you know? when you have sudden awareness. but theres still a tickling in the back of my mind -- dont get too confident. this is never going to happen. dont get too off the ground.

but... they said i was talented.

i have more feelins but i dont know how to word them so. uh. yeah.