She has not been herself lately at all. She is grumpy and tired all the time. I have to carry and hold her ALOT, its wearing me out. She is super needy.
Dr Menon actually called me just this morning. I'm still unsure why he called, i think maybe to prepare us for what he is going to say tomorrow. Without me even telling him how she's been acting he said "I think it's time for Fontan. Tomorrow we'll schedule her a cath for January and plan on Fontan in February, is that ok with you?" Um.. what do you say to that. No its not ok!?! I'm teasing, he is always very considerate and compassionate. I love him.
He then asked how she has been and when i told him he said he's not surprised. He said he really feels like it's time.
So.. anxiety starts a day early! This is the worst part of this process. The waiting. I will say 1 positive thing about this, it really makes me appreciate my family during the waiting process. I'm kinder, more tender, more patient and more loving. Its too bad it takes something like this to put things into perspective for me. But i'm sure my family will be glad that i'm a bit more patient!!

