Fleet Sparrow

(Yes, that's pluralized, dw about it)

I'm thinking this will become a master post of my thoughts and musings under the broader idea of spirit (or magic or gods or what have you).  These will really be "no plot, just vibes" type posts, the kind that would probably stay in a secret journal if I wasn't actively trying to make myself Be In Community (for whatever value this is).  My Tumblr feels too public (like, I know these people there!), while Substack feels a bit too much like Twitter (lots of people whom I do not wish to know, with a few folks I do mixed in).

So, really, this is the best place for it.

(Am I also leaning into the site being called *Dream*width?  Maybe....)

I don't fully know what will come up here, but that's the fun of it.

I am sticking to 3 because, if you saw my last attempt at "top X list" I, uh, have trouble restricting.

These are not in specific order, just in the order I thought of them:

• I'm curious
• I'm Justice-oriented
• I am actually 5 puns in a trench coat pretending to be human

I always feel like wishlists are so hard for me to create.  They feel a lot like asking for help, another thing I have a terribly hard time doing.  Yes, this is something I'm currently working on in therapy.  How is that going?  Haha, don't worry about it.

But, in the interest of Putting Myself Out There, here is a wishlist:

1. Top surgery
   1. Oh, we're starting in Hard Mode I see... fun!
2. A couple new multi-color packs of Pilot Varsity disposable fountain pens
3. A good region-free DVD player
4. Any kind of recommendations on how to learn written shorthand
5. Advice on how to do candle magic when you can't burn candles
   1. Or, alternatively I guess, what to substitute for candle magic when you can't burn candles
6. Recommendations for language learning apps that aren't Duolingo (or Rosetta Stone, only because I already have that)
7. A year of Boot.dev
8. Gift card(s) to Bookshop.org, Google Play Store, or BetterWorldBooks (the last of which might make me finally move my unending wishlist from Thriftbooks to BWB)
9. Best places to learn Linux and such
10. Obligatory newly-curated Amazon wishlist

please do not judge the fact that it took me 3 entire hours to post this single thing akdhgaolksdjflkhajd I sleep now before I break out in hives for Wanting Things and Letting People Know I Want Things

Hello, all!

I'm some variant of "Fleet Sparrow" everywhere that I have a username (sites, emails, mobile games, hit lists, wanted posters, etc.), so if you've ever seen that around and wondered if it was me, the answer is yes.

Snowflake is one of those things I've done in some form pretty much every year since I found it.  It's a nice start to the year getting back into fandom.  This is the first year in a while that I don't feel so rushed about it.  RL stuff has eased up to a manageable level and this year's round feels like getting back into the parts of fandom I used to really love.

The main thing I want to get here, I think, is get into the habit of using DW regularly.  This is what I say every year--so, clearly, my track record is Not Great--but this year it feels much more likely to happen.

So, hi, all!  Excited to start 2026.

Prompt list:  Blue Beard, Doctor Knowall, Father Frost, Golden Hair, Heart of Ice, Lady of the Moon, Little Golden Star, Puss in Boots, Sleeping Beauty, The Emperor's New Clothes, The Forrest Fairy, The Golden Goose, The Lion and the Mouse, The Little Mermaid, The Nightingale, The Red Shoes, The Snowman, The Snowqueen, The Sweet Porridge, The Three Brothers, Banshee, Basilisk, Bigfoot, Djinn, Dragon, Elves, Fairies, Giant, Golem, Mermaid, Minotaur,  Monster of Loch Ness, Phoenix, Selkie, Siren, Trickster God, Troll, Unicorn, Vampire, Werewolf, Witch, Angel, Broken Mirror, Candle, Castle, Devil, Dragon, Enchanted, Evil, Faith, Fire, Glory, Hero, Journey, King, Love, Magical Power, Mercy, Music, Pixie, Poison, Princess, Shadow, Solitude, Stars & Moon, Talisman, Time Travel, Trickster God, Vision, Wish, Wizard,

Sleeping Beauty	Heart of Ice	The Three Brothers	Dragon	Faith
The Red Shoes	Basilisk	Banshee	Trickster God	Golden Hair
Vampire	Djinn	Poison	The Sweet Porridge	Candle
Witch	Glory	Shadow	Solitude	Golem
Little Golden Star	Bigfoot	Wizard	Talisman	Troll

Hello, friends!

I am setting up this post to start the tags for both Sunshine Revival AND Fannish 50.  Will I do either of them?  Will I do both of them?  Or maybe none of them???

Who knows!

I'm going to limit myself to two wishes!  totally not because that's all I can think of, of course not, who said that?

I wish for...

• Video games similar to The Darkside Detective (computer, phone/tablet, Nintendo Switch; I have other consoles, but these are the easiest for me to access for now)
• Video games similar to Sorcery School mobile solitaire game (same systems as above)

Note:  For "similar to" in terms of games, I'm mostly looking for vibes.  Both games are fun and light-hearted, with a touch of dark humor.  I am partial to point-and-click and card or word games, but I definitely prefer games that I can take breaks between sections/chapters/etc.  (For example, I started There Is No Game on my phone last year, but I'm not 100% sure it actually has save points, which means I have not actually picked it back up since stopping.)

Talking about how fandom has improved my life must include the ways in which fandom has also been a struggle in my life.  (Why must it?  Because my thoughts about the good things are intimately tied up with the bad things.)

In an attempt to keep this relatively brief, I'm only counting fandom from my college days on (about 13 years ago to present).

In my last couple of years at college, I joined a DC Comics roleplaying group on Tumblr.  I had, at this point, already made a couple of friends through tumblr, but it was during my time in this group that I really started posting my own fanfics online and getting very involved in the then-current Batfandom on Tumblr.  (Fun Fact:  My first ever smut writing experience was a threesome in a live chat/real-time RP with two other people.  This was the event that convinced me I could, in fact, write and post my own smut.  If I could do it live, I could certainly do it on my own time!)  I was on Tumblr for the New 52 event.  I was there for the entire run on Grayson, including the unnecessary (and, lbr, pretty damn racist) hatred towards the rebooted version of Helena Bertinelli and the absolute bullshit that was the aggressively loud Grayson-haters' Twitter harassment of Tim Seeley while he was on a date.  Some of y'all fuckers need to learn some manners, I stg.

During this time, I went to several comic conventions (WonderCon and Long Beach Comic Con being the biggest two).  I met some local artists and creators.  I actually got to not only get some Grayson comics signed by Tom King for me and a friend, but also got to talk to him about the comic for a good chunk of time.  (My favorite story:  During the issue where Dick walks through the desert with the baby, there are two pages where he tells the story of a dream he had, which is actually the 1963 Batman story Robin Dies At Dawn.  The art in Grayson is of Dick walking through the bottom third of the pages while the sun beats down on the upper two-thirds.  Tom King had originally wanted the upper parts of the panel to be drawings from the Robin Dies At Dawn story as a nice reference/Easter Egg.  Editorial said no, so they stuck with the sun.)

I wrote a ton of fanfics between 2013-2018!  I did so many fandom events and big bangs!  I made some fandom friends who I still consider very dear friends!

And I also saw a lot of fandom explode at others and implode on itself.

Right around 2019, I got my first job outside home.  I still wrote a lot, but a lot of my fandom friends were either going into new fandoms or moving to different sites, especially after the 2018 Tumblr porn ban.  By 2020, I was starting to get back into fandom in a very light-touch way, but so many of us were gone.  I did end up writing my biggest/most involved fanfic in years during that year (a graveyard shift job as a COVID symptom checker where I only had to pay attention at the top of each hour helped immensely, ngl).  But, oof, there was a lot going on that I no longer wanted to be part of in fandom.

In 2021, I wound up back at the same company I worked for in 2019 (this time as a permanent employee) and my stress levels tripled.  I started to get back into fandom as a way to stay sane, and it worked, for the most part!  I was still doing too many exchanges and events (which ended up only adding to the stress, unfortunately), but I was getting back into that kind of fandom friendship space that I genuinely had missed.  I even ended up going back on Tumblr!

And then, in 2024, after an incredibly brutal end to 2023, I found a Discord group that seemed to have that old-school fandom feeling to it.  During my three months off work post-surgery, I not only joined that group, but found a subgroup of new friends within it (and we've been going strong since).

I feel like a lot of this post seems more negative, but it's not really meant to be.  I have made some great friends through fandom.  I've written some honestly fantastic things because of fandom.  I've also learned a lot about myself through fandom, about what stresses I can take, about what kinds of things I like to write and read, even about how to take care of myself and when I need to remove myself from the more toxic and/or anger-inducing aspects of fandom.

And yet, unfortunately, brevity is clearly not one of the things I've learned via fandom.

...every bird has them.

I don't know if this is so much a fandom opinion as much as a fandom practice, but if my [redacted] years online have taught me anything, it's that I really do not have the energy to spend gleefully hating on things.  Even if it sucks.  Even if it's factually wrong.  If it's in any way within my control to avoid seeing a terrible hot take or avoid a fandom, I'll do it.  So long as no one's being hurt where it's within my power to help, I just do not have the spoons.

That does not mean I won't ever go into a group chat and have a good laugh at such things.  I ain't perfect.  But there is a certain level of ire and rage that I just no longer have the energy to expend by engaging with the willfully obtuse.

That said, I also no longer have the patience to be nice about certain behaviors.  You don't get to come uninvited into my house and then complain about the decorations.  It's my house.

I think I vaguely remember signing up for this last year, or maybe it was this past year, but, uh, clearly that never got done.

Am I going to remember to do it this year?  Who knows!  I will try, though!