| Dear Future Entities |
[19 Apr 2011|09:03pm] |
I wish I could see what happens next after I die. I wish I could watch how this big beautiful mess of a universe evolves. I hope that some way I can.
I would like to see what happens very much.
If there were a time traveler, I would like to meet them. I would like them to reveal to me the distant future.
If there were an entity with the knowledge of the distant past I would like to meet them and I would like them to reveal to me the distant past.
Or maybe the Universe isn't linear with a past and a future.
I'm a confused consciousness who is tortured by a glimpse of existence.
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I'm thinking of nothing. I'm trying to remember what was before me. The only knoledge I have of the past comes from pictures. From stories by people who saw it. Or people who know people who saw it. I can look at things that are older than me like a penny in my pocket from the sixties or the seventies. I try to revall the sixties and the seventies but all I remember are unified specks of light that form an image in the screen of a television or ink on a picture. All I have are memories of my own past. Mental records.
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| Shit. |
[22 May 2010|10:02pm] |
You know I miss the livejournal days. Ever since myspace and all that social networking bullshit everything has just become about appearances instead of what people are really thinking on more than a two sentence comment. Its all about appearances you mother fuckers!!! Nobody cares what anybody really thinks any more. Its all first impression, its all first impressioohoohooooooooon!
Where my mutha fuckin livejournal homies at? where all my livejournal homies at!?!?!?!
HELLO...Hello...hello? ? ?
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| Jessi Fife and Isaac Grover at the Hotel Yorba |
[24 Feb 2010|06:18pm] |
This is an email a was writing to Jessi Fife on facebook. After I wrote it I decided that I wouldn't send it because it sounds like a love letter and I didn't want to cause any problems with her boyfriend. But If for some reason I die, if someone relayed this message to Jessi, I would give you 1000 karma points.
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Hey Jessi! I was just sitting here thinking and I just have to tell you some things. Ever since you told me you were pregnant I have just been thinking how I miss the crap out of you. I was really surprised when you told me you were pregnant and I guess it just made me feel bad for not keeping in touch with you more so I have to tell you how awesome you are. When you came in looking for a book at hastings the first time I met you I just felt right away like you were a friend. I've never met anyone like that ever. I usually have a weird awkward stage. Also, when I came to Salt Lake to visit you.. those are seriously some of my happiest memories ever. I can't remember a time when I had more fun and felt happier. You've always been a really big inspiration artistically for me. There is Jessi stuff all over my apartment. I love your style and I love your creative energy. You are seriously one of the coolest people I've ever been lucky enough to know. I just really want you to know that before a commit hits the earth or something. I'm not trying to hit on you or tell you I'm in love with you or anything like that. Also I'm not trying to sound like I'll never see you again or anything. Jessi Fife = siamese dream, mellon collie and the infinite sadness, the white stripes, betty page, little cesaers, 90s grunge, music videos, the crow, vandalism, cigar cigarettes in the parking lot, poirates on the prowl, and everything rock and roll. The coolest girl I've ever met.
Isaac
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[08 Nov 2009|01:43pm] |
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| Death (reprise) |
[05 Nov 2009|01:38am] |
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We don't like to think about death because we know that some day we inevitably have to experience dying. What scares us even more is the fact that it could happen at any time.
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| Vinyl I Need |
[02 Nov 2009|09:54am] |
1. Arcade Fire - Funeral
2. NIN - the slip (I never feel right forking out the 24 bucks hastings is charging. Although I think the packaging might just make it worth while.)
3. Handsome Furs
4. Neutral Milk Hotel - Aeroplane Over the Sea
5. Wolf Parade - At Mount Zoomer
Vinyl I need that I'll never find for a reasonable price:
1. Marilyn Manson - Holy Wood/Mechanical Animals
2. Tool - Salival/Aenima
*UPDATE11.2.09
I found out that there was never an official release for Tool's Salival on vinyl. There is a bootleg version floating around that is selling for what an actual release would probably cost if they officially released it and then stopped making copies. I'm not so sure that its actually worth it. It uses art taken from the stinkfist video.
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| Why this design sucks |
[01 Nov 2009|10:38am] |
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As I tried to convey on my english book design: Meanings are in people, not in words (Or Symbols). Because I have been raised in a largely christian society I do see a cross when I look at the shirt that was designed for Penn State spectators. If I saw a group of 20 college students standing side by side, all wearing the shirt, I would probably assume it was some kind of student christian organization or something. That's just what I see. I suspect that there are a lot more than 6 people who would see the same thing. This shirt will pass because its in the shape of a cross. If it were in the shape of the star of david or a crescent moon holding a star then it would probably be a different story. I find the explanation by the girl who designed the t-shirt very likely. I doubt that she had some hidden agenda to convert everyone into christianity by sneaking a cross on their shirts. From what I understand this design was voted on by students and it sold out. That means the majority of people are either christian, don't see a cross, or they just don't care. Swell! If I were a student who was being forced to purchase or wear this shirt I would have serious problems with that not only because of the cross but because of its correlation with college sports which I'm not a huge fan of. But nobody is being forced to buy this shirt or wear it. There are probably other options and if there aren't then you could just wear a blue shirt. Does it look like a shirt you got at church camp? Yes. Would I buy it? No. Do I think they should stop making them? I don't think that is necessary even though it is undoubtably a bad design. That is the bottom line. Its like the pepsi symbol. People are going to start seeing a fat guy whether they want to or not. Especially now that someone brought it up. For that reason I wouldn't use this design or purchase it. 
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| Letter to David |
[09 Jul 2009|08:28pm] |
Mr. David Carson,
I've had a lot of time to think about how I'm going to write this essay. In fact, I’ve written it once already. I've put on the professional mask, the humble mask, the confident mask, and several other masks trying to find exactly what you might want to hear. I've watched videos of you on youtube to see what kind of person you might be. I've looked at your work, I've read about you on wikipedia, I've been listening to nine inch nails' the fragile, and I've talked to my instructor Jenny Venn, and students who were invited to meet you on your first visit to Laramie, about their experience. But the fact of the matter is that I have no idea what you are looking for.
I believe that the reason I've been trying so hard to find out what you want to see is because of my academic experiences. I have been a professional student since 1990. School has consumed my life. In the academic world I have learned that you might succeed by being intuitive but you are more likely to succeed by doing exactly what the instructor wants. I’ve never liked doing that. So I’m going to take off the masks and try my best not to bullshit you. First I’m going to talk a little bit about myself, then I’ll talk about the work I’ve selected, and finally I am going to talk about why I think I should be in your class.
I’ve lived in Wyoming my whole life and I haven’t traveled much. I’ve been designing things before I knew what graphic design was. When I was little my mom wouldn’t let me listen to Metallica so I would sneak in to my brothers room and record his CDs onto cassette when she wasn’t home. The music wasn’t enough for me. I had to have the album art as well. So I would cut a peace of paper in the shape of the cassette insert and I would design the cover with crayons and colored pencils. Later in life, I dropped out of high school, got my GED, and went to community college. I became very interested in street art. Particularly artists like Banksy and Shepard Fairey who would use stencils in their work. In 2007 I transferred to the University of Wyoming and became a graphic design major because I decided to be brave and try to make a living doing what I love to do.
I like school because it teaches me technical skills, introduces me to new elements that I can apply to my design, and it teaches me social skills. But what I hate about school is that it limits me. In school I am a B student but in my world there are no grades. In my world there are only messages, emotions, meanings, and there are absolutely no limitations. That’s why I’ve selected work that I’ve designed mostly outside of school. I like it better. I realize that in the real world people don’t often give you complete creative freedom and so it is important for me to learn how to work with people but this is my portfolio and I get to choose what you see. I’m excited about showing you some of the things I like. I’m horrible at being organized so a lot of my best work has been washed away or lost and while this may not be my best work it is some of my favorite.
Finally I would like to talk about why I should be in your class. It would be exciting to meet a designer who is making a living doing what they love to do and doing it successfully. I might learn something that will help me succeed as a designer. It would be awesome to meet the guy who designed the cover of the fragile and and all that could have been; two of my most favorite NIN albums of all time musically and visually (I have the fragile on vinyl and I LOVE IT). It would be nice to learn from someone other than just Jenny Venn as she is the only design instructor at UW. Its not that I don’t love what she does but it would be nice to have some variety.
As far as why I “should” be in your class I guess that is for you to decide. But if I had to pick a reason it would be because I love art and design and I think I’m pretty good at it. I hope you find what you’re looking for in my portfolio and my essay and I look forward to meeting you this fall! Thank you for your time and consideration.
Sincerely,
Isaac James Grover
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| Death (part two) |
[07 Jun 2009|03:28pm] |
You are not conscious when you are dead and you do not experience the unimaginable length of time that you do not exist. The chances of your consciousness coming into existence again would be almost impossible. The odds of such an occurrence could probably not be calculated. But there is no shortage of time or space. For example, lets say you have trillions of dice with trillions of sides each and in order for your consciousness to spring into existence again every die must land on one at the same time. Off the top of my head I can't calculate the odds of this happening but I'm pretty sure the odds are not good. But relative to the infinite amount of time this is nothing. It is a glimpse and is bound to happen eventually if the universe is truly infinite.
Now let me go back to my first point. When you die you are not conscious so you do not experience the vast amount of time that you do no exist. In other words you don't experience the roll of the dice. So whether or not it takes one roll or 100 rolls or trillions and trillions of rolls it makes no difference to you until all the dice finally land on one and you are suddenly conscious again and able to experience time.
Because of this, when you die, you instantaneously become conscious again.
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| Death (part one) |
[01 Jun 2009|10:33pm] |
I looked death in the face tonight and in a way I died. I died because I realized that death is simply accepting the fact that nothing matters. To truly not fear death would mean accepting the fact that nothing matters; even when you're alive. Then virtually, being dead and being alive mean the same thing. Because if you think about it, you are dead for an infinite amount of time but you are only alive for such an insignificant amount of time. Compared to infinity life is nothing. Essentially, we are not alive.
In a way it is sort of like going to sleep. When you sleep you don't remember what it was like because in deep sleep you are not conscious. Your experience of sleep can only be related to your experience of waking up. Once you become conscious again you start to feel and you feel rested. It is that rested feeling that you associate with sleep. But we cannot experience the actual act of sleeping, a deep sleep, because we are not conscious when it happens. This is the same reason patients of surgery don't remember what it was like to be cut deep in the flesh with a knife. Thus death is essentially the same thing as sleeping. The only difference is that you never "wake up" from death.
But we will not experience infinity. Infinity is not: you, in a black empty universe. An infinity in death is not tangible because you simply no longer exist to experience infinity. Because of this, when you die, nothing matters for you. You are not conscious.
What does it feel like to die? Well you cannot describe being dead because dead people cannot experience anything. So, much like sleeping, one can only relate death with the last few moments of life and consciousness. Everyone experiences those last moments in different ways.
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| The Amazing Atheist Replied To My Question! |
[26 Apr 2009|02:36am] |
So instead of studying for finals or doing my overdue homework I ask the Amazing Atheist several questions for his question answering video and he answered one!!! I'm so excited about it! There were 4,350 questions asked and one of MY questions got answered! He answers it at 1:27:50!
This is a big deal to me alright. I don't have much to be excited about these days.
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[09 Feb 2009|11:24pm] |
"We're on a road to nowhere"
-talking heads
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| hell does not exist but in the minds of those who choose to believe in it |
[09 Feb 2009|10:07pm] |
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If there is a god, it knows that I would obey it and attempt to love it completely. But I can't imagine an irrational god that would create humanity, leaving only a multi-interpretational crypticon document and humanity's very existence as the only clues (arguably) to it's [god's] existence, and then lovingly cast them into utter anguish if they didn't get it right.
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| Kettle Corn Stew |
[22 Jan 2009|12:09am] |
1. One canned corn
2. 1/2 cup rice
3. 1/4 cup brown sugar
Place all ingredients into a pot and boil for about 6 minutes.
*Add ground beef if desired.
Your Welcome.
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| a Story by Isaac Grover, part II |
[21 Jan 2009|12:44am] |
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The year is 2012. Charles Manson has been released on parole. He is provided with a small house in a black neighborhood in harlem.
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| a Story by Isaac Grover |
[20 Jan 2009|11:02pm] |
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When Ethan's 3rd grade teacher told the class that it would take approximately 56 years for a person to count to a billion, he would never be the same. Determined to be the first man to count to one billion Ethan began his conquest. He would attempt the impossible by counting one number per waking minute for 56 years. Impossile.. or is it?
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