I loathe ‘tooting my own horn’.  Yuck.  *blergh*

I am really good at pointing out all the things I do wrong or see that are wrong on me but I am pretty oblivious to my good points, if they are there.  This creates some stife in parts of my life but so far that is how I continue to plod along.

Right now I am in the midst of cover letter writing and it is making me nutty.  I stare at the screen trying to figure out how to say something truthful but also something that doesn’t make me either shudder in anxiety or barf all over my keyboard.  All this looking for good keeps me up at night.

I guess looking at unemployment isn’t helping either.

We’ve had a rather dreary, cold spring this year and it’s only in the last week that colour has come to the garden, including a wee friend in the Rhodo.

I finally entered the new (old) world….

Heh

Travelling has changed for me.

I used to look the  things up I wanted to do and see, read about the area and find blogs of people who had been before.  The more I poked about and learned the more I would find myself excited.  I’d write lists of sites and places.  I’d mark them on maps.  I read their histories.  I’d tell people of the things I might be seeing soon.

Now?  Now I am bogged down by trying to make sure I can eat something more than fruit and veg.  I look for celiacs who blog from the area.  I look at sites like Urbanspoon.com and glutenfreeregistry.com, read reviews and makes lists.

It seems quite similar, all that reading and research, but I find it tiring and joy sucking.  It’s hard to explain what it is, I am not sure I have figured it out, and it makes me want to easy travel if I am going to travel; just keep visiting the same places and restaurants so that minimal food planning is involved.

It’s weird.  We all have to eat and a lot of the time myself and friends all plan on certain foods or restaurants if we are going somewhere.  That felt normal.  This new food planning feels like it is a chore.

Spring is here and I really want to putter in the garden.  I see the pruning and weeding and tidying that is there to do but finding time isn’t always easy.

Sure the days are lighter at the end now but the darned rain thwarts me.  So does the time exercising!  Oh, and having a gimpy shoulder and wonky toe.

*whine*

The prediction this weekend is for sun and I will be keeping my fingers crossed and my pruning shears at hand.

Our tub’s seal has cracked and we are having to strip it, clean it and reseal it.  A bit time consuming but not a huge deal as we have a second shower.

We bought some silicone, in almond, to reseal the tub.

After scraping and picking and razoring there is still bits of silicone that will not come off and it is making me crazy as I want the new silicone to completely seal when we apply it.

So I went to the hardware store and bought some goo: Silicone-be-Gone.

All I see when I look at the bottle is Caulk-be-Gone….and I snigger.

(It’s a real product!  *SNIGGER*)

You know what’s funny?  Celebrating someone’s lack of sex, having a full on party with champagne and celebrating the end of a terrible relationship.  I enjoy the twisted humour or my friends.

trying to be positive!  Sheesh.  It isn’t natural to me so I struggle and then I feel like I better not write about that because it isn’t positive and then I get irritated with myself and on it goes.

So, whatever…I’m just going to blather on about what I want.

So there…nerrrr.

Oh that’s better!