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Thursday, March 9th, 2006
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7:09 am - how far does the rabbit hole go?
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Syndust: hehe who is tina
DarkWoundedRose: last roomate
DarkWoundedRose: she keeps telling me to come back at a later date
DarkWoundedRose: because she buried my stuff in bags full of dirty clothes and dog shit
DarkWoundedRose: and they are buried under more bags
Syndust: oh the trailer park yea lots of junkies live n that area
DarkWoundedRose: dude..... I dont have anything
DarkWoundedRose: I have a cd case and maybe... 10 items of clothing
Syndust: no good,,u lose more stuff everytime
DarkWoundedRose: I lost it all at tinas
DarkWoundedRose: im jsut hoping for my corset and my chair back
DarkWoundedRose: thank god my cats safely at my moms
DarkWoundedRose: my chinchilla didnt make it
DarkWoundedRose: I may cry just menchining it
Syndust: what happend is it still at tinas
DarkWoundedRose: I wish
DarkWoundedRose: hes a foot deep in godfreys ivy garden
DarkWoundedRose: someone knocked his waterbottle off his cage while I was gone for the weekend
DarkWoundedRose: and didnt fucking pick it back up
Syndust: awwww sorry fire not cool,,my dog spunky died we let him out and he was missn for 2 days,im still not over it
DarkWoundedRose: at least you didnt have to pick his cold body out of his bed
DarkWoundedRose: I couldnt do anything for 2 weeks
Syndust signed on at 7:02:59 AM.
DarkWoundedRose: DarkWoundedRose: at least you didnt have to pick his cold body out of his bed
DarkWoundedRose: I couldnt do anything for 2 weeks
DarkWoundedRose: It was like loosing a child
DarkWoundedRose: and everything else I gave a damn about at the same time
DarkWoundedRose: I cant live like this anymore
Syndust: well nothing said will make u feel better u just gotta keep thinkn positive its the only way
DarkWoundedRose: im exhausted
DarkWoundedRose: but you dont have to worry about me commiting suicide
DarkWoundedRose: because im too exhauseted to do that either
DarkWoundedRose: im just existing
DarkWoundedRose: completely confused and horrified
DarkWoundedRose: I dont even know who I am or what I want anymore
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(8 missed ~*~ try and shoot me)
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| Monday, February 27th, 2006
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3:48 pm - Dream...
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I sat in a drab room watching a large television, news flashed by and I see a young man completely zipped in a sleeping bag with his girlfriend. He puts a gun to his head. Fabric flys and turns red, I am hysterical. Images of G. Bush... it was his 15 year old son... Never heard of a 15 year old son? Because he was ashamed to have him. He hid the news, only a few papers menchined it, T.V. wasnt allowed to cover it after that initial report. I ran to get my mother still hysterical, and replayed the report on Tivo. Her eyes grew wide.
I guess he couldnt take what the world was spiriling into.
I still feel like im crying.
current mood:  shocked
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(1 missed ~*~ try and shoot me)
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| Monday, February 13th, 2006
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11:05 am - And 2 years later...
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| Thursday, September 8th, 2005
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4:46 am - 12 hours of work...
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| Saturday, August 13th, 2005
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3:54 pm
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7 hours of work.... and I still need to make touchups.... but I'm too lazy
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(try and shoot me)
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| Sunday, July 31st, 2005
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1:36 pm
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1:27 pm
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Wow, almost a year later and I decide to actully write in here! Im still using  darkwoundedrose for friends only entries, but I'm ganna start using this for less personal stuff again.
current mood:  refreshed
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(try and shoot me)
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| Monday, November 8th, 2004
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5:22 pm
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President Bush has announced his plan to select Dr. W. David Hager to
head up the Food and Drug Administration's (FDA) Reproductive Health
Drugs Advisory Committee. The committee has not met for more than two
years, during which time its charter lapsed. As a result, the Bush
Administration is tasked with filling all eleven positions with new
members. This position does not require Congressional approval. The
FDA's Reproductive Health Drugs Advisory Committee makes crucial
decisions on matters relating to drugs used in the practice of obstetrics,
gynecology and related specialties, including hormone therapy, contraception,
treatment for infertility, and medical alternatives to surgical procedures for
sterilization and pregnancy termination. Dr. Hager, the author of "As
Jesus Cared for Women: Restoring Women Then and Now." The book blends
biblical accounts of Christ healing Women with case studies from
Hager's practice. His views of reproductive health care are far
outside the mainstream for productive technology. Dr. Hager is a
practicing OB/GYN who describes himself as "pro-life" and refuses
to prescribe contraceptives to unmarried women.
In the book Dr. Hager wrote with his wife, entitled "Stress and the
Woman's Body," he suggests that women who suffer from premenstrual
syndrome should seek help from reading the bible and praying. As an
editor and contributing author of "The Reproduction Revolution: A
Christian Appraisal of Sexuality Reproductive Technologies and the
Family," Dr. Hager appears to have
endorsed the medically inaccurate assertion that the common birth
control pill is an abortifacient.
Please email President Bush at president@whitehouse.gov or call the White House at (202) 456-1111 or (202) 456-1414 and say "I oppose the appointment of Dr. Hager to the FDA Reproductive Health Drugs Advisory Committee. Mixing religion and medicine is unacceptable. Using the FDA to promote a political agenda is inappropriate and seriously threatens all women's health."
Also refer to
http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/articles/A13192-2004Jun28.html
http://www.plannedparenthood.org/about/pr/040629_hager.html
http://www.lifeway.com/lwc/article_main_page/0,1703,A%253D152004%2526M%253D50011,00.html
http://www.snopes.com/inboxer/outrage/hager.htm
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(2 missed ~*~ try and shoot me)
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| Sunday, October 24th, 2004
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8:31 pm
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My birthday is in 3.5 hours!
In case anyone wants to spoil me...
Its Godfreys paypal, but it'll go to me. My paypal was frozen.
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(12 missed ~*~ try and shoot me)
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| Tuesday, October 19th, 2004
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4:52 pm
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I have this condition, and people dont tend to beleive that im in pain.
Exactly what is Fibromyalgia?
FM is a "chronic invisible illness". It isn't just a form of muscular rheumatism. It's actually a type of neurotransmitter dysfunction. (Neurotransmitters are what the brain uses to tell the body what to do.)
One symptom is a type of dysfunctional sleep called the alpha-delta sleep anomaly. As soon as people with FM reach the deep level sleep, alpha brain waves intrude and jolt them back to shallow sleep. Not only are they denied refreshing sleep, but delta level is when the body does its repair work and chemical replenishment.
If people with FM are immobile at any time, such as during travel, or sitting in a meeting, their muscles get rigid and painful. Morning stiffness can be severe. Since neurotransmitters affect every part of the body, symptoms can show up all over, and yet the usual medical tests come back negative. FM symptoms fluctuate from hour to hour and day to day, and often worsen with changes in barometric pressure. It's no wonder that FM is one of the most misdiagnosed illnesses. Doctors often refer FM patients to psychologists or psychiatrists, and yet recent studies show that psychologically, FM patients have about the same amount of abnormal psychology as Rheumatoid Arthritis patients. An editorial in the Journal of the American Medical Association in 1987 stated that FM, "...a disease which may have occupied five minutes of time in medical school really exists and is a major cause of morbidity and disability." People with FM have a history of being misunderstood and doubted.
Research is showing that people with FM have defects in the neuroregulatory system, especially neurotransmitters. They have low growth hormone, which is involved with muscle repair. Some researchers think that the key problem is a CNS abnormality upstream of the spinal cord. The FM body is an engine idling at 35% power, rather than a normal 5%. Most FM patients have memory and cognitive impairments.
FM patients don't look sick, so they are often victimized by clinicians, family, and friends, leaving them with self-doubt, guilt, and loss of self-esteem.
FM patients have 3 times the normal amount of substance P in their spinal fluid. Substance P tells the body how much pain it feels. They also have more pain receptors. They are hypersensitive to everything--sort of like the "Princess and the Pea" in nursery stories.
Little things that others take for granted, like wringing out a wash cloth, or writing a letter, become pain endurance sessions.
A comparative analysis in the "Journal of Rheumatology" found that the quality of life for women with FM is worse than for those who have Rheumatoid Arthritis, osteoarthritis, chronic obstructive pulmonary disease, or insulin-dependent diabetes.
SYMPTOMS
Pain - The pain of FMS has no boundaries. People describe the pain as deep muscular aching, throbbing, shooting, and stabbing. Intense burning may also be present. Quite often, the pain and stiffness are worse in the morning and you may hurt more in muscle groups that are used repetitively.
Fatigue - This symptom can be mild in some patients and yet incapacitating in others. The fatigue has been described as "brain fatigue" in which patients feel totally drained of energy. Many patients depict this situation by saying that they feel as though their arms and legs are tied to concrete blocks, and they have difficulty concentrating, e.g., brain fog.
Sleep disorder - Most FMS patients have an associated sleep disorder called the alpha-EEG anomaly. This condition was uncovered in a sleep lab with the aid of a machine which recorded the brain waves of patients during sleep. Researchers found that most FMS patients could fall asleep without much trouble, but their deep level (or stage 4) sleep was constantly interrupted by bursts of awake-like brain activity. Patients appeared to spend the night with one foot in sleep and the other one out of it.
Irritable Bowel Syndrome - Constipation, diarrhea, frequent abdominal pain, abdominal gas, and nausea represent symptoms frequently found in roughly 40 to 70% of FMS patients.
Chronic headaches - Recurrent migraine or tension-type headaches are seen in about 50% of FMS patients and can pose a major problem in coping for this patient group.
Temporomandibular Joint Dysfunction Syndrome - This syndrome, sometimes referred to as TMJ or TMD, causes tremendous jaw-related face and head pain in one quarter of FMS patients. However, a 1997 published report indicated that close to 75% of FMS patients have a varying degree of jaw discomfort. Typically, the problems are related to the muscles and ligaments surrounding the jaw joint and not necessarily the joint itself.
Premenstrual syndrome and painful periods, chest pain, morning stiffness, cognitive or memory impairment, numbness and tingling sensations, muscle twitching, irritable bladder, the feeling of swollen extremities, skin sensitivities, dry eyes and mouth, dizziness, and impaired coordination can occur. Patients are often sensitive to odors, loud noises, bright lights, and sometimes even the medications that they are prescribed.
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(2 missed ~*~ try and shoot me)
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| Thursday, October 14th, 2004
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8:39 pm
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| Monday, September 27th, 2004
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2:15 am
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| Thursday, September 23rd, 2004
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4:11 am
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3:24 am
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i really should write more in here, but i cant think of much to write, damn writers block
godfrey and i are getting a new car tomorrow *glee*
its a 92 Saturn SL 1, and its dark red, runs pretty nice
we'll actully be able to take road trips now! and its an automatic so ill even drive it.
itll be so nice not to worry about the clutch, his old VW's a scarry thing
in other news, im thinking of getting a fresh journal
itll be kinda sad seince ive had this thing seince early 2001
but it might make me write more O.o
current mood:  blank
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(1 missed ~*~ try and shoot me)
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| Tuesday, September 21st, 2004
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4:36 pm
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| Monday, September 13th, 2004
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10:53 pm
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| Sunday, September 12th, 2004
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1:39 pm
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| Wednesday, September 8th, 2004
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6:50 pm
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I guess HIM is NOT coming to WA this winter...
Well theyre management can suck my non-existant wang.
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(5 missed ~*~ try and shoot me)
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| Monday, September 6th, 2004
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9:39 pm
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| Sunday, September 5th, 2004
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8:37 pm
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its not a hoax, the companys you trial with send them money so they send you an i-pod
even if you dont cancel right after the trial, the subscriptions are like $20, which is well worth it for a $200 i-pod!
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(try and shoot me)
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| Saturday, September 4th, 2004
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8:03 pm - Some Photos from Tuesdays Shoot
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| Thursday, September 2nd, 2004
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7:41 pm
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I think my digi cam is dead...
so everyone should chip in like a buck so i can buy a new one!
send more if you like
stormpay: darklingweb@yahoo.com
paypal: fallingcloser@hotmail.com
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(try and shoot me)
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| Tuesday, August 31st, 2004
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6:06 pm - its been too long seince ive had a shoot
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| Sunday, August 29th, 2004
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11:12 pm
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Its very odd IMing someone on your AIM list thats been there for an eternity, but you cant seem to remember who they are...
And then finding out they are actully one of your favorite bands singers....
Yes, I just had a nice little convo with Sean from London After Midnight.
That sure brightened my mood.
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(1 missed ~*~ try and shoot me)
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| Saturday, August 28th, 2004
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7:30 pm
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last night godfrey declared port(wine) "naked juice"
well i think i dissagree
its most definitely "godfrey in my panties juice"
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