Fuck you for forcing me to switch, livejournal. You suck. 

"So, Jared, I was wondering, wanna go out? We've been--ugh, no."

Jensen is going completely insane right now in the confines of his own home, pacing his bedroom.

He racks his brain for something more substantial to say than that. Surely he can come up with a better way to pop one of the biggest questions in a relationship.

If you can even call what he and Jared have a relationship.

It's been two months since Jensen nearly ran Jared over as he was trying to save a damn box turtle in the middle of the road, and things have taken quite the turn. It started with hanging out nearly every day since the almost-accident, and Jensen has the Best Fur-ends Forever t-shirts to prove it. The tight-knit group of volunteers had welcomed him like a long lost friend, and he looks forward to his daily visits. 

Especially since every day after locking up for the night, Jared and Jensen walk a few blocks to Jared’s favorite hot dog stand and get their respective meals while they talk more. It's pretty much perfect. Or would be, if Jensen had even the slightest idea what the fuck he and Jared are to each other.

Friends? Certainly--there's no denying that one.

Dating? That's up for debate.

They're definitely not boyfriends, that's for sure.

But it's not for lack of trying, at least on Jensen’s part.

"I'm not sure I know what you mean."

Immediately after saying this, Jensen's phone chimes on his desk. He quickly checks it out, seeing that Jared has texted him back.

"You look great in that suit. You're honestly the most handsome person I've ever been around. I love your style, Jack."

Jensen blushes again at Jared’s effusive compliments, wishing he knew if Jared was serious or not. Of course Christian notices, and his smirk is firmly back in place.

"Dating again, I see. Jeffrey?" Christian leans forward, studying Jensen closely. “I hear he’s back in town again, looking to get plugged back in.”

Jensen recoils sharply. "What? God, no! Never again. Not after last time."

"But there is someone, hmm?" Chris probes. “Come on, out with it. Who’s the lucky guy?”

He smirks, eyebrow raising, and Jensen surrenders. Once Christian gets an idea in his head, there’s no escape.

"His name is Jared. He's 34, he loves animals, and drives a shitty car that’s almost as old as he is. But he's so gorgeous and upbeat and amazing and--"

Chris laughs abruptly, holding up a hand to put an end to Jensen’s gushing. "I see. How long have you guys been dating?"

"2 months, and um...we're not dating. Not exactly."

That gets a reaction. "What do you mean, not exactly? You’re either dating, or you’re not." Christian groans suddenly. “Oh, God. Please tell me you didn’t fall for another straight guy.” 

“Awesome,” Jared says happily. “I’m so glad you said yes, Jensen.”

"I’m just glad we’re on the same page,” Jensen says, relief making him a little giddy. “Listen, I know the perfect place. I’ll pick you up--7:30 tomorrow night, does that sound good? I can get us reservations at this great restaurant I know downtown. Amazing food, great music, and better wine. You'll love it, I promise." Jensen knows he’s babbling, but holy shit, Jared said yes. That warrants a little babbling. 

Jared barely hesitates. “I can’t wait,” he says warmly, and his eyes drop to Jensen’s lips again before he licks his own. Jensen has a moment of hope, but he’s not too disappointed when Jared bites his lip and steps back. Jared’s interest is clear now, so clear that Jensen doesn’t know why he was so nervous this morning. He should have known Jared would at least give him a chance. 

Over the past months, Jensen has seen Jared work his hardest to make sure every single animal in the shelter has felt some kind of love, even if that particular animal hated him or was afraid of him. They always came around. Every. Single. Time. And each one he cared for was soon adopted by someone who could love and care for them just as he did. Jared is a goddamn miracle, and there's no one on this earth that Jensen would rather spend his time with than him. He just hopes that he’s not Jared’s latest project, that this is the start of something real.