We need Change! [Immigration]

30 Dec 2011

Finally had my new passport done! 

At first, I thought it was just renew, new photo is not required. Till I reached there, and want to queue up to apply for the renewal of my passport, they told me the system has been changed. Meaning, we need to give them new photo, and apply for new passport book. The old one was wasted. There was about 40-50 pages, and I only used up like 3 pages! The rest, useless. The papers for the passport book, are natural resources; and the money they used in production, is our money~! The money that all the citizens earn with sweat and blood! No doubt, there will be some 'undertable'  trick or maybe conspiracy going on, that we will never know the truth. Corruption? Great possibility for that!

Despite the 'wasting money' part, just to apply for a new passport, it is a TIME CONSUMING task. There is high risk that the photo you'd taken outside couldn't be used, as they have MANY requirements as well as EXCUSES. Thus, taking the passport photo at their place, is a safe and easy move. However, the problem aroused here. They have just a shop in there, with only one person can be served at a time. There was a tide of people queueing up, waiting to snap their passport photo, after photo section, you need to queue up again, with the form filled, and get the number to wait for your turn. Kindly for your information, they have only ONE counter there! Imagine the line was queued till outside of the office. So, make sure you are not rushing for anything else before you going for new passport application. As you have no idea, how long will the line drag your time, as well as the office-bearers, who are perfectly good in consuming your time, as if you are free like them~!

All these lousy system and bad attitude can be changed, if the management department willing to make change. Increase the number of counters, ensure all the workers act efficiently, and last but not least, the main thing, passport book should be able to renew like update, just change the date, but not the whole book. This can help to prevent crowd as well as let the procedures move smoothly. Further, the cost and resources can also be saved.

We want a better life, better system, better environment. If we continue to halt at the same place, and don't want to move a step further, we'll be in the retrogress and gradually fall far behind from other countries.

= Raise Your Sights,

Reach For The Moon. =

~Him . Me ~

Breakfast in Penang, lunch in Nibong Tebal, shopping in Taiping and dinner in Ipoh. What a great day~! And tiring of course. As usual, it just a travelling and enjoying food section, but today I got something special. A cute guy that I met while having lunch. He looked familiar, but I can't recall whether i had meet him somewhere else. It just like the feeling of I knew him long ago, yet I couldn't recognize him anymore. Weird right?

He kept looking around, and I not really sure is he looking at our table. Maybe I just being sensitive again, but I can sense that he was looking at me, with something ... unusual. Of course I was peeping at him, once in a while, and tried so hard to dig out all the possible places that I might have meeting him. Yet, none that fit it right.

I have a feeling, that we will be meeting each other again. Or it just because, I want to meet him, and I don't know why. This remind me of a guy that I met in a bus 7 years ago. I can barely remember his outline, and facial features. The thing that remain, is the feeling. I can still remember how I feel at that moment, although it sounds a little bit insane, obssessing. XD

Too bad that I didn't took any photos of him, or brave enough to say hi. This must be very weird, to strike up a conversation with a stranger, that I met for the first time. It sounds fun to me though, I will definitely try this if I get a chance. ^^

I always feel that people around me, specifically friends around me, are not that close to me. They won't catch up with me when they are free, and seldom give me response even I tried to contact them first. Sad as I feel like, I have no friends to back me up, when I caught in trouble, I mean if. I started to think, is it my problem? Is it because I not care enough, or they think that I'm not sincere? What should I do, or how can I change this?

Sometimes, I do think that I'm kinda useless to live in this world. No contribution, and not doing any good to people or the society around me. I'm just living in my own world. And I do things based on my mind, or my rational thinking almost all the times. I have no heart. I don't know who I am, or what should I become. I'm an impassionate person, and I living without aim. Is this who I am? Seriously, I not sure. I'm just not so close to myself...

15 Dec 2011

My 3rd year 1st sem, is officially over.
Don't know why, I think this final, was the one that I studied the most, and the most hardworking final ever. However, it seemed like that was not enough. I still wasted a lot of time, which I should spend on my study.
I know no matter how regret am I, that not gotta make any change to it. Past is past.
We can't chase back the time that we had lose...It'll never come back to us.
I will work harder and harder, till I achieve my aim. I will never give up.
If you haven't success, that means it is not the end yet. =)

滴着血成长.

愉快的心情，总会一个不小心，就变糟了。
有时候，就算脸上流着泪，心在淌血，我依然可以在网上发笑脸，哈哈大笑。没有人会知道我真实的心情。这是虚伪吗？抑或是把悲伤留给自己？
情绪波动蛮大，大好大坏，大起大落。一会儿很高兴，下一分钟却又伤心难过。疯了！

哭过就好了，是吗？怎么我哭了，却没觉得一丝的好过？难过的心情挥散不去。
以为想通了，却一直都闯不过，最后，又回到了原点。
永远都不想承认自己的懦弱及愚蠢。总觉得自己变笨了，什么都记不好，做不好。
殊不知是自己的傲慢与惰性在作怪，总有种心有余而力不足的感觉。

成天告诉自己，提醒自己，不要太在乎别人的看法。
成绩是自己的；
人生是自己的；
未来是自己的；
生命也是自己的。
别奢望别人的帮助，没有人是义务帮你的，所以要学会感谢。
帮你是情理，不帮你是道理。
我们来到这世界时时一个人，
走的时候，还是一个人。
这是改变不了的事实。

活在这世上，就要学会如何一个人去面对所有的事。
即使你觉得那是很困难的事，很寂寞，很痛苦。
须知，人生本来就是一种磨练，本来就是要一个人去体会和领悟。

Determination - C.R. ♥

Despite the bad results on first two papers that I got, the next two papers were considered okay, and Pharmaco did surprised me actually. =D
I'd learnt my mistake from this previous mid-sem, which will help me to prepare well in my final exam.

Determination. This is what I lack of and need concurrently.
I always plan to go exercise, but never really carry out the plan or take it serious.
My friends keep on saying that I'm fat, and need to on diet. For better healthy lifestyles, as well as to get slim body, which I never have since last time.
Perseverence, determination, and the essential strength, to keep me from giving up, are all significant factors to ensure that I can achieve my target, my aim.
 Not only for healthy body, and study; but also my dreams and future.

Just finished watching Real Madrid playing. Good job for my love one - Cristiano Ronaldo~ ♥
Hat trick! Awww~~He is so smart, brilliant and handsome~!!! ^^
Love him always~ =)

[ Hate Leaves Ugly Scars,

Love Leaves Beautiful Ones. ]

~Mignon McLaughlin, The Second Neurotic's Notebook, 1966~

The Punishment . I Deserve

This time, I really get my lesson, my punishment.
I knew that I deserve it. Didn't study for exam? Now I know what I have to face.
I always thought that I become more hardworking than last time.
Actually, I was lazier. At least I finished everything, with my focus mind before exam.
Not like this mid sem. I slept before finished study, and read through without focus.
I had been indulging myself for so long. Being lazy.

The truth is, I thought I were clever enough, to be lazy.
In fact, I'm just an arrogant dumbass! I thought things never change. I thought I still good enough to score without put in efforts. And now I got it. The consequences. The bad results. The humiliation.
Ya, I take it as a very serious humiliation!
Worse still, I deserve it. I did it myself!
If I continue this bad attitude, this arrogant habit, and laziness, I know for sure, I can't make it to First Class. That will be a dream, and remain as a dream forever and ever. I have to change it, to make things better, to be a better me.

It's never too late. I believe this and I hope it is right.
It's no use crying over spilt milk. Crying won't do any help. It just brings misery.
What I have to do now, is stick to my plan, and pay more attention in my studies.
To get back what I've lose, to regain what I might've lose.
Never give up before trying.
Forget the arrogance and laziness.
Fill back in with hard works and concentration, focus.
This is my last chance, if I lose it, then it means forever.

~Step in, Learn it~

First day of my one week holiday is over. Nothing is done. *sigh*
As usual, I'd make plan before the holiday start.
A perfect plan for myself~ ^^
I not prepare to fail it. Not this time.
It's time to force myself commit to my responsibility.
We can't improve, and move on. If we not willing to pressure ourselves, and be more initiative.
There are many things that we should do it on our own,
not trying to mimic others' attitude, see how others' response and follow.
This is not the way for us to learn.
In order to learn, we have to try new things, make our own choice, and prepare to accept and face the result. Whatever our decision brought us to, we just have to figure it out, and fix it. Get it right.
People never truly grow up, if they never learn to have their own perception, to make decision, and not rely on others which make them lose their own thinking, ideas.

Since I have my dreams to pursue, I should use whatever resources and assets I have to achieve it.
As times passed, I believe I might leave my dream behind all those messy stuffs, and forget about it.
To make sure the future me remember how ambitious I am when I was just an undergraduate, I will keep on write down my dreams here, as evidence and reminders for myself, in case I accidentally lock it up in a hidden part in my brain.

I love my life, when it's fill with everything that I love, and I need. Just like now~ =)

[ Our Greatest Glory Consists Not In Never Falling,

But In Rising Every Time We Fall. ]
~ Oliver Goldsmith ~

Random

 For September Babies~

SEPTEMBER=IMP
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Great in bed. Inner and physical beauty. Doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. A meaningful love life partner. Makes right choices. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Does not harm others. It is all about love and fairness. Easily hurt and hard to recover. Daydreamer and does fullfill. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Knows what to do, to have fun. Unpredictable. Someone to have close to you. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.


P/S: Seriously, I not really know what 'IMP' means...XD

~Seal the mind~

"We should not know what others' thinking."  - Simon (Fringe)

Glass, seal me away from the complicated world, keep me safe from harm...

I want to know things. Everything. I always thought that if the someone keep thing from me, surely they up to no good. They're lying on me, cheating, and they're fake.
I'd missed one thing, a very important fact - human has a very complex brain, which make mind complex too. And the feelings are abundant and complicated. Fluctuation of mood happens almost all the time.

People can have feeling to more than one person at a time. The person they choose to be with, is the person they think they can get along better. We can't blame others for stop loving us. I guess the 'love' feeling is somehow related to the chemical reaction within our bodies. It might be hormone, or other substance that we haven't discover yet. Most probably is the combination of lots of chemical substances and reactions, which make our feeling complicated.

I acted according to my feeling sometimes, which led me to do something stupid, and irrational. I guess that I wouldn't do that, if I have enough time to think about it, and run through the whole thing inside my mind, once.

Back to the main thing here, what others' thinking. We should accept a fact, not everyone like you. Even if that person like you, there'll be definitely a subtle part of you that doesn't become the favourite of him/her. If we take everything too serious, dig out every single things in his/her mind, I guess we can't bear that much. The bad parts will pull away most of our attentions, which make us overlook the majority, good parts. This will result in breakage or cleavage form in the 'virtual heart' of us, and we can't act like normal anymore. The invisible wound will be there, and the torn will hidden inside the virtual heart.

It's not a good thing, to know the truth, which will only make us feel worse.

Better know less, and stay happy. =)

~Efforts . Mine~

Time flies~
New semester just started, and I'm now in study week.
No really well-prepared yet.
Although I had concentrate more and pay more attention in class compared to last sem,
it still seems like not enough. I need to put more efforts.
Friday, Saturday burnt. Sunday now.
Seriously need to focus back on my studies, my lecture notes.

I'd set the target for myself, and I got to make it.
As my mentor said, "Not try your best. I'd been bored listen to this. You just have to do it, and you must do it!"
Yea, agree with him. I just have to do it. No matter how, no matter what.
No matter how hard it is, no matter what it takes me to do.
This time, I have to turn every speeches, sentences, phrases of me, into actions.
I sincerely hope that I can say out loudly, 'I MAKE IT!!' this three words, after I finished my exam, and get my results.

God Bless Me~ =)

[There Is Nothing That I Can't Do.

It Just Depends On Whether I Want To Do, Or Not.]

*Efforts = Results*

//Magic of Breakfast//

Woke up earlier today, to have my own precious breakfast hour~
Love to have my breakfast slowly and quietly, not in rushing.
As breakfast is the first meal that we take, I just want to make it enjoyable.
Having a good starts of the day, prepare myself well with great mood, then i shall have a nice day ahead of me~ =)
Be strong, be confident, be cheerful, and believe in ourselves.
Today sure will be a good day~!
P/s: That's what I get from my breakfast~ *winks*

 

= Don't Waste Your Life Trying To Impress Other People. 

Do What You Love, Love What You Do. =

The Merlion City~

I'm back~!!!
Overwhelmed with all those assignments for last two weeks, and still haven't get over it.
Two more assignments to go~ =(

I was stopped at the Historian State in my last post.
So, I just want to share my 1st time experience crossing the bridge from Johor to S'pore in this post.


Singapore, a small nation that has advanced technology, better education level than us. Most of their stuffs are cheaper than ours, if we earn S'pore dollar and spend, not by converting the currency.
Although they also have to pay gov tax for meal, we can see that the gov are working and developing their country. Their life are much more easier than us, in this I mean the public facilities. We can go anywhere with MRT, and I felt like I back in Taiwan again when I was at the MRT station. It's just GREAT!

I truly wish that my country will has this type of facilites, not only in KL, but in other states as well. Especially Penang, need it badly to solve the traffic problems that occur almost everyday.

Back to the topic. We reached late the 1st day, so after check-in, we just managed to went Bugis street for awhile then back to hotel and rest. Saving energy for our next day exploration. =D
SENTOSA ISLAND~! Heard people talked about the place pretty much, but never been there myself.

SILOSO BEACH~!!!

THE WEATHER WAS SO HOT!!

UNDERWATER WORLD~

IN THE 'STOMACH' OF MERLION~

UNIVERSAL STUDIO! JUST TOO PHOTO, NEVER GO IN.HAHA!!

CANDIES!!! I LOVE IT!!!

THE SUNLIGHT WAS TOO BRIGHT, TRYING HARD TO MAKE MY EYES LOOKED BIG ENOUGH~ XD

I'd tried Skyride too!! At 1st I not willing to take the ride, because I 'sensed' dangerous~! Phobia to height~ But after ride on it, and I tried so hard to convince myself that it was nice, I started to feel relax and enjoy the view there~ So beautiful~! I can see all those magnificient building and enormous seaview.

My first time experience to S'pore~ Muscle pain, leg cramp, and so damn tired!!! Not really a nice place to travel, as the people there make me feel like I'm not on vacation, so tense up! But definitely is a nice place to live, with all those facilities, and good study environment.

Ohya, the food there was the main problem for me. I guess I just went to the wrong place to have meals. Maybe there are still lots of cheap and nice food waiting for me~
Hope that I can taste all those nice food when I visit to S'pore again~ =)

I would like to thank my sister here, for brought me to S'pore and covered all my expenses there.
I promise I will keep it in mind always~ Bring you travel when I have a job that can earn alots~ XD

Malacca, The Historic State~

In last post, I stated that 'I DID NOTHING' in one week holiday. Now I going to explain why~ =D

I WAS ON VACATION!!! ( Got another 'chop' on my passport~ hehe~ )

Both my sisters, C and me, 4 of us traveled down to malacca with my sis 'little fatty'.
We started our journey after had breakfast with my parents at dimsum's house, which was about 10am.
Since I was not giving the chance to drive, so I slept all the way from Penang to Malacca~!
I forgot when was the last time I'd been there, but I barely remembered things happened there.
After entered the border of malacca, we followed the GPS directory hoping that it would bring us to our destination. Yet, it failed us. We ended up on a road, which surrounded by palm tree, and I can see there is a lake there! Obviously, we were in the wrong way. Thanks to the stupid GPS!

To get away from the 'ulu' place, we had no choice but to trust GPS again~ *sigh*
We used Garmin this time, as it showed better history for me.
After all those 'struggling', we reached M's house! Woohoo~ Thanks god!

= Famous Jonker Walk in Malacca =

Jonker's street was our 1st place to visit. I can see a lots of tourists as well as local ppl there.
I bought a hairstick (but I don't know how to use it! Sad case! ), a 'love' shaped keychain, that's all I guess~
I was very tired at the moment, and the streets are so long and branching, I felt like dying caused by tiredness.
Oh ya! I left out the satay celup part! My dinner.
My friend from Mlc told me that satay celup is 'super nice' and is on the 'must try' list.
He lied to me!!! I thought it were the 'real satay', but it turned out to be 'lok lok' that immersed in satay sauce!! Seriously, that is not my type, I don't like the satay celup there. (Sorry fellows malaccan, I DON'T LIKE your SATAY CELUP!! HAHA! no offense ya! )

= So-called Satay Celup,it should named 'Lok Lok Celup'. Haha! =

The next day, I tried the chicken rice balls, better than the satay celup~ XD
I like the rice ball, as it's so compact, and I'm so full with just a few balls of it.
For dinner, we went to hawker centre, which have varieties of food stalls.
The Muar otak-otak is damn nice! Among all food I tasted in Mlc, I listed it as the BEST!

= Muar Otak-otak! The BEST of ALL! =

 * The only things I did in 2nd day, were lunch and dinner. Others than that, I was sleeping for the whole day! hahas! *

Finally, is the day to cross the borders! From one nation to another~ ^^
I never been to JB before, this was the first time, that I 'passed by' Johor, to step my feet in S'pore!

~Birthday Celebration for Ivan and Me~ ♥

One week holidays, gone.

I did nothing in this holiday, except play, play and play.

Last Saturday, outing with my form six mates.

We planned to celebrate Ivan's birthday earlier, and without him knowing it.

We went for dinner around 7pm, and then heading to B.E.D. 

I followed Ivan's car, and we both reached there earlier than others.

I don't know anything about their plan actually.

Thus, I thought I just have to keep quiet and don't let the birthday boy knew it.

As time past, I was wondering, what kept they so long?

7 of them,divided into 2 cars, said they're trapped in traffic jam.

This sounded weird, as all of us were leaving from the same place, and heading to the same destination.

Nevermind. I just played my part well, then everything will be okay. That's what I thought.

After about half an hour, finally they're here.

I saw a waiter with cake behind them, my habit, I started to sing out loud, the birthday's song~

Then, something wrong...Why they're looking at me TOO??

I just found out that, they celebrated both me and Ivan's birthday together,

and I never know it!! 

Oh my...! This was the second times I sang birthday song for myself!!

Surprise birthday again~ I'd been fooled again..LOLS!

Make wishes, cut cake, and we received our present from Ms.Pst and Lac.

Frame with photo of us, which carried all those sweet memories, those we created together.

I really appreciate it. THANK YOU GUYS!

(I wonder if you ppl will ever see this post, but still i love to express my appreciation here.)

After that, is time for RED BOX! 

Sing like crazy and shout like hell~ haha!

The k hours were too short for 9 of us, just 4 hours.

I barely sang, and tons of favourite songs of mine still haven't sing. Sad!

Next time we should sing for 6 HOURS!  XP

Planning to go beach after that, but it's raining,

so we have to abandon the plan unwillingly.

Apart from that, I do enjoy this gathering + celebration till the max! 

*Some parts of the events, had being censored. 

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Hahaha~~!!!

FRIENDSHIP FOREVER~!!!

[ A Cheerful Friend Is Like A Sunny Day 

Spreading Brightness All Around. ]

~ John Lubcock ( English Astronomer ) ~

No Promises by Shayne Ward

Hey baby, when we are together  

Doing things that we love 

Every time you're near I feel like I'm in heaven Feeling high 

I don't want to let go, girl 

I just need you to know, girl
I don't wanna run away  

Baby, you're the one I need tonight  

No promises 

Baby, now I need to hold you tight  

I just wanna die in your arms here tonight
 

Hey baby, when we are together  

Doing things that we love  

Every time you're near I feel like I'm in heaven Feeling high 

I don't want to let go, girl  

I just need you to know, girl
I don't wanna run away  

Baby, you're the one I need tonight  

No promises  

Baby, now I need to hold you tight  

I just wanna die in your arms
 

I don't wanna run away  

I want to stay forever through time and time 

No promises
 

I don't wanna run away

I don't wanna be alone  

No promises 

Baby, now I need to hold you tight 

Now and forever, my love 

No promises
I don't wanna run away  

Baby, you're the one I need tonight  

No promises  

Baby, now I need to hold you tight  

I just wanna die in your arms here tonight
 

I don't wanna run away 

Baby, you're the one I need tonight 

No promises Baby, now I need to hold you tight 

I just wanna die in your arms here tonight

*Target-Set-GO! *

Not in the good shape.

Pimples breakout is in the recovery state, which looks the ugliest now!!! Argh...!!

I know I look super awful, and I rather stay at home away from my friends and crowd than hang out with them at this sensitive and embarrassing time period! 

Recovery period often slow, and I have no idea how to induce it to proceed faster.

Apart from this, I'm so worry that this breakout haven't finish yet..

That's the reason why I doubled the time I have been spent in front of the mirror now. (=.=")

Hopefully this undesirable incidence will end soon. *PRAY HARD*

(Oopss~ If you wish to see how bad I look here....SORRY for disappoint you! Surely I won't expose my 'awful-looking' photo here~!! =P )

Two weeks classes, end tomorrow.

One week holiday, after that, the tougher part is waiting for us, for me particularly.

I'd set my target for this sem, not an easy one for sure~

As I want to challenge myself, and figure out how far I can make it, and how much efforts I'm willing to put in. 

Yes, I going to study in a different way, which I never try before.

No more one week study plan, no more last minute's study.

I have to make it my habit, to study everyday.

Persistency and consistency. I want to.

I'll utilize this sem wisely.

Prove it to my parents, my mentor, and most importantly to myself,

that I can make it, I can be whatever I want to be, if I fight for it. 

Cheers!!! ♥

[ You Can't Study The Darkness 

By Flooding It With Light. ]

♥ Belief . Faith ♥

Whenever you are trying to evacuate all those demotivational thinkings in your mind, and convince yourself that you can achieve whatever target you'd set, there are always people who trying to confuse you and disapprove your capability. Some of them are just joking about that, some not. Regardless which category they are in, your faith or belief will be shaken, more or less. Maybe the effect is subtle, but you have to disregard or eliminate it, before your own faith is losing. 

I'm not a person who born with absolute self-confidence. I'd build confidence in myself gradually and is still in the beginning phase. Thus, my confidence is easily destroyable, and may lost all of it in one incident. This will be the last thing I want it to happen.

To avoid your mind set disrupted by others, you should always take precautions. Make yourself immune to those words which are not helping at all. Ignore it, and follow your own path, that you already design and arrange it neatly. Everyone must has their own view and should not drift with the current. Bear in your mind, you live for your own. The life is yours, so live for no one but yourself. Many people are easily affected where they always change their mind after listen to others. In this world, there is nothing can be defined as absolutely right or wrong. The gray area exists and never fade. That's why we should think properly, consider the opinions from others, as well as the original idea of our own, before making decision. No one can always make right decision. We learnt from failure and mistake. 

Believe and have faith in yourself.

Everything is possible.

Nothing is impossible.

[ You Kill Your Dream 

When You allow Your Fear

To Grow Bigger Than Your Faith. ]

Perseverance Is The Key To Success ♥

Time flies~! I'm a year 3 students now, with two batches of juniors.

Not really used to it. It was like I just stepped in this Uni yesterday, and now in midpoint.

Looking forward to enter year 3 when I still haven't receive the timetable.

I thought year 3 supposes to be more relaxing, less classes and not that tiring.

Everything was out of my expection.

I really shouldn't expect too much!

8am- 4pm everyday...Have to wake up early like last sem! T.T

Five subjects, 16 credit hours, but 4 out of 5 have practicals,

which mean another 12 hours gone. =(

Started the first day of class yesterday.

I told myself to be alert in class, stay awake, don't fall asleep in lecture, repeatingly.

Guess what? I slept in 2nd hour of lecture! Haha!!! XD 

The subjects this sem are seriously---BORING!!!

No idea how I going to 'live' through this sem..

Remain the old style, sleep in class as much as I can?

Or adapt myself to this new environment (my class is damn cold!!!), pay fully attention in class?

I wish that I can do it, the latter of course.

Just have to add some persistency, concentration and never-give-up-spirit in myself.

It's time to study what my lecturers had teached in these two days.

Never touch anything yet.

I should abandon the old bad habit, and stick to the new habit,

which I intend to 'install'. XD

My progression might be slow, but it's better than doing nothing at all~ 

[ Permanence, Perseverance And Persistence

In Spite Of All Obstacles, Discouragement, and Impossibilities.

It Is This, That In All Things Distinguishes The Strong Soul From The Weak. ]

C.R.7

My obsession towards him growing strong. It's out of control!

Here, the 'him' of course refers to my beloved Cristiano Ronaldo dos Santos Aveiro!!!
The first time I set my sight on him, was in the World Cup 2006, I got attracted by him since then, and I could never wipe him away from my mind again. Skills, speed, fame as well as his charming smile are the deadly seduction which are irresistible. Awww~ I really hope that someday, I can get the chance to stand in front of him, and see his charming smile with my own eyes. Not photo. Not tv. The true Cristiano Ronaldo, with flesh and blood, and his temperature. =D

* Heart Him SO MUCH!!! *

♥

Most of my friends, I guess should be all of them, always laughing at me because of my "fantasy". They think that this dream of mine is absurd, and utterly not the dream which can pursue. This is only a dream, which allow me to experience what I want, when I was sleeping. Maybe this is really a mission impossible, for them, but not for me. Everything is possible, I always tell myself. He is far from me now, and seems like I will never reach him, but I will change this 'is' into 'was' someday.

[ Keep Your Dreams Alive.

Understand To Achieve Anything Requires Faith And Belief In Yourself,

Vision, Hard Work, Determination, And Dedication.

  Remember All Things Are Possible For Those Who Believe. ]

Girl's Outing~!

Another 3 days, new semester begin.

Time to fight again~! ^^

Yesterday I'd spent my whole day with the girls again. It's really fun~!!

As usual, S fetched me and Y, and went to 1st Avenue.

Our first destination (inside the mall) was Redbox~ =)

I'd printed out the invitation sheet from Redbox fb page,

and used that to get vouchers in return.

Y was hoping that we can get the gold ball again, (not sure is it a ball?)

which her cousin got that last week,

and everyone can sing without paying a single penny! That's great~!

Luck wasn't with us at the moment, so we just got a pen instead. =(

Doesn't matter, our mood weren't ruined at all~! XD

3.5hours of k time was hardly enough for us,

there tons of songs which we didn't get the chance to sing! *not satisfied*

(When we're singing, the passers-by kept peeping into our room...

Was it because of our 'great voices' or our dances? =S  )

Y suggested to have a look at the TGV cinema movie showing time,

and she showed a message from maxis,

which stated there 'buy 1 get 1 free ticket' to the receptionist.

The girl seemed confused by the message,

then asked for help from her manager.

Waiting, discussing, waiting, discussing,

end up it can't be used~ =.="

Boredom caused by waiting,

S and me overheard a bunches of teenagers planned to watch 'I Love Wing Chun'.

(the SUCKS movie I talked about in last post)

For their sake, we both pretended to talk about the movie,

raised our voices loud and louder,

to ensure that those people could heard the bad comments of the movie. (from me apparently~! XD )

We trying to save them~! I don't know what movie they ended up watching,

but we had tried our best on it. =D

Although the promotion couldn't be used, we still decided to watch the movie,

"Rise of the Planet of Apes".

Nice movie~! The main actor is handsome and baby ape is cutie~!!

The movie is about a scientist trying to develop a drug which used to cure Alzheimer,

which his dad suffering from.

Apes were used in clinical trial, 

and the drug not only a cure, but also great achievement for human,

as it can help to develop human's brain and link the nerves,

resulting in elevated human's intelligence.

Caeser, the ape inherited the mutated gene from his mum,

learned things very fast, and even can speak~!! Amazing!!

Oh, and there was an accidental discovery.

Tom Felton was in that movie too~! 

Played a bad guy role though, mistreated the apes.

( Fyi, Tom Felton was Draco Malfroy in HP series. =D )

In the end, Caeser back to the jungle with his fellow apes,

and the virus '113' was spreading. *going to spread*

As one of the worker in lab, Franklin,

accidentally inhaled the drug 113,

and he passed the virus to a pilot, through sneezing,

which the pilot exposed to his contaminated blood.

No one knew the virus exist in this condition, 

and the consequences it will lead to, death.

I was wondering, maybe next episode of this will be messing with the virus topic again,

and end up with "end of the world". XD  

*It's time for SHOPPING!! *

Y bought a hairband and thingy for hair,

S bought earrings, and me, 

I bought a bag! *for schooling use ^.^

Tomyam for dinner, again~ =P

It's great to have Girl's Outing~! I really love this so damn much!!!

Wish that can have Sleepover, Travel, Food Trip and much more interesting outing with My Girls again~!!! =D

*Not that I discriminate boy, it just there are somethings I love to keep within girls only~

No offense .  =P

P.S: I ♥ the new bought bag soooooo muccchhhhh!!! It's big enough to squeeze all my stuffs in! XD

[ Friendship Isn’t A Big Thing,

It’s A Million Little Things. ]

Trouble Is A Friend by Lenka

Trouble Is A Friend

Trouble will find you
No matter where you go
Oh, oh
No matter if you're fast
No matter if you're slow
Oh, oh
The eye of the storm
wanna cry in the morn
Oh, oh
You're fine for a while
But you start
To lose control

He's there in the dark
He's there in my heart
He waits in the wings
he's gotta play a part
Trouble is a friend
Yeah
Trouble
Is a friend of mine
Ahh

Trouble is a friend
But trouble is a foe
Oh, oh
And no matter
What I feed him
He always seems to grow
Oh, oh
He sees what I see
And he knows
What I know
Oh, oh
So don't forget
As you ease
On down my road

He's there in the dark
He's there in my heart
He waits in the wings
He's gotta play a part
Trouble is a friend
Yeah
Trouble
Is a friend of mine
So don't be alarmed
If he takes you
By the arm
I won't let him win
But I'm a sucker for his charm
For his charm
Trouble is a friend
Yeah
Trouble
Is a friend of mine
Ahh

How I hate the way
He makes me feel
And how I try
To make him leave
I try
Oh, oh, I try

But he's there in the dark
He's there in my heart
He waits in the wings
He's gotta play a part
Trouble is a friend
Yeah
Trouble
Is a friend of mine
So don't be alarmed
If he takes you
By the arm
I won't let him win
But I'm a sucker for his charm
For his charm
Trouble is a friend
Yeah
Trouble
Is a friend of mine
Ahh

Ooh
Ahh
Ooh 

P.S: Trouble is a friend. Appreciate whenever it 'pop up' to you, manage it well, take it as chance to gain more experience as well as learning lessons. To be extraordinary,far beyond a normal person, we must have the ability to face and solve troubles. Step through it, overcome the challenges, you will definitely be the one of the best that you dream to be. =D

A Stitch In Time Saves Nine 

[ If you fix something or solve a problem immediately,

you will save time later. ] 

Happy Lonely Day~

Yesterday suppose to wake up at 8am, I overslept again...Argh~! 

End up I woke at around 12.30pm..XD 

After my sis back from school, we dressed up then began our adventurous journey~ 

We planned to drive to 1st Avenue, with MY DAD's 'MERZ'!!! 

I didn't drive manual car for ages! 

So just imagine the level of courageous inside me that I need to raise in order to convince me that I can do it!

I'd been planning and think about all those possible 'incidents' that might occur, and solutions for each of them. 

My brain was like having an inner GPS, 

running every single routes inside my head, 

to make sure that my journey later will be the successful one.

Too much works for my brain, 

and I felt a bit exhausted even before I put my hand on the steering of the car~!!

The first problem occured as I sat in, the driver's seat.

My leg is too short for the car's clutch!!!

The seat already on the edge, extreme front side.

No choice, I had to try my best and stretched my leg as straight as I can, 

in order to step on the clutch.. =.="

There was an uncle that waiting for my parking lot,

and I felt so sorry for him, for waiting so long~

I forgot to release my clutch, and that's why my car can't move.

I was panic, cause I afraid that if I let clutch too much,

then the engine will went off again.

After a few tries, palpitation drained litres of my water away,

finally I succeed to make my car moved away from the lot.

(Thanks God~!!! I made it!!! =D  )

We went to fetch sis's friend, then heading to 1st avenue.

Settled our lunch with tomyam at PGM,

we splited up, sis and friends going for redbox,

and I went for movie, alone.

I'd watched the synopsis for Planet of Apes,

it's intrigued me and I was planned to watch that at first.

Too bad the I missed the show on 3.30pm,

and the next show was on 5.45pm.

I didn't want to waste my time lingering around the shopping centre aimlessly,

so I bought a ticket for "I Love Wing Chun" which showed on 4.45pm.

Before the cinema opened for seating,

I got no place to go,

so I went to a shop selling all those cute accessories.

Bought a hairband, which I think suit me well~ XD

Looks elegant~ don't you think so? XD

Oohh...Seriously,I have to talk about the movie...

It's SUCKS~!!! Kinda sad and disappointed, as I thought it was a potential comedy,

but turned out to be something utterly different!

The plot, scripts ... all out of my expectation.

However, I love the feeling or may be the freedom to watch movie and shopping alone~

It's fun and... Excited? 

Not really know how to express the emotional change inside.

Finished the stupid movie at about 6.25pm,

then I decided to join my sis at redbox~

I got a comment from my sis's friend,

' both of you, sista r crazy.' Haha~!!

I took it as a compliment, thanks ya~ =P

The enjoyment period were short..

Time to depart came fast.

I had to deal with the car again, and the expensive parking fees...

RM 9.00!!!! OMG~!!!!

Reminder: don't park your car at PGM if you are going to shop for long time or spend your time in red box!

I had no choice but to park car there, 

as I have no confident at all,

to park at multi-storey carpark,

which I need to circling, rotating or rounding whatever,

to get up there.

I have no guts for that. ( Indeed, I'm coward! So, spare me! XD )

Driving the manual's car was a real torturing experience for me.

That was bad, and the worst part waiting for me.

Traffic jam!!! Argh~!!!

I took it as the challenges for me,

although I truly think that was beyond what I can handle.

I survived back at home at last..!! The main point. <<

With my not-so-good side parking skill,

I made it! =D  *Happy*

Extremely tired day for me,

and bloodsucker day for my wallet.

Halve the money my mum gave me, just in 1 day.

How I gotta survive two more days?

I have no idea, but I just have to go through it.

The climax was at the end of the day,

most probably the starting for the next 'morning'.

I'm so happy!surprise!unbelievable! 

Miracle is enchanting, is it? 

Nothing Ventured, Nothing Gained

[ prepare to take a chance and risk failure if want to achieve success. ]

Waiting.Miracle *

Counting down...

10days before going back there.

Something irritates me so much, but then actually it seems like nothing to do with going back there.

I think I lost myself in this 3 months holidays. 

Living without aims, targets, purposes, just like living dead.

The laziness inside me growing day after day.

Reactivate my facebook, however it seems make no difference.

Happy as I finally feel detach from it.

Lonely as I feel emptiness within me.

May be I need my classes, lectures as well as my friends to fill it up.

Can't wipe away the scene in my dream this morning.

It's touched my heart, and I hope it's possible to engrave the dream in my mind,

so that I can replay it whenever I want.

Miracle, does it exist in this realistic world?

I wouldn't let myself to deny it, cause I want miracle to happen on me.

Sounds silly, but miracle gives hope to people. This is a fact.

Wish that my dreams will come true, one day. =)

Charming smile~!!

~ No Time Like The Present ~

[ now is the best time to do something! ]

Rolling In The Deep by Adele

 

"Rolling In The Deep"

There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch, and it's bringing me out the dark
Finally I can see you crystal clear
Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your ship bare
See how I'll leave with every piece of you
Don't underestimate the things that I will do

There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch
And it's bringing me out the dark

The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

Baby, I have no story to be told
But I've heard one of you
And I'm gonna make your head burn
Think of me in the depths of your despair
Making a home down there
As mine sure won't be shared

The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside of your hand
But you played it with a beating

Throw your soul through every open door
Count your blessings to find what you look for
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold
You pay me back in kind and reap just what you sow

(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
We could have had it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
It all, it all, it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

We could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

You could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)

But you played it
You played it
You played it
You played it to the beat.

P.S: The scene where Blair went to look for Chuck, to check whether he is okay, then Chuck want to kiss her, she refused, and he was angry then hit the glass with his fist. The glass broke and scattered, a piece of it scratched Blair's cheek and blood dripping from the wound. He was still angry, she pushed him away, and walked towards the elevator,  gone. "Rolling in the deep" is the background music for this scene.

Endless Tomorrow~

Exactly two weeks before I back to Uni. Part of me can't wait for that whereas part of me don't. Looking back to this three months holidays, what've I done? In retrospect, I saw blank, plain white timeline with a little dots. Let's do some flashback and recollect, rearrange all those lost pieces of my memory. Hmm...

First of all, I did a lots of thinking and planning in my brain, worked out a few schemes beforehand, for the accomplishment of all the goals I aiming to strike in this time period. Well, I'm a Virgo, so I amending the plan for a few times as usual, before I'm fully satisfied with it, and launched it as my perfect plan.

I listed out my weakness and the to-do list for this so-called Summer Break. As if we have that. XD

I sensed the burning from within, the strong determination inside me, that moment. ( It's always the same feeling and burning when I just finished a plan. XD ）

As predicted by people around me, as well as myself, I started to procrastinate the date which I have to execute my plan, turned it into action. Tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow, imitating Macbeth, and there is endless tomorrow.

I consider I'd failed in this mission. As I just slightly touched the introduction part of Pharmacology, and never get to know what I have to study for next sem. Some of my friends told me, don't plan, as you will never be able to proceed as it. I'm very consent to this, but if I never plan, then I will never move. Not even a single small step. That's even worse. Thus, I prefer planning, although it's didn't work in the way I wish to, at least I've enjoy the moment when I do it, and have a little progress. ^.^

It's better to have something than nothing, right?

After this, have to put my hand on new planning again, for next sem.HAHA~! Never tired of 'designing' a perfect plan for a time period. What a weird hobby~ MAKING PLANS~!　

Have faith in me, I'll make it this time~! 

2 years for me to make change, before I graduate, and I shall transform to a better me! :-)

Is This All by Vanness Wu

一 天 一 天 重 覆 上 演
yì tiān yi tiān zhòng fù shàng yǎn

奔 跑 著 卻 沒 有 終 點
bēn pǎo zhù què méi yǒu zhōng diǎn

付 出 一 切 拼 湊 一 片
fù chū yì qiè pīn còu yí piàn

我 期 待 生 活 有 所 改 變
wǒ qī dài shēng huó yǒu suǒ gǎi biàn

可 笑 的 他 們 冷 漠 的 臉
kě xiào de tā men lěng mò de liǎn

事 不 關 己 的 語 言
shì bù wān jǐ de yǔ yán

我 拼 了 命 奮 力 向 前
wǒ pīn le mìng fèn lì xiàng qián

把 明 天 都 實 現
bǎ míng tiān dōu shí xiàn

我 祈 禱 我 能 遇 見
wǒ qí dǎo wǒ néng yù jiàn

所 謂 完 美 的 世 界
suǒ wèi wán měi de shì jiè

Is this all I’ve been waiting for
Is this all I’ve been searching for
我 在 追 尋 甚 麼 東 西
wǒ zài zhuī xún shèn me dōng xī

原 來 不 過 都 只 是 空 氣
yuán lái bú guò dōu zhǐ shì kōng qì

So is this all I’ve been waiting for
Waiting for , waiting for…

半 開 的 眼 半 醒 的 眠
bàn kāi de yǎn bàn xǐng de mián

思 緒 被 困 在 夢 裡 面
sī xù bèi kùn zài mèng lǐ miàn

我 想 看 見 卻 看 不 見
wǒ xiǎng kàn jiàn què kàn bú jiàn

是 否 已 經 到 了 極 限
shì fǒu yǐ jīng dào le jí xiàn

我 祈 禱 我 能 遇 見
wǒ qí dǎo wǒ néng yù jiàn

所 謂 完 美 的 世 界
suǒ wèi wán měi de shì jiè

Is this all I’ve been waiting for

Is this all I’ve been searching for

我 在 追 尋 甚 麼 東 西
wǒ zài zhuī xún shèn me dōng xī

原 來 不 過 都 只 是 空 氣
yuán lái bú guò dōu zhǐ shì kōng qì

So is this all I’ve been waiting for
Waiting for ,waiting for…
Is this all I’ve been waiting for
Is this all I’ve been searching for
我 在 追 尋 甚 麼 東 西
wǒ zài zhuī xún shèn me dōng xī

原 來 不 過 都 只 是 空 氣
yuán lái bú guò dōu zhǐ shì kōng qì

So is this all I’ve been waiting for
Waiting for , waiting for…
Is this all I’ve been waiting for
Is this all I’ve been searching for
我 在 追 尋 甚 麼 東 西
wǒ zài zhuī xún shèn me dōng xī

原 來 不 過 都 只 是 空 氣
yuán lái bú guò dōu zhǐ shì kōng qì

So is this all I’ve been waiting for
Waiting for , waiting for…

Dedicate this song to everyone, who feels lost like I am.

( I really like this song very much when I first exposed to it. I feel lost too, and that's exactly what I asking myself too. What I searching for? Is it only the air? I still can't get an absolute answer for now.

However, I'm sure I will get it very soon. Everyday, I hope that my life will at least has some change, but yet I can't see any obvious changes. I waiting for my dream world, to become reality, wish that I live in my perfect world, once I open my eyes. Life, we're searching, trailing, and then we lost in it, forget what we searching for, and we don't know where to go. Maybe someone will eventually find a way out, and maybe someone won't. )