jema

... Is awesome. Oxygen is too but while oxygen keeps me alive lithium makes me think it's a good thing. Oh and baking, reading and cats.

That is a quote from one of my first posts back in 2001 and I stand by it! I hate having to cook. But I love to do it with a sense of adventure and artistic flair. Back when I were still drinking alcohol I tended to raid the freezer and cook up the most amazing things in the middle of the night after some wine. Since alcohol and bipolar disorder is quite and catastrophy I gave up all alcohol 2 years ago.

One of the few 'hobbies' I had even in times of depression have been to bake. But when I am really down I can't even do that. Right now I am pretty mellow though. Low but not frightfully low. So baking is still something fun. I do wish I had friends up here though that would come visit more and eat my cookies.

Trudging slowly over wet sand
Back to the bench where your clothes were stolen
This is the coastal town
That they forgot to close down
Armageddon, come Armageddon!
Come, Armageddon! Come!

Everyday is like Sunday
Everyday is silent and grey

Hide on the promenade
Etch a postcard :
"How I Dearly Wish I Was Not Here"
In the seaside town
That they forgot to bomb
Come, come, come, nuclear bomb

Everyday is like Sunday
Everyday is silent and grey

Trudging back over pebbles and sand
And a strange dust lands on your hands
(And on your face)
(On your face)
(On your face)
(On your face)

Everyday is like Sunday
"Win yourself a cheap tray"
Share some greased tea with me
Everyday is silent and grey

Jeanette Winterson - 'Weight' a retelling of the myth of Atlas carrying the universe and Heracles filling in for him a little time. Throw in some Laika lost in space and a lot of talk about responsibility.

Joyce Carol Oates - 'Black water' I have been meaning to read more Oates just to find out if I like her or not. Still not convinced.

Joyce Carol Oates - 'Beasts' Still not 100% sure... but a bit better.

Joyce Carol Oates - 'Rape, a love story' I did like this one, well, parts of it. And isn't that a rather interesting title?

Salman Rushdie 'Midnight's children' Amazing and long and quite difficult at times but worth it. The last third of the book went by fast.

Mindy Kaling 'Is everyone hanging out without me' I needed some lighter reading inbetween Rushdie and Winterson.

Jenn Campbell - 'Weird things customers say in bookshops' Quite a delight, read in one sitting.

Cheryl Strayed 'Wild' Listened to from BBC 4X radio.

Stephen Grosz - 'The examined life' BBC radio again.

Also listened to John Dryden 'The reluctant spy' but didn't like it much. And re-read Paul Auster's 'The red notebook' and loved it!!!

On the to-read pile.

Still here - sometimes.


Just some photos for now:

Charlie:


Moms kitten Trulls:


This is where I post by the way
http://saidenne.wordpress.com/
And I am at facebook! http://www.facebook.com/pixelina

gonna try and find a new cool wallpaper for my bedroom. this one is a weird red/purple/pink that don't really show up on this photo

I am not active on LJ right now even though I still do read my friendpage almost daily.
You will find me more on FB and posting my tarot stuff here: http://saidenne.wordpress.com/

just reading about the terrorist attack in Oslo got me out of balance. Who in their right mind will kill kids?
Someone dressed as a police officer, told the kids to gather around him and then just shot them. How could killing kids ever be used to prove a point? Sick sick people.

What I see:
A golden skinned man takes a leap over a river. In his hand a sword and behind him 5 more are pointing at him. He is dressed in a hat with stars, an armbracer with a star and a lion on his thigh. Behind him trails a black cape and in his heand a cap of a graduate. He is leaping towards a pillar with symbols on them, I see a candle, a bell and a book, a pair of crossed swords and a sun/moon(?) In the ocean we see a submarine emerging, creating waves.

I love that this is such an active card, he is not simply being ferried off somewhere, he is leaping! He has a clear intent and shows bravery in the face of danger (like the lion on his thigh)

Symbolism:
"The pillar of true science rising on the right and marked with the occult metaphors of bell, book & candle, a nightly ritual of study which takes place in obscurity but which reveals true light"
The bell, book and candle was originally a ritual of excommunication from the catholic church. 'Ring the bell, close the book, quench the candle'

Today this card reminds me to not be so scared of sharing my thoughts. My mind is active and quick and a thing to be proud of and not hide. Take the leap – dare to shine.

From the LWB:
Diving into the depths of the unconscious mind on a voyage of sublime discorvery. New creative ideas bring new comprehension. Free your mind of restrictive ideas and repeated anxieties. The future holds a change for you which conatins great intellectual challenges.