I have been introverted, simplifying focus lately- withdrawing too.

been going through a period of not knowing what I have to offer people, and figuring if I can't see that, why post. I assume people probably get bored with my talking about my Art Program and not much else.

emotional problems are not new, so I will work on crawling out of my shell again more often.

The Decade of Indulgence and Distraction.

I'm tired.
I'm tired of being tired.
I'm tired of not trusting others.
I'm tired of not trusting Myself.
I'm tired of the old tapes.
I'm tired of doubting my direction.
I'm tired of failing.
I'm tired of the feeling that I need to over think everything.
I'm tired of overthinking things.
I'm tired of internal conflict.

I got an appointment with the SSI department!

When we went to go for our check in for foodstamps my worker suggested that I just go in to apply for disability myself after I told her my story, and how my friend had been getting lax about help after getting confused. Well, she referred me to the wrong office, but I found out all I needed to know, and wandered to the SSI office, where things actually progressed this time! I got *the LAST appointment* atm, on Nov. 12.

The guy at the front desk was not even scared off when I told him about my lack of concrete medical history, issues with my last counselor, or lack of job experience. Now it is time to try to scrounge what info I can find before then, to make the interview go a bit more smoothly.

Time to prove I am broken, I guess.
I am not 100% sure about doing this on my own...I feel totally clueless as to how to proceed, how to appeal etc., especially without docs...a large part of why I waited this long...but it Needs Done.

kasumi may explode without warning

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From Go-Quiz.com

Comment and I'll give you a color that I think represents you, and then you list ten things you like in that color!

Most Fave:
1. Bi Bim bap
2. Sukiyaki
3. Heated Sardines with warm rice rolled in Romaine Lettuce.

Lease Fave:
1.Raw Tomato
2.Eggplant
3.Garbanzo Beans

hmm....often leaves and stars. I used to draw cats more. If I sit down for a sketch session though, it depends on what I am studying or interested in at the moment. When I travel and remember to take a sketchbook, all bets are off, but I try to capture at least a couple of locations or moments.
I need to give myself more free doodling sessions though.

No clue what the subjects of my doodles say about me, but not letting myself have fun or relax means I have a lot of issues/and don't feel safe being myself.

You Are an Arabian Horse

You are passionate and intense. You are well known to be a little fiery and wild... you can't help it! You aren't mean spirited. You just believe that rules should be broken. You like to run free and do your own thing. You are really quite gentle and docile if you aren't pushed. You are exceptionally sensitive and intelligent. You get along well with others, and you're generally quite patient. You don't tolerate anyone being abusive or incompetent though!

You Should Follow Buddhism

Like Buddhists, you're not concerned with the ideas of god, heaven, or religious purity. You rather focus on eliminating suffering from your life and developing a deeper sense of compassion. For you, bliss is something you find within yourself through reflection and meditation. Everything is temporary, and you don't get to attached to possessions or people.

or

You Should Follow Judaism

You believe that there is only one God, but you don't get too dogmatic about it. Instead, you simply try to live the most ethical life you can. Religious holidays and cultural identity are very important to you. You enjoy following religious traditions and find meaning in them.