jzer

You would not believe how much I've changed. I've grown SO much. I even keep a real pen and paper journal, now.
Oh, and, you know, I've crossed the country, gone to Burning Man, gone to Mexico...
And I'm on my way around the world.
FINALLY.
<3

So I'm going to Arisia again! Exciting!

I wanted to bring my cello last year, but couldn't. That year, Betsey Tinny and SJ Tucker from Trixie Pixie showed up with a carbon fiber cello and amazing vocals and I had the most wonderful opportunity to geek out with Betsey about the cello and about the music they played and I even (!!) got to play said cello. Oh my god why didn't I have my cello.

This year? same reasons not to bring it.
but didn't I learn my lesson last year?

hmm. not convinced. Maybe I can lock it up in the closet?

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Unrelated

The symptoms of [jzer] having a difficult morning:
1. generally unkempt (got dressed in a rush, in the dark)
2. looks hungry (no time for food, aww)
3. missing non-essential clothing accessories: belt. socks. other.
4. bed head (what mirror?)
5. huh wut *blink blink*

Today I forgot my belt but remembered my headphones, and have the most fantabulous hair (read: every direction). I couldn't figure out why I was starving at 9am (emergency chocolate!). In short, I had ALL of the symptoms. ugh.

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Other than that, I'm feeling pretty good about most things. Sure, the job feels like [ ugh ] but everything else is wonderful: karate, cello, friends, etc.

I hope you are well, my darlings.

Read this first: Grand Champion: Forms
Then watch this:

Actually, more than ever.  Trusting my own opinion is pretty cool.

The meditation was fantastic.  I should write out what happened here.  Instead, I'll post this:


Yay Jim Henson!

maybe, just maybe, I should STOP DOING THIS TO MYSELF.



or at least learn to let go.

Kathryn and I hung out and talked. Some things made sense. Mostly I feel miserable.
is it normal to want to vomit blood?

otherwise it was a nice weekend.

and planning to paint about her experience.

which is good. am I relaxed? no.
She gets out of the hospital on Sunday.