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so this one time i was engaged and then this other time i got married and have been for almost 6 months! bahah.

i figure if i don't try blogging again now i never will. i cannnnot update every detail of the last nine months, so just the big things.

jordan and i got engaged on march 10,

and we got married on june 9!

now we're living in a little house in tempe and just working and being married. i love being married and i love love love jordan. it's been so much fun learning funny little things about each other. like how jordan knows everything about batman and transformers and foxes.

and his toots smell very bad.

WHAT

i've been audi 5000 forever and a day. my life is so different than the last time i logged on this guy. i seemed sad and that makes me feel a little sad. but... i am such a happy camper now.

i'm currently working THREE jobs and i'm pretty busy. also, i've got an awesome man in my life. se llama jordan. and jyeah, we are ENGAGED! i whill tell the story soon. but right now it's six am and i haven't really slept yet.

also, i turned 21 on thursday.

i don't feel different, but i feel like i want to feel different and i feel like i should feel different.

i want to grow up.

honestly

i'm trying to learn how to be perfectly honest with my feelings. often i keep things to myself, at least from the people who should know certain thoughts/feelings. i need to tie up loose ends, and let people know the things that they deserve to know.

i also need to be fair to myself. i keep my mouth shut a lot, and sometimes i get taken advantage of because i don't want to make anyone else upset or uncomfortable. example. every year for my family birthday dinner i choose to have sandwiches. this is because, well, i love sandwiches. but even more than that, i don't want to bug anyone by having tacos or pizza or hummus and pita. so with sandwiches, everyone gets what they want. and no one's annoyed or mad at me.

i need to liberate myself from tiptoeing around people that i really don't have to tiptoe around. i need to free myself from that anxiety and nervousness. but it's really, really scary to me.

disintegration

finals tomorrow! yahoo!

we watched a documentary on gaming (world of warcraft/everquest) tonight, "second skin." so awkward. so absurd. so sad. but pretty interesting. i really enjoy a good documentary. last weekend we all watched "king of kong," which is about the guys who are the top scorers in the world on the original donkey kong game. these guys are hardcore nerds. but i guess sitting watching a film about them being nerds makes me nerdy as well.

i'm fascinated by this pretty quilt by rose rushbrooke. can you imagine how long that would take? i love how detailed and fragile it is. it looks like a desert that i would like to eat. check out her other creations as well.

she's a thief with an eye for nice things

i guess i've been on an accidental hiatus.

i've developed something of a social life, so i have a little less time alone with my thoughts. but i would like to make more of an effort to keep this updated. for myself.

just to recap, november was... awesome. i've made a lot of new friends who are really fun, interesting, good people. those words are so generic, but i really can't explain these people without using their own lingo; they're chill, totally hard, i'm so phased.

my birthday is a month from tomorrow. 21! i'll finally be legal! okay it's not really a big deal, as i don't drink and whatnot. but it will be fun to be able to go dancing and purchase the occasional scratcher card.

brain = smart. head = dumb.

october was way good to me.

i can only foresee november being even better.

i've been feeling so much gratitude lately. it's the best feeling.

i've been dancing a lot lately. and coke zero is now acceptable.

i just downloaded the harry potter theme song as my ringback tone.

great, now my phone's gonna be ringin' off da hooK!

SPEAK NOW

OH. MY. GOSH.

i could have tweeted like 20 tweets about her new album, so i'm just blogging about it instead.

i downloaded it at like 930 this morning, so it's still pretty fresh to me. but here are my initial feelings on the masterpiece.

taylor swift. i love you so much.

mine - it's been out for a while now, but we all love it. it's catchy and like, sweet.

back to december - all the words are so right on.

dear john - HOLY SMOKES. i bet john mayer feels like a total dirt bag. if he didn't before, he should now (but i really do love john, let's get real). i love that the guitar in this song sounds jussst like a john mayer song. and even though i think it's weird they had a thing, i can't blame tay for this one, i would get with him in a second. even if i knew i'd get worked in the end. this song is amaze.

mean - I LOVE THIS SONG. i like the backwoods-y sound in the beginning. one thing i love about taylor's songs is the "you messed me up bad, so now let me tell you how i really feel about you" vibe.

enchanted - i love what this song is about. how it's so fun to meet a new boy and be excited about him. yess.

haunted - uhhhhhh. hmph. this song is perfect. i like that her voice is kind of shaky during the chorus, like she's maybe gonna cry or something.

last kiss - such a killer. "i don't know how to be something you miss." perf.

ours - it's peppy and cute. loves it.

sometimes people hate on taylor because a lot of her songs are similar, but i say why try to fix something that isn't broken? maybe this is a 15-25 year old girl thing, but the majority of her songs i think, "alright, tay, how do you know my exact feelings about every relationship i've ever been in?" it's all SO uncanny.

to summarize, taylor swift kicks a.

how will you survive?

today has been a test of my patience.

i don't want to have any more days like this.

weheartit

i have lots to look forward to in the near future!

and i should not watch "most terrifying places in america" or any other haunted tv shows.

you make me feel like a bath?

this weekend was soo good!

the photos tell the stories better than i could. but you should have been there. because being there tells the stories even better than the photos do. what?

bestfriend sydnee and i hung out on friday, and sawyer wanted to come to target with us! so we made him stay in the purse.

jamie, me and eryn

friday night was miss jamie's birthday outing! a whole bunch of people met up at the light rail and we rode it into phoenix. most of the gang brought bikes to ride,

i brought a razor scooter.

this is my friend matt. he wore rollerblades and made me look mini. who doesn't like that?

once we got off the light rail we trekked over to this place called DUCE. i recommend. it's this warehouse type building where they have vintage boutique type items, a boxing ring, a restaurant, stadium seating, and an ice cream/shake bar.

then we rode back towards the light rail, stopping to take some real cool photos.

on the way back i fell off my scooter and barrel rolled, thrashing my knee. it was gnar gnar. or sicky icky. whichever you prefer.

saturday i spent the day with my dearest erin. we had a nice lunch, some dessert. then matt came over and we all watched empire records. if you haven't seen it, do. but don't get the fan version, it's naughtier. later jordan joined us and we went and saw it's kind of a funny story, which i also recommend. then erin and i made a sick vid.

yahoo!

this is a photo of me at my sweet kristine's wedding reception, going back for seconds by myself :( sad day for the fat girl inside me

photo by ben christensen, i think