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Kinda got back into Gorillaz whoops. Didn't mean to do that, honest.


But it was a welcome distraction amongst all my healthcare shit. The last month was one of the biggest medical scares I've had. It's likely early menopause signs, but since I've had heavy periods all my menstruating cycles it could very well be cysts or fibroids

Sister Claire is prob the only webcomic, besides crfh!!, to give me utter whiplash when it started down its Cerebus Syndrome.

I liked the original iteration of the comic just fine. Magical Nun-Fu nonsense done by a nun pregnant with the world's next messiah. Then it morphed into....whatever it is now.

It's fine really, but it's very awkward going back to the first arcs and seeing the attempts by the creator to retcon the clearly-from-another-series arcs to fit the current tone.

Pretty funny to be this calm when everything in RL has kinda gone to pot. As the local elections draw near, I have to worry about breast cancer testing, my roomie trying to get medicaid, and now I'm suspecting of having some kind of polyp bcs my periods have been getting Weird. (And I hope to high whatever gods there be that it's not uterine cancer, esp at my age bcs I won't be taken seriously.)

I'll compose myself enough, and get into some introspection.

Last year, I'd never thought I'd ever leave my mom's house. I thought I was limited in where I could go. But despite some tumblings, I'm here. In two more months, it'll have been a year since I left. It honestly feels good to know that I can make it. 

Things I've learned is, you can't always choose your friends. Having lived in social isolation so long, it's tough making friends here. But I want to think I'm making good time on that. Sure, I have years of interacting with people online, but I've got so many kinks to work out to be anywhere close to functioning with RL people. It's like I'm playing catch-up, trying so hard to reach the top of a mountain when I kept running away from the bottom portion. And maybe, someday, I'll finally have reached the same level everyone else has had.

 Plant:

a, all, Alla, Allen, alt, an, Ana, Anna, ant, app, apt, la, lala, lan, lap, naan, Nala, Nana, Nanna, nap, Pa, pan, pant, Papa, plan, tall, tan, tap



Flower:

ew, 

 Managed to wrap all but one of the presents I bought. All of it messy, because fuck it.

My spaghetti squash is almost done cooking too. Maybe I'll share some with my roommate, but she's a picky eater so she'll probably say she doesn't like it (without even trying it).

All in all, a pretty productive day.

 Oh, Frozen 2's trailer is out.




.....I don't care.

 Farewell, ancient past. You've been put behind.

 There we go, got rid of the default adult content rating on this blog.

Still haven't written anything creative on here, anyway. Even if I wanted to write porn, it'd feel really weird.

The next few posts might be friends only, because I've been dealing with some shit and getting hit hard with personal repercussions.