of craps n boredom

It has been long since I last blogged. I have a sudden urge to write an entry. Not sure who else will still be reading, but this is really something that I truly feels.

It is common where everyone talks about appearance. The guy that you like, the friends that you mix with, the family you live in, all of them do talk about appearance. Your brother can complain to you that he has a fat and ugly classmate, your friend can tell you that girl whom is just a passer-by is not pretty but as mean as they can be to others, they are always nice to you. They will tell you, you look fine, appearance does not matter,what matters most is your inner beauty.

To a certain extent, what they said is true. I never find myself ugly. But I was born with a unmanageable wavy hair that make me look like a 30-years old aunty despite I’m only 21.

Until the day where I went and stayed over at my friend’s place, she has this straightener and she straightened my hair for me. and I do think I look different. I don’t say I look good that time, but it makes me look so much younger and so I went and did a permanent rebonding. My hair was really short that time, it was some where around the ear lobs.

With a flat straight short hair, tht made my body and the head looks imbalance. My head was small and my body is big. Not to mention I was big and fat(over weight) last time.

Till 9 months back, there was one week, continuously, my stomach and my appetite was bad. I puked my dinner for a week and within a week, friends told me I’m starting to lose weight. and something went wrong to my body, I can no longer mix sweet stuff and main meals together, if I do so, I will end up puking my food and I can no longer take my usual meal portion. My food portion subsided so so much till the extent my friend said I am abnormal. To prevent puking, I started to eat less and cut down on oily and sweet stuff. Not to forget, my study stress increased a lot! I have to sacrifice my sleep to get my work done. and so I lost weight in an unhealthy way.

But to date, everything is normal back. I no longer puke, I try to get back my min 7 hours sleep per day.

Within 9 months, I lost 20 kg! I feel so much lighter, I feel so much more confident. I no longer need to wear men’s clothes, I can fit into a baby tee and my hair grew longer. I feel so much better of myself. From a girl who looks like an aunty and have no interest in dressing herself well because she just can’t find the suitable size to a girl now who slowly learn how to take care of herself. There is no ugly girl in this world, there’s only lazy girl.

Now, I’m controlling my diet and hoping to lose weight and back to my normal BMI. I know I am not far from it as long as I work for it.

After 9 months of weight loss and 2 years of hair transformation, appearance do increase my confidence.

p/s: If only you know you were once my motivation but now, it doesn’t matter anymore.

.. I’ve offended my neighbour.

By how??

I was looking when they were making out in the car. xD

Twice they make out, twice also I was looking. and I think they realized tht I was looking in the end she got pissed off.

Aikzz. Shouldn’t have… be that obvious. xD

I had a long night. =(

Oh goattt! I’ve been going out for the entire shyt week! and ‘m definitely totally BROKE! And starting from today, I will and I AM going to stay at home to enjoy my 1 week left holiday.

Exam result should be out soon, ‘m dayumm excited and scared at the meantime. It has been a crazy sem and I hope my hardwork will turn into something worthwhile.

Out for movie and catch up with Sin Man. Watched Letters to Juliet by Amanda Seyfred, remember the girl from Mamma Mia?

For a love story, it was just okay. Well, nowadays there are many movies that are just OKAY, so, no exception to this too.

I simply love one phrase from this movie. “I thought true love has no expiration date” – Amanda Seyfred.

Prior movie, we went for lunch, first time for this holiday, am out with friends and we had fast food as lunch.

Yeah, we had Carls Jr. My second time, her first time.

Their burger is dayummm big! Bt for the patty, I prefer McDeluxe’s. xD

And whts up with this going green thing right now. Everywhere is asking for 20cent if you were to get a plastic bag from ’em.

I know its good nt to use plastic bag but HEY! whts up with the fcking 20 cent! Isn’t this just another way for those shops to earn another penny from us?

I went into Speedy to buy DVD today and I was surprised why didn’t she give me a bag and when I request, she told me this 20cent bullshit! I gave an immediate respond “Oh gawd! Whts up with this 20 cent thing! ugh!”

Nyway, I DID NOT pay for a stupid 20 cent plastic bag, make sure when you are out to the shopping mall next time, bring the biggest bag, or some eco bag. =.= (IKEA has been doing this and now I realize how fcking stupid is tht!)

After movie and some window shopping, this woman apparently is doing her IT blogging assignment and needed some photos and there’s nth to snap in Pyramid except going for makan, so we went for another sinful tea.

My second time this week. I love this current promotion a LOT! So much better than the prv promotion. Screw tht.

But I learned sth this time, next time when you see there’s a lot of ppl in Haagen, don’t go first, stay and wait for less customer, cuz loads of customer means open the ice cream freezer more times, and more melted ice cream will be served. =.=

Thats her! Everyone is growing up, growing mature and growing O. xD

Lightweight SLR meant for SS pics.

I did not buy anything extra but I spent hell loads. Time to be the girl next door. xD eh, NO! ‘m always the girl next door.

Kayz, promised my “ah zai” to sleep after I finish this post. so good night world.