i finally figured out some things you'll never know

Well, I'm going to be rather blunt in this entry. And it's my journal, so I don't care.
I can't stand this anymore. All the things I've become.
All the things I do.
Instead of sitting here not doing anything about them, I'm changing it.
I've lost many of the things in my life that should be important to me.
I've lost respect for human beings even.
[ this is where the blunt part comes in ]
I'm going to try to give up the Internet and masturbation. Right here and now.
Just cut it off. It might kill me. But that's something I can deal with.
I don't have anything to do if I'm not online but I'll find something.
I hate this shit.
Any of you out there who think you know me don't.
If at all you've only come to know my bad side.
The Internet gives me too much security and comfort.
I've been an ass to a ton of people and for that I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for a lot of things.
Sorry for so many things that it's not even worth it.
Sitting here thinking of all the things I'm sorry for would make me burst out in tears.
I hate this.

I can't say it enough. I'm sorry.
All the people that need to hear me say I'm sorry wouldn't believe me anyway.
I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.