ECLIPSEBABY

i took my love, i took it down
climbed a mountain and i turned around
and i saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
'til the landslide brought it down

oh, mirror in the sky
-what is love?
-can the child within my heart rise above?
-can i sail thru the changin' ocean tides?
-can i handle the seasons of my life?
i don't know.....

well, i've been afraid of changin'
'cause i've built my life around you
but time makes you bolder
even children get older
and i'm getting older too

oh, take my love, take it down
climb a mountain and turn around
-and if you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
well the landslide will bring it down

-and if you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
well the landslide will bring it down
the landslide will bring it down


--- by Stevie Nicks. and now Stacey Kent.

We walked arm in arm
But I didn't feel his touch
A desire I'd first tried to hide,
That tingling inside was gone
And when he asked me:
'do you still love me?'
I had to look away
I didn't want to tell him
That my heart grows colder with each day

When you love someone
But the thrill is gone
And your kisses at night
Are replaced with tears
And when your dreams are on
A train to train wreck town
Then I ask you now, what's a girl to do?

He said he'd take me away
That we'd work things out
And I didn't want to tell him
But it was then I had to say
Over the times we've shared
It's all blackened out
And my bat lightning heart
Wants to fly away

When you love someone
But the thrill is gone
And your kisses at night
Are replaced with tears
And when your dreams are on
A train to train wreck town
Then I ask you now, what's a girl to do?

you are the one who doesn't know how to quit,
and i am the one who doesn't know how to begin.

have you got the chance to give it a chance?
or you just take chances by any chance?

breath, feel and release.

close your eyelids and open your senses.
tell me what you see.
wonderful as it may be, there might be nothing for you and me.

are you happy now?
are you still searching for it?

everyday is my dying day,
i don't have the courage and i must pay,
even though i really want to play,
i am too scared that everything wouldn't be okay.

please entertain me.
say anything to me.
enlighten me,
and reassure me.

because as far as i know,
i want to be your broken-winged guardian angel,
i want you to be found when you're lost,
i want to be a static sleep between your nightmares,
i want to be your neverending progress,
i want to be the one who understand you,
i want to be the man on your side so you can be the spotlight,
i want to be the one who like to hate you,
i want to be someone you can count on,
and nothing in the world, i mean nothing,
would ever change how i care for every second of your life.



because your life is what creates mine.

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter
I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes i feel no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through

Cause it's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on Calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause it's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Your Old Fashioned Name Is...

Isabel Hawksworth

You Make a Good First Impression

You probably are making a much better impression than you realize. Social situations can be a bit awkward for you at times, and you tend to over think what you say and do. If you make a social faux pas, you remember it a lot longer than anyone else does. Just relax and do your best. There are little things you can do to improve your social image. Express more of an interest in the people around you, and be a good listener. The secret of fascinating people is that they find everyone else fascinating!

Your 80s Hunk Is

Jason Bateman

You Probably Look Younger Than Your Age

You live a healthy lifestyle and know how to take care of yourself. You'll probably have a youthful glow for many years.

You Should Wear Cherry Red Lip Gloss

Wild, fresh, and totally alluring.

hari ini.... tidak menyenangkan. far below my expectations.
i'm hugely disappointed. and a bit hurt, to be honest.

but lets look at this from a different view, find the silver lining,
1)i made a new friend, yg mayan enak diajak ngomong
2) i ended up having sushi @SC, dibayarin hehehe
3) nemu CD Lisa Ono -Soul & Bossa AND Hideaki Tokunaga!!!

so i'll try to put the bad ones behind n move on.

note to self:
dont trust people so easily.
sometimes its good to be cautious. even if it makes you look like a total snob. just to prevent you from getting hurt.




hahaha udah lama gak ngerasain betrayal..

You Are a Black and White Cookie

You're often conflicted in life, and you feel pulled in two opposite directions. When you're good, you're sweet as sugar. And when you're bad, you're wicked!

Your Eyes Should Be Violet

Your eyes reflect: Mystery and allure What's hidden behind your eyes: A quiet passion

Your Power Element is Fire

Your power color: red Your energy: hot Your season: spring Like a fire, you are full of power and light. A born leader, you easily draw people toward you. You are full of courage and usually up for anything dangerous. You have a huge ego and love to be the center of attention.

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are confident and ready to tackle life. You are pretty vain and happy with your physical appearance. You are born to be the center of attention, and you're unhappy on the sidelines. You're always up for trying something new - in and out of bed! If you don't get enough sleep, you: Look like hell It's hard to sleep next to you because: You toss and turn all night

Your Monster Profile

Insane Vampire You Feast On: Coffee You Lurk Around In: Closets You Especially Like to Torment: British People

You Are a Centaur

In general, you are a very cautious and reserved person. However, you are also warm hearted, and you enjoy helping others in practical ways. You are a great teacher, and you are really good at helping people get their lives in order. You are very intuitive, and you go with your gut. You make good decisions easily.

Your Style is Classy

You've got class, and you know how to put together a guy catching outfit You're more likely to shop at Bloomie's than bebe For you style is looking like a million bucks... And you're always do with your fantastic yet feminine wardrobe

thanks to the lil pig aka my sister who met one of my mentors @PS, now i'm haunted with the long overdue REVISION!!!!!!!!!!
ffffffffuuuuuuuuucccccckkkkkkkkk








God please give me the strength to work on those hundreds of pages of analyzing and drawing..
*howling in agony*

thankyou to these people below :

- my family | ivan | ego | secar | richie | tita | mar | adikarna | mas ihsan | rio | ronny | nina | angga | klara | saga | elok | krishna | bangbez | tongky | nina arlene | infinito | mayang | shaskia | banana | mastumi | fikooo | cinuk | laksmi | iyo | febi | pia | cella | ditya | budeywikan | xmehdix | kodir | beva | erry | tanteshinta | tusil | adit | sara | mas ari | aryo'eh | mbak tika | mbak koes | ikmal | andre-wiwit | gito | ira | indahe | karina | nia | hangtuah family | dr.U | rio | ipi | cawang family | rizky | jaley | vie | uci | daddy andy | boim-gopit | daysee | mamanuk n family | ieyan | shilo | angie | palomine | raina | kuzi | etc.. -

for showing a bit of love for my bday!!! you're very much appreciated, thankyou thankyou thankyou!!! *hugs*

ps: and thx for the bday presents! love em!

today is my last day of having to write 25 on the age box.












i feel so damn old.
if it weren't for the goddamn diarrhea i'd be coming home wasted tonite.
f***.

this diarrhea+dehydration is really killing me!!! lemes gilaaaa gak bisa ngapa2in... huhuhuhuhuhuh helllppppp.......

lets see. the night before, i went to see The Simpsons Movie with Kizna Khiya n Yandi. Went straight home, packed my stuff n went to bed.

we're supposed to leave before 6, but ended up leaving round 8. ke Sumedang dulu grab a quick bite at YoeFu (spelling?), my family's fave resto, trus cabs nyekar gramma. i know its a cemetery but her place is so comfortable, up in the corner with great view n cozy place to sit. its not creepy at all.

sumtimes i wish i had a chance to know her. she passed away few years before i was born. all thats left is her pics n belongings. funny how we shared d same taste for stuff. n not to mention the almost exact same face.

ok then off to bandung. we stayed at Bilique Hotel. pretty decent although it looked rather 'unfinished' to me. i like places with personal touch everywhere. this one looked rather ... deserted? anyway there's only 24 rooms there but at night it was packed with anak2 dugem bandung yg mau joget2an di Fame Station, a noisy nightclub right below my room.

went out for dinner at Dago Plaza, Rio n his drummer pick us (me n sis) up n dibawa ke jl.Lombok, yg ternyata headquarter-nya anak2 band Mocca. Disana ketemu El-Fikri-Saugan (spelling?) -Vincent Vega, Riko -Mocca, one guy yg dibilang mirip David Chalik (too bad i forgot his name) trus ada bbrp orang lagi (which i also forgot their names). Oya El brought hsi lil bro with him, namanya Eca. then off we go to cafenya Acha (Lentera Cafe, if i'm not mistaken), yg kayanya disekitar Congo. disana Dede/Arina -Mocca n Bez -Olive Tree nyusul, along with few other ppl, tmasuk yg punya cafe. Had a good time, although i didnt understand most of the things theyre saying (abis paka bahasa Sunda!).

d next day, mom woke us up early soalnya mau ke akad nikahnya Nulie. Ada tante wanti n family, trus me n sis foto2 sama si cakep Emir. Too bad he's only 12yo.

then rio jemput lagi, kita muter2 nyari bakso (pake acara mobil mogok!) trus ended up di Lombok lagi deh. Disana dicekokin DVD Dresden Dolls, trus off to Paris Van Java bareng Riko & Budi juga, sambil nunggu jam ketemuan ma family. ketemu Sheila Keshia Reno n family n Krisgatha(!). Heard a lot of stuff i wont mention here. Sorry.

trus ketemuan ma family.. trus pulang deh! besoknya nyelesein Harry Potter. i dare to say that the last HP book is by far the best of them all. a must-read!!!

had a great time yesterday... went to Kaide to do some work and ended up reading Harry Potter n then off to BlitzMegaplex for a japanese horror movie. met Beva, n he bought me a HUUUUGE bag of caramel popcorn n a bottle of green tea (well actually i nagged him til he give in). we talked about my highschool friends n he updated me on things i wouldnt mention here. then off to c the movie, called Reincarnation (i was going to see Alone tapi belom mulai, masih midnite). Blitz tempatnya enak ya, me likey, tp mungkin kalo hari biasa dan penuh my perception bakal berubah lagi.

Plus points for cheap popcorn, minus for the chairs. Keras, sempit & terlalu tegak... aduh pegel2 jadinya pas keluar...

but i was still having a great time :)

pulangnya mampir beli mkn deket rumah, n after promising mum n dad to sleep early i went to bed. sayangnya gak bisa, krn ada bbrp masalah yg irritates me. akhirnya baru tidur at dawn, with a mild fever. skrg bangun2 masih ada sisa migraine, tapi untung panasnya udah turun dikit.

skrg lagi chatting sama nengipiyku sayang,, dan xmehdix. its good to have real friends around me, to care and to share, instead of pissing each other off like what i experienced these past few weeks..

to Angga, now that you've read this, i dont know about you, whether you'd be able to accept my writings, but all i want right now is a clean start. enough with verbal harrassments. i'm letting go n moving on, n you should too.

you must be happy, you look wonderful
i never seen you look so fine
i've heard all about her, you're mad about her
you talk about her all the time

they say you love her and she's giving you
everything you'll ever need
though i still adore you, i'm happy for you
i know that its too late for me

the only love i ever wanted is gone forever
i can't ever put my world together
so much in love i know you'll never come back to me
oh love doesnt come to you every minute
if you hold back someone else will win it
if you got a love put your heart right in it
never set it free

so think it over and you'll understand
i'm not trying to change your mind
though she'll never love you the way i love you
boy dont miss your chance this time

[sheena easton]

The pale blue light along the coast
Is one of those I miss the most
There was that day you touched my hair
And said "my love, it's so unfair..."

It's too late to sit in the sun
And lately we've just begun
'cause it's too late to tell everyone
That lately we've just begun

The one thin light that draws the pier
Seems very far when you are here
There was that day you took my hand
And said "my love, that's where it ends..."

It's too late to sit in the sun
And lately we've just begun
It's too late to tell everyone
That lately we've just begun

The pale blue light along the coast
Remains the one I like the most
There was that day you touched my hair
And said "my love, it's so unfair..."

[Keren Ann]

@Poolside with Bronco. isnt he adorable?



@Senayan, otw 2 see the indo team get kicked by South Korea.



Welcome to Gelora Bung Karno, Senayan.

I just transferred the pics from my 6260. mostly pics i took last wed @senayan. Plus this one pic of me with a smiling stud named Bronco aka Baroto. He loves all sorts of chocolates (be it a cookie, cake, chocobars or those good ol’ chocomilk) and once in a while he also ate flowers n leaves. He prefers them dried n crunchy. Oh n he had a huge crush on this boy named Rengga, whom he tried to hump whenever there’s a chance. Or not. Watch your back, boy. Or front. Or both. Just watch it.

Anywaaaay i had a great time yesterday @Ditya’s. I wasnt gonna go cos i already had a plan for the afternoon (@shana’s) but they can be very persistent n d next thing i know i’m @the backseat of Ditya’s car otw to kemang. We spent most of dat day slothing around the house (well actually d kids r busy swimming while all i did is sit on the deck n took pics around d pool. damn period.) n went out 2 grab a quick bite (which y’all should remind me not to do that again, jajan sembarangan, cos obviously malemnya my tummy ngambek). Neway, back to the crib, maen Guitar Hero(es), kalah mulu sama ditya by a fraction of % (harap maklum dah lama gak maen) but i did kicked rengga n shilo’s ass on d same game.. ehehe.. shilo si manusia gengsian nggak mau maen lagi, gak kaya rengga, masih asikan dia.. huuu..

As for today, i was supposed to go to Kaide n work on things. ANYthings. But mum made me call d hospital 2 make an appointment to c my doc 2nite. I called, dapet nomer urut 36 (masyaoloh..) which is around 7-8pm, jadi masih sempet ke Shana’s. Oh iya this afternoon mrs.Nia missPopon n missNdahe ngajak ketemuan di PIM around 4, dimana saya gak mungkin bisa ya, lha wong jam 5 udah mesti start ngajar. Pdhl kangen juga sih.. kangen banget malah! Wanna see Nia n her huuuge pregnant tummy! (halah yg ada ntar malah syoooook.. cos few days ago i met Karina who is also pregnant n i was shocked. Shocked as in SHOCKED. It seems so real. My friends is about to have BABIES).

.......

Aaaand here we go again with the phobics of having to grow up to be a WOMAN n taking the responsibilities to live my own life.

NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Well, not YET. Lemme breathe for another sec. ARGHHH!!! *shiver*

ok, on d last post i thought i could be wrong, dat he really wasnt talking about me. but nooooooo he is. i'm not trashing him tanpa alasan di page ini, just see for yourself why i'm ready to fuckin bitchslap him hard n good.

chronology:

++ a friend of him (lets just call him [1])added me on fster, i accept, on a condition dat the problem wit his friend wont be a problem for us.

++ [1] happens to be a soccer fan. and i left an innocent comment saying i got the ticket but probably couldnt go.

++ [1] replied what ticket? AFC, i said. then he went on about the political chaos behind it. i'm not interested, i said. all in all, everything's fine. no one got pissed.

++ then came the almighty prick. tau2 post a comment saying Halahhh, ada cewek sok-sokan mo nonton bola. Tonton aja terus TV luar negeri... Eh, ga ding,,,ntar diaduin ke papanya. Cewek kayak begini ya terang aja ga suka politik


.....

one word: kampungan.

since i wouldnt give him d satisfaction of reacting on his friend's page, i sent a reply message, implicating dat he's a:

1) coward, for bitching behind my back, on someone else's page

2) udah bukan disrespectful lagi tapi udah cenderung kurang ajar, n i'm keeping this shiet to meself (not telling dad) hanya karena OUT OF RESPECT FOR MY DAD N HIS.

3) dat his game is getting disgusting, its not funny anymore, and

4) dat he's NOT "just a bit unwell" (like what he wrote in his profile),, he's sick. a scared lil boy who bullies other ppl to overcompensate his shame, knowing someone actually stood up n give him d fuckin bitchslap he deserves.

mind your own frickin business, and stay away from people's life. crawl back to your shitty lil hole. you're not wanted here.

Eventho the prick keeps saying dat whatever he wrote has nothing to do with me, that it was meant for his other friend (which is a dumb thing to say, cos it shows that dia berantem sama banyak orang n therefor bisa diliat biang keroknya siapa), but if you read them, they all related to yours truly.

like the latest one. i wrote on his friend's page that i'm gonna watch the soccer match live @senayan. not long after, he changed his shoutout into "nonton di senayan??? nonton tv indonesia aja gak pernah!!!"

which is a stupid statement, cos we all know local tv is CRAP. Crap, crap, n nothin but a pile of bird poop.

maybe he's just jealous. jealous that i actually have a life that he cant touch with words, therefor he couldnt bring me down n hurt me. make me weep. IN YOUR SICK DREAM, SUCKER.

on a happier note, today i DID went to see the match, bareng Ihsan Pandu Ajo Wisnu Kiki Sansan Ridho Jani n one other person yg namanya saya lupa (maap). it was fun to see thousands of ppl share d same passion, excitement n expectation, and for a moment, forget their differences and blend into one. too bad we lost over south korea for 1-0. doesnt matter, sport is sumtin to enjoy, not to fight over.

i got pics but i'm having trouble transferring them to my laptop. so you'll just hv to wait, along with foto2 Miu Miu (hehe iya shas tunggu yaa)

++ just finished working on dad’s powerpoint presentation. for free.
++ mum caught me stayed up late last nite n she forced me to drink another glass of Ensure. Blaaargh.
++ i found couple of Sakamoto Maaya’s clips to download. Yay!
++ i’m still weighing my optionss. Watch the game or give my body a break. Err.. tough decision to make..
++ Rindra is said to brought back tons of VANS shoes from China. He bought it for only 3 bucks a pair. Dangnammit i want some!!
++ my new ‘friend’ from the almighty fster (hah) turns out to be a huge fan of political conspiracy theories. Not again. *sigh* cape dey..
++ i havent had the time (err not exactly) to work on my architect-portfolio. Sorry mas Krisna.. i’ll work on it soon after i’m done with the current project!
++ been downloading benfolds lyrics. I missed my DVDs. Where d hell is my benfolds DVDs????
++ oh n my Fantasia 2000 dvds is scratched all over n it wont play after the 14th track. Meh.. standar DVD bajakan banget sih.. huhuhu
++ i need some fine wine, and you... you need to be nicer.



*kalo masang ini aja buat portfolio boleh gak ya? huhuhu shower-drain nya aja salah tempat gituh... ehe ehe maklum nggambarnnya juga pas baru masuk kuliah.. ^_^*

happy anniversary to us, kizna n bey.. eheheh... senengnya ada sumtin nice ditengah2 hari2 yg menyesakkan dan bikin esmosiii... hhhh sejuk. ditambah lagi ada new addition to the family, namanya Miu miu (yes kaya 2nd line-nya Prada.. ahahahah... but actually namanya diambil dari suaranya dia.. miiiiuuuu like that. heheh)

anyway d widdle kitty cat ada flea problem (i know! i shrieked at the 1st sight of those nasty bloodsucking intruders) tapi after few visits to the vet i'm sure fleas-nya bakal ilang. for the meantime.. tahan2in gak maenan sama miu.

pics menyusul!

ps: lanjutan dari the Mamang mcClane saga masih ada tu dikit.. tar deh gue post kalo udah mood. Sekarang pengen leyeh2 dulu depan tv sama daddy-o.

++ Mika's nu song, "relax, take it easy", is hypnotizing
++ gym class heroes is d nxt big thing. Their new MV "clothes off" is so sexy. Lovin d moves!
++ i can hear my body cursing me like a sailor
++ pgn k lapten, lg fullteam,, tp my body wont let me.. *sob*
++ bought nu battery 4 my 6260 n a headphone too, all for less than $10
++ i'm tired of being sick. But obviously God has its own plan 4 me.
++ mumu is back, n she's in 4 a huge surprise
++ i miss my psychotic angels..

*taken from the inbox folder*
its his reply to the previous post which i copy-paste n sent by msg today


Klara?
semalem dia keluar ma aku nonton VOX di Club Tuesday...Ga ada masalah sama dia, dia sama aku temen kuliah, sama2 kuliah seni, sama2 musisi, pernah maen bareng...yang brantem di prenster kapan hari itu sih terlalu sepele buat ngerusak hubungan pertemanan dia ma aku. Yaaaa,,,kalo fenina sama angga memang ga pernah deket si, paling2 kalo kamu ke sby baru ketemuan, itupun jarang banget. So, kalo ga mau temenan lagi ya sudah, kamu ga akan bisa ngatur aku, dan memang aku ga bisa diatur...sorry ya...

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*digesting words by words*

so bottomline is, blablabla talk about his friend then blablabla talk about our meeting frequency then came this part:

"So, kalo ga mau temenan lagi ya sudah, kamu ga akan bisa ngatur aku, dan memang aku ga bisa diatur...sorry ya..."

*crickets in the distance, doing their thing*

so this is his reply for "the least you can do is be a MAN and have the DECENCY to clean up the mess u've made. its either WRITTEN APOLOGY or NOTHING."

and NOTHING it is!

just what i thought. Too egotistical to apologize n too immature to do what's right. Now we all know what kind of person he really is. obviously not the kind of person i wanna hang out with, no thanks. our concept of FRIENDSHIP is totally different. Friends dont hurt other friends. Its a concept that he refuse to understand.

oh well, time to move on with life. a life without him, that is. just like d old times. mmmmm nice...

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a lil sumtin from Floetry :

Been addicted to the burden of the gifted
To the sermon of the shifted
Always praying to be lifted
Always settling, never bettering
How’m i gonna win if i’m not listening
Always asking for, never noticing
Every move i make this game’s reacting in
Perfect symmetry, i’m my destiny
Must invest in me or i’m just gonna be victim of circumstance
All is left to chance
How can i enhance? I’m afraid to dance
I must break this trance, cause its deafening
So i’m breathing in
I’m breathing in.

*exhale*

Angga (posted on my page)
Posted 10/07/2007 14:12
-- kalo kamu mencucu, manis juga lho...

>>> WTF??? Oh yeah dats rite, a harrassing remarks would calm me down anytime. NOT.

Angga (posted on his page)
Posted 10/07/2007 14:16
buat fenina....
-- buat fenina.... iya..iya...udah po`o marahnya.Walah, lha kok malah ingin memutuskan hubungan persahabatan kita, itukah namanya temen? Walah,..tapi kalo memang kamu pengen mutusin hubungan, ya aku bisa apa? terpaksa aku terima, toh ini hidupmu, pilihanmu...apalah artinya aku bagi seorang Fenina yg manis kayak stroberi.

>>> Angga, if this is your concept of FRIENDSHIP, then i’d gladly step out of it. Having to deal with an inconsiderate n unethical backstabbing friend is one more thing i dont need rite now.

Angga
Posted 09/07/2007 23:30
-- oooo gitu yaaa.... iya dech, kita musuh sekarang!!!!

>>> see, who made enemies first? It was YOU.

f e n i n a
Posted 10/07/2007 00:18
-- Baguslah, berkurang 1 org buat basabasi. Less problem in life is always a good thing.
I just wonder how ur father would react if he knows his son made enemies with his bestfriend's daughter.

Angga
Posted 10/07/2007 01:52
-- bentar..bentar,,,kok jadi ngadu ke ortu??? Waduh, jangan dong...Truce aja ya...

>>> offering TRUCE while posting "kenapa kalo marah pake bahasa BULE???? Karena dia tau, kalo bahasa Indonesianya masih kayak PREMAN TANAH ABANG!!!!" on top of ur page is rather inconsistent, if not two-faced.

f e n i n a
Posted 10/07/2007 11:32
TRUCE – a TEMPORARY STOPPAGE of a conflict which each side AGREES to SUSPEND (not to FINISH or to DEAL WITH) aggressive actions, only to be RESUMED later.

>>>why bother for a TRUCE? I’d rather finish it once n for all.


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Its so funny in a numbshocking kind of way, he thinks by writing "kalo kamu mencucu, manis juga lho" can make all problems disappear? this is not some kind of a twisted game where you can make a joke n all problems would be over. I was wrong, you’re not d kind of friend that would make me be a better person by sharing experiences. All we shared is bitter remarks yg gak mutu.

To Klara, i’m so sorry, i was wrong. He’s the one acting all holier-than-thou.

Now i've lost all respect for him. The least he can do is be a MAN and have the DECENCY to clean up the mess he made. its either WRITTEN APOLOGY or NOTHING. Let’s see if he still have it in him.

Ps: blogger masih ga bisa post title??! wtf wit dis junk??

It all started with a simple question:


f e n i n a
Posted 01/07/2007 12:25
-- Gmana indiefest-nya?

Angga
Posted 01/07/2007 23:18
-- indiefest belum ada kabar...sapa yg lolos ke 10 besar masih ga ada yg tau. Kamu gmn kabar?

>>>then came RIO, post a comment bout me coming to his place -bandung- later on august for another choir festival

Rio
Posted 02/07/2007 08:36
-- hahahhahaa asik! kabarin yah! tanggal brapa?? eh, gw maen live on air di prambors kemis besok! jam 7 malem. dengerin yah!

f e n i n a
Posted 02/07/2007 09:52
-- Kbr? Alhamdulillah baik. Km msh suka ngusilin orang ya? :-)

Angga
Posted 02/07/2007 10:33
-- suka ngusilin orang??? Eh, btw, 70`s Orgasm Club yg menang indiefest taon lalu itu temenmu kan??? [Man below this comment, isn` he?] Produser musiknya OZ FM kan? OZ FM salah satu radio partnernya LA indiefest kalo ga salah,,,

>>> mencium gelagat gak enak

f e n i n a
Posted 02/07/2007 10:57
-- Semangat amat nanyanya.. Iya rio bassist 70s orgasm n produser slh 1 acara di Oz. Laluuuu?

f e n i n a
Posted 02/07/2007 11:06
-- Angga knp siy? heboh amat... Naksir ya sm rio? Hohohoh xp

Angga
Posted 02/07/2007 19:01
-- heboh? nggak... aku kan tinggal di Indonesia,,, Eh, btw cuma VOX yang menurutku paling beda dan paling SKILLFUL di kompilasi indiefest I. Bukan karena sama2 orang Surabaya, tapi aku obyektif [banyak juga yg berpendapat sama]. Ironisnya surabaya taon lalu cuma dapet jatah 2 tempat.[Tau apa katanya orang2 Aksara Record pas liat performnya VOX? "Inilah live perform yang paling bagus yg pernah kita lihat"
So selama ini mereka ngelihat apa di Bandung sana???

f e n i n a
Posted 02/07/2007 20:44
-- "So selama ini mereka ngelihat apa di Bandung sana???"

i really wish u didnt say that. that is a typical bitter comment that sounds like it came from a sore loser. cant you be more appreciative of others? besides, he's my friend, and i dont like that kind of talk on MY PAGE. show some RESPECT.

f e n i n a
-- @rio --maafkan temenku yaaa, he's an emotional trainwreck who needs to work on his social-charms.
-- @angga --i left a comment on your page already and by now i hope we can continue to be civil to each other n to each other's friends.

Angga
Posted 03/07/2007 00:28
-- ada cewek manis, kalo lagi marah slalu pake bahasa Inggris....Trus nggak bolehin orang nulis pake huruf besar...trus tiap apa yg kutulis slalu salah...trus ngebela-belain temen, padahal akukan temennya juga?...

>>> he has gotta be kidding me. dia biang keroknya tapi jealous gak dibelain? puh-leez.

f e n i n a
Posted 03/07/2007 09:49
-- ada cowo yang dulunya manis tapi sekarang socially-challenged, yang 80% omongannya memancing argumentasi melulu. mungkin dia seneng nge-test orang, mungkin dia nyari lawan tanding bacot2an, mungkin dia cuma iseng kurang kerjaan, i dont know, dan biasanya i dont care, up until he trashed my page. Anehnya, dia yg mulai bertingkah gak ngenakin, tapi dia minta dibelain. Selama ini rasanya udah cukup dibela dari cercaan temen2nya yg dulu, tapi kalo sekarang temen yg dulu mbelain malah dikasih unpleasant attitude, apa namanya ya?

Angga
Posted 09/07/2007 10:43
-- ada cewek manis yang nulisnya pake hurup kecil, tapi kasarnya bukan main....Masak nulisnya ADU BACOT!!!! Kenapa, ga terima aku pake huruf besar??? MARAH??? TRUS KENAPA??? NGAJAK BERANTEM??? Aku tersinggung rek!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

>>> ada apakah dengan kata2 ADU BACOT? apakah di Surabaya sana artinya beda sama sini? kayanya ngga deh. mulai berpikir.. ini orang sinting ya?

f e n i n a
Posted 09/07/2007 19:26
-- Knp marah, krn km sbnernya tau klo aku bener? Tersinggung? Bagus. Biar ati2 lain kali kalo mau post comment. Pikirin perasaan orang lain. Heran, org ini mulutnya NASTY tp malah ga terima disentil balik. Dgr 'adu bacot' aja lsg heboh. Pdhl thats what u've been doing the whole time. Tau diri dong mas. Btw i deleted ur comment. I dont need that kind of negativity on my page. Kalo udah belajar ngendaliin omongan, ego & emosi, silakan ninggalin comment lg.

f e n i n a (on own page)
Posted 09/07/2007 19:56
-- i was gonna erase the previous comment.. tapi kok lucu ya.. simpen aja lah. Temenku ini denger "adu bacot" aja ("ada cowo yang omongannya memancing argumentasi melulu. mungkin dia seneng nge-test orang, mungkin dia nyari lawan tanding bacot2an, mungkin dia cuma iseng kurang kerjaan, i dont know, dan biasanya i dont care, up until he trashed my page") udah kaya denger gw screaming profanities to some kindergarten toddlers. Pdhl adu bacot tuh apa sih? adu mulut, adu omong, adu argumen! & that is EXACTLY what he's been doing the whole time, & he doesnt care whether omongannya itu menyinggung temennya apa nggak (terbukti dengan banyaknya retaliations from his angry friends di page-nya). Its ironic that a person yang mulutnya TAJEM bgt, gak mau kesinggung sedikit pun.
Kalo kata mama "jgn nyubit kalo ndak mau dicubit balik".
Semoga ini jadi pembelajaran buat semua ya ;-)

Angga
Posted 09/07/2007 23:30
-- oooo gitu yaaa.... iya dech, kita musuh sekarang!!!!

>>> heh? you DO realize we're not in kindergarten anymore, rite?

Angga
Posted 09/07/2007 23:40
-- buat fenina: Bibirku nasty??? Tapi ga pernah pake kata2 kasar kan??? Bandingkan dengan kamu yg bilang: ADU BACOT, MULUT NASTY, dsb. Itu kata2 preman2 Tanah Abang. Mana primary fotonya lagi naek haji lagi, ga pantes banget!!!!

>>> at this point i know i'm dealing with a nutcase. *sigh* kasian ya, hari gini ada yg pikirannya masih SHALLOW kaya gitu.. childish n egotistically annoying.

f e n i n a
Posted 10/07/2007 00:18
-- Baguslah, berkurang 1 org buat basabasi. Less problem in life is always a good thing.

f e n i n a
Posted 10/07/2007 00:43
-- I've given up tolerating your manic behavior. Say whatever u want, ppl can judge who's right n wrong. I just wonder how ur father would react if he knows his son made enemies with his bestfriend's daughter. I'm always ready 2 tell the truth, bout how it all started n why. R u ready? Btw ttg my pic, who r u to judge? U're no better than everybody else. Not even me. So stop trashing me.

>>> gila banget yeeee berani2nya nge-judge orang... kaya dia yg paling bagus aja...

Angga
Posted 10/07/2007 01:48
-- Buat Fenina:
TRUCE....

Angga
Posted 10/07/2007 01:52
-- bentar..bentar,,,kok jadi ngadu ke ortu??? Waduh, jangan dong...Truce aja ya...

f e n i n a
Posted 10/07/2007 04:43
-- Truce? Not interested. Its written apology or nothing. Btw its funny u wanted a truce yet your shoutout up there is still busy yelling nasty things ("kenapa kalo marah pake bahasa BULE???? Karena dia tau, kalo bahasa Indonesianya masih kayak PREMAN TANAH ABANG!!!!"). Btw kalo Nasty dan Adu bacot dianggap bhs preman, then its obvious u never been to tanah abang. Listen to yourself, have u no shame?? I dont deserve this crap. What makes u think u hv d right to insult me???? My parents doesnt raise me 4 u 2 insult seenaknya. Gila ya, ga punya etika. I'm done with u, angga. I wont hate ur family. They're warm n caring n have nothing 2 do wit this. Just Y0U..

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im writing this at 00:08
there'll be more, i assure you.

ugh.. freaks n their shitload of craps i hv to deal with everyday.. yg ini dibilang "mungkin dia seneng cari lawan tanding bacot2an" aja udah murka kaya apaan... elagh cape deh.. shallow sekaliiiiii.... belom pernah denger becandaannya anak2. bisa nangis kali dia. Truth is i dont care if he/i cut our relationship here n now. i had enough of this shit. cuma aja gue care sama keluarganya (terutama bokapnya) and i still respect him (om Benny). if it werent for him, i'd take his precious son down n hard for insulting me like this.

ternyata yg holier-than-thou tuh bukan temen2nya (klara dkk). its HIM. nyesel gue ngebelain. gak worth it banget, anj***

ps: blogger kenapa lagi nih, kok ga bisa isi title buat each post? dooh kamse.

Awhmagawd there’s another one. After Serena Luna made the vomit-inducing CANDY, there’s MINI. And its also a rip-off from a japanese manga yg di indo sini judulnya MIN MIN. Its about a stupid apprentice, murid sekolah sihir yg diusir ke the mortal world, disuru belajar sampe pinter baru boleh balik. Gurunya sent her away dalam bentuk boneka yg mesti dicium dulu baru poof! Berubah jadi orang. Storyline-nya sama persis. Yg gini nih yg bikin gue benci bgt sama TV indo. NYONTEK MULU, JIPLAK ABIS-ABISAN tp gak mau ngaku. Gak malu ya? Asal jadi duit? Makan tuh duit, i hope u choke on it.

on a totally different subject: audisi tinggal 4 hari lagi dan sampe detik ini belom ngapa2in. oia mau cari Kabalevski di internet ah. terus... lagu kan mau yg Fisherman Horizon.. 2 lagi apa ya? Debussy Arabesque no.1.. and? mana Bach-nya belom decide mau yg mana pulaaaa... invention apa prelude-fugue..... aaaaaaaaaahhhhhh mana lagi PMS........ ade apeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee bertubi-tubi...........

there is nothing quite so fine as sitting in this patch of sunshine
something of my own, a place to sing along

there was once a time when all i wanted was to just be by your side
not thats all but die

its gonna take some time
to fix this love of mine

just let me take a trip someplace
where no one knows my sad sad face
somewhere to be no one's anything

all i want is nothing to do
think of anything but me and you
its just so hard to stay
and so easy to run away

There’s this new series on d local TV called Candy, which i associated instantly with the huge manga/anime with the same title written by Kyoko Mizuki with drawings by Yumiko Igarashi. I saw the teaser n its a dead ringer of the aforementioned CANDY CANDY. Here are the rip-offs from the real thing:

The whole story is about an orphan named Candy (same name. Check!)

Has a bff named Rani (ANNIE. Check!)

who’s adopted by a rich family, that later forced her not to continue her bff relationship so no one would know dat she’s adopted (Check!)

Candy met his ‘prince’ Alfa (prince WILLIAM ALBERT AUDREY. Check!)

The ‘prince’ gave her a seashell (a family crest, like a brooch or sumtin. Check!)

Candy got ‘adopted’ alright, but as a maid (Check!)

in a wealthy family with 2 spoiled children, spawn of d devil, Lisa (ELIZA. Check!) and Neil (What, ran out of ideas? NEIL. Check!)

one day she took a walk n came to this beautiful garden (I bet it’s a rose garden. Hah.) and met Anthony (ok I’m ready to puke), who has 2 cousins: Steve (STEA) and Ardi (ARCHIE) who also has a crush on her. (*barfing all over the place)

Not long after, Anthony died on an accident (figures. Also falling from his horse?)

And later on, Candy would meet Ferry (TERRY. AWHMAHGAWD have you no dignity??) a good looking yet troublesome pain in the ass. And guess what? They fell in love but it isn’t going smoothly. (I wont be surprised if they’d put the Sister Grey character here.)

The magz -which I read the news about this crap-, closed the writings with “Seperti apa kisah hidup Candy yang penuh liku ini?”

You people wanna know? Really? READ THE FUCKING BOOK!!!

God it makes me SICK. To the scriptwriter, Ms.Serena Luna (if thats even your real name, which i seriously doubt), SHAME ON YOU. FUCKING PLAGIATOR.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Candy_Candy

Your Dosha is Kapha

Calm and grounded, you are not prone to mood swings or anger. However, once you do get angry, it takes a lot to cool you down. You tend to think a little slower than most people, but your logic is astounding. Overall, you're very loyal and trustworthy. You're not scared of being who you really are. With friends: You enjoy their company, but often listen more than talk In love: You crave connection and affection. It's hard for you to be single. To achieve more balance: Exercise vigorously (especially in the sun) and let go of attachments.

The Movie Of Your Life Is A Black Comedy

In your life, things are so twisted that you just have to laugh. You may end up insane, but you'll have fun on the way to the asylum. Your best movie matches: Being John Malkovich, The Royal Tenenbaums, American Psycho

You Are Sunrise

You enjoy living a slow, fulfilling life. You enjoy living every moment, no matter how ordinary. You are a person of reflection and meditation. You start and end every day by looking inward. Caring and giving, you enjoy making people happy. You're often cooking for friends or buying them gifts. All in all, you know how to love life for what it is - not for how it should be.

You Are From Venus

You love all forms of beauty. You love dressing up and anything luxurious. A social butterfly, you're incredibly popular and a great host. You're known for your fairness and affection. And as a frind to all. Careful though! You're desire to please may make you too willing to conform. Be yourself. Focus on what matters to you. You'll be all the more popular for it.

Your Nail Polish Color is Red

How you're unique: You have an incredible eye for style and art Why your style rocks: You are classic and classy - and that's hot! What this color says about you: "I'm smart, sassy, and sexy. And I know it."

Your French Name is:

Adrienne Girard

I went out of my way, gave him a presentable girlfriend, but he had 2 be an ingrateful ASS. Fuck it, i'm done playing nice. There are many others who knows how 2 make a woman feel appreciated.

Fuckin waste of time.

You Belong in Rome

You're a big city soul with a small town heart Which is why you're attracted to the romance of Rome Strolling down picture perfect streets, cappuccino in hand And gorgeous Italian people - could life get any better?

Who Should Paint You: Pablo Picasso

Your an expressive soul who shows many emotions, with many subtleties Only a master painter could represent your glorious contradictions

The Candy Heart You Should Give Is:

To: krishna From: fenina

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are balanced, peaceful, and sincere. You're the type of person who goes along to get along. And you're definitely afraid of rocking the boat. Underneath it all, you fear your world falling apart. You'll put up with a situation that you don't like in fear of changing it. Disruptive and forceful people intimidate you - and sometimes exploit you.

Your Quirk Factor: 39%

You have a few little quirks, but you generally blend in well with society. Only those who know you well know how weird you can be.

Well, so much for the Satie -Sonatine and Poulenc –Novelette n the whole frickin thing. I got fucked over by my old arch enemy Crohn’s Disease. For nearly 2weeks. And i missed the audition (but thank God the people from that school is willing to give me another try after i’m all good n ready).

What did i do that pissed the CD sooo much for it to choose its latest target DOWN THERE??? (oh yes u got it right its down there ladies) it hurts like fucking hell n i do mean every word of it. U never suffer pain until u had that one. It is swollen and u cant walk, cant sit properly, cant sleep, your arms n bones is aching from carrying the weight of your body everytime u’re trying to move, oh its hellish n i wont EVER wanna go thru it again. Fuck.

Oh n my ears made good friends with 30seconds to Mars since their anguish music represents my feelings this past 2 weeks (read: in total destructive mood).

Anyway my body feels better now. Still hurts a bit but its nothing i cant handle. I gotta start practicing for the audition (AAAARGHHH), gotta eat properly, gotta take my medicines (can u imagine i had to take 7 kinds of medicine in one morning for 2 weeks?? Thx God its now back to the usual 3) and i gotta force myself to drink that stupid protein milk to make mum happy (eventhough everytime i take a sip of that bloody fakemilk i wanna punch someone in the face. It taste gross.)

Hey congrats to my boyf! He got that job at Leo Burnett (spelling?) advetising company. Said he’s having a rough time adapting to the crazy environment but i’m sure he’ll manage. The well payment comes with a longer working hour (he starts at 0930 and finished around 0630 and most of the time its later than 7) so i hope he’ll prep himself up with healthy food n enough sleep (which means u can kiss the football match goodbye).

Fuuuuck I cant play the Bach –Invention without screaming every 4-6 bar. See this is wht happen if u stopped practicing for 7 years and decided to immediately play not 1, not 2, but 5 pieces brilliantly. You. Just. Cant.

Anyway i gotta come up with the replacement and FAST cos time is one more thing i dont have rite now, besides meat and enough red blood cells.

Yes i took a routine blood test and they came back spattered with lil star signs, which each of them means more problems,, like i havent had enough already.

Oh about the replacement. Cmon, think! Think! I cant and wont play Moonlight Sonata and i lost my precious Ravel sheets so that leaves me with that shitty Beethoven piece my sister used to play back in the 90s. But who am i to complain, yes?

And the Novelette, oh what am i gonna replace it with??? I need something classic, not traditional folk-ish one like Anak Perahu. But that might work out fine, considering its easy and i still can play it like i used to, even better.
So i’ll be playing a polyphonic piece from the baroque era, a classic sonatina, and songs from various era (hey maybe i should play Debussy –Arabesque #1 instead of Anak Perahu?)

I am so doomed.

On a totally different note, today is a-OK day. I went with my parent, sister and boyf to grab a bite @Kemang, followed by a slice of ice cream for dessert, and bought 15 new DVDs. Already watched two of them: STOMP THE YARD and KATE&LEOPOLD (this one i got for free). Reviews are as follow:

STY (ew..) – twas a mediocre movie. Iunno, steps doesnt interest me much, but it has a great choreography at the ending scene, go c 4 urself.

K&L – oh my, this fancypants version of Mr.I’m-too-macho-for-myself Wolverine is a huuuge disappointment, cos it made me crave for a real gentlemen who practices ethics on daily basis, excellent-educated and knows how to charm me in a classy kind of way (in other words i want a royally loaded and non playboy version of Jude Law/Johnny Depp minus the goatee and pirate attire).

The others are:
- UGLY BETTY – season 1
- HANA YORI DANGO aka Japanese version of Meteor Garden.. heheh
- Caffeine
- Smokin’ Aces
- Music and Lyrics
- 24 – season 6 DEF (dads)
- the Sentinel

I guess thats it. If i forget anything i’ll add em in d morning. Now i need my beauty sleep. Shoo.

Yeah i decided to apply to a couple of local music schools, give it a shot, see if my award-winning music skill still exists (which i doubt). One of the music schools called this morning and arranged for an audition 2 weeks from now. I mentally screamed AUDITION??!! WTF??!!! They assumed i apply for the CLASSICAL Music Teacher position and Oh scheisse now i gotta work my ass off in order to play decent polyphonic, sonata (im thinking of switching to sonatina thankyouverymuch) and 3 other pieces in just 14 days and counting.

Here are my strategies:

Baroque-style is tricky, especially the double prelude-fuga pieces i played on my last years at school, so i’ll just tone it down n play the inventions instead. Its relatively easy and i can focus more on the frickin sonata/ina.

At first i chose the infamous Moonlight Sonata, which sounds n looks easy but is exactly the opposite. But i figure a gloomy song play on mid-day might destroy me (n with my current state of musicality, 2 weeks is just plain impossible to prepare a complete 3-part ‘sonata quasi una fantasia’), so i decided to try my luck with the 1917 SONATINE BUREUCRATIQUE from Eric Satie. Its a 6-page tribute to Clementi, only with more character and personality and a slightly (HAH!) more difficult technique.

If i cant pull it off in 3 days i’m switching to good ol’ Beethoven.

Last but not least, my pick for the 3 other songs are:

1) CARL WILHELM KERN – THE JUGGLER
Back at school, I never get to play this piece. Somehow today I was attracted to this one, it has a fun and wicked feel in it, and I’d very much like to give it a shot.
2) FRANCIS POULENC – NOVELETTE IN C MAJOR
This is our personal favorite, me and my greatest teacher, may he rest in peace.
3) MARTHA MIER – JACKSON STREET BLUES
I figure it wouldn’t hurt to add some flavor to the –classical- audition.


That’s it folks. Will start practicing by TOMORROW.

*Well hello there migraine, chipped nails, backpain and sore joints! I c u’ll be keeping me company for the next 2 weeks! Just like the old days! Woohoo!


I must be crazy to do this.

i am lazy. bite me.

i got this photo editor software from Nokia's CD. Its in the box. Pretty useful, huh? see, i can make myself look like i come in 4 different flavor. Watermelon, Peppermint, Strawberry n Butterscotch. Mmm..




i want this bag. see here, d one below? yes the old battered suitcase drawn by Misery, the graffitti women from NZ. i saw it on Discovery Travel n Living n i asked Nana to get one for me but they didnt have dat one so she bought me a tote bag instead. Thx neway na.





the next one was taken on dec 25th, during my best friend's wedding, IKA. She looked gorgeous, absolutely gorgeous, n i cant think of anyone dat suits her better than Dana. both of them are so lucky to find each other. truly a match made in heaven. i love em both, n soon they'll be leaving us to Leeds, UK. Lucky bastards. huhu.





aaand last but not least: