This journal is ALMOST FRIENDS-ONLY!
Wisdom is the retention of innocence through adversity.
I ain't no frickin Robot Chicken!
645a - omg it is National Quiet Day! Shhhh!
- figured out what has to be done today. In pretty good shape.
- had 1 egg cuz of "diet" - then i started gorging self on peanuts again. Which i love. but they have fat and there are some other health things i dont like. You can ask if you want to know.
- gonna do a little "mistakes" post later, maybe, but elabourated with a little preliminary fluff. Whats that word? Embellished.
715a - "These people are CRAZY!"
11a - i am on the roof of the ren and stimpy building. I finally made some wings out of canvas, coat-hangers and wax. My bag is full of glitter which i am going to scatter up and down Broad Street during lunch time. Esp people i recognise. Like fmg!!! Oh no! And call an exorcist while ur at it! Blargh! I need sandwiches.
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430p - one thing i did was go to walmart. This time no pigs, man, haha. But they still have some onerous workers, getting fat, incidentally. I bought a lot of health supplements, and was assisted by a nice new golden haired girl with tattoos. She obviously hasnt been taught yet that i be tabboo. Ok so lets get that out of the way, hey walmart.
Oh, i went looking for a sofa but the place was closed. Also dispersed glitter up and down Broad Street as it was the least i could do. Dont hold a frickin candle to Broad Street in Philly, omg.
8p - getting a little breezy in my britches. I should prioritise getting pants now.
- you are respectful cuz a girl has a bf and the next thing you know shes kissing his father? wtf
- figured out what has to be done today. In pretty good shape.
- had 1 egg cuz of "diet" - then i started gorging self on peanuts again. Which i love. but they have fat and there are some other health things i dont like. You can ask if you want to know.
- gonna do a little "mistakes" post later, maybe, but elabourated with a little preliminary fluff. Whats that word? Embellished.
715a - "These people are CRAZY!"
11a - i am on the roof of the ren and stimpy building. I finally made some wings out of canvas, coat-hangers and wax. My bag is full of glitter which i am going to scatter up and down Broad Street during lunch time. Esp people i recognise. Like fmg!!! Oh no! And call an exorcist while ur at it! Blargh! I need sandwiches.
( CHECK THIS - It's a Parable!Réduire )
430p - one thing i did was go to walmart. This time no pigs, man, haha. But they still have some onerous workers, getting fat, incidentally. I bought a lot of health supplements, and was assisted by a nice new golden haired girl with tattoos. She obviously hasnt been taught yet that i be tabboo. Ok so lets get that out of the way, hey walmart.
Oh, i went looking for a sofa but the place was closed. Also dispersed glitter up and down Broad Street as it was the least i could do. Dont hold a frickin candle to Broad Street in Philly, omg.
8p - getting a little breezy in my britches. I should prioritise getting pants now.
- you are respectful cuz a girl has a bf and the next thing you know shes kissing his father? wtf
Too Irish for my own good.
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20. Are you a fan of mayonnaise in a sandwich (either egg-based or vegan)?
* not really, but i will use it. Like when i want to approximate a sub / hero. I use mayo with olive or avocado oil in it. More likely to use various sauces than mayo, even some which may be mayo-based.
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* not really, but i will use it. Like when i want to approximate a sub / hero. I use mayo with olive or avocado oil in it. More likely to use various sauces than mayo, even some which may be mayo-based.
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Who still loves Death Cab and Postal Service? Here is Harry Styles' first new drop, totally reminiscent of that video game, 1980s style. Infused with house. Styles totally confirms to me that he really is a genius. Beats out Bruno Mars, Hillary Duff and maybe Lady Gaga. Love it!
https://vimeo.com/1163455870?fl=pl&fe=sh
You can find lots of tutorial videos online, for various instruments. Album coming out soon.
https://vimeo.com/1163455870?fl=pl&fe=sh
You can find lots of tutorial videos online, for various instruments. Album coming out soon.
I really think this song could make it in the A/C Top40. The problem is, its a Christian artist/band. That is taboo, even though xtian rock has really improved over the last decade or so.
https://youtu.be/JFD1GoQfvY4?si=nc4m4rkA-gEKYFe_
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https://youtu.be/JFD1GoQfvY4?si=nc4m4rkA-gEKYFe_
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2+ years ago, after first moving here, i slept in my van for a few nights. (Had to get out of apartment!) It got down to 40 degrees, which can be tragic for me, because CFS relapses affect the hypothalamus-pituitary, meaning poor body thermoregulation and i didnt even have Synthroid at the time. So, as if that wasnt bad enough, i got wallopped by COVID, making it one of the worst night/s of my life. Unbelievable muscle pain, and so forth. Like being hit by a truck!
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Oh, and heres how the BS gossip went*: "Its a shame about him, can he walk? Can he talk at all? Is he still living in his car? What is it he has, Parkinsons?"
* Disclaimer: I am not 100% sure that this was about me, as i dont go around spying on anyone, but it fits pretty much.
Planning a bit in a post on how these people are really desperate to gossip, even if the gossip is ttly wrong. And even if they know it!
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Oh, and heres how the BS gossip went*: "Its a shame about him, can he walk? Can he talk at all? Is he still living in his car? What is it he has, Parkinsons?"
* Disclaimer: I am not 100% sure that this was about me, as i dont go around spying on anyone, but it fits pretty much.
Planning a bit in a post on how these people are really desperate to gossip, even if the gossip is ttly wrong. And even if they know it!
( Just another appeal for endless unconditional love..Réduire )
830a - i am going on another health kick. Less or no more alchohol and chips. I am aleady slowly reducing calories. Gotta work on cholesterol again. My bicepts seem stronger and i dont even execise. Believe me, i would know. Gonna have to build back fullness of forearms. Moving furniture should help but also paralyze me for weeks ugh. Son of capt gazebo was supposed to help but Ogre ruined that, delayed project, costing me $1000+. Also tried to talk to rolly polly neighb about her son helping but other neighb"friend" seemed compelled to burst in and talk over me. There is an unconscious price on the disabled white guys head here, i am serious. Everyone IS out to get me. It is an undeniable problem. If it were racism against blacks, i would be identifying that. I am an equal opportunity complainer.
Stop him! (2024) https://madman101.livejournal.com/4289361.html?view=comments&nc=1#comments
(Wait til i write about the literal assault of the elbows at the farmers market!)
Stop Everyone! (2024) https://madman101.livejournal.com/4466171.html?view=comments&nc=2#comments
10p - my muscles are easy to build up. (I mean fast with low effort. I dont mean it doesnt kill me cuz of th cfs). Two or 3 reasons, i wont get into. But i think i know why my bicepts are bigger. Its from lifting and closing my van hood. Which i do now to open or close the battery circuit. Lately, the hood has been covered with heavy ice. So, la. La. Indeed, after the latest storm, that damn thing was ttly frozen shut so i had a bitch of a time getting it open. How do you like my manly cussing?
830a - i am going on another health kick. Less or no more alchohol and chips. I am aleady slowly reducing calories. Gotta work on cholesterol again. My bicepts seem stronger and i dont even execise. Believe me, i would know. Gonna have to build back fullness of forearms. Moving furniture should help but also paralyze me for weeks ugh. Son of capt gazebo was supposed to help but Ogre ruined that, delayed project, costing me $1000+. Also tried to talk to rolly polly neighb about her son helping but other neighb"friend" seemed compelled to burst in and talk over me. There is an unconscious price on the disabled white guys head here, i am serious. Everyone IS out to get me. It is an undeniable problem. If it were racism against blacks, i would be identifying that. I am an equal opportunity complainer.
Stop him! (2024) https://madman101.livejournal.com/4289361.html?view=comments&nc=1#comments
(Wait til i write about the literal assault of the elbows at the farmers market!)
Stop Everyone! (2024) https://madman101.livejournal.com/4466171.html?view=comments&nc=2#comments
10p - my muscles are easy to build up. (I mean fast with low effort. I dont mean it doesnt kill me cuz of th cfs). Two or 3 reasons, i wont get into. But i think i know why my bicepts are bigger. Its from lifting and closing my van hood. Which i do now to open or close the battery circuit. Lately, the hood has been covered with heavy ice. So, la. La. Indeed, after the latest storm, that damn thing was ttly frozen shut so i had a bitch of a time getting it open. How do you like my manly cussing?
In that shopping cart parable, lol, it is possible that a do-gooder actually left the cart for me to use! Thats a little twist on our origami drink, ce n'est pas? Hold on, there is more. When we discuss the complicating factors of Good and Evil!
Just note, this jungian projector model is not the whole story!
Just note, this jungian projector model is not the whole story!
( The main body of today's post. Right here..Réduire )
5p - todays menu was..
Pollock and mushrooms yum
Reheated rotisserie yum
Beer yum
Homemade popcorn yum
Spicey potato fries yum!
Working on the brocolli now. With parsnips!
I will be moving my beautiful white picnic table in here within months. Until then, just think of all the delicious fun you missed out on! I luv yoo!
5p - todays menu was..
Pollock and mushrooms yum
Reheated rotisserie yum
Beer yum
Homemade popcorn yum
Spicey potato fries yum!
Working on the brocolli now. With parsnips!
I will be moving my beautiful white picnic table in here within months. Until then, just think of all the delicious fun you missed out on! I luv yoo!
The universe of meaning, and matter, is parsimonious. How does it do it?
One rarely sees a stray shopping cart, just sitting in an aisle, at walmart. If there ever is one, it is whisked away by a worker.
I was at walmart today, just for a few items, so i didnt need a cart. But, in the middle of my shopping, i decided i needed a cart. Immediately, after i turned a corner, there was an empty, stray cart. Suiting my mind perfectly.
There was a whole little story behind how that cart got there, but i didnt know it. My story was what was operable now. That other story as good as non existent, yet it did exist. And the person involved in it knew nothing of me or my story.
Every entity in the universe carries meaning with it, inside of it, all around it. The meanings of all entities may converge somewhat, creating a tapestry called reality. But, mostly, each meaning or story is invisible to other entities. This is a great big paradox, that all should exist, yet contradict, and exclude. Everything gets folded together for each and every entity, to enhance the meaning in its life. Origami.
ORIGAMI UNIVERSE.
And meaning can connect us across time and space, depending how you are dialed in. It is your choice on how you may be dialed in. It is called free will. Our minds are where all can be set free. Or imprisoned.
Quantum Entanglement of Consciousness.
Thats how the universe does it.
An infinity of meanings is available to us
Whereas the sun just confines itself to
Watching over our every coincidence
One rarely sees a stray shopping cart, just sitting in an aisle, at walmart. If there ever is one, it is whisked away by a worker.
I was at walmart today, just for a few items, so i didnt need a cart. But, in the middle of my shopping, i decided i needed a cart. Immediately, after i turned a corner, there was an empty, stray cart. Suiting my mind perfectly.
There was a whole little story behind how that cart got there, but i didnt know it. My story was what was operable now. That other story as good as non existent, yet it did exist. And the person involved in it knew nothing of me or my story.
Every entity in the universe carries meaning with it, inside of it, all around it. The meanings of all entities may converge somewhat, creating a tapestry called reality. But, mostly, each meaning or story is invisible to other entities. This is a great big paradox, that all should exist, yet contradict, and exclude. Everything gets folded together for each and every entity, to enhance the meaning in its life. Origami.
ORIGAMI UNIVERSE.
And meaning can connect us across time and space, depending how you are dialed in. It is your choice on how you may be dialed in. It is called free will. Our minds are where all can be set free. Or imprisoned.
Quantum Entanglement of Consciousness.
Thats how the universe does it.
An infinity of meanings is available to us
Whereas the sun just confines itself to
Watching over our every coincidence
( Here is where post begins, more re: FMG..Réduire )
2p - i am capable, but deep fatigue says stay home and rest. I need to recharge.
- i am considering noting how fmg did in fact like me, even more than she let on. But i dont like doing this sort of thing. Some locals read these posts. If she reads me writing that, she could get angry, and see me as boasting, attacking her. And that would spoil any chances in the future. I do not want to do that. Which is stupid because i am sure she hates me anyway, already, or has moved on with her busy little life. But, i may need to write such things, because the whole damn town has been choking on its own bs gossip of me, which she could have stopped, it seems. Somehow, someone make it so that i dont have to hurt or offend or even disturb her, and yet my honour is restored. It is obscene and absurd, what has happened, and i know she knows this.
5p - even the seeming friends here whom i tell about the injustices or heartbreaks get indoctrinated into the plague just like zombies. It is largely a conspiracy of old liberal ladies, preventing their underlings from going astray. Had yet another incidence of this, a main narcissist butting in and stealing away attention and control of an underling, who could be 40 yrs old, not some dumb kid. This is just how this place operates, preventing talk and relationships and births from proceeding, unless being one of those which is officially approved. This social paranoia and manipulation is the new pandemic here. How about where you live? Anyway. This topic deserves a big colourful post full of many examples of flying monkey grandmas which have beset me. Its a phenomenon which really helps explain so much of my plight here.
2p - i am capable, but deep fatigue says stay home and rest. I need to recharge.
- i am considering noting how fmg did in fact like me, even more than she let on. But i dont like doing this sort of thing. Some locals read these posts. If she reads me writing that, she could get angry, and see me as boasting, attacking her. And that would spoil any chances in the future. I do not want to do that. Which is stupid because i am sure she hates me anyway, already, or has moved on with her busy little life. But, i may need to write such things, because the whole damn town has been choking on its own bs gossip of me, which she could have stopped, it seems. Somehow, someone make it so that i dont have to hurt or offend or even disturb her, and yet my honour is restored. It is obscene and absurd, what has happened, and i know she knows this.
5p - even the seeming friends here whom i tell about the injustices or heartbreaks get indoctrinated into the plague just like zombies. It is largely a conspiracy of old liberal ladies, preventing their underlings from going astray. Had yet another incidence of this, a main narcissist butting in and stealing away attention and control of an underling, who could be 40 yrs old, not some dumb kid. This is just how this place operates, preventing talk and relationships and births from proceeding, unless being one of those which is officially approved. This social paranoia and manipulation is the new pandemic here. How about where you live? Anyway. This topic deserves a big colourful post full of many examples of flying monkey grandmas which have beset me. Its a phenomenon which really helps explain so much of my plight here.
Stay here. Don't scroll. Don't skip. Something huge is headed for your life.
Posted on 2026.02.17 at 17:29
Here is another video that made me laugh. Watch how they forever repeat their instructions, just to capture more YouTube minutes. I actually listened to the whole video! They keep doling out slightly more salient info, after they run their instructions script. Over and over. The story, boiled down, is somewhat interesting. But i can tell you basically this,.. A person who is either way younger or way older than the other person gets up the courage to tell the other person he loves her, or she loves him. I do see some parallels here, if you know what i am sayin. But the video is just craziness incarnate.
So, i see how everyone pitches in to deny the humanity of poor people, especially white males who dont play into their games. Even while they hand out cans of beans. I see it. The man who talked to me today was homeless because he trusted.people. he thought their platitudes meant something. They dont. They are panic responses by spineless users. Abusers.
Nice to see you again, Denver!
530a - goodmorning. Or did i scare everyone away? Starting to look pretty weird. Is someone rumour mongering here now? Or was this all an attempted scam, that just wasnt trapping me? In any event, the disappearances correlate to these events:
- my LJ professional package expires
- my ranking goes from 38 to 45
- btripp resumes activity after a year. Maybe he IS a fed.
- presidents day, third in a 3day weekend
- hits from OR and WA.
- open fonly letter telling colorado club i am not crushing on them
- informal "reunion" with annie and tanya
- a night of wine wherein i make little post referring to anon "wonderful *itch"
- asked red to add me back so she can read about tanya!
- the joker subscribes
- posted jung and mx videos
- my bro responds childishly
Just for the record.
730a - it is random acts of kindness day, not random mess with peoples minds day. I knew if i posted video on cold-shouldering people they would pull it on me. Impressionable and immature. Today is also MARDI GRAS! maybe i will wear a mask. I also have a kitty ears headband.
Noon - there was a hospital wrist band lying by the mail. The name on it was Cheyenne. Thats odd. Its not a really common name.
The new girl on my floor is behind her door, asserting her existence, loudly on the phone. "Roses?!" I have no idea who this person is or what she is like. I approve of how shes carried on, as a tenant. She has a little dog and maybe a bf. I just want her to be NORMAL. that is all i ask.
Got things to do, but no great worries on the agenda. Maybe get pants, maybe not. I might reduce my c-club associations down to 3 fairly good pals, and maybe 3 subscrips. More of the teenies would go. Like me when i started, they seem to think LJ is a dating site. Would be too sad to observe them getting more and more disappointed and bored. Jaded. In spades. Like me.
Like me.
10p - i gotta tells ya. My van runs amazingly now. Smooth. Immediate pickup. Zero to 60. Like a new race car. Boggles the mind. They never fixed the actual problem. But they clearly did some extra stuff for me, just to be nice. I did perceive that the guy in charge of my van was a Christian. Sometimes it is obvious. He was very nice. In contrast to all the partisan female hate i have been getting, so obscene. But thank god there are still real christians in this world. Puzzling tho. Puzzling evidence.
- my LJ professional package expires
- my ranking goes from 38 to 45
- btripp resumes activity after a year. Maybe he IS a fed.
- presidents day, third in a 3day weekend
- hits from OR and WA.
- open fonly letter telling colorado club i am not crushing on them
- informal "reunion" with annie and tanya
- a night of wine wherein i make little post referring to anon "wonderful *itch"
- asked red to add me back so she can read about tanya!
- the joker subscribes
- posted jung and mx videos
- my bro responds childishly
Just for the record.
730a - it is random acts of kindness day, not random mess with peoples minds day. I knew if i posted video on cold-shouldering people they would pull it on me. Impressionable and immature. Today is also MARDI GRAS! maybe i will wear a mask. I also have a kitty ears headband.
Noon - there was a hospital wrist band lying by the mail. The name on it was Cheyenne. Thats odd. Its not a really common name.
The new girl on my floor is behind her door, asserting her existence, loudly on the phone. "Roses?!" I have no idea who this person is or what she is like. I approve of how shes carried on, as a tenant. She has a little dog and maybe a bf. I just want her to be NORMAL. that is all i ask.
Got things to do, but no great worries on the agenda. Maybe get pants, maybe not. I might reduce my c-club associations down to 3 fairly good pals, and maybe 3 subscrips. More of the teenies would go. Like me when i started, they seem to think LJ is a dating site. Would be too sad to observe them getting more and more disappointed and bored. Jaded. In spades. Like me.
Like me.
10p - i gotta tells ya. My van runs amazingly now. Smooth. Immediate pickup. Zero to 60. Like a new race car. Boggles the mind. They never fixed the actual problem. But they clearly did some extra stuff for me, just to be nice. I did perceive that the guy in charge of my van was a Christian. Sometimes it is obvious. He was very nice. In contrast to all the partisan female hate i have been getting, so obscene. But thank god there are still real christians in this world. Puzzling tho. Puzzling evidence.
OMG this is making me laugh so bad!
"And they HATE that!"
"And they HATE that!"
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I was only gone for an hour but i had fun today, talking and laughing with people!
I was only gone for an hour but i had fun today, talking and laughing with people!
I have personally found this to be true.
This video is both meaty and not, fulfilling and lacking. But it is great in that it connects Jungs ideas to todays understanding of quantum consciousness. Which is a primary topic i have been writing about. But now it seems that so many pop thinkers have caught up to me, i might as well die now, hey. Having never had the love of my life.
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This video is both meaty and not, fulfilling and lacking. But it is great in that it connects Jungs ideas to todays understanding of quantum consciousness. Which is a primary topic i have been writing about. But now it seems that so many pop thinkers have caught up to me, i might as well die now, hey. Having never had the love of my life.
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