QOTD |
[May. 21st, 2012|08:22 pm]
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Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself. -- Harvey Fierstein |
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| Spin, Spiral Witch |
[Nov. 21st, 2023|01:09 pm]
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Someone I once knew well, off and on for probably 20 years, has passed away 2023-11-12.
spiralwitch
spiral_erotica
spiralerotica And another, something like "SpinSpiralWitch", where this post title originates.
I don't know if I can fully remember, much less properly write about, the friendship we had.
It was before her husband & kids. It was always online, starting here on LiveJournal (I know not where I found her, though). We mostly discussed kink, sex, desires.
She adored the "Girl In The Box" (Colleen Stan kidnapping) because it fed into her kinks, kinks she wasn't afraid to express. Colleen Stan was kept in a strange little space under her couple captors' waterbed--I coincidentally owned (until like 3 years ago) the same kind of waterbed frame as they did. I shared my kinks and fantasies also.
She sent me written erotica via the LJs above, and personally. She sent me risque and even mildly explicit photographs. I cherished every bit of what she sent me. I wrote erotica for her as well.
I flew into her city for work about 15 years ago. Before I left home she said she wanted to meet. But after I landed she was reluctant and decided not to. After I left she gave me her home address and told me to not take "no" from her the next time, to just come over. There was no next time. Life and money happened.
We were deep friends for a long time, but the decaying of LiveJournal and rise of Facebook turned into public, destroying the intimacy in our relationship. Sure, we kept in touch, but it's not the same when friends and family are there, and your face is on each post. Even with strict sharing, Facebook still polices content.
And then I left Facebook. I missed the diagnosis, the treatment, the remission. I missed it. I feel so bad that she went through it the first time without me (if I could have helped her emotionally).
We reconnected on a personal level a few months ago, just after she had a relapse of cancer. Fuck cancer.
I hope that I (and the funny videos I sent her on TikTok at her request) was able to give her some small amount of happiness in that time before her passing.
Rest in peace, dear friend. |
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| Hating on Dell (long live Gateway!) |
[Jan. 12th, 2019|12:14 am]
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Because their QC is crap.
Back when I worked helpdesk, we bought both Dell and Gateway (I know, the stone age).
* Per order of 250 Gateway business systems, we'd have maybe 3 DOA's or dead within a month. * Per order of 250 Dell business systems, we would have a MINIMUM of 10 DOA's, and another 10+ dead within a month.
We eventually found out why...
* Dell would burn in consumer systems for 8h. * Dell would burn in business systems for under 4h. * Gateway would burn in consumer systems for 24h. * Gateway would burn in business systems for 4d.
Also, when we had a problem with a Gateway that wasn't a HDD, CD, PSU, or other card, we would fax them a 1-page form and get a replacement mobo, CPU, and memory. We'd ship back the mobo, CPU, and memory. They figured out which of those it was. This was Gateway's default business support.
When we had a problem with a Dell, first, if you hadn't taken Dell's open-Internet test for that particular model, you couldn't submit a request for parts. We also had to pay per person allowed to request parts, so only 4 out of 11 of us had the ability. Then, for some parts, Dell wouldn't send a replacement unless you submitted the output of running a tool on the machine—which was difficult to do sometimes. When the HDD is causing the machine to not POST, as proven by replacing the HDD with one from another Dell of the same model, and putting the bad HDD into the other Dell and it not POSTing—well, too bad. You couldn't run Dell's HDD diag program and submit its output, so we didn't get a HDD. We had to call our sales rep to get that one replaced. Dell would only send memory or CPU or mobo—leading to some systems being out of service for a week and a half while we figured out which was having the problem by swapping each. This was Dell's gold support. I shudder to think what a lesser support tier was like.
When everyone in the industry had a batch of electrolytic capacitors that were bad, Gateway sent out a field tech with a box of 25 mobos (to start with) to replace them on-site for us. Dell sent us a 10-pack of mobos, told us to replace them, and once we had sent back the 10, they would send us the next batch of 10. We had 11 people... We could replace 10 every 2 hours (shutdown to boot). When we pointed out what their competitor was doing, they begrudgingly sent out a field tech, but would still only give him 10 per pack.
That's why ***I*** hate on Dell. |
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| Perspective - High school sweethearts |
[Feb. 17th, 2018|04:36 pm]
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"S/he married their high school sweetheart."
Sounds a lot better than…
"S/he fucked this person in high school and the sex was so good they didn't want to give it up." |
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| Breeding |
[Jul. 2nd, 2017|02:13 am]
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Thinking about it, I still, to this day, do not understand the urge to procreate.
I don't know that I've ever felt it. I see the pain and stress that my friends go through just to conceive and carry to term... And while I support the fuck out of them to do that (as well as anything else they want to do that isn't nonconsensual and doesn't harm another)... I don't *understand* why they would go through it. |
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| Korg and whips (dictated) |
[Dec. 18th, 2015|07:28 am]
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When I was a kid I took piano lessons. Although whenever I learned, I didn't really use a real piano. I used a keyboard. Now for those of you who are not familiar with the disk with the difference, a piano has wait behind the keys while a keyboard does not necessarily have weight behind the keys. Some keyboards will, like a piano, increase the volume of the key based on how hard you strike it; but that does not mean that there is weight backing up the key when you hit it. So I would go to music stores and inevitably find myself in the section with keyboards. And at one point in time I found the Korg m1 keyboard or was it the Korg m3? Regardless I found out some time before the age of 12 how to change the sounds on the "percussion" instruments. and on the second or third page of the percussion instruments there were two keys which I found endlessly fascinating. Such that every single time I found a Korg m3, I would immediately switch or swap to the right pages and play with these keys. They were right next to each other making for a very convenient sound. One was a woosh, the other a crack. It was a whip crack much like you hear in baby got back and I would play these sounds basically endlessly in the back room, as I recall it, of music stores because it was immensely fun. Years later I would come to make the same sound only this time with a real whip. |
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| The book restriction punishment |
[Oct. 26th, 2015|10:15 am]
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As a teen, my parents once grounded me by taking away all my books and not letting me read anything but school books for a month (or more?). The decision had some interesting effects... It was highly devastating to my urge to read. I was a voracious reader of all types and genres beforehand. It was years before I read fiction books for pleasure again, and then, I only re-read my favorites in my favorite genre. Websites, nonfiction, and nonfiction magazines weren't affected as much. I realized much later on that this was a type of trauma reaction. I eventually resumed reading outside of those boxes, within the last 2 to 3 years. It took my parents several hours and over a dozen boxes to box up my extensive collection of books. I took possession of the boxes some months after the grounding. But, except for a few of my most prized books (first edition, first printings of books by my favorite author), I have never unboxed them. The punishment took place nearly 2 decades ago, now. And, sure, not all of them are useful now (child editions of encyclopedias, and the like), there is enough nostalgia that I should... But it just hurts too much. I said all of that to say this... Drastic punishments of a child can have some unintended consequences. A similarly traumatic elimination of technology at the wrong age might limit his technological proficiency... A key enabler of middle-class and upper-middle-class jobs. |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 4th, 2015|03:38 am]
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spiralwitch being talked about by 4 people in Atlanta, tonight.
:-P |
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| QOTD |
[Dec. 21st, 2014|06:12 pm]
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"When there is no enemy within, the enemies outside cannot hurt you." -- Winston Churchill |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 19th, 2014|02:19 pm]
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Some people are goofy naturally; others act goofy to garner attention or to seem endearing. Authentic goofy is endearing in ways that inauthentic goofy can only dream of. |
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