This and that
May 30, 2007
The past week has been a week full of mixed experiences and emotions. And since I barely have time to sit in front of the PC while I was in Cyber, I’ll just sum it shortly in this post here.
1. I left Cyberjaya, for good – The place where I spent 4 years of my life in, and the feeling of melancholy totally flooded me as I packed on Friday and moved back on Saturday and Sunday. I’ll dedicate another post some other day when I get Streamyx to post up on some memorable occasions that I have in Cyber.
2. I attended my ex-classmate’s wedding – The timing cannot be more uncanny. I ended my student’s chapter by completing my degree studies, and then attending an ex classmate, a person whom I knew since I was 11. Here’s to a long and lasting marriage, Chia Liang and the new bride, Karen.
3. I attended my ex-classmate’s father’s funeral – The 1st line from above applies here too. Instead of attending the funeral of those who are 2 generations above us, I attended my old friend’s father’s funeral. To Doreen Kaw, I dearly feel for your loss, and my deepest condolences to you and your family. Take care dear.
I guess the 3 incidents above totally ushers in the new era of me being a responsible adult, having completed my studies and looking for a job, attending friend’s weddings, and friend’s parents funeral. Well, here’s to the life ahead. Cheers.
The sweetest reply
May 22, 2007
I shed a tear. I’m honestly truly touched. Thank you.
In response to the ‘Reminiscing’ post. I just felt that it deserves a post by itself.
Reminiscing…
May 20, 2007
It’s 20th May, and it’s been 7 months since. I just subconsciously notice the date, even if I don’t anticipate it anymore. Perhaps it’s more of a habit, since it meant something for us sometime ago. Thinking back, there would be times when we would both forget about this date due to our busy schedule, and would remember it only sometime in the evening, or night. We would then hug and wish each other happy “fill in year and month” anniversary, and appreciate the simple fact that we have each other. On other times, we would’ve set the date in advance on the phone and be prepared to call each other at midnight exactly, to see who can wish the other first. Sigh…
Anyways, in around a week from now I would be moving out from here. Leaving the place that holds so much memory, which just flashes by whenever I cross familiar places. I once told her that she’s the lucky one, not having to live amongst our memories in vain. Not to mention the fact that she probably doesn’t get bothered by past memories, since she’s making new ones now.
I remember the times we had our meals everywhere, at the bus station, to hostel where you liked the Iranian food so much because you don’t like rice, to fast food places around here when we’re craving for something different. I remember most vividly the times when I would wait at the gate of C2, or go up to your doorstep to wait for you. You’d always take some time to get ready, but it’s always just so rewarding to see a cheerful pretty lass nicely dressed especially when we’re about to go out somewhere. Thanks for the great help in developing my fashion sense. 🙂
I remember the times when we would study at the library, and you would wake up and go first because I just couldn’t wake up. I’m still like that now, only that I’ll eventually suffer since I have to sit at one of those round table which shakes like earthquake when someone rubs their paper. We would then eventually study at your place, after library got a bit too crowded/cold for liking. I’ve now migrated to the cubicles if I can get a place there, and then eventually to the large tables after developing a certain ‘hobby’.
I remember the times we cooked over at your place, and would take turns to do it. We could never cook together, since we’re just so opposite. Either one would cook, whilst the other watches TV. Else an argument is sure to ensue. The days we would go to Alamanda to buy ingredients because we were skimping. I realized that I just don’t go to Alamanda that often these days. And the times where we would laze in front of the T.V, watching everything from shows on Astro to some lame Malay dramas, to America’s Next Top Model, and much much more.
I remember the times when we would walk around campus almost everywhere together, that people just recognizes us as a couple. Even my lecturer who lectured me this trimester noticed then, and recalled it not too long ago. And you graduated a year ago. And I just love waiting for you after your class, for reasons that I’m sure you know.
I remember all of the events we did together, or those which you would help me out, and vice versa. The most vivid memory would definitely be CCIP, since we helped each other so much to ensure that both our events turn out successfully. And successful it was. I was so proud of the girl who was up on the stage, who gave a speech about her event. Beaming at the back of the hall after helping your Special Task people carrying out more chairs, I thought to myself, “That’s my girl”. And there was also the time where you were just so proud of me when I received that award. It’s just so touching that someone would feel that much happiness for you, and pride of you.
If you go 4 years back, I would always remember the first time I saw you in front of the MMU Malacca’s library. It’s so ironic, since my 1st thought of you was “She seems so fragile”, and you definitely proved me wrong through the times we spent together. I now think you’re an extremely capable person, and I made sure that you know of that, and that it’s good to see that you’ve taken the opportunities to exploit your ability to the most. Next on my memory would probably be how our uniquely and accidentally our relationship developed, and the agreement we made then that eventually brought the end of this relationship.
But regrets I have none. You’ve enriched my life is so many ways, that I just lost count. And so on the 7th month since the day our life took separate paths, after 3 years and 11 months being together, I dedicate this post to the (then) teenage girl, who blossomed into a wonderful, matured, capable yet still fun and loving young woman who will always have a place in my heart, no matter how much time passes by.
Abdul’s forcing me to post, when I can’t exactly think straight. He warned me not to talk about *ahem* some team losing some football match, so I won’t. Not like I watch football anyways. This post is to satisfy him, till I can think straight. Which won’t be until I get some sleep.
On the bright side, I can probably be declared as a graduate now. On the down side, life suddenly feels aimless.
Gotta get goals
May 13, 2007
Didn’t realize I was tagged by Sat, so this is a lil late. For the official rules of this Gotta get goals project, go here.
I just realized I made 4 posts today, of varying tone. There’s an emotional one, one that filled with gratitude, another out of frustration and this one’s purely leisure.
Anyways, I’m supposed to list down 5 to 10 goals that i would want to achieve in my life. Here goes…
1. To obtain a Masters (be it a MBA or Engineering) by the age of 30.
2. To own a successful F&B business by the age of 35. I’ve got some ideas right now, but we’ll see how the execution goes.
3. To balance my working and leisure life. To not be a lifeless zombie who contributes 16 hours a day to work, and the rest to traveling to and from work, and sleep.
4. To ensure that my parents lead a healthy and comfortable life, so that they can live to see my grandchild. LOL. I’ve identified some roles I can play towards this goal.
5. To get married by 30 hopefully, else I’ll end up getting nagged by family and relatives. Sigh…
Shall continue when I can think of more…
I want to tag…
1. Fiza (you didn’t do my last one!)
2. Swee Won (you want to blog, right?)
3. Melissa
4. Feli
5. Jasmyin
It irks me to see
May 13, 2007
What Creative products is trying to do. Now you may or may not recognize this brand, but they make pretty good and high quality notepads, which I’ve been using for quite a while. But instead of just concentrating on making high quality notepads, they felt the need to…’inspire’ people on their front page. Now that’s awesome if they put thoughtful quotes which actually makes sense, but whatever they came up with is sure as heck lame. Don’t believe me? Here’s some example.
“Creative – Creativity is to make visible what, without you, might perhaps never have been seen”
“Strength – Unity is strength. One man’s strength is limited and can perform only very limited job, but when many people’s strength are put together. “
IT DOESN’T EVEN END PROPERLY. Oh for heaven’s sake.
Another one on the packaging
“Life is short, so everyone should – Live happily, think creatively, change courageously, work collectively. Live life to the fullest”
Can you even get any more less original than that? Sheesh.
I know, I know, at least they’re making some effort right? But since I’m forced to look at this thing everyday (since I’m studying now and needs to make use of the notepad), it irks me to no end. Seriously.
Disclaimer: The Creative Products stated above is not the one that produces Zen etc etc. I’m sure they have great marketing people. 😛 It’s the one that produces papers.
Sweetness
May 13, 2007
I’m worth being mentioned. Thanks dear.
Go see what Jasmyin has to say about me on doctorjob’s website.
It’s also surprising to see my uncle’s profile here. Hmmm…
It saddens me
May 13, 2007
That you’re already there, and I’m still here. I’m not exactly holding on to the past, but seeing you definitely doesn’t help. It reminds me too much of what I had, what I wanted, and what I can’t have. It redefines what I want to, and that’s what stricken me so much, to just not be able to discover what I truly want. How can you settle for anything less when you’ve had the best you can get? Sigh…
One hella hectic week
May 12, 2007
It has been one week of going to and fro from Cyberjaya to the PJ/Damansara/Shah Alam area, which required me to pay a total of RM 6.40 of toll per day since LDP basically fences all of these area that I need to go from Cyberjaya. Sigh. Not to mention feeding my fuel guzzling car.
Monday was going down to KLCC, to take an assessment test with Maxis for their Graduate Trainee program. Tuesday was to Phileo Damansara for an interview with a telco contractor company called ENC. Wednesday was in the comfort of my room, although if I chose for a face to face interview it would involve going down to Damansara Heights. Friday was a last minute thing with BAT, whilst today involves going to Shah Alam for Freescale.
All in all, let’s just summarize that I’m waiting for an interview with Maxis, ENC project manager flipped when I told him I was bonded, and so did the good people of Freescale. Shell would notify me in 5 working days (3 more working days to go), whilst I don’t think I’ll make it through this round of BAT. Even so, as every interview passed I learn new potential questions, develop my confidence further and very often ponder it out so that I can do better in the next one.
Even so, I just don’t enjoy doing this that much. My whole week was practically occupied with this and some assignment/having-fun thingy, so I practically have yet to study for finals which is in 5 days! Gosh. Gotta put everything on hold, set on the study mood and work hard for the very last paper in MMU.
How’s this for payback?
May 5, 2007
After being all stressed up and coped up due to FYP, we decided to go for an all out payback outing which will not end before 6 A.M, as Alan puts it. So after Sim was done with his presentation, and we all semi-attended Dr. Fabian’s class, we met up at the Cyberia roundabout at around 5 something. Headed out separately to Sunway Pyramid with Sim and Alan 1st, since we separated from the rest who wanted to Sing-K. I still don’t think I’ll be trying that out in the near future…so yeah, stop convincing me Harry!
After 2 hours of skillful lousy aiming,lots of fouls, near misses, frustration towards a bunch of old dudes who kept shouting at a table nearby, and with 1 winning matches under each of our belt, we headed to Subang to meet up with the rest of the Microwave people + a few others, who were in Galaxy KTV. Since they’ll not be done until an hour plus more, the same 3 hungry guys gobbled down 2 Extra large 14″ pizzas which is not exactly that tasty, and headed off to Asia Cafe to book some pool tables. By the time the tables were available, Jo called and told me they were here to pick me up.
So off I went to join the other group, with my cigarettes smelling attire. Don’t get me wrong, being in those places just really make your clothes smell. I didn’t smoke. Really. 😛 Anyways, got into Abdul’s car and met Karlson and Jo in it. Harry and Kah Yee was in the other car. So we headed down to Cineleisure for a movie, where Abdul told us the sob story of how Manchester United loss, and he dragged himself down to Cineleisure to get the movie tickets, but eventually it was 2nd row, and the it was actually 4th row…bla bla bla. Confused yet? Well, ignore it then. Had a drink at TGIF where Abdul has his dinner of a large steak with extra side dishes and 2 slices of cakes a salad! *Gasp* (Only?) But yeah, he’s been doing this healthy eating + exercising thing, and was trying to show us he lost weight. 😀
Next came the movie, which was just alright in my reckoning, but the ending’s pretty okay for the trilogy. Thanks a mil for both the drinks and movie, Abdul. The only major turn off was that halfway into the movie, I started hearing snoring from my left. Nah, it’s not any of me pals, just some random guy with a girlfriend who thinks 4th row in a Spiderman 3 show is a pretty comfy place for a nap.
I was later dropped back in Subang at my request, and was reunited with my Microwave pals. They were having supper at Asia Cafe, and soon thereafter follows another round of pool. Coming in high with confidence from a win in snooker, I trashed Jee Wei 2-0 till he made a comeback with his newfound confidence after he lost it the other day and trashed me back with 4 consecutive wins. *Shouts rematch!*
What follows is an early morning drink in Oldtown Cyber with the ones who was actually still surviving till 6 A.M (which translates into myself, Jee Wei, Alan, Sim, Tze Min and Ah Fai) Another round of chit-chatting ensued (with me constantly being blur, and asking for translation – since they mostly speak Mandarin) and then the suggestion to go watch the others play in a futsal tournament. So that we did, at 9 A.M in the morning after a breakfast at bus stop, till noon. At that time, some of us had not slept for 24 hours, or more. Watery eyes, stoned face, it’s all part of the indications. We all went back and finally slept.
Transitory moments in life 
May 21st, 2007 at 4:48 pm
My dear Gan,
I know, I know..i told you that I haven’t read yr blog. Well, clearly now, I lied. I have been reading yr blog now and then for a long time now. 
It gives me a sense of comfort just to read what’s going on with you all the while..to know that you’re still “there”. Thank you so much for saying all those things about me. You know that I feel the same way about you as well.I had always been proud of you and I still am. You’re even more amazing than you could ever imagine for getting through the past year beautifully. Sure there are those ups and downs once a while, but who doesn’t go through that? I couldn’t begin to imagine what it must have been like for you but you did it. And that is something to be proud of.Thank you for remembering all those. I haven’t forgotten them as well. Haha..yup. We sure as hell can’t cook together. You’re always messing up my kitchen! Or not cutting the onion the right way/size! Grrr.. haha. And yeah, sorry for always and always making you wait for me for so long to get ready! But most of all thank you for making me feel so appreciated.
First of all, it’s not Iranian food..it’s Turkish
I’m sorry if you are saddened by my ways lately. Trust me, it’s not done intentionally. It’s just an attempt to keep in touch. My greatest fear was to lose you, as my friend. But I now realize that it would be very selfish for me since we are not at the same place yet. I totally understand if you need to distance yourself from me if that would help you deal with the situation better. No hard feelings.
Maybe it is true u know..maybe it was easier for me, not having to live through our memories everyday like u had to. Maybe that did helped a lot. And maybe that’s why I had always felt guilty about it.
so next week when u leave MMU, when u move out of Cyberia, don’t look back too much. Know that you’re leaving one hell of an adventure only to experience new ones that will be even better. I certainly wouldn’t want you to live in our memories forever. There are just too many good things out there waiting for you. We were good for each other in so many ways. We grew up together n became better people, so take that with you and find your own new adventure. No doubt we were best with each other, but that doesn’t mean you won’t find the best in someone else. And when you do, don’t feel guilty or bad about it. It doesn’t mean that you’ve forgotten me or think less of us. It’ll just mean that you’ve moved on and that’s perfectly fine. I will always be there for you, supporting and believing in everything you do. Should you be in any sort of trouble, know that you have me to lend you a hand. If you have a problem or something exciting to share, I’m all ears! I’m always here.
Finally, I want you to know that you have a special place in my heart too and that there are no regrets on my side as well. You played a huge role in making me who I am today and so, thank you dear. I hope one day someone will see you the way I do, appreciate the wonderful person that you are and bring you all the happiness that you deserve. Take care!