Just going to write here for the sake of writing. Had a nice evening last night. Very normal, average, routine. Except we set up with a simple HDMI cable, Jim's computer downstairs. The benefits of this abound. Particularly that I think he may notice Amber's requests to go out more than prior when he was Repunzel in his tower on Floor #3 in 874.

Also, when I come in the door, I won't have to trudge upstairs immediately to alert him I am home.
That sounds like it's not a big deal, but after 5 years, I'm frankly sick of that. No need for an intercom system :P

Perhaps less dishes will migrate into floor 3... we'll see. I'm feeling optimistic about a simple move of computer. I said it jokingly about 3 weeks ago, and BAM, it happened for real. !!!
Just feeling at peace for the moment, and that feels good.

Let the weekend garbage die.
Last night July 4th plans were finalized. Can hardly wait.

The weekend was pretty cool. I know we went out on the boat a few times, and in the last couple of weeks I've discovered the beauty of night-time Lake Union time. How fun!!! My favorite was the evening we went out and I read my novel out-loud to us. How much more fun does it get? The only bummer is I don't really watch the boating environment if I am reading, but it was a lot of fun all the same. I sort of ate whatever I wanted, mostly drinking lots of wine over the weekend and skipping all scheduled workouts. That's okay. Sometimes it just feels good to live.

We also had to go nab Amber, a furchild-care issue related to the Leavenworth trip of Jim's. That worked out. As DriveHouse is not Amber-proof, we crashed at 874.

It turned out quite well in the long run, my favorite part being Amber's first trip out on the boat. Fritz is people centric and less independent. All he cares about is clinging to his people. Amber is very, very independent. She loved standing at the bow of the boat and staring out over the water, challenging ducks by barking at them, and generally just being more dog-like and interactive with the fact she was on a boat with water all around. In general, she tolerates water better to begin with. I just had to watch to make sure the crazy girl didn't get any ideas about jumping in, in front of the damn boat. You know. Like ya do.

The bad news was when our front snap cover ...blew into the marina while we were out. It was gone when we got back one of the times. Meaning a make shift covering of the front of the boat until Sean can get a new one. (not cheap).
I'm a strong swimmer... I also love swimming. But there have been times I've had water phobia. Sean would have dove in to look for the cover under the water in the Marina, but he is still recovering from shoulder surgery.

I was about to with my goggles and bikini, but you know. I was truly mortified by Lake Union waterworks marina water. I really don't want to see what is down there for some reason. I jumped in. For 2 seconds. Decided I wasn't going to be able to goggle around and find the damn cover.

So that was that.

Lake Union is gross, I'm sorry. It's gross as fuck and I don't want to know what's down there for the moment. :P
It is mostly frustrating to have a phobia at all, especially given what a strong swimmer I am, and mostly logic driven woman I am about a lot of these things. So annnyyyyyyyyyyyway. And you know, I wanted to find that damn cover. Took some nasty dry Chadonnay to alleviate my feelings. I need to get some boat worthy wine that I fucking like. I was just drinking what Sean had, which sounded like shit that Tammy liked back in the day. (Exgf). I think I need to take over and get tasty wine. I'm not a big cheap wine fan. I want something I love or don't bother. But you know, beggers cannot be choosers, and he had this other stuff. I was drinking it because I thought he liked it. He had drank it for Tammy because she liked it. But then he mentioned Tammy likes cheap wine, anything to get a buzz on. That's a bit less my wine style. Give me quality. I don't want a buzz on without fine deliciousness involved really. I'm a booze snob, yes - it's true. I wasn't at 21, but a few years later I got over that "let's get smashed for the sake of it," thing.

Oh yeah, We also did Father's Day at my parents'. It was super fun, Me and Sean went and then Jim showed up later. We also got Jill cupcakes and I bought her half of her new Horse Show Shirt. $100 shirt, but it looked great and will work for her shows for a long time to come. Now that her elbow is healed, we can actually have taken her to the tack shop to buy it. Anyway, good family fun and it is good to see James with a great lady that is kind, low drama, positive, happy as a person. She brings him to a place he always deserved to be with a partner.

-Angela

It makes me so damn happy to see my bro happy.
<3

-Angela

Friday. Took Benedryl. Half worried that when my real drugs wear off, that my allergic crap will come back. But we'll see. I can always use the Benedryl that keeps knocking me out - right??

Drinks with co workers tonight after work. Looking forward to it if my brain wasn't so addled. I am thinking maybe I will have a couple of drinks for once. I think I will invite Sean after all. Shrug.
We'll see. He, Sean, is off to see Man of Steel with his C.

So if he's free in time, I think I'll have him come along. Shake things up. I'm sure JF is curious to meet the "other" that she knows exists.

I miss Judy. I miss Judy a lot in this office.
Life moves on.

In other news, the weekend looks relatively clear, so that's good news.
Up and down goes my personal life. Mostly I think if I just keep being stubborn and working on myself, working on everything I want. Never give up.

Boring isn't better.
I need a damn nap though.
Jim invited me to see Man of Steel before I found out Sean was seeing it. STOKED> I think we might see it tonight.
Sean might come along too. I was excited that Jim invited me out to see a movie. It's the little things.

-Angela

Past couple of weeks have been on again off again skin allergy doom. Starting not quite 3 weeks ago, I began to notice small changes in my facial skin. It slowly migrated to my ears, and then 2 weeks ago on Friday morning I woke up with a full on puffy face and many mini hives all over my face. I was not a happy camper. I didn’t realize my eyes were half closed from this yet.

Doctors… medications. Happened again after my week long circuit of meds, only this time my face stayed clear and it was really just circulating on my arms and legs, larges patches. It also came with a delightful dose of swollen eyelids, and puffy under eyes and cheeks. Feeling ugly, feeling puffy, feeling unhappy. More doctors, more medications.
Now instead of topical, they believe it was something I ingested. Said it should go away after another week of meds. All I am happy about is that I have more meds that make me want to be alive because the bulk of angry making symptoms go away with the meds. I know, shallow of me not to want it deeper than that. I just have to trust that by the time the meds wear off, my body will have gotten over whatever it was.

I am not a big pill popping girl. I’m just not and I always subscribed to less is more. But this misery was enough to have me begging for more steroids to make my face unpuff, my eyelids to shrink back down and my under eyes and cheeks to look like me.

I looked in the mirror and knew that some people always look that puffy. Some people always look that miserable. Shallow as that sounds. But, not me. I don’t have a fat face or extra puff to my eye area. And the itching all over my body was about enough to make me want to rip my skin off. My whole body the first week, had begun to retain water fluid. Not pretty feeling anyway. It never feels good.

In other news, I decided to get the lenses replaced on my old frames (since they're nicer than the cheapo ones I got at America's Best). Bennie card was maxed out due to all my usage this year. $250 for that. Wowzers, just. Okay.

-Angela

It's okay to hang on, when others might not.
You're in charge of your life - after all.
It's not about what others think, what they want and what they judge. They have their own cart to steer.

No stranger, lover, parent, or friend - is in the driver's seat of your life.
Perhaps the moments you go a direction in spite of others, particularly if it isn't overly harmful to anyone at all - that is the moment that defines you as you, and no one else.

-Angela

Tomorrow is the birthday for a new friend of mine. April 30th marks Tierney’s birthday! I was given the beautiful opportunity to work on a Rock Opera cast with some talented people. Tierney was one of my favorite talents on the cast.
Quite simply put, Tierney is a body Genius with some fervent flow, grace, and zest.

Her innate instinct for genius in choreography and creativity beams out through every part of her life, as far as I can see. Her constructive visions and views and advice were pretty much a huge, brilliant (because she was behind them) turning point for me in our Rite of Sol show. I’m sure she wasn’t remotely aware of how important and influential her feedback and visions were to me. So, now she’ll know.

In terms of mind/body connections – I’m good at calling people out when they have a strong one. Her dance performances are captivating and expose this strength of hers. I did not know Tierney well for much of the run of the show (as in, rehearsals and things leading up to the ACTUAL run.) However, soon getting to know her and the Tierney husband, Kat – happened by the end of the show and continued in the months following the show.

Here I sit pondering her new found existence as a key player in my life. We don’t spend tons of time together – no. I don’t really spend lots of time with many people these days, I’ve sort of become a scarce piece. That isn’t the point. Talent is talent. Beauty is beauty, and I cannot wait to watch Rite of Sol on DVD at home to admire the dance that I missed while being ON CAST and on stage with her. What honor could be better? Few.

So, I write this brief post in honor of how awesome the BirthdayGirl of April 30th is. What an amazing woman. Here’s to another great year for Tierney The Great!

Happy birthday, Tierney! Keep rocking your badass self. You Own the Rights to the Word Awesome.

-Angela

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-Angela

More real posts soon!!! I promise. I know these are of no interest to most of you :P