blog much?

.....um...nope! I don't know what it is about blogging, I just can't get myself to do it. I think because I see all these cute blogs, they've customized and they are super cute. I mean c'mon, mine has had the same background for the last 9 months. And, I can't figure out how to get my cute fonts I've downloaded to work on here. Anyway, I need to find someone computer savvy to make a cute one for me. I think the real reason is that I HATE downloading pictures to the blog. They are always in the wrong order, it takes forever etc. etc. And all this boils down to.....I'm lazy : ) We're headed to UTAH in 4 days, and I couldn't be happier. I was a little worried about the weather....this is my warm sunny vaca for the year...and there was snow on the ground two days ago?! But my dad assured me the weather is looking warmer this weekend, and we won't need to pack our winter clothes, but arm floaties might be useful.
Anyway, maybe while we're in Utah I'll get some things posted....maybe not. But in the meantime, I assure you we're all doing great and the kids are still cute : ) Jack is getting so dang big and cute! He is pretty easy going...he has to be to put up with big sister. Ava is getting big too! She seriously says the funniest things. It's so fun watching her and Jack interact. Jack absolutely loves her. Ava's favorite game is to pull Jack around the living room by his feet. I know sounds horrible, but Jack gets the biggest kick out of it and laughs like crazy!

Easter attire

Jack being a good sport

Ava playing lifeguard

Mr. Potato Head

Jacks first time on grass

blessings

As I sit here tonight, my sweet kids sleeping, I'm so grateful. Grateful to be a mother to 2 beautiful kids. I sat down, after the kids went down and felt sorry for myself. Ava is going through this phase where she knows exactly how to push my buttons and make me go insane, and on top of that, potty training....I'm starting to think diapers aren't all that bad. And then there's Jack, he really is a super good baby, but I'm sure most of you moms will agree, if feels as if all you do for the first 4 months is nurse, change diapers, nurse, change a diaper and clothes, and nurse again. I feel as if my house will never be clean again. I can pick it up 9 times during the day and it is still messy when Jared gets home from work, still dishes in the sink, and it's a miracles these days if I am showered before 3:00! I won't even get into the laundry (both clean and dirty) that is constantly in piles, I don't think we've had an empty hamper, all clothes clean and put away since Jack was born. I try and tell myself over and over that it doesn't matter...to be grateful there is dirty dishes in the sink to be washed, that there is dirty clothes in the hamper, be grateful for the toys strewn about the house...blah blah...but at the end of the day I still feel defeated and frustrated.
All of this random rambling really comes down to, I've been humbled tonight. We heard tonight that some college friends, who were expecting a baby, had him 17 weeks early. He lived for a week, and returned home to his Heavenly Father yesterday. It breaks my heart to think of that. I can't even imagine the heartache they are going though. But how lucky to have been chosen to be parents of that perfect little guy, all he needed was a body.
I'm so grateful that Heavenly Father has blessed me with the opportunity to be a mother. I cannot imagine what my life would be like without my kids. Listening to Ava say her prayers before she went to be tonight, is enough to make up for all the moments I wanted to pull my hair out today. And, it's ok if I sit on the couch and nurse Jack all day, they grow up so fast and you don't ever get that back. The clothes will get washed, toys put away, and the dishes will be washed, maybe not all at once, and not everyday. Being a mom is hard....but I feel like the most rewarding job out there.





It is super late (or early), I'm exhausted, but I always think about writing down my feelings in a journal and never end up doing it, and forget about it the next day, so if you are still reading this.....you're a trooper...this was just a jumble of words for my own personal journaling, so sorry if it was extra boring. I'll be back to blogging about our ridiculously exciting life soon.

so true

Read this, so funny! This is exactly how it is at our house some days....the second scenario...not the first. The first is pretty close to what my expectation of being a mom was like before having kids.....I know I know, what kind of an idiot really thinks that, right?

http://littlemissmomma.blogspot.com/2010/05/day-in-life-of-momma-imagined-vs.html

love

love him...




and her...

super cute blog

Check out Melissa's cute blog. She took our pictures right after Jack was born and I love them!


http://www.melissahancockphotography.com/

can't think of a clever title...

One day I'll update the blog with what we did between October and now, but until then, enjoy a few (or a lot!) pictures. We're all doing great, just enjoying snuggling our little Jack all day. I love my babies!

baby jack

Baby Jack is here! He came Tuesday, December 28th at 1:13 p.m. He weighed 7 lb 10 oz and was 21.5 inches long. He's perfect! We (especially Ava) can't get enough of him! She has to kiss him every couple minutes, no matter what she's doing, she has to take a small break to give him little kisses, so stinking cute! We have family here spoiling us right now so we'll be back to the blogging world shortly.