Of Hopes and Dreams

Hi journal. Haha it has been 4 years since i last wrote. Wow. Time truly flies. Sorry to say but i actually have forgotten about this space. I wished i wrote something about Mika’s birth here so i can look back someday.

I just read my old journal during high school. So glad i have it online haha. Malu nak baca sebab aduhai childishnya la perangai 😂 but so glad to meet my old self. I cant believe i kept telling myself to study then. And so semangat pulak tu. I did it once. I’m sure i can do it again. Well, actually i did it many times haha. Spm. Matrics. Med school. Part 1 mrcog. 🤭

Ntahlah. How to summarise 4 years into 1 entry. Dah la pelupa huhu haih should have written more la over the years. I’ll try to write more in this decade so i can read again some day when i need the motivation hehe.

Its my 10th year of marriage this year Haha. Congratulation to us! ❤🧁

Marisse is 9 years old this year. Shes brilliant and such a loving girl. Still non verbal though hehe. Amie pray someday u will be able to tell me verbally things that u want Isse. So that life is easier for you. I love you forever. No matter what.

Mika is going to be 3 this year. Time really2 flies. Cant believe i did not write a single thing. Maybe because life has been good. I almost always come back here when I’m depressed and dont have anyone to talk to. Kept the pregnancy a secret to a lot of people haha did not even tell anyone until Mika’s day 7 of life. Hehe Amie love you forever too Shahzad Mikael Mikaboy Amie. He is truly mommy’s boy . I see so much of my perangai in him. 😅 Breastfed exclusively from day 1. Till now haha. Bila laa nak wean off adikkk?. Soon nak pergi playschool dah baby Amie.

Supposed to take my part 2 nrcog exam today in HK. But because of the nCov outbreak did not dare to take the risk and travel to HK. Its ok. Like along says. Its a blessing in disguise. HAHA. Will take it in July later.

Oklah. I think thats it for now. Will write more nanti.

Goodnight!

hello

good to be back. hehe. i write once a year. at least hehe. im kind of glad that i have been writing when i was in kemaman so i can laways read back and remember some of the things that happened then. life is ok now i guess. im back in kl with my family. work as been comfortable so far.

but.. our house was broke in 4 days ago. while my husband was away in doha. havent been back yet as my husband will only arrive tomorrow at noon. i dont know whether i can feel safe in my own house later. we need to have everything fixed and the locks change before we can move back in. alhamdulillah marisse and i is at my mom’s place when that happened. thats all that matter. other things money can buy.

i really wished this year will be better for marisse and our family. insha Allah.

Angah rindu la. We r all doing well and healthy. U dont hv to worry.
We will meet again insyaAllah
Love u pa. Miss u.

I think im trying to destroy my body n brain. Wth with sleeping late every night ?

Sometimes i wish i am doing something else.

gahhhhh

Goodmorning!

I hv been feeling  so annoyed these past few days haha due to many reason. But hopefully today will be good. My first day at a new ward or smtg like that.

Rabbi yassir wala tuassir.

Hv fun Munie !

Hello

time for an update i think hehe Alhamdulillah we have been back home for 6 months now. exactly 6 months tomorrow. what can i say hehe its really good to be back and be near family. work has been good as well. 🙂 alhamdulillah for everything

the only thing to be done now is to lose some weight. some 20kg weight HAHA

well lets really start now shall we? 😀

till then byeeeee

Husband went back to kl at midnight
Time to be independent again after 3 weeks. Tetiba rasa mcm sedih sgt td masa hantar dia. Sedih sbb marisse dah pandai manja ngn daddy. Td dia pon mcm pelik nape daddy takde. 😦 ya Allah kau lindungilah suami ku di mana saja dia berada. Permudahkan lah urusannya.

Stay strong munie
InsyaAllah we will go home soon Isse. Then we will all be together again

Why am I always angry?

Anddddd we’re still here haha no suprise there.

Cant wait to finally be able to go homw for good.

Whatever it is Alhamdulillah for everything. 🙂

Marisse dah tido ami boring pulak. Kesian daddy missing his daughter so much. We’ll be home soon daddy insyaAllah very soon. Pls make doa for us yea. :)) tq!