I am constantly awake for no reason, and earlier in this week I had been frequenting one of the applications on Facebook called PostSecret.

Post Secret is a very popular blog, in which anonymous senders submit post cards to the provided address, and in turn Post Secret displays the cards on the website http://postsecret.blogspot.com.

This application (App) has migratated to Facebook. It has since devolved into relationship advice, often from users who claim to be 12 or 15.

One particular advice-seeker, a girl, asked--because she had feelings for the boy--that if he wanted to kiss/make out with her, despite his current girlfriend, should she do it?

To me, that answer was obvious. I replied, "Do not allow it! He is USING you! If they in fact break up, the pain you feel now will be so much worse when he cheats on YOU."

It was worth staying up until 3 o'clock the next morning when she responded, "that's all I needed to hear."

tee hee hee

Just found this by Googling myself. Oh so modest!

Whenever I wrote this, I congratulate myself for being hilarious. Do you think so?

Dislikes

Toggle keys, people who have horrible grammar and little or no knowledge of the English language that they speak, parents who keep no rein over their children. Bad TV movies. Flagrant disregard for the history of the computer revolution. Ignorance. Toggle keys, and that annoying pop music that the waifish (READ: overweight) middle-school children on my bus seem to enjoy. Racism. The idea of me having children. Being too lazy to get my driver's license. People who talk in chat-speak in real life. Media moguls controlling the internet (MySpace) and the idea of Senator John McCain as a professional gymnast.

Pet Peeves

Ugly chicks who wear shirts saying 'cutie pie' or 'hottie.' Or 'princess.' People who chew with their mouth open, people who talk while chewing with their mouth open. People who don't respond when you talk to them. Honky-Tonk music. People who don't believe in Social Darwinism. Pacifists.

So I'm walking along, it's a normal day, right? And I see this huge group of students standing around. So naturally I go up to see what it's all about. Scarlett is eating a potato with sour cream.

It turns out that there was a man named "Brother Michah," aka Micah Armstrong, who is a traveling preacher from Miami, Florida. He visits college campuses across the nation spreading his fundamental version of the gospel.

According to the Athens News:

"During his visit, he often managed to provoke students with his harsh condemnation of their behavior or status. This has been a perennial rite of spring on the college green since the early 1970s."

Well, all I know is that I joined in the group of jeering students I got really worked up. He kept saying, "God wants this," and "God tells you that." I finally ended up yelling at him because my friend walked up and she and her boyfriend were kissing. He started yelling at them about fornication and he called James a "whore mongerer." That sounds like an insult off of Anchorman or something.

He condemned a girl for wearing a short skirt.

There were several young men in the audience who were carrying pitchforks and wearing black, one of them was carring a sign and waving it to cars that were passing by. The sign said, "Honk if you love sin!"

Well, that's only half the story. He condemned gays, even though there was an obviously gay man standing next to him. Then a guy who graduated one year before me (who will remain unnamed to protect both the innocent and the guilty) took off his shirt and started "dancing" around Brother Micah in a really suggestive way, rubbing his chest and just making a nuisance of himself.

It was funny and morbid at the same time. Like, watching a train wreck. You can't stop looking, and it's transfixing. Like I said...morbidly fascinating.

I stayed and listened to this dude preach fire and brimstone for almost two hours. I didn't agree with anything he said. What happened to the loving God, I asked him? Well, he told me that God wasn't tolerant and didn't tolerate sin, and that I shouldn't quote the Bible out of context, which was exactly what he had been doing for the last hour and a half. He condemned me, shut me down, and didn't even answer my question.

Ugh.

• Listening to: Ron Sexsmith "Hard Barginer"
• Reading: Stardust
• Watching: An endless stream of fate and lies
• Playing: My six-string
• Drinking: Stone Sours

1) Full Name: Vilma Doris Anaya (At one point)

2) Male/Female: Female

3) Were you named after anyone?: Hehe...almost.

4) Does your name mean anything?: It's a form of the Greek "helena," meaning, "White light that shines about the world, or somthing like that I'm too lazy to look it up.

5) Nick Name(s): punk, dork, geek

6) What do you think you look like... name wise: Vanessa. (?)

7) Date Of Birth: 1/7/87

8) Place of Birth and Current Location: La Ceiba, Honduras CA; Athens, Ohio US

9) Nationality: Mestizo

10) Astrology Sign: Capricorn

11) Chinese Astrology Sign: Snake, baby!

12) Religion: Well, I hate to deny Christ.

13) Whats your favorite smell?: CK Euphoria (Men's) or Ralph Polo Black (Men's). Also, Fresh's Cannabis (not kidding) scent

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?: No one likes super-cold water with lemon in it like ME.

16) Hair + Eye color: brown/brown

17) Do you look like anyone famous?: Uh, no.

18) What do you look like?: Well, I have two different looks. When my hair is straight, I look like a really different person. I hate the way my hair naturally is because it makes my face look chubby...awww.

19) Any unusual talents?: I can tricks like doing flips and cartwheels and stuff.

20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous?: Right

21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other?: STRAIGHT

22) What do you do for a living?: Hopefully something with computer art or designing video games. Although it's hard, I hope to break into the field of programming small electronics and maybe work for a cellphone company or move up to Seattle to work on VRD.

23) What do you do for fun?:T3H INTERNET

24) What are your favorite art materials to work with?: Charcoals, my cameraphone (bleh) and my favorite drawing paper (70 lb, I think).

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?: Digital Photography...DSLR, here I come!

26) Have you met your grandparents?: Never

27) Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Never

28) Crush: I haven't had a crush in about a year

29) What celebrity would you date if you could?: Um, Angelina Jolie. She transcends everything.

30) Current worries?: That meteor that's supposed to hit earth in 2025.

31) Favorite online Guy/Girl(s): !

32) Favorite place to be?: In front of my lovely computer, on the green, by the smithy.

33) Least favorite place to be?: In a gym with no other females present.

34) Do you burn or tan?: Tan, though sometimes I get sun-sickness.

35) Ever break a bone?: No

36) What is your favorite cereal?: Special K

37) Person you cry with: I've been long overdue for a good cry...about one and a half years.

Do You Have...

38) Any sisters: The love of my life.

39) Any brothers: We pretty much ignore him

40) Any pets: One really stupid dog, she's so cute...

41) An Illness: You're better off not knowing

42) A Pager: No

43) A Personal phone line: My mom forwards my calls

44) A Cell phone: Yes

45) A visible birthmark: On my decolletes...I'm getting it removed.

46) A Pool or hot tub: A hot tub every time in the winter, a pool in the summer.

47) A Car: Are you kidding me?

Describe Your...

48) Personality: weird mentally

49) Driving: I hate driving, I have to get rides everywhere which is super lame.

50) Your clothing style: Whatever.

51) Room: its purple and black

52) What’s missing: paint on the walls and all of my posters

53) School: OU

54) Bed: pallet on the floor

55) Relationship with your parent(s): Eh.

56) Do You believe in yourself: That really depends on what I'm trying to attempt.

57) Do you believe in love at first sight?: Do I really have to answer that?

58) Consider yourself a good listener: Not really, no. Except I try to listen when people talk on the phone.

59) Have a future dream that you would like to share?: I want to
invent something really cool, or work on an Open Source project that would make me known throughout the world!

60) Get Along with your parents: No

61) Save your e-mail conversations: Always

62) Pray: To be honest...whenever I want something.

63) Believe in reincarnation: Yes...it makes sense.

64) Brush your teeth twice a day?: Yes

65) Like to talk on the phone: Undoubtedly.

66) Like to eat?: Yes.

67) Like to exercise?: What, you mean sitting on my ass in front of a computer screen ISN'T exercising?

68) Like to watch sports?: Football and hockey

69) Sing in the car?: Once in a blue moon.

70) What is a dream that you have all the time?: That I have mage powers because I rock. Or I'm trying to save the world, or someone, or get "left behind."

71) Dream in color: Always.

72) Do you have nightmares?: Not often, but when I do it's unforgettable.

73) Sleep with a stuffed animal: I broke myself of that before I went to college.

74) Right next to you: A 40 oz.

75) On your favorite coffee cup?: r00t

76) On your mouse pad: Buck Fush

77) Your favorite flavor of gum?: Cherry

78) Your brand of deodorant?: Sugar Deodorant...it's expensive but worth it.

79) Your dream honeymoon spot: Cali

80) Your dream husband/wife: Colin Firth

81) Hiding in your closet?: Don't have one

82) Under your bed: Nothing

83) The name of one of your closest/best friends?: Scarlett

84) Your bad time of the day: Mornings

85) Your worst fear(s): Knives and things that can cut me, like razors, violence on TV

86) What's the weather like: Spring-like

87) Your favorite time of year?: Summer

88) Your favorite holiday?: Halloween

89) A material weakness?: Oooh...computer

90) The weirdest food or drink that you like: Scrambled eggs with grape jelly...poor man's breakfast but extremely tasty.

91) At the top of your "to-do list"?: Apply for more scholarships.

92) The hardest thing about growing up: Money, Responsibilities

93) A pet peeve?: Ugly chicks who wear t-shirts saying "pretty," or "angel," or "princess," or shirts that prominently feature Mickey Mouse, Tweety Bird, or Eeyore.

94) Your scariest moment: January, Friday 13 2007

95) Your attitude about love?: SUCKS

96) The funniest or most desperate thing you've done to get the attention of the opposite sex?: Pinged his IP non-stop

97) The worst feeling in the world: Not knowing

98) The best feeling in the world: Revenge

There's only so much rejection one person can take.

Romantic...Monday.

Of a Friend...Thursday.

Of  a large group of people...Thursday.

Of a job...Saturday. (?)

I don't know what to do. I still harbor some small sliver of hope that I can still be hired at Schoolkids, but it is slipping away very quickly. I will call at 11 today to see if...well.

It's quite lonely to be me.

Now, excuse me while I up my emo quotient.

I did the job interview for bananaroad.com/Schoolkids yesterday, and I think I did quite well. I got asked questions, like, "What would [you] contribute to the work environment," etc. I answered as best I could. 

Also something I had guessed at but didn't know; DJ Barticus (of the Union's Dance or Die fame) works at Schoolkids. He is quite cool, an illustrious personage of this college town. I would be sorry not to know him better.

Later.