i often get very frustrated. about a stupid topic.

i turn 18 on Sunday, right? right. and you know, i've never had a girlfriend. i've never kissed a girl. i've never done anything. i've held a hand before. and okay, as a teenager my horomones are like raging or something. and sometimes i'd really like to just go out and find a girl to screw and do her like no tomorrow. and you know, i'm decent looking, i could pull it off.

but i'd so be giving in. and i'd be just like everyone else. and i would be a sinner of lust. and it kind of pisses me off, because i think if i was ever even put into the position with a girl laying right there naked in front of me. i still wouldn't even be able to do it.

it'd be pounding at my brain. that it's against everything i've ever told myself. and that i'd be no better than anyone else. and that would piss me off even more. that i'd be so fucking (pun time) close and i still wouldn't be able to do it.


ROAROAROADAD ADS AD ASD A I'M TIRED OF LOOKING AT PORN!