happiness, damn near destroys you

player information.

name: Hannah
age: 3 19
personal lj: feilyn
email/msn/aim/plurk/etc:
AIM: xfeilynx
plurk: hannahcake
characters in abax: NO ONE


in character information.

series: Dragon Age II
name: Marian Hawke
sex: Female
age: 31
height: 5’9”
weight: 153
canon point: Early to mid Act II, when she’s done a bunch of missions and things but hasn’t romanced Anders or suffered through All That Remains
previous cr: Nope!

history:
Marian Hawke was born in Ferelden, a recently liberated country in the greater land of Thedas. She was the first child born to the apostate mage Malcolm Hawke, and Leandra Amell, a noblewoman from the port city of Kirkwall in the Free Marches (a collection of city-states separate from Ferelden, though still a part of Thedas) who was subsequently disgraced for marrying him. Magic in the land of Thedas is seen as dangerous, unpredictable, and mages are tarred with the same brush – ‘Magic is meant to serve man, and never to rule over him’. Also mages are supposed to be taken to the Mages’ Circle in their land once they are discovered to use magic, to be watched over and restricted by Templar Knights for the rest of their lives. Malcolm Hawke disagreed with this, and so much of Marian’s young life was spent travelling Ferelden in an attempt to escape the gaze of the Templars, something that only increased upon the birth of her twin siblings, one of whom also exhibited a mage’s abilities.

When Marian was around eleven, the family finally settled down on the outskirts of the village of Lothering. Malcolm taught his daughter, Bethany, how to control her abilities and keep them secret, while Hawke and Carver spent their time over the years training to be warriors. Seven years later, their father died, and Marian was left to look after the family; three years after that, the Blight struck.

⇁ Carver and Marian fought against the Darkspawn in the battle of Ostagar where the army was betrayed by its general, the king and most of his forces killed

⇁ The siblings escaped the slaughter, making it back to Lothering where they picked up their mother and sister and ran for it. Lothering was destroyed behind them.

⇁ They met up with a Templar and his wife on the way, and decided to travel together. The templar was injured, the wife was a fucking bamf.

⇁ In trying to outrun the horde, they were attacked by an ogre, who killed Carver before being taken down. Leandra blamed Hawke for this, and the party was subsequently rescued by a dragon who turned into a disturbingly hot older lady aka Flemeth.

⇁ Flemeth promised to help them in exchange for a favour; she then informed them that the Templar had to die, infected by the darkspawn taint as he was. His wife, Aveline, kills him at his request and then everyone goes to Kirkwall, where the Amell family has an estate.

⇁ They don’t have an estate. Leandra’s brother gambled it away, and so Hawke and her sister promise their services for a year as warrior and mage to a smuggling group to pay their way into the city.

⇁ When the year is up, the sisters start looking for a way to make some money. They hire onto an expedition going to the Deep Roads in the hope of finding treasure, engaging in various quests and missions and whacky hijinks around Kirkwall and the surrounding mountains in order to raise the funds to become partners.

⇁ During the aforementioned hijinks, Hawke meets an assorted collection of people who start to follow her around, for various reasons. She grows closest to the expedition leader’s younger brother, the dwarf Varric, Isabela the hot pirate captain without a ship, and Anders the apostate mage who is possessed by a spirit of Justice.

⇁ On the expedition, she takes Varric with her, as well as her sister and Anders. They find an idol of extreme value, but Varric’s brother betrays them, taking the idol and locking them in an old dwarven thaig. Eventually they fight their way out through darkspawn and demons (finding treasure on the way!), but Bethany gets infected with the same taint as the Templar did a year before.

⇁ Anders, however, used to be a Grey Warden, and sensing their presence nearby, leads the group to them. After some persuasion, the Wardens agree that Bethany can participate in the Joining Ritual, the only way to save a person from the taint, and become a Grey Warden. They take Bethany with them; Hawke doesn’t see her sister again for years.

⇁ Upon returning to the surface, Hawke becomes moderately rich and famous, buying back her old family estate. She spends the next three years doing good (or at least not morally bankrupt) deeds, helping her companions with their issues, getting in close with the viscount of the city and absolutely not falling in love with the mage Anders.

⇁ The main issue in the city at this time is the Qunari who shipwrecked three years ago and refuse to leave. Tensions rise between humans and Qunari, and throughout her various shenanigans, Hawke finds herself gaining the respect of her leader as no other human has, although Isabela keeps leaving her company every time Hawke pays a visit.

⇁ Intense UST is happening between Anders and Hawke. Hawke gets her bro Aveline hooked up with her husband. Anders almost murders a mage girl, but is stopped by Hawke. Hawke gets kidnapped to Abax.

personality:
Generally when they first meet her, people have one of two reactions to Marian Hawke; they try to kill her, or they ask for her help. This simple reaction essentially sums up the woman’s basic personality – she can be frustrating, arrogant, and uses humour in situations that really aren’t appropriate, but at the heart of it she’s a kind-hearted woman who cares deeply about those she loves, and wants to Do The Right Thing. If only she could figure out what that was.

Outwardly, she an air of easy humour, even when situations probably call for a little more gravity. She would far rather that people see her as someone who isn’t capable of taking things particularly seriously and have them be surprised later; she feels she can get the measure of people easier if they are underestimating her, and with all the people out to kill her at various points in her life, Hawke has decided that being underestimated is by far preferable. She also just enjoys trolling people for the hell of it, whether to get them to lighten up, or to see them blush or get flustered. Snarking off to authority figures is also something she takes a great deal of pleasure in – Hawke is her own authority, and you have earn her respect before she’ll bother giving it. And even then , she’ll probably still making teasing comments. It’s just in her nature.

Beyond this, though, her humour is a defence mechanism. When she’s feeling awkward, she’ll crack a joke, when faced with a particularly dangerous or awful situation, her first instinct is to say something flippant. However, as with most things when it comes to Hawke, in those situations that are particularly personal her reactions are different. Hawke is the quintessential older sibling, and once her father died, head of the family. She feels that letting others see how deeply situations such as the death of her brother and mother affect her is, in a word, unacceptable. She sees herself as the person that those close to her rely on, so if she is feeling particularly sad, or hurt, she’ll try her damnedest not to show it. Humour is a mechanism she uses for this, but more often than not she’ll take it a step further and simply pretend that everything is fine, that nothing bad happened at all. It’s only the people who are extremely close to her that she’ll let see the more vulnerable side of her, and even then it takes some prying on their part.

Once she gets close to people, however, she’s the sort who’s a friend for life. Hawke essentially loses her entire blood family over the course of her life – first her father, then her brother to darkspawn, her sister to the Wardens and while she still has her mother, she won ‘t for long :’D – so the idea of ‘friends are the family you choose’ is particularly poignant to her, although she’d never be so sappy as to actually say something like that (and would likely make fun of anyone who did)

She’s a very confident sort of person, who has faith in her own physical abilities. She’s completely aware of the things she’s capable of, and also her limitations – although just because something should be beyond her, doesn’t mean she won’t try for it. In fact, she’s one of those irritating sorts of people who will look at the insurmountable, shrug, and say ‘hey let’s do it anyway’. Especially if the insurmountable happens to involve someone cares about. She tries to stop and think before she does something – particularly after what happened to her sister as a result of her decisions – but if someone she cares about is in danger, her attitude is very much a look before leaping sort. Actually, it would probably be accurate to say she usually leaps, looks back, and then makes some shit up about how she totally thought it through. She might pretend to be irritated or fed up with the seemingly never-ending line of people needing her help, but the truth of the matter is she would far rather they came to her than go without that help; she might take pleasure in gouging those who she feels deserve it for her services, but if anyone is in genuine need, she won’t hesitate to help out. Usually without ulterior motives.

Although she has risen to become quite prominent in the city of Kirkwall lately, Hawke’s fame sits uneasily on her; despite her noble heritage, she was born a peasant in a different land entirely, and her rise to power is something that even now takes her by surprise. Hawke has her own particular set of morals and ethics that she sticks through throughout her life – look after family, look after good people, stop bad people. Not having encountered a lot of moral dilemmas that make up her later life, yet, she still holds to this fairly well. While she’s quick to deliver justice against those who have wronged her or the people she loves, when it comes to the people she loves wronging others, she’s a lot more at sea. Although this hasn’t happened in her canon point, I think it’s still serves as a fitting example. When Isabela need a relic to save her life that could otherwise stop a war, Hawke lets her take the relic – and offers herself up as sacrifice instead, fighting in single combat to make the Qunari leave. Hawke would rather risk herself than let others risk themselves – even if it’s their fault they’re in the position in the first place.

Hawke isn’t one to enjoy the responsibilities she’s been saddled with over her lifetime, but she nonetheless fulfils them the best way she knows how, and makes the most of what she’s given outside of them. She can be serious when she needs to be, but you’d be more likely to find her in tavern with her friends, flirting with the bartender, throwing back a few beers and gambling away whatever she picked up from the people who decided to play ‘let’s try to kill Hawke’, than in a library or some other place of quiet contemplation.

abilities/powers:
Hawke is a Warrior class lady! So she can do this shit:
Two Handed Warrior talents
A couple of Warmonger talents
About half of the Battlemaster talents

first person sample: All the examples

third person sample: Bam.

case no:I already have a tag :’|

Player Information:

Name or Handle: Fei

Y’all know the rest!

Character Information:

Character Name: Marian Ebon Hawke
Age: 28ish
Canon: Dragon Age II
Appearance: Hawke is a lovely looking woman, but there’s no mistaking her physical strength when you look at her. She’s got black hair in a short, messy sort of cut, pale skin and her eyes are an almost startling blue. The expression on her face is usually some sort of trollface, and occasionally she likes to have a blood smear across her nose for dramatic effect. Don’t ask.

Personality: Generally when they first meet her, people have one of two reactions to Marian Hawke; they try to kill her, or they ask for her help. This simple reaction essentially sums up the woman’s basic personality – she can be frustrating, arrogant, and uses humour in situations that really aren’t appropriate, but at the heart of it she’s a kind-hearted woman who cares deeply about those she loves, and wants to Do The Right Thing. If only she could figure out what that was.

Outwardly, the Champion of Kirkwall projects an air of easy humour, even when situations probably call for a little more gravity. She would far rather that people see her as someone who isn’t capable of taking things particularly seriously and have them be surprised later; she feels she can get the measure of people easier if they are underestimating her, and with all the people out to kill her at various points in her life, Hawke has decided that being underestimated is by far preferable. She also just enjoys trolling people for the hell of it, whether to get them to lighten up, or to see them blush or get flustered. Snarking off to authority figures is also something she takes a great deal of pleasure in – Hawke is her own authority, and you have earn her respect before she’ll bother giving it. And even then , she’ll probably still making teasing comments. It’s just in her nature.

Beyond this, though, her humour is a defence mechanism. When she’s feeling awkward, she’ll crack a joke, when faced with a particularly dangerous or awful situation, her first instinct is to say something flippant. However, as with most things when it comes to Hawke, in those situations that are particularly personal her reactions are different. Hawke is the quintessential older sibling, and once her father died, head of the family. She feels that letting others see how deeply situations such as the death of her brother and mother affect her is, in a word, unacceptable. She sees herself as the person that those close to her rely on, so if she is feeling particularly sad, or hurt, she’ll try her damnedest not to show it. Humour is a mechanism she uses for this, but more often than not she’ll take it a step further and simply pretend that everything is fine, that nothing bad happened at all. It’s only the people who are extremely close to her that she’ll let see the more vulnerable side of her, and even then it takes some prying on their part.

Once she gets close to people, however, she’s the sort who’s a friend for life. Hawke essentially loses her entire blood family over the course of her life – first her father, then her brother to darkspawn, her sister to the Wardens and her mother to a serial killer – so the idea of ‘friends are the family you choose’ is particularly poignant to her, although she’d never be so sappy as to actually say something like that (and would likely make fun of anyone who did)

She’s a very confident sort of person, who has faith in her own physical abilities. She’s completely aware of the things she’s capable of, and also her limitations – although just because something should be beyond her, doesn’t mean she won’t try for it. In fact, she’s one of those irritating sorts of people who will look at the insurmountable, shrug, and say ‘hey let’s do it anyway’. Especially if the insurmountable happens to involve someone cares about. She tries to stop and think before she does something – particularly in later years, where her actions have frequently had the fate of a whole city resting on them - but if someone she cares about is in danger, her attitude is very much a look before leaping sort. And she might pretend to be irritated or fed up with the seemingly never-ending line of people needing her help, but the truth of the matter is she would far rather they came to her than go without that help; she might take pleasure in gouging those who she feels deserve it for her services, but if anyone is in genuine need, she won’t hesitate to help out. Usually without ulterior motives.

Although she has risen to become ‘The Champion of Kirkwall’ over the past seven years, becoming the most well-known figure in the city, Hawke’s fame sits uneasily on her; despite her noble heritage, she was born a peasant in a different land entirely, and her rise to power is something that even now takes her by surprise. She is the Champion of this city because it needs her to be, not because she wants to be, and would quite cheerfully hand the whole mess over to someone else, if she a) thought she could trust them, and b) didn’t particularly like them. It’s not a job she’d wish on anyone she cared about.

Hawke has her own particular set of morals and ethics that she sticks through throughout her life – look after family, look after good people, stop bad people. As the years pass, she finds it more and more difficult to live by this, mostly because she’s not sure who the good and bad people are anymore. While she’s quick to deliver justice against those who have wronged her or the people she loves, when it comes to the people she loves wronging others, she’s a lot more at sea. When Isabela need a relic to save her life that could otherwise stop a war, Hawke lets her take the relic – and offers herself up as sacrifice instead, fighting in single combat to make the Qunari leave. Having seen so many people she cares about die already, Hawke would rather risk herself than let others risk themselves – even if it’s their fault they’re in the position in the first place. Things get even more difficult when her lover blows up the Chantry – had it been anyone not in her group of companions, she wouldn’t have hesitated to end them. But she can’t bring herself to kill Anders, even when it results in another companion declaring he won’t rest until the mage is dead.

Hawke isn’t one to enjoy the responsibilities she’s been saddled with over her lifetime, but she nonetheless fulfils them the best way she knows how, and makes the most of what she’s given outside of them. She can be serious when she needs to be, but you’d be more likely to find her in tavern with her friends, flirting with the bartender, throwing back a few beers and gambling away whatever she picked up from the people who decided to play ‘let’s try to kill Hawke’, than in a library or some other place of quiet contemplation.

Background: Marian Hawke was born in Ferelden, a recently liberated country in the greater land of Thedas. She was the first child born to the apostate mage Malcolm Hawke, and Leandra Amell, a noblewoman from the port city of Kirkwall in the Free Marches (a collection of city-states separate from Ferelden, though still a part of Thedas) who was subsequently disgraced for marrying him. Magic in the land of Thedas is seen as dangerous, unpredictable, and mages are tarred with the same brush – ‘Magic is meant to serve man, and never to rule over him’. Also mages are supposed to be taken to the Mages’ Circle in their land once they are discovered to use magic, to be watched over and restricted by Templar Knights for the rest of their lives. Malcolm Hawke disagreed with this, and so much of Marian’s young life was spent travelling Ferelden in an attempt to escape the gaze of the Templars, something that only increased upon the birth of her twin siblings, one of whom also exhibited a mage’s abilities.

When Marian was around eleven, the family finally settled down on the outskirts of the village of Lothering. Malcolm taught his daughter, Bethany, how to control her abilities and keep them secret, while Hawke and Carver spent their time over the years training to be warriors. Seven years later, their father died, and Marian was left to look after the family; three years after that, the Blight struck.

⇁ Carver and Marian fought against the Darkspawn in the battle of Ostagar where the army was betrayed by its general, the king and most of his forces killed

⇁ The siblings escaped the slaughter, making it back to Lothering where they picked up their mother and sister and ran for it. Lothering was destroyed behind them.

⇁ They met up with a Templar and his wife on the way, and decided to travel together. The templar was injured, the wife was a fucking bamf.

⇁ In trying to outrun the horde, they were attacked by an ogre, who killed Carver before being taken down. Leandra blamed Hawke for this, and the party was subsequently rescued by a dragon who turned into a disturbingly hot older lady aka Flemeth.

⇁ Flemeth promised to help them in exchange for a favour; she then informed them that the Templar had to die, infected by the darkspawn taint as he was. His wife, Aveline, kills him at his request and then everyone goes to Kirkwall, where the Amell family has an estate.

⇁ They don’t have an estate. Leandra’s brother gambled it away, and so Hawke and her sister promise their services for a year as warrior and mage to a smuggling group to pay their way into the city.

⇁ When the year is up, the sisters start looking for a way to make some money. They hire onto an expedition going to the Deep Roads in the hope of finding treasure, engaging in various quests and missions and whacky hijinks around Kirkwall and the surrounding mountains in order to raise the funds to become partners.

⇁ During the aforementioned hijinks, Hawke meets an assorted collection of people who start to follow her around, for various reasons. She grows closest to the expedition leader’s younger brother, the dwarf Varric, Isabela the hot pirate captain without a ship, and Anders the apostate mage who is possessed by a spirit of Justice.

⇁ On the expedition, she takes Varric with her, as well as her sister and Anders. They find an idol of extreme value, but Varric’s brother betrays them, taking the idol and locking them in an old dwarven thaig. Eventually they fight their way out through darkspawn and demons (finding treasure on the way!), but Bethany gets infected with the same taint as the Templar did a year before.

⇁ Anders, however, used to be a Grey Warden, and sensing their presence nearby, leads the group to them. After some persuasion, the Wardens agree that Bethany can participate in the Joining Ritual, the only way to save a person from the taint, and become a Grey Warden. They take Bethany with them; Hawke doesn’t see her sister again for years.

⇁ Upon returning to the surface, Hawke becomes moderately rich and famous, buying back her old family estate. She spends the next three years doing good (or at least not morally bankrupt) deeds, helping her companions with their issues, getting in close with the viscount of the city and absolutely not falling in love with the mage Anders.

⇁ The main issue in the city at this time is the Qunari who shipwrecked three years ago and refuse to leave. Tensions rise between humans and Qunari, and throughout her various shenanigans, Hawke finds herself gaining the respect of her leader as no other human has, although Isabela keeps leaving her company every time Hawke pays a visit.

⇁ Hawke and Anders eventually admit their feelings for each other, and Anders moves in, despite insisting that he will break her heart one day due to the crazy spirit he carries around with him.

⇁ Hawke’s mother is kidnapped by a serial killer Hawke had failed to catch earlier. She and her companions find the man too late – her mother’s head had been removed by a blood mage who was attempting to bring his wife back to life by Frankensteining bits of other women who looked like her together. After she kills the mage responsible, Hawke is able to share some final words with her mother before his magic unravels; Leandra tells Hawke that she is proud of her, before her final death. Anders does a pretty good job of consoling Hawke afterwards.

⇁ Life goes on, though, and tensions with the Qunari continue to rise. Hawke’s friend Isabela announces that she’s found the relic she’s been searching three years for now.
⇁ Hawke agrees to help, finds out that this relic is the whole reason the Qunari are in Kirkwall and that she can solve a whole lot of problems if she just hands it over – but Isabela will likely die if she does so. She lets Isabela have the relic, and the woman runs off just as all hell breaks loose in the city.

⇁ The tensions finally escalate too far, and the Qunari attack the city. Hawke runs into her sister (now a full Grey Warden) by chance; Bethany is incredibly bitter towards Hawke despite Hawke’s decisions saving her life, due to the fact that Grey Wardens have really bad nightmares (and also for taking her to the Deep Roads in the first place). The Wardens don’t involve themselves in politics, however, and soon leave the city.

⇁ Hawke and company make their way to the Keep, where the leader of the Wunari (the Arishok) has already killed the Viscount. Hawke gets to talking with the guy, when Isabela shows up, relic in hand, when she should have been off saving her skin.

⇁ The Qunari are willing to leave with the relic, but they want Isabela too; Hawke refuses (much to Isabela’s surprise) and faces the Arishok in single combat, eventually defeating him. The Qunari leave the city as a result of this, bound by their own laws of honour, and Hawke is hailed as the Champion of Kirkwall.

⇁ Over the course of the next three years, Hawke deals with being the most famous person in the city, the fact that tensions between mages and Templars are starting to reach an all time high, the leader of the Templars being a fantastic bitch, and her own lover beginning to get more and more obsessed with the plight of the mages.

⇁ More shenanigans ensure. The gist of the argument is that Meredith (the templar commander) is systematically stripping mages of all their rights in an attempt to save a) them from themselves and b) other people from them, as she believes most if not all mages will eventually turn to blood magic. As a result of this, more and more mages do turn to blood magic in an attempt to gain freedom. With her newfound stature, Hawke gets caught in the middle of this. She attempts to stay neutral, but leans towards the mages plight.

⇁ Eventually her sister is kidnapped in an attempt to force her hand. It doesn’t, but it paves the road for Bethany and Hawke to start making up.
⇁ Anders comes to Hawke, telling her he’s discovered a potion to separate him from Justice, he just needs her help gathering the ingredients. If his use of the word ‘Boom’ to describe the process didn’t clue her in, the fact that for some reason he needed her help to distract the Grand Cleric of the Chantry probably should have told her something was up. She questions Anders, but eventually agrees to help him after he (like a dick) essentially tells her that if she doesn’t help him, she doesn’t love/trust him enough.

⇁ Not long after this, Hawke is called to involve herself in an argument between Meredith and the First Enchanter of the Kirkwall Circle, Orsino. Meredith has decided to violate mages rights even further (after refusing them to even leave their rooms) by ransacking their tower in her search for blood mages. It’s around then that the Chantry blows up, with the Grand Cleric and many other innocents inside.

⇁ Anders claims responsibility, saying that he needed to force things into an open confrontation so that mages would start fighting back instead of just accepting their imprisonment and Meredith announces the Right of Annulment; basically she wants to murder every mage in Kirkwall because of what Anders did.

⇁ At this point, Hawke is forced to step in. At first she has no wish to take sides, but the point of neutrality has passed; she sides with the mages. One of her companions, a Chantry priest, wants her to kill Anders, but she can’t do it. The companion then leaves her, swearing revenge. Another companion, Fenris, has already left with Meredith.

⇁ On the way to save the mages, Hawke meets up with her sister again; Bethany has rebelled against the Wardens in favour of coming to fight alongside her sister and the other mages of Kirkwall.

⇁ There is a brief meeting with Meredith before the final battle commences, in which Hawke asks Fenris to join her, and he decides that the power of friendship is more important to him than his hatred of mages.

⇁ All of Hawke’s companions bar the priest have remained with her; she has her final words with all of them, tells Anders she’ll protect him, but won’t be with him if they live through this, and then the Templars attack. Hawke insists that she fights better scared than they do angry, and announces that she’s buying the booze once this is over

⇁ After the first wave, Orsino turns to blood magic, goes crazy, and has to be killed.

⇁ Eventually Hawke and Co. make their way outside to where Meredith has gone fucking crazy; her own Templars turn against her, and she reveals she has the idol that drove Varric’s brother to betray them so long ago.

⇁ Hawke and Co. fight Meredith, and once defeated, this happens. Hawke glares at the Templars, the Templars stand down, she turns on her heel, leaves the courtyard where it all went down, and ends up in space.

Special Abilities or Weapons: Nothing particularly supernatural. She’s a Warrior class, which in her canon means she has enhanced strength and endurance (enough to swing around a huge sword like it’s nothing), and can put on short bursts of incredible speed.

Sect: Civilian

Job: Whatever comes up that seems interesting :’D


Samples:

First Person:
[Datapad flicks on]

Andraste’s knicker – what? [a flash of blue eyes and a surprised face before it hits the ground. Fumblefumble. Datapad flicks off]

[A few minutes. Datapad flicks on!] ...I’m going to assume this isn’t some sort of small and oddly shaped projectile we—

[Datapad flicks off]

[Datapad flicks on!]

[Datapad flicks off]

[Datapad flicks on! Marian’s full face is visible, it’s just upside down. She doesn’t seem to realise everyone else can see her; when she speaks, it’s more to herself] I suppose it’s not really Andraste’s knickers I need to worry about, right now. [She sets the datapad down, still recording, and wanders off. Those listening can hear her distant grumbling]

I’m meant to be the one doing the rescuing, not being rescued. Some Champion – Maker, Varric’ll never let me hear the end of this...

Third Person:

Over here!

Anything Else: Can she room with her cutest little baby brother, please? Assuming he doesn't bring home hutt porn.